ROLEPLAY HQ - forever-and-always

TW: mentions divorce, fighting, shouting, arguing, thearpy, crying, deep feelings, deep conversations, threatening of divorce, heavily emploed fertility issues . More to be added (edited)

Till death do us part, that is the promise Zéphyrine made at the alter, infront of all their friends and family, on her wedding day. A promise that made her feel as if all her hopes and dreams would come true, and it made her excited. Excited to live, excited to breath, excited to just be with the man she loved, and just be happy. Their wedding was her dream, she couldn't imagine a better and perfect life. But that was 5 years ago. Now, Zéphyrine couldn't remeber why she married him. They fought every day, about the smallest of things, that didn't even matter. They shouted at each other, spouting hateful and hurtful things towards each other. It has gotten to the point that they now are living in separate bedrooms, he stayed in the guest room, while she stayed in the master bedroom. Their life was a mess, and she was so done with it all. She had given up everything for him. Her dream job, her status as the best lawyer in new york, her home in Brooklyn. She gave it all up to marry him, and now their marriage was failing, and she had no idea what to do from here, she had completely given up. But for some odd reason her husband had convinced her to come to marriage counseling with him. So that's where they were now, sitting on opposite sides of the couch, in silence, she glared at the floor, ready to go home and get back to her work. She couldn't believe they were there, their hour session was finally coming to a close and so far all they have done is scream at each other. She was starting to lose hope again. Their therapist Dr picani smiled softly. "I know you both feel, as if the marriage is already over. Done, washed away, not worth it. But I'm here to let you know, it is worth it. This is just a small bump in the road, and I am going to help you both rekindle your love." He said softly, carefully giving them both notebooks. "These notebooks, I want you both to document your journey, wrote love letters to each other, write love letters to the past you,

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the future you. This will give you a chance to stop, and reflect about your life.'He explained with a kind smiled. "Your homework, this week, I want you both to write a love letter to your past spouse. So (your oc) I want you to write a letter to the Zéphyrine you married. And Zéphyrine I want you to write a letter to the (your oc) you married." He explained before dismissing them. Zéphyrine looked to her husband, she had a look of sadness. "I'll do it if he does." She replied @SnoopyThePug

Eric didn't know how he would feel about being in therapy, but also a part of him was wanting to fix their relationship for sure. Once hearing about the journals he didn't know what to expect. "Yeah I'll do it if you do it." Eric responded seeing his wife look upset. Grabbing the notebook he would flip through the blank pages thinking about how would this fix their marriage. Eric would just be quiet through the rest of the session since he didn't want to talk one bit. For being anxious, and also scared a little bit of him wanted to be back with Zéphyrine, and not fighting one single bit. A day goes by, as he sits down at there home and starts to write in the journal. 'Hey babe! Wanted to write you this letter because I miss you and I miss our time together. Ever since you took that new position of being a lawyer things haven't been the same and it scares me. We don't have date nights anymore, you get stressed out so much now that you yell at me, and we argue. Things haven't been the same, and I know I can't just erase it from memory. Even though I don't act like it, but I will always love you and be here for you, even if it means now getting separated.... From Your loving husband Eric.' He wrote in his journal privately, as he was tearing up a little. @dead by ken light

Once at home, Zéphyrine laid in bed looking out the window to watch the sun start to set. She wasn't sure what she was going to write, it had been so long since the two of them had been happy she couldn't remember what it was like for them to be back in college. But she figured if she wanted their marriage to get better, would also need to put in the work, and not let Eric do it alone. Sitting up she sighed heavily, carefully grabbing the journal she was given, carefully opening it to the first page as she began to write, letting the words flow through the pen. “Hey Eri, I know we haven't been the happiest couple as of lately. And I am sorry. When we first got married you asked my to quit my job so we could make a family, and i was completely okay with that, but with the realization of that dream not becoming a reality, i took the new position as the head Lawyer at my law firm to try and ~~hide from that reality~~ becoming the successful person you need. In college you were and still are my rock, the person I will learn too. I'm not sure why all of this suddenly changed, I feel as if I can't keep up with your expectations on what a good wife is. It's been 5 years, and I feel like I am constantly failing you….maybe I am, i shout, nag and be little you. I don't know what to do Eric, I feel lost, but I can't tell you any of this, because you will ask to hold me while we cry and talk and I don't deserve that. I keep things from you, so why would you give me time to grieve and mourn the loss of our dreams with you, when I don't even allow you into my own past? But if i'm being honest, i don't want to lose you Eric, you are and will forever be my soulmate. If I build up the courage to give you this notebook I want you to see how much you actually mean to me. I love you Eric so much…don't give up on me. The next morning after she arrived home from her morning Jog she saw Eric writing in his journal. "Hey…want some breakfast?" She asked, walking into the kitchen, ge

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ng ingredients for her protein shake. She looked a bit pale, her eyes puffy and red. "Did we get any mail, remember if it's from someone named Phanessa it goes into the trash." She called to him, setting the ingredients on the counter before she got the toaster @SnoopyThePug

Eric would jump a little, not noticing that she was home from her jog. "Yeah, that sounds fun. Luckily, we didn't get any of Phanessa mail don't worry." He replied to her. He would then noticed how pale she was, and how puffy her eyes were. He would then connect the dots figuring out that she was crying from the journal maybe. "Can I just say something? At counseling before he gave us the assignment, you mentioned how I asked you to quit your job, so we can start a family. Back then I was scared.... Scared too loose you in anyway really. I know you love your job so much that I was scared that you would be so focused on work that we wouldn't have anytime together. I was so focused on myself that I never got to say that I'm very proud of you for what you'd accomplished." He said to her making sure she knew there was still of the old Eric she knew in him. "Anyways, here let me help out." He then commented, standing up and walking to the fridge. Opening it up, as he grabs the eggs, and bacon that they had. "Want scramble eggs or regular?" Eric asked Zéphyrine to see what she would want. He knew she had been working out a lot more, which mean she would probably want something specific. "Maybe I could join you on your jogs. I've been needing to loose weight, and thought it would be fun to join you." He suggested thinking it would be a fun activity to bond together again. @dead by ken light

Zéphyrine stopped to listen to Erik, she wasn't good with emotions, never has. So when Erik stopped her to talk about their counseling, all she could do was stand there and look at him, giving an awkward nod. But when he said he was proud of her she couldn't help but look completely shocked. "You...hadn't told me that in a while." She admitted as they walked into the kitchen together, frowning softly as she looked at him. She looked at him as if he was sick. "Yeah, scrambled is fine ." She replied, carefullt getting thr toaster out. She couldn't help but frown he has never wanted to go on a Jog. "Erik, I don't Jog to lose weight, if you want to lose weight I can't help you there. I Jog to relax and to think but if you like to join sure." She replied, walking over to the laundry room to grab a sweater. She carefully put on a hoodie , before walking back into the kitchen to make their toast. "As for my job, I'm lucky I was able to find one before my license expired Erik, that is a fact. Next time please just tell me, not beg me to stay home." She tired not to be bitter, she really did try, but it was hard. @SnoopyThePug

Eric would stay quiet listening to her, and making sure he understands her. "I've always been proud of you Zéphyrine. Even when I don't show it I always am. It's fine with jogging then I don't wanna ruin your time to relax..." He said cracking eggs into a bowl, and starts to mix them. Eric would then pour the eggs on the pan that was on the stove, and starts to cook. He would then watch her grab a hoodie, as he smiles since it was actually one his old hoodies that she stole. Eric loved everything about Zéphyrine how she acted, to where she can be the best worker ever. Though, he hated that after 5 years she was still keeping secrets from him, and not talking about her past. It was fine to him, but it was getting to a point where he wanted to know who was Zéphyrine before he met her. Eric would then finish cooking the eggs, as he hears Zéphyrine start to be bitter with him again. "I.... I understand what I've said. You know with my autism I couldn't think straight and all I was thinking about is how can I not loose the love of my life." He spoked back to her which was hard enough. It didn't sound mean, as it sounded like he was scared to loose someone. In this relationship it was more she was the tough one. @dead by ken light

Zéphyrine gave a small sigh, as she looked at their plates, being very careful at how she made Eric's, knowing how he liked it. "I know Eric, I know." She sighed, carefully giving him his plate so he could put the eggs on it. "I know you don't want to lose me, but we could of talked about it, before you had panicked on me, making me feel like I had too." She sighed, carefully picking up the house phone to see if there was any messages for her. Her face darkened as she began to delete some. "I thought we blocked this number." She huffed carefully putting the phone back, before she held her head trying to take a deep breath. If Eric looked at her Closely he could see her hands were trembling ever so slightly. "Okay, let's...start the morning over. The Doctor wanted us to try, so let's try." She replied moving her hands from her head as she faced him. "Eric, what would you like to drink this morning? Amd how did you rest?" @SnoopyThePug

Eric would watch her pick up the phone and noticed something. "I made sure I did?" He replied ever so confused, as he noticed her hands trembling. He would think of what to do. He would then look at her seeing she was trying to keep it together. "Im good thanks. I slept well." He replies to her question. He couldn't help, but watch her hands. "Zéph you ok?" He would then ask being a bit worried about her. He hadn't seen her hands shake like that in awhile. @dead by ken light

She sighed heavily, she wanted to tell him she didn't want to talk about it, but she promised to try and be more opened. So she was going to try her best. "Not really Eri, I want mt past to stop haunting me, but no matter what I do it keeps coming back." She admitted, sitting next to him sadly. "Im not ready to go into all the details about the past, and I'm not sure when I will be able too. But all I can day is...I'm scared. She said looking at him, she was being very vulnerable in that moment, something she hadn't been infront of him in a long time. "I didn't want to admit it, but i am, I just want the past to leave me alone ." @SnoopyThePug

Eric knew this was bothering her. He would then grab her hand and smile. "Hey your safe. Its ok you don't have to tell me anything." He said, smiling softly as he goes and hugs her close. He knew she needed this from whatever is happening. "When your ready im here to listen. For now I'll keep you safe." He said holding her close wanting to give her comfort. He really liked this, because he was seeing the part of Zéphyrine that he hadn't seen in a very long time. @dead by ken light

She carefully rested her head Against his chest, before wrapping her arms around him nodding. She definitely needed this. She couldn't remeber the last time he held her like this, she missed it. "Thanks Eric, I trust and believe you, thank you." She stayed in his arms for a while, trying to keep herself calm. Thankfully after a few minutes, she was able to let him go. "Thank you, do you have any plans for today?" She asked looking at him with a small smile. "I don't have work, we can have a bonding day if you'd like." @SnoopyThePug

Feeling the warmth of her was something he really missed. "Of course." He said, rubbing his hand on her back softly giving her comfort. He would smile softly loving this way too much really. Seeing her let go He would also let go and look at her. "I actually don't have any plans. My plan was too write in the journal, but I rather be with you more then the journal right now." He said smiling. "Yeah I would love to have a bonding day. Plus haven't seen you be so cute in forever." He admitted with a little bit of teasing her. @dead by ken light

She gave him a small smile as she sat up. "Okay. Well why don't you pick what we do today then?" She offered, wanting to make sure he was comfortable with what they do. "I'm down for anything, why don't we do some of your hobbies? You haven't done them in a while I bet it will be fun." She carefully moved their breakfast closer to then so they could begin to eat, "it's supose to rain later on, with a chance of storms, so I'd like to stay in if all possible ." She hummed. She had a huge fear of storms, ever since they got married they made her very uncomfortable and very scared. @SnoopyThePug

Eric smiled seeing her suggest he should pick what they should do. "Well I haven't been able to draw in awhile. Though that isn't something we can both do." He said thinking of what they should do together. Eric really liked that she was eating next to him, as it feel like things were coming back together. "Well when the storms start ill make sure to get your favorite blanket and we can cuddle together and watch a movie then." He said knowing her fear too well. "Hey how about we dress into nice stuff and just play boardgames or something. It's been awhile since I've saw you dress really pretty. And no going to work and therapy doesn't count." He said eating his breakfast with her. @dead by ken light

Zéphyrine paused, his words had hurt her a bit. "Eric, that wasn't kind at all." She said standing up to put her finished plate in the dish washer. "I dress up every day for work, so aprenetly I'm not pretty?" She asked looking at him. "I'd rather face the stork alone if your going to say things like that." She carefully grabbed her phone and walked away from hi,m letting a tear fall, she wasn't in the mood and that comment had hurt her alot.. @SnoopyThePug

"Wait, wait, no that's not what I-" He tried to explain before she walked away. "Stupid, stupid me. Why did I say it like that!" He said to himself feeling awful. He knew she was already going through a ton of shit. Eric would then sit there and just watch what she was doing on the phone. He just didn't want to say anything else for the rest of the day now for something he miss said. He would then move and sit on the couch in the Livingroom being his silent self, as his anxiety was taking over him, feeling ashamed and upset at himself. @dead by ken light

Zeph carefully returned from her bedroom dressed in a pair of sweats, not feeling like dressing up. She gave Eric his blanket before she sat on the other chair looking at him. "You can pick the first Game, I don't mind." She still was very hurt by his words, but chose to not react to it again, choosing to stay calm as she looked at Eric. "I'll put on your favorite movie, is that okay?" She asked him, softly. Watching him for a long moment. She knew she had upset him, but she didn't know how to deal with both of their emotions at the moment, so she just stayed silent watching him. @SnoopyThePug

would see Zéphyrine sitting on the other chair, as he holds the blanket which she gave him. "I didn't mean to say it like that.... I mean to say was dress whatever you want and you'll still look really attractive to me...." He explains looking at her. "Can we watch (Zéphyrine favorite movie) instead?" He asked, hoping this would cheer both of them up.

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sat there all nervous not know how she was gonna react. He just wanted this day to be a perfect day between the two of them. Wanting to fix their love and happiness together. He would do anything now to have a special moment with her again. @dead by ken light

"No Eric, you pick. I picked the last time we watched the movie." She said softly, carefully placing the remote on his chair. "I'm sorry for getting upset, I guess I've not been feeling very beautiful lately, and your words just made me feel a bit worse. Even if you didn't mean it I took it wrong." She explained. Carefully putting the blanket over her lap, as she looked to Erik. She wasn't good with emotions, she really wished she was, but she wasn't. She missed how they use to be in college, she just didn't know what to do to get back to that. "Hey, remeber how you would play with my hair when you were anxious, and you always came up with new and cool braids....can you do that again? " She asked softly, giving him a change for trust. "If you promise not to give me goose bumps I'll sit infront of you?" She teased. @SnoopyThePug

Eric would look at Zéphyrine hearing her speak to him. "It's ok really. Here let me pick." He picked up the remote and looks at what movies were available. He would then pick a very cheesy comedy movie, as he couldn't help it and love them. Luckily He was calming down, so he wasn't, as nervous, as before. For once he can finally have a soft smile. "Huh, oh uh sure. I can do that again. You always loved how good I was braiding hair." He replied smiling softly seeing her slowly open back up again. He would then chuckle hearing her little teasing comment. "I won't I promise. Though you did act really cute when you jumped." He said, as he couldn't help, but chuckle a little. He would then wait for Zéphyrine to come and sit in front of him, so he could braid her hair like she asked. He was somewhat excited to do this really. Being able to do something that they haven't done in a very long time. Little oh Eric was just happy to gain some of her trust back no matter what really. @dead by ken light

Zéphyrine hummed softly, closing her eyes while Eric ran his fingers through her hair. Letting him braid her hair, she couldn't help but think about their college days. Back when they had no worries, no huge responsibilities, she couldn't help but long for those days. But she knew it was no use, they were adults and they needed to continue their responsibilities. As he braided her hair, she would begin to speak. "Before we met in college, I used to live in Egypt." She would suddenly tell him, keeping her eyes closed as she talked with him. "I lived there from the age of seven till I was a sophomore in highschool. Those were the best and worst times in my life. " she sighed softly as she hugged herself, leaning further back against the his legs "I'm sorry I don't talk about my past Eric, it isn't something I want to remember or talk about. But I will try my best, with the counseling maybe I will be comfortable enough to talk about it." She said slowly, turning to look at Eric. "And I will try to be more open to talking about it. Maybe the counselor has some ideas on how to make it less scary to talk about." @SnoopyThePug

Listening to what Zéphyrine was saying he finishes her hair. Not wanting to interrupt her he listens. Talking about Egypt and where she was from, he smiles. He would wrap his hands around her and grab hers, making him hug her from behind. "It's ok. When you're ready you can tell me all about it. We all have bumps in life, and we'll fix them when the time comes. I always love you, and I'm never gonna stop loving you ok? No matter what you did, or what happened in your past. You're here now with me. I may not be the best, but I'm trying because I wanna fix things." Eric would say softly holding her close. He knew the best way to show his love and support was with hugging and support. @dead by ken light

Zeph hummed softly listening to Eric, giving him a soft smile. she carefully looked back at him and nodded. “And I am really happy Eric, thank you for helping me, and being patient as you can be. I know it isn't easy. me not opening up about my past, but i know with a few more therapy sessions i will be able to feel comfortable enough to talk about all that has happened to me. and i really do appreciate it.” she whispered, carefully leaning back against his legs closing her eyes. “the therapist said we should try and go on little dates, what do you think we should do first?” she asked softly, she carefully held his hand,gently kissing the top of it, making sure he knew she was open and willing to do anything within reason. “We could go to the movies, or go to the lake.” she offered, giving some options in case he was overwhelmed by having to make a choice.”what do you think?” @SnoopyThePug