As the wind soared through his hair, he felt an overarching calming going through his body, the hair on his arms, head, and legs all flew in an upwards motion. The 800+ feet distance to the river below felt almost to take hours. The calmness was the best feeling he had ever felt. He didn’t have to worry about anything else. It was truly a great nothingness he could go into.
As the water rushed into his face, he remembered the briefest sound of smacking the water before everything went dark. To a normal person, that was it, lights out and the show is over, but, when he woke up on the side of a shallow creek bed, his clothing wet, heavy, and torn from the water, he knew that was not the case.
The initial confusion when he woke up, almost made him feel like he was lost on another pill bender. He hadn’t been on a bender in so long, but the feeling of lost and weary was a familiar one to him. It wasn’t until he climbed from the creek onto the bank of sand, mud, and dirt that he quickly remembered. This wasn’t a dream, this wasn’t a bender, he had just tried to kill himself and survived a fall from the New River Gorge Bridge.
His mind would race for several hours. What was going on? What happened? Why was he not died? He didn’t want to even think about the possibilities. Surely, all that happened was that he hit the water, went unconscious and then just washed up on shore next to the Gorge, right? He sat on the bank for a little while just contemplating what happened. Taking in stock of what he had just done and the consequences, or lack thereof, that would follow his trip off the Gorge.
He remembered everything up to that point of impact, but he couldn’t think of any reason for why he was here. He would sit on the shore for a few hours before making the long hike to find a road. He would continue to move through the brush of the backwoods, looking for someone, anyone to help out until he happened upon a house in the hollers of West Virginia.