
They always describe these things as a blur, as the passion overwhelming you as if sweeping you away on a flood. I remember everything though. Every little look you gave me, how you would gently run your hand through my hair when the music slowed down, how closely you came to talk in my ear with the scent of alcohol wafting to my nose as you made sure I heard you. I sure as hell pulled out all the stops, every trick I had in my book to impress you that night. Whatever the song we were out there in the middle of the floor, bouncing with the beat, gyrating with the melody, always as close as possible, always making sure we could feel each other. It was wonderful. I had always loved dancing, but now it was something more, it was our connection to each other. Each step that I led you through, every move that I supported you for, every time I got to show you off to everyone felt absolutely magical, like electricity coursing through my skin. You even made sure it wasn’t about you, pausing as you spun away from me to give me a chance to have my own little solo, to show you and everyone else exactly what my hips could do, just how intricately I could step. It was like the perfect conversation, each move a question to learn about each other, every shake of our heads and sultry look a promise, and every touch an affirmation of the passion we held for each other.
I wished it had ended there.
We had too much of a connection though to let things end there. Soon enough dancing was no longer enough for us, and we pulled each other to some secluded hallway in the club our hands roaming each other as we made our way over. That’s the one thing that I can’t remember, which one of us initiated, or if it had been by some unspoken mutual agreement that fervently made us seek each other in a more intimate way. I can certainly remember that there was no further talking as our lips eagerly met each other, colliding with lust as our tongues immediately intertwined. We broke apart and came back together so many times, our panting and gasping forcing our lips apart, though another type of need brought them back as quickly as possible. The music of the club still carried over to where we were, our hearts beating just as loudly, but your moans of pleasure at my touch, how I gripped your thigh and brought you to me, even as I used my weight to pin you to the wall and force you to feel me, especially the part of me that ached to enter you, so insistently pushing towards your entrance. I was certain that everyone nearby could hear my gasp as you broke our kiss to run your teeth down my neck, forcing my head back so you could nibble and lick at my chest, making me cry out in pleasure at your need to taste me, to have me. Oh and your hands, the way they never ceased to caress my body as if you could commit my entire form to memory through touch alone, that you could claim my self and turn it to only desiring you. At times I certainly think you did. Late at night.
The fire you lit in me then called to be quenched, the taste of your lips on mine demanding I give in to the searing sensation that ran all along my body. I began to move my hand up, coming up under your dress, finding that you were bare there as if you had been planning this all along, that we had been destined to be there embracing each other in every way we could. My other hand gently stroked your face, the simple desire for our connection making me want something softer also. The way you nuzzled me back, cooing as I caressed your cheek gave me all the certainty I needed, all the confidence I possessed welling up in me, as I came in closer to ask if you were ready, to know if you needed me inside you just as much as I did. The ringing of your phone threatened to break the moment, even as I persisted, the burning sensation spreading lower from my stomach erasing all other concerns from my mind. Not from yours though. You pushed me away, not unkindly, but hurriedly as you reached to answer your phone. I stepped away, certainly disappointed, but sure that what we had would return in just a moment, that nothing would drag you away from me right then. As I closed my eyes for the briefest of moments, simply trying to recenter myself, I heard the earth-shattering words. A simple “bye” delivered with what must have been sympathy, must have been a tinge of regret. That is hard for me to remember. My own shock, which quickly turned to bitterness, tinging that moment forever in my mind. I hadn’t talked to you since. Maybe if I had been faster I could have called out to you, asked for your number, for any way to reach you. I simply stood there though, feeling as if the world had fallen out from under me.
A stronger man would have simply tried again and perhaps that’s what coming back here had been at first. After a month passed however, I certainly proved myself no strong person, letting my feelings of our moment turn to an angry bitterness, resenting what you had shown and taken from me rather than simply treasuring what we had at that moment. So instead even after I did see you here again, I simply stood by feeling as if you had to come to me as if you owed me something you had never promised.
Maybe tonight will be different though. Maybe I can finally just walk down to you and say how much I missed you, how much I had wanted to see you, to speak to you this entire time. Downing my drink I march down to the bar seeing if the proximity to the dance floor will finally get me to do what I should have done this entire time.
Being back here, doing this with her, made this last month worth it, all the angst burned away in this moment of sheer delight, Liam and Marissa coming together and letting their bodies mesh when the music turned slower and energetically twirling each other when the tempo increased. Every touch they shared made his skin tingle, each move that she smiled at lit a fire in his stomach, and the times they came together Liam almost refused to let go, even as the dance demanded it. This is what he had wanted all this time, the connection they had shared coming back as if it had never left. Feeling emboldened by the drink in his system and captivated by Marissa’s beauty Liam couldn’t help but lean in for a kiss as the latest song ended.

