ROLEPLAY HQ - betrayed-and-abandoned

For 400 years, Kazue had served the same family. Despite her being a Kitsune spirit, she had been loyal to them, guiding them. Within just a few generations she had brought them from a simple family of farmer’s to the noble rings of the city. She had watched them grow and triumph. In return for her support she had received love back from them. Her shrine within the family home had grown from a small altar to a beautiful space within their garden. She was proud of what she did and for her, this was enough. But this changed when one small baby boy was born into this family. His name was Habiki. She watched as he grew from a small boy into a man that longed for power. He was determined and strongheaded. It didn’t take him long to take over as the head of the family and by his 40th year he was guiding the family towards the greatest wealth they had ever been at. But his greed corrupted him. He always wanted more, never pleased with what he had. Multiple times he would come and plead with her at the shrine, wanting her guidance on how to get them further. She tried to nudge him in the right direction, letting him know he should let his greed go. But he continued. Yet the pleading continued. Even when she gave in and helped him achieve what he wanted he was back the next day wanting more. So one day she appeared before him in her actual form to tell him that she would no longer support his greed. That he had to change his ways if he wanted her support. His answer to this was someting she did not suspect. He demanded her to obey him as she was bound to him. When she refused he swore to destroy her for her disobedience and took a hammer to her shrine. Breaking the shrine, broke her ties to the house. In fear of her life she fled into the forest around the city. Not wanting to be far away from the family, but afraid to get closer to them, that is where she stayed. Over time her powers faded and she grew weak. Stuck between her fear and the need to be loved. These days the forest is known for being haunted. People claim to see strange figures walking one moment and disappearing the next, hearing strange noises and other strange occurances.

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(Sooo! This is more of a history then an actual starter, but I am bad at starters soo!

I would love to do an RP with this OC of mine Kazue. She is a Kitsune who got abandoned by her family. She spends her time now in a forest, playing tricks on people. She is afraid to come get close to others, yet graves their attention. She can shapeshift and can manipulate energy (Flames, thunder, etc.). This plot could go a lot of ways. It could be a romance between a human and a spirit. Or she could be claimed by another family and get her revenge/help them grow. Just let me know what you think :D)

@Naka in Wonderland May I DM you about this?

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@Naka in Wonderland May I DM you about this?

Yes ^^

should I start in here?

08:56

I finish up the hike to my new home, my duffel in hand as I climb up the steps. A light sheen of sweat on my neck as I breathe in the country air, with a light smile. "I think I might actually enjoy my time here..." Walking into the front door I set my bags down, eager to look around "Huh... surprisingly well kept for what they said was abandoned..." My boots thud on the wooden floors as I explore the beautiful house

Kazue awoke when the forest did. The first rays of sunlight had just started to dance through the forests room and the first birds had started it’s morning song. It was quiet.. Kazue liked the quiet. She had not always wanted to be alone, but if she had learned one thing in her long life, it was that humans could not be trusted. Other spirits? She just didn’t prefer them. She stretched out her long fair limbs, her tails dancing around her body in an almost weightless manner. She marveled in the morning sun, welcoming the warm rays into her skin and breathed out a long breath. But that quiet that she loved so much was soon disturbed. Her ears went into the air as she noticed the change in sound. The movement of boots.. of human feet. When she thought she had misheard her suspicion was only confirmed as the sound of the human’s voice reached her. Her eyebrows knitted together as she moved shiftly thought the tree’s. As a spirit she was able to give herself shape however she liked, shifting through the trees almost weightless till she got close to him. From the darkness of the tree tops she looked upon the human that had entered her forest. Not only had he entered it.. he had taken his things with him.

@StroopWaffle

I continue the exploration of my new home, walking through the different rooms. My thoughts filled with excitement over this new period in my life... as well as the beautiful new house to accompany it 'oooh, nice kitchen... a den and a parlor? damn this place is classy...' I finish up my tour at the back door. My lips curling into a smile as I breathe in the rich forest air, and sigh to myself "It'll take a bit of dusting.. and maybe a few repairs... but I'll take good care of ya, I promise" patting the wooden beam I'm leaning on with a chuckle, I cross my scarred arms, countless nicks and cuts marking them, and nod to myself more than anything else. 'yup.... New life... out of the military... I have no idea what to occupy myself with...' Chuckling I sit down, simply taking in the beauty of the nature surrounding me "Home sweet home I guess.."

@Naka in Wonderland

He was not the first human to attempt and make his home in her forest. There had been others before him and she had made quick work in getting rid of them. The moment their doors started to slam closed by sudden gusts of wind and their house was surrounded by hushed whispers in a language they did not understand, usually they moved away soon. Though this human looked different. She took in his features, seeing the marks on his body that told about battle. About harsh ships and perhaps war. Perhaps this one would not be as easily scared as the others. But she sure as hell was going to try. Even now as he sat down at the front of the house she made the sudden wind blow past him and slam the door closed behind him. The lock falling in place as she had willed it to do so. The human would easily gain acces to his home again, but at least it would count as a very eerie experience for him. She herself still remained in the shadows, watching his reactions. @StroopWaffle

I sit outside pondering my new life before hearing a slam from behind me. My instincts screaming as I spin around and pull out my... I dont have my gun on me right now... Shit, it was just the door anyway. Walking up to it, I try to open it I find the door... Locked? "Hell, I guess its a good thing I got that spare key.." unlocking the door I head back inside to unpack. The rest of my day is spent putting up my stuff, cleaning and making what small repairs I can. Little inconveniences hounding me with whatever I do. Missing tools, untied laces and stubbed toes abound... What the fuck is going on? At the end of the day, I sit back on my couch, and sigh my shoulders aching from the long day of work. "alright, this house is cursed... Great job Rev... You bought a cursed house with what was left of the majority of your pension..." I mumble ardently to myself

@Naka in Wonderland

As she watched him fumble with his keys she couldn’t help but chuckle at the discomfort of the human. She liked games like this. They were easy to tease, easy to get under their skins. Even if having him here was not ideal.. she couldn’t help but feel the slightest excitement in having a new toy. As long as he left within the next week.. she could have some fun for now at least. The rest of the day she stayed around him. The shadows her friend and the rustling of the wind leaving her unnoticed. The whole day she teased him in slow ways. Slamming doors, making things disappear and appear somewhere else. Turning the water boiling hot and cold. Just small things that wouldn’t cost to much of her energy. Once the dark came around she was able to get out of hiding a bit more. Daring to play closer to the wooden cabin. Her tails still danced behind her, but the thing that might give her away most was the reflection of her ruby eyes in the light, much like a cats would. @StroopWaffle

I continue to relax before getting up to get ready for bed, changing my shirt and jeans for shorts and a old faded band-t. Even more scars littering my back and torso being revealed after changing I head to the kitchen for a glass of watee, passing by a window... What the hell is that? Those eyes... Stray cat maybe? Huh, I wonder if it needs some food or water... *I walk to the kitchen grabbing some Tupperware I put some bits of chicken in it as well as a small bowl of water. I head just outside to still see the eyes... Watching me. "Well thats a bit unsettling..." I look around and see a small... Post? Grave? Whatever it is, its old, dirty and faded... I set down the bowls with food and water for the cat, at the foot of the little shrine looking thing. and head back inside, to bed for the night

@Naka in Wonderland

Her eyes never left him. He was her newest toy, the newest point of interest in her world that was usually boring and quiet. She didn’t hate her home, but something new.. she was like a crow with something shiny. Even when the human undressed, her eyes remained to watch him. More marks were on his skin and again she found herself wondering where he had gotten them from. A few times he would peer towards her and she would duck down into the shadows, hiding herself from his view. She wondered if he had seen her and the way he kept peeking her way might have told her he had. When his door opened she ducked herself away. She watched him place the bowls down, but she didn’t come near till he headed inside once more. She then came forward slowly, looking at the two ceramic bowls. An offering? Why would the human leave an offering? The small grave as of no real worth, most likely having belonged to a pet of someone who used to live here before him. Yet she felt like the bowls had been set out for her. She ate from the chicken, one small piece at first, but then a few more. She at till the bowl was nearing empty before she stopped. The water bowl she brought to her lips and drank slowly too. Even if she did not need food or water to survive, it was the energy behind them that she fed on. It only made her more curious of the human that had now occupied the house. She waited for him to fall asleep and only once she was convinced sleep had found him did materialized herself inside of his room. She walked towards him slowly, skittish, ready to bolt. She was like animal, curious but afraid of what it might find. She watched his sleeping face, her head tilted to the side. @StroopWaffle

I stir in my sleep, not exactly the most graceful of sleepers obviously. My dreams filled with old times, old wounds, and old stories long since passed. Voices lightly calling out to me as I try to empty my mind of the thoughts that plague it. My hands clenching and unclenching, palms a bit sweaty. before finally my body begins to relax, my eyes opening slowly as I stare up at the ceiling, unaware of any other presence for the moment, my eyes unfocused and tired "Fuck, there goes another night's sleep I guess" I sigh before rubbing my chin, in thought. My mind then comes back to the stray cat, my eyes focusing again, a bit of light returning to them. I wonder how it's doing... I hope it got the food I set out... Maybe I should go out to check on it. Damn, I'm just trying to distract myself from that shit again, aren't I? "I'm not getting sleep anyway I guess... maybe I should go check on that stray cat... or whatever it was outside" I begin to get up out of bed, facing away from the doorway @Naka in Wonderland

She had come decently close to the sleeping human. She could see the disturbing sleep he was having. She could see the tension in his body, the movements in his face. She had just been about to reach out to his forehead, wanting to see the dreams that plagued him when his body stilled. She scooted back, moving back into the shadows almost soundless. She watched him stir, her breath hitching in her throat. “I’m not getting sleep anyway I guess.. maybe I could go check on that stray cat.. Or whatever it was outside.” She heard him say as he laid there. He thought she had been a cat. In the middle of the forest? The human didn’t even seem to have knowledge of the creatures that dwelled in it. When he started to move and sit up she made herself vanish, only to appear again outside. She heard him move inside the house and wondered if he would come outside soon. She changed her shape to that of the stray cat that he might be looking to find. The cat was a ginger tabby, small white spots on it’s chin and stomach and a fluffy tail. It’s golden/brown eyes staring up. She sat down near the two bowls and waited there.

08:23

@StroopWaffle

I get up and pull on a jacket, my feet padding across the wood floors silently. Thinking about how stupid I'm being right now, especially since this cat probably isn't even going to be here... I get some tuna from the fridge before opening up the back door "Hell, I don't even know if this thing is actually a cat... for all I know, it could be a cougar or a mountain lion, or an... adorable little cat.." I stand there surprised... at the little tabby in front of my eyes "Well shit, I guess there really was a cat out here..." I kneel down slowly, a calm smile on my face as I hold the fish out in front of me. Not moving in order to keep from spooking you. "Hey there kitty.... how'd you get so far out here?" My voice is soft and deep as I try to coax you out

@Naka in Wonderland

She was still hesitant. Even if this chosen form would not scare the human away a part of her was still afraid to get close. Even if this human was not able to hurt her physically, she had really gotten a distaste for them. Yet her need for attention, her need for love was greater then her fear. Slowly the cat padded closer to him, it’s paws light upon the sandy floor. It’s head was slow and it’s ears flattened. It hesitated when it got close. Once she had closed the distance she stayed on her backlegs. Getting ready to move if the human would make a sudden movement towards her. She wasn’t interested in the fish.. mostly interesting in touching the male. @StroopWaffle

I look at you, seeing that your not interested in the fish, I set it aside slowly, before holding my hand forward. My lips curled into a small smile. "Its alright, I'm not here to hurt ya... I promise..." My words are spoken slowly and deliberately. Who would leave such a cute cat like this... As I wait for you to come closer, I sit myself down, relaxing a bit. I hope she's not hurt or anything, if she gets a bit more comfortable, maybe I'll just give her a check-up.... "You're okay... I'll take good care of you, You were here before me after all, heh. You've got more right to be here than I do..."

@Naka in Wonderland

The humans actions were strange to her. She had known humans to be selfish, the kind of creature that only took and never gave. Yet this one was offering her food and water even if it meant he would get nothing in return. Even in the interaction they had now his voice seemed gentle and caring. He wasn’t claiming the touch of her, he was waiting for her to give it. Slowly she moved closer, comforting herself in the knowledge that physically she was most likely stronger the him. She came up to his hand and carefully touched it. A warm tingle was felt on her skin. She pulled back, but soon realize it had been a good feeling, not a bad one. She moved in again, pushing her head against his hand once more. He felt warm and even though his hands were rough his touch was gentle. @StroopWaffle

The feeling of the cat's fur against my skin is wonderful, warm and comforting... which is something that I could definitely use after my dreams tonight. My hand slowly but surely begins to caress and pet you, my fingers lightly brushing against your ears and fur. "Here ya go, all you need is a little care, and everything is alright again.... we're both similar in that way" My eyes lose there focus again, if only slightly this time as I continue to pet you. My smile fades and my lips are set in a somewhat sad frown "I guess we both were kinda abandoned..." I think back to my days still in service, all gone... just like that

@Naka in Wonderland

Slowly but surely she was getting into it. To be touched by another.. it was something she had not felt in many many years.. Even the few times that others visited the forest, she had chased them away without ever getting close to them. Why she had been pulled towards this one.. well she did not know. Yet his hand was warm and comforting, the feeling on her skin a welcome change to the cold she usually felt. She fed on his energy slowly, on the affection. Somehow it made that small fire inside of her light just a bit more after it had been so close to dying. Her eyes looked up as he called them similar, as he mentioned that he too had been abandoned. Is that why he was here? Is that why he had gone to a place where there was no other human soul? Why he choose to be in a place where others were not? After all, it was the reason why she had hidden away. The promise to herself to never let another human hurt her again. The thought made her shudder, yet she could not pull herself away. She settled on the ground near him, laying down on her stomach, her back legs splayed out to the side. A position that showed content and no longer an intention to run. @StroopWaffle

Leaning back, I lie down next to the cat, my hand still stroking the soft fur on your back as my eyes refocus. Looking down at you a smile comes back to my face "Welp... looks like Ive got a new roommate..." I chuckle deeply, my laugh rumbling through the usually silent woods "I should thank you I guess.... just this has helped me through the night..." This cat has gone through the same sorta shit I have... but she seems to be just fine at least. I pull you a bit closer, making sure you get enough warmth "I wonder if I should give you a name... eh... I'll do it in the Yawn morning..." hell, I'm going to fall asleep pretty soon... eh, there are worse places to do that I guess...zzzZZ

@Naka in Wonderland

She settled down next to him. The situation strange to her but not uncomfortable. His laugh filled the air and it somehow made her smile, for as much as her cat form would allow it. She didn’t dare to think that he was any different, but at least this one moment.. this one minute, it was nice to feel wanted. The petting stopped almost abruptly and she looked up at the human’s face. He had fallen asleep once more, but this time his features were not plagued by the same nightmares that had happened before. Her form changed back into the her true one. Her hand came up to stroke over his face softly, her soft fingers brushing his skin, tracing the shortest of stubbles that was growing on his chin. What a strange human..

09:51

She pulled herself away from him. Even if his touch had been a welcome change, he did not want to give herself to sleep next to him. She still felt to vulnerable to do that, to weak. She couldn’t leave herself unprotected.. not after what she had gone through. Once more she disappeared into the night.

@StroopWaffle

I spend the rest of the night asleep, the best sleep I've had in a very long time. My dreams filled with thoughts about a simple life, at home with a cat. Eventually I wake. My eyes opening slowly and clearly while a smile remains on my face. Looking down where you were before, I see you've left "Hm, she must have gotten bored when I fell asleep... hope she'll be back" Standing up slowly, I can feel my joints pop and crackles oh so wonderfully "Fuuuuuuck.... I slept so damn well..." I walk back inside, heading to my room to get changed back into some work jeans and an old black t-shirt "Well, I've still got a ton of stuff to fix here... guess it's time to get it done" I go downstairs and grab a protein bar before getting to work. Fixing the simple things that I can, hanging pictures, setting up my few appliances. All the while humming and singing old pop songs to myself "Reeespect, just a liiittle bit, uhuh just a liiittle bit"

@Naka in Wonderland

Even if she had left his side she did not go far. She knew she should leave, knew she needed a break from him, but she found herself unable to leave. She lifted her palm, producing a small blue flame in it. She felt stronger then before. Where her powers had been slowly fading over the last decades, this was the first time part of it had returned to her. And however it happened.. it had involved him. As he worked on his house, setting uo everything, her need to get his attention flared. Even if her way about getting it was wrong. He would find random things disappearing from his grasp. If he was working with a tool and placed it down, it would soon be gone. If he grabbed a cloth he believed to have been wetted, he would find it dry. His small irritations were funny to her and soft giggles would run from the forest edge, though his ears might not be able to pick up on it. @StroopWaffle

I look down curiously at the fifth screwdriver that has dissappeared... in the last hour... Oh right, this place is cursed isn't it? "alright Rev... you bought the cursed house.... you're the one who has to deal with it" I sigh and start looking around for the screwdriver, and as with every single one of the other missing tools, it's found in the strangest place I could think of.... "How in the fuck..." Knocks my head as I crawl out "Ow... did this get in the back of the dishwasher...?" After finding the screwdriver, I finish fixing the last light fixture before going back to the kitchen to prep some lunch "Well... at least I'm not in danger.... I think?" I start to cook some quesadillas on the stove, letting the smell of food flow through the house, a bit of it finding its way outside. I wonder if that cat's eaten today... maybe I should get some food ready for her. As my food cooks, I get some tuna and put it in the same bowl as last night, freshly washed. I open the back door, and place the bowl at the foot of the step, leaving the door open for her to get inside if she wants

@Naka in Wonderland

Her little tricks lasted the entire day and she would lie if she said she was not pleased with herself. He thought the place was cursed and it only made her more amused. But then he once again left food out in the bowls outside. She could feel her heart quicken. Did he wish for her to come back? No... he wanted the cat to come back, not her. She reminded herself. Yet the tug on her was strong, the wish to go there into that open door, to feel that warm touch again that seemed to have strenghtened her. She shapeshifted again, her form back to the small ginger cat that he had petted the night before. She walked towards the house and even if she didn't need the food to sustain her, he had left it our for her. No not her.. the cat. Yet he would be grateful if she ate it. She could tell. So she bend over the bowl and ate small bits of the fresh fish. @StroopWaffle

I finish up cooking my food, the smell filling the house as I hum to myself, old tunes far older than I am. I walk out to the back porch to eat, setting down my food at the patio table. Looking down at you I can't help but smile "Well hello there again... I'm glad you like the food." Thank god she's back, I was worried she wasn't going to come again. Starting to eat as well, I continue to hum as I do. I take a bite of my quesadilla, leaning back in my chair as I eat "I still haven't thought of a name for you yet... though you probably have a name already.." Leaning down, I give your fur some light scratches and pets. "Heh... It would be easier if you could tell me it. Not to mention I wouldn't mind the company" I chuckle lightly at the thought of a talking cat @Naka in Wonderland

She looked up once he was there and the fact he seemed to like that she was there brought her joy. She couldn't describe the feeling really. She simply liked his voice. It was rough and slightly gravelly. The moment he sat down she seemed no longer interested in the food and instead went towards him. He scratched he back lightly and she felt herself curve to his hand. "Heh.. it woukd be easier if you could tell me." The human mused. She wondered.. she would like the human to speak her name, wanted to hear him say it in that same gravelly tone of his voice. With a leap she got herself up on the table. Her eyes met his and for just a moment she invaded the privacy of his mind. Her voice rang inside his head, it'a melody sweet and gentle. "Kazue." She spoke to him, letting him know her name before she left the grip on his mind fade again. @StroopWaffle

My hand Idly scratches at your back as I try to think about different names for you... any regular names just don't seem to fit.... Suddenly you jump up onto the table, staring at me with deep intelligent eyes. I hear a light beautiful voice in my head for just a moment, the type of voice I could never in my wildest dreams imagine. 'Kazue' what was that? Wha-... it... fits her perfectly... After freezing for a moment in both surprise and a bit of awe, my hand continues again. Scratching behind your ears and under your chin gently. My gaze relaxing as a quirky smile graces my features "Hmm... Kazue... Its perfect" I pull you a bit closer for a moment, hugging you against me as I murmur, almost to myself "I have a feeling you're very special.... I'm gonna take care of you the best I can... Kazue" @Naka in Wonderland

She watched his reaction, wondering what he was thinking. Her eyes following his even after he had frozen in place. But he came to the right conclusion. That she had given him her name. “Hmm… Kazue.. Its perfect.” He said in that gravelly voice that she had gotten used to from him and she couldn’t help but feel a small tingle in her body, just from him saying. The human was strange.. and he made her feel strange. She simply told herself it had been so long since she had been touched by another, that perhaps she just didn’t remember how it had felt. He placed his hands around her and pulled her close. She froze a bit herself this time, but eventually she relaxed against him. A soft meow went into the air as she settled herself against him. Perhaps this wasn’t that bad.. visiting him like this, in this form. Yet to show him her true self, that was another thing entirely. @StroopWaffle

she's so warm, and fluffy... It's been too long since Ive last hugged another living thing lile this... I've missed this. I pull you a bit deeper in my arms, my stubble a bit rough against you as I mumble "thank you... For being here kazue... I know you cant understand me, but I needed to say this... So thank you.." I continue holding and stroking your for for a while, simply enjoying the company you offer. My hands skillfully finding just the BEST places to scratch.* "heheh... I haven't hugged someone... Or something for that matter, in years.. So warm... I'm going to take a quick nap I think.." My strokes and pets gradually slow down, before finally stopping as my chest rises and falls steadily, in slumber* @Naka in Wonderland

She did not want to enjoy it, didn’t want to get that addicted. But the way that his hands brushed over her face, her neck, her back. Even in this form she could feel the intensity of it brushing over her skin. It felt good, it felt.. safe? No.. it couldn’t be safe. He kept talking to her as well, thanking her for being there, saying she was warm. He was warm too.. his embrace around her like a thick winter blanket. His stubble brushed against her, but even that didn’t feel bad to her. Her paw came up to touch it, softly moving over that stubble on his face. It felt strange, like a very short brush almost. He eventually close his eyes and fall asleep with her in his arms. It gave her the chance to once again look at him to take him in. Her eyes went over his frame. She saw his scars more clearly. Most of them seemed to be from slashing injuries, some were round. She wondered where they came from. She wanted to know more about him, wanted to learn about who this man was. She moved in his arms and pressed her forehead against his. She closed her eyes and tried to see into his mind, to see what dreams went in his sleep. @StroopWaffle

the scene of my dreams is rather grisly, bodies littering a dark room, the air unnaturally silent and heavy with the scent of blood. Half a dozen men in camouflaged uniforms sift through the dead, most being middle aged men, others not so much. As the even shifts to the next room, you see me... I'm a year or two younger than I am now, my eyes still retaining their sharp alert look as i supervise a few men in stripping the bodies. The sounds and voices are muted, none of the words being said able to be heard. I look over to another doorways and point, calling to two of the men and giving what seems to be an order. The two men bring their rifles up and proceed slowly into the next room, my body relaxes a bit when a few seconds pass and no muffled noises are heard. I start walking back to the others in order to help when a chest pounding boom is felt and heard from the other room, knocking me down from tbe force of the blast. As soon as i get my bearing I look back, a grim look in my eyes as i see that the room I sent those two soldiers into, was turned into nothing more that a smoking crater (Tell me if this was too much) @Naka in Wonderland

The invading of his dreams was something she had not done in a long time. It cost her a great amount of energy, something she did not have much to spare of. She had meant to only visit him briefly, see his dream and go away. But it had pulled her in completely. The amount of death in his dream was disturbing, not something she was used to seeing. His body had not stirred before she entered it, which meant perhaps even this was a light dream for him. She remained there, her curiosity making her explore her surroundings. She had never seen men dressed in such ways before, but the fact that it was worn by them all meant that they formed a group of some sort. The weapons they carried were also unfamiliar. She had spend so many hundreds of years in that forest alone that she had not caught up with that current warfare looked like. But the feeling of it was the same.. that was something she did know. And then the explosion rang, her heart skipped a beat in her chest and it took everything in her to not run from his mind. She didn’t know what had just happened, but she knew it had been terrifying. She saw the man who’s dream she had invaded and the panic was clear with him as well. A dream turned into a bad nightmare. Before she could catch herself she revealed herself before him. She was in her regular form, a lean woman with a curvy body dressed in a red and gold kimono that revealed her legs. Her body decorated with red tattoo’s. Her long strawberry blond hair falling around her and two fox-like ears popping from underneath. Her six tails dances behind her and her body was decorated with golden jewelry. “You are dreaming..” she said to him and perhaps he might recognize her voice. “Wake up.” @StroopWaffle

For a moment, I don't even realize anyone is there, my mind still frozen on the brutality that just happened. But when you block out my view of anything else, I shift my focus, my gaze onto you. My haunted eyes stare at the beautiful goddess in front of me, Staring directly into yours... an intelligence and deep nature that I have seen before. coupled along with the voice, eyes show some recollection... "Kazue...?" Suddenly, I wake up... Back at the house... with Kazue in my arms, a steady line of tears falling down my face. My breath shallow and heaving along with my shaking hands as I hold you closer "Fuck... I..." My mouth struggles to form the words as I remember... "Logan... Sanchez... how, could I be so stupid... my fault... my fault" I'm detracting into shivering and mumbling practically indistinctly to myself @Naka in Wonderland

Her eyes widened as he called out her name in the midst of the dream. But that the exact moment that he woke up. She felt herself sucked into a deep darkness, the view of his waking mind before his vision could form the things he was seeing. She quickly disconnected herself from him, pulling back into her own body that was still shape shifted into the red tabby. Her own heart was pounding as she looking at him again. She saw his chest moving up and down, his hands shaking in an uncontrolled fashion. He was hurting.. scared.. fearful. All kind of emotions that she had been more then familiar with. When he spoke his words her ears moved to hear him better. Not a bad dream.. a memory? She wondered.. She pressed herself against him, her tail brushing against his trembling hands. She tried to get him to refocus, to concentrate on something else then his own mind. @StroopWaffle

I remain shivering and crying, but continue to hold you against me. My hands coming back to rest against you, firm and steadfast caresses, having turned into hesitant and nervous Slowly but surely my breathing slows, and I calm down.... at least a little bit for now... Though my thoughts don't shift "Fuck... So many... so many dead because of me... I should've been the one dead... all my fault" *I slowly rock with you in my arms, tears sliding down my cheeks as my dulled eyes water... feeling your warmth in my hands helping a bit but still not enough to break through the shell that is my wretched memories..."I'm sorry... sorry... so sorry... Kazue, you have a monster taking care of you...I'm so sorry..." @Naka in Wonderland

It didn’t help him much. Her presence there did not seem to be enough to get him out of the nightmare that still followed him as he woke. He was still shivering, like he was cold to the bone. The tears on his face slowly traveling down his cheek and trying to find it’s way through his stubble. She was tired.. had already used so much of her energy that day by invading his dreams, yet she couldn’t bear to see them that way. She wanted to give him comfort, the way that he did to her. She reached into his mind, a soft soothing light replaced the bad images that clouded it, a warmth invading his body. She kept it up as long as she could, but eventually had to break free. She was exhausted.. @StroopWaffle

I sit there, still feeling the cold embrace of my mind dragging me down... Nothing Ive done can make up for the li-... Suddenly, I can feel a warmth bubbling from the little cat in my arms. I can feel a calmness overtaking my mind as I slowly stop shaking, my tear soaked eyes drying. My incessant rambling stopping as I curl around you a bit further. "Fuck... I... I'm going to be alright... I am alive for a reason... just have to find it." Looking down I stroke your ears gently, before I realize just how obviously tired and worn you look. My eyes widen in concern before I shoot up from my chair, cradling you in my arms as I bring you inside "Shit, shit, shit... I'm so sorry Kazue... I must have held you for too long or something.." I walk into my room before setting you down in my bed, wrapping a small quilt around you "I'm going to take care of you... I promise..." I quickly walk out of the room to get some food

Perhaps she would have normally struggled against him. The four walls that closed around her as they walked into his house were terrifying. She liked the open, the forest, the sounds of nature around her. Houses and walls were only with her in her bad memories. Yet she was to exhausted to fight it. She laid still in his arms and let him wrap her in a blanket and place or his bed. The whole thing smelled like him, like the terror sweats that he had just moments ago. Those nightmare didn't happen just sometimes, they happened often. She stretched herself out in the blanket, getting comfortable. Her eyes followed him as he walked out the room. What a strange situation she found herself in. She closed her eyes, trying to make herself believe the walls were not there. To tell herself her fears were foolish as no walls would ever keep her in. Yet she could just not get comfortable. @StroopWaffle

I come back into the room, bringing some little cooked chunks of beef in a bowl as well as a bowl of water. Sitting down on the bed next to you, I pull you back into my lap, my hand caressing your back as I hold up your head to the water bowl "Please Kazue... drink up sweety..." My words are gentle and warm. brimming with emotion I need you to get better... for me... I need you here kazue... please don't leave me alone..." I continue to brush and stroke your ears, scratching and caring for you the best I can "You make this place feel like home... along with the little curse that makes things interesting around here..." I chuckle a bit as I ramble on a bit to you... I'm talking to a cat... I'm going crazy... obviously... "Heh...you know... I feel like you kinda saved me back when I was asleep...there was like an angel or spirit or something in my dream... my memory... she was beautiful, and... she actually seemed to care about me... I can't remember the last time I felt so... vulnerable..."

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She didn’t complain when he picked her back up and put her in his lap. As he offered her the bowl of water she drank. The kindness of him filling her with warmth, helping her replenish her energy just small bits with his affection. She fed of his energy, fed of his attention. It slowly made her energy come back enough for her to not feel as exhausted. But she would need a lot more like that and rest to feel like herself again. She listened to his words and was surprised to hear he remembered her in his dream. Usually the shock of invading was enough to not make them remember. Th fact he did spoke of a strong mind, a strong soul. He described her as an angel or spirit, with the second he was more correct then he knew. It made her heart swell in her chest. To know he image had not scared him. Perhaps she would visit him again when his dreams were more calm and her energy was better. @StroopWaffle

After a bit of time, filled with pampering, its finally time to head to bed. I let you get out of my lap again, setting your makeshift bed of blankets to the side of the of my bed as I get changed into a t-shirt and shorts "Welp... I'm headed to bed, you can sleep in yours if you want" I give you one last pet before laying down in bed, pulling the covers over me. Welp... here's hoping I don't have one tonight... I kinda need the sleep. I rub at one of the slight bags underneath my eyes before, shutting them. "Goodnight Kazue..." As I slowly drift off, my body is calm and relaxed, not like the other nights

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His body was once again still as sleep overtook him. She changed her shape back, her six tails looming behind her. She watched him, his eyes calm and his body stil. She slowly peeled down the blanket that covered him, though she was careful not to wake him. She took in his body. She shape of it, the way his breath rose and fell in his chest. She bend herself down and placed her ear close to it, hearing his heartbeat in his chest. It was slow and strong.. a warriors heart. Her curiosity got the better of her. Wanting to know if he was having happy dreams this time. She placed her hand on his forehead and once again projected her into his mind. He had already seen her and remembered her. In the dream world she would dare to meet him. @StroopWaffle

In my dreams its really... simple... the landscape is a military installation somewhere in the desert, myself and a few other guys are under a tent hanging out in our fatigues. Our guns still strapped to us as we all are having beers and just chatting with smiles and laughs on our faces. a few are playing ping-pong, another is reading a book. I'm sitting in a folding chair with a beer in my hand and a wide grin as I laugh at something one of the guys said. This time the sounds of voices are somewhat distinguishable, but still a bit muted I throw my head back in a laugh for a moment, taking a swig of my drink before turning to... "You..." My smile remains, more relaxed and happy than I am in regular life, the air of melancholy not present "So... are you the one who's been talking in my head?" I open another bottle before offering it @Naka in Wonderland

The world she was shoved into seemed to foreign to her. There was barely any nature, just a long stretch of sand. The same clothing were on the humans, but this time it was also on the cars and the tents.. it was everywhere. Like the greens made up for the lack of plants around them. Yet what she was interested most was the male who’s dreams she had invaded. He seemed relaxed, happy.. a drink in his hand that smelled of alcohol. It made her nose wrinkle just a bit. She had never liked that smell. She sees him opening the bottle but put up her hands to refuse. Her red eyes eyed him curiously as she stepped closed. The other’s didn’t seem bothered by her presence. “I have.” She admitted, seeing no point in lying when she was in this alternative reality for him. “Does it bother you?” She asked. @StroopWaffle

(Sorry Amari.. >.> I’m dumb okay! Lol)

(....i say nothing

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(Hm?)

(I tagged Amari first by accident xD)

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I chuckle lightly before putting away the alchohol, seeing your reaction to it "Sorry about that. heh, drinking kinda comes with being a soldier.." I stand up and lean against one of the tent posts, my hands in my pockets as I smile down at you, taking in your... interesting form "And as for your question... It doen't really bother me... after all, you helped me... hell, more like saved me from myself... and for that, I thank you" She's... definitely different... doesn't look like an angel, though definitely beautiful.... the tails... isn't there some sorta japanese legend about multi tailed fox's... fuck I shoulda looked more into mythology... She feels familiar though.... warm and comforting... My eyes scrutinize you for a while longer. Trying to figure out just who you are "What should I call you?" @Naka in Wonderland

(theeere we go)

A soldier.. so that is what they called themselves, these men in strange green uniforms. She stood out among them. Her red and golds a bright contrast to the muted colors they were wearing. She was so different from them, she had almost forgotten about that. “You are welcome.” She said to him as he thanked her. “I did not save you however, I merely comforted you during your need.” She said to him. She watched his eyes roll over her form. It almost felt flattering, to have him look at he actual form for the first time, well at least the first time he was really looking at her. Her tails swayed behind her playfully and she stood still so he could take hr in. “You already know my name.” She smiled at him. She wanted to come closer, wanted to touch him. But for now she held herself back. “Why is this the place that dreams take you? Do you enjoy being here?” @StroopWaffle

I shift a bit before nodding to you with a bit of a smile "Alright then, Kazue..." I offer you a chair, before sitting down in one next to it. Damn, she's... playfully cute... damn it rev you're talking with either A) a hallucination... or B) a japanese spirit girl... why does life have to be so fuckin complicated... "You got me out of a nightmare that's haunted me for months... trust me, you saved me" Leaning back, I contemplate the question... why is this my 'Happy place'? I look up to you, with a bit of a quirky smile "Well... I'm kinda used to this place... some of my best memories are not just associated with the place, but the people" I point over to the two guys playing ping-pong "Those two over there, are Raphael and Frank, brothers... They've helped me through thick and thin" motioning over to an older guy reading a book "Thats Christopher, the old man of the group but he's always there when you need him.." My smile fades a bit before I look back at you "They are... were... my family... my brothers" @Naka in Wonderland

She looked down at the chair that he offered her and carefully sat down. She moved her tails in a way that they would not be in the way, the ended up hanging casually off the side in one bushy mess. She followed his hands as they pointed to the people around them. It was clear from his voice that her cared about them, that he was close to them. Calling them his family only added to that. Yet he talked about them as if they were in the past. Perished perhaps? Humans were not granted with eternal life. Yet they did not seem to be in the grey age of their lives yet. “Where are they now if not in your dreams?” She asked him. @StroopWaffle

I look at the bundle of fluff that is your tails, chuckling a bit before I get a soda and open the can for you "Here, this is nonalcoholic, and sweet so I hope you'll like it" I stare at your floof for a moment more. It looks so soft... I really want to touch it but I don't think she would like that... maybe it's a very intimate place, I wouldn't want to be rude..... shit. I turn my attention back to you As soon as your question hits my ears, I can't help but grimace, wincing a bit as the memories resurface "Well... you saw what happened to two of them... before" I look back at the guys, this time reminiscing about all the good times, it hurts a bit less with you here, but it still hurts. My hand grips the armrest next to yours... "And the remaining one, he couldn't deal with the guilt and he... now resides in a graveyard countries away..." @Naka in Wonderland

She accepted the can of the drink. It smelled sweet like he had said. She raised it to her mouth and took the slightest of sips and instantly shook her head. The carbonated soda was a sensation she had never felt before, the weird popping of the bubbled on her tongue an unpleasant surprise. She frowned and placed it down, deciding she didn’t like it. Even if the sweet aftertaste was more to her liking. The conversation soon took a heavier twist as he talked about the deaths of his friends.. his family as he had called them. “I am sorry..” she said and she meant it. Losing the people important to you was hard. During her time of service she had seen the loss before and seen how it hit the humans near them. It still saddened her, but after so many centuries she had become more numb against it. She could feel her energy already running low. She did not have much longer before she would need to let sleep claim her to recover. “I can’t stay for long.” She said to him. “But I wanted to see your world.” @StroopWaffle

I smile at you again, before leaning over, and taking your hand in mine, gently squeezing it to show you my thanks, and slo to say I'll be okay. "Thank you Kazue... your being here has helped me more than anything has within the past few years" My hand is a bit rough, definitely firm, but gentle when I hold yours. aghhhhh she's so sooooft. damn, I need to fuckin calm down cause this is probably a dream... I look up into the sky when I hear you have to go soon. my smile still on my face when I think about my time here "Thats alright, I'm glad you came.... I'm glad we were able to talk a bit... I've missed being treated like a normal guy again" I give your hand a squeeze when I say that. But I look back to you after a moment, a bit curious "Hey... can I ask you one more question?... are you... really Kazue?" @Naka in Wonderland

The way he took her hand took her by surprise. She always wanted to pull it back again, the touch having come so unexpected. But she somehow couldn't bring herself to pull away. His hands were rough, covered in callus, but he held hers gently. Almost like he believed her to be made from something fragile and his touch could make her fall apart. She wondered what he meant by feeling like a normal guy. She wondered why he had fled for the cabin in her forest. Why he had chosen to be alone even when he seemed fo crave another so much. But then again. Had she not done the same? His last question had her eyes focus on his, a small mischievious and playful sparkle in the red irises. "Are you really you?" Was all she gave him as an answer before she was pulled away from his mind. She came back into her body panting and exhausted. She had used up way to much of her energy. She fall into the sheets beside his sleeping body. She had to shapeshift.. either that or move herself back to the forest. She didn't do either. She just needed five minutes.. five minutes to rest herself and then she would go. @StroopWaffle

I remain asleep, my dreams while still somewhat sad, are much calmer and better than I've had in a long time. My body shifts a bit as I sleep, feeling a source of warmth to my side. Being an absolute cuddler, I roll over towards you, unconsciously wrapping my arms around you, and pulling you into my embrace. My body is warm and firm, against your own practically radiating heat and comfort. My mind remains on the 6 tailed vixen, still very curious about who she is exactly... though I happen to have a theory.. but that's crazy right?... right??? Fuck, maybe this PTSD is actually making me crazy now if I'm actually considering this as a possibility... I murmur lightly in my sleep "Kazue..." @Naka in Wonderland

She had only just decided to lay her head down to rest as his arms suddenly found it's way around her and she was pulled in closr against him. She could feel her heart swell, her mind for a moment unsure how to respond. She simply froze in his arms, unsure of what to do. But somehow it helped. She slowly felt her exhaustion fading, a warmth taking place inside her that made her feel alive. So she tried to relax into his arms even if it was a bad idea. Her face festing against his chest, his heart beating softly against her cheek. Her tails swayed from side to side as she drowned in the comfort of his body. When he spoke her name, it only added to the strange sensations inside of her. It was onky then that she realized she did not even know his name in return. Next time she woukd ask. Next time? Did she want there to be a last time? She allowed herself the comfort of his arms for another ten minutes, unable to peel herself away. She marvelled in his heat and scent. His natural smell somehow smelled good to her. Then she changed her form again, back to the cat that she used to get close to him and laid down at his feet instead. Becausr she should not be that close with a human.. it was only a matter of time before he would hurt her. @StroopWaffle

My arms reach around for a bit to *try and find where my source of heat and floof went, but find nothing before clutching at a pillow and hugging it against me "Kaz...." I roll over again, before eventually settling in to my sleep for the rest of my night The next morning I wake up with a groan, my sleep being somewhat decent for once. Sitting up in the bed I give you a light pet, obviously looking around for a moment before my gaze settles back on you. A look of... confusion and... fear. "Fuck... I'm.. I might actually be losing it..." I get up and head to the bathroom to splash some water on my face and clear my head "I swear... maybe they were right to say I shouldn't be on my own..." I'm staring in the mirror trying to figure out what the hell is going on in my head @Naka in Wonderland

She stayed at that end of the bed and rested there. Even when from time to time her body told her to get closer to him, she forced herself to stay away. When morning came she still felt sluggish and low of her energy, but at least it had been better then when she had left his dreams. Nowhere near recovered however. She felt the bed move and it woke her up as she looked towards the male. He petted her and that same tingling sensation went over her skin. The one she liked so much. She held his eyes and wondered what he was thinking about. When he got up and left she just stayed in her spot. Perhaps she should go.. take some time away. She heard him mumbling to his own in that bathroom. Perhaps she would get her wish after all.. Perhaps he would leave the forest and go back to his kind. She had not even needed to pester him to much. Which was good.. because today she would not have energy for any of her tricks. @StroopWaffle

my eyes search the mirror for answers, trying to find some sort of explanation... Yet there is none, of course. I sigh in resignation, "damn it Rev... Get a grip. Second guessing yourself like this is exactly why... They're gone..." *I grip the counter hard, and my lips set into a firm line... I'm not crazy.... My minde may be fucked up, but I'm not insane. I nod to myself before beginning my morning routine, brushing my teeth shaving and sho-... I look over to Kazue on the bed. It feels weird to undress in front of her... I walk into the bathroom to finish up, before showering for a bit, walking out a bit later with jeans and no shirt "damn, forgot to bring my shirt in there..." I grab a simple flannel and throw it on. I give you a few pets and scratches before heading downstairs for breakfast. "Morning Kazue... Thank you for helping me sleep.." with that, I head down. @Naka in Wonderland

Again he could feel that sadness roll through his body. As she had connected to his dreams, had invaded his mind, she now was able to sense him even more then she had been able to. He was lost, stuck in an endless spiral that would forever drag him down unless someone got him out of it. He and her were much the same.. feeling responsible for so many deaths, choosing solitute as a punishment. Knowing he at least found some comfort in her somehow pleased her. Yet she did not feel ready to show him her form, not like this. She could invade his dreams again, once she was stronger. But to show her what she was, he would only use her like humans tended to do. If he knew that she had powers, that she could control minds, manipulate feelings, change her shape to whatever she wished it to be.. Surely he would find a way to use her. As he heads down she jumped from the bed and following him down. The fluffy tail straight up in the air as her paws made little sounds on the steps as she went. She meowed once at him before walking between his legs and rubbing herself against him. @StroopWaffle

I come downstairs to begin getting breakfast ready. Making some Waffles with fresh strawberries. My mood a bit lighter than before as i lightly hum old tunes to myself, my voice carrying though the house. Along with the smell of food. I put my food on a plate. And put a waffle on one for you as well, setting it down next to the table eventually i hear soft padding down the steps, along with a light 'meow' looking back to the stairs I see kazue. The prim and proper cat that you seem to be, devolving back into the very cuddly one that I now know. A soft smile reaches my lips as I reach down to scratch behind your ears. "hey there kazue, have some breakfast before ya get all lovey on me heh."

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She could not help herself. She knew she had to stay away from him, knew she should keep her distance. But anytime those rough hands found her skin she couldn’t help but like that feeling it came her. It made energy surge into her, gather in her core. It made her feel.. alive. Something she had not experienced for such a long time. He might believe that feeding her was the proper thing to do, but he was giving her more with his touches then the food would ever do. Her form did not need the food to survive, yet the energy.. that was a different story. She jumped up to the table and sat herself own. Her intelligent eyes would stare into him as she considered what to do next. She could not stay in this form forever. Eventually she would need to leave. And now that he had showed her his home.. perhaps it was time she showed him hers. @StroopWaffle

I start to dig into my waffles, using what some would call 'an ungodly amount of syrup' but those are simply afraid of the possibilities of food obviously. I hear soft paws hitting the table before looking up. I see kazue sitting on the table, near my hand as she watches me.... those eyes are so intelligent... so familiar... I reach over to give you the attention you're so obviously seeking. Scratching and caressing your soft fur as I chuckle a bit. "Looks like you aren't hungry I guess.... well alright, I'll give ya the scratches you've been wanting heh...." I take another bite before pulling you into my lap gently. having one hand on you at all times, petting all the right places, rubbing your ears gently with my thumb. All the while, I continue to eat with my other hand, not wanting to miss out on a proper breakfast as I think about what I have to get done today.... hmmm, well Ive got most of the repairs done... I might want to check the power lines just in case... I can arrange the furniture a bit more to my liking... what else...? @Naka in Wonderland

She enjoyed the scratches and pets, giving herself into them. Before she knew it the small purrs of the form she was in were flowing out of her, filling the air with their warm vibration. She laid down on that table simply marvelling in the attention as she felt her powers rushing in her. Even after the exhaustion from entering his dreams, she now found herself almost feeling stronger then before she had met him. She waited patiently for him to finish his food, knowing that for the human it was actually important to eat. Only then did she get up from that table and padded towards the door that led outside, looking over her shoulder to see if he was following. @StroopWaffle

I continue to pet and scratch you, finally hearing the wonderful sound of your purrs.... feeling the soft vibrations against my hand brings a smile to my face. Finishing up my meal, I stand up and set it into the sink, planning on doing dishes later tonight. I look back to see Kazue starting to walk towards the back door, looking back at me as if to follow. Huh... might as well.... I go to put on a jacket before opening the door for you, letting us both head back out into the forest "Well... I'll follow your lead then." @Naka in Wonderland (a bit shorter, kind of a transition more than anything else)

As he took the cue she would start to lead them both out of his house. It was build in a clearing, surrounded by dense forest that barely resembled any paths. She would occasionally glance back to make sure he was still following, but mostly she would lead the way. Even as the shrubbery became thick and hard to get through she would press on. Her tail high in the air giving him a beacon to follow. It took them a good ten minutes to reach the place that she herself called home. In the middle of another small clearing there stood a structure of stone that shone in the sunlight. It was overgrown with vines and moss, showing more green then grey. The ground around it was also thick with shrubbery. It consisted of four thick pillars that held up a roof over it’s head. Inside of it was some sort of altar that had once been used to place food upon in offering to the spirit of the shrine. But even if it was clear what it had been used for, it was also clear that it had been abandoned a long long time ago. This is where she had been born, where her very soul had taken form. Born from the loyalty of the people that frequented that place almost 700 years ago now. Once she had found a family to serve she had left it, but as she got abandoned, it had been her only place to go back to. It was.. her home. @StroopWaffle (No problem! Dont worry about shorter posts as long as u dont throw me one liners xD)

I walk through the forest, my boots treading carefully through the foliage as I bring my hands up to cover my face as a small branch smacks at me. Doing my best to stay with you, I can see your bright color even through the leaves thankfully and I keep on track with you.... where is she taking me? We're getting pretty far into the woods.... I continue on, brushing past the trees and shrubs the best that I can. Eventually we arrive to a clearing "Thank fuck, I was beginning to think we wer-...." I stop talking after a moment, obviously struck by the scene in front of me... a shrine? wow... it's beautiful.. if a little bit dilapidated... I step up to the structure silently, placing my hand against one of the pillars only for it to come back mossy "Damn.... you were left here too huh?" I murmur lightly to the old building. placing my hand back to the pillar, almost solemnly "Hmm... I guess we've both been left here to rot... well I'm not gonna sit here and take it.... and I won't let you either" I get a determined look in my eye as I pull out some of the tools that I was going to use today out of my belt "Well... I was planning on fixing the house up some more, but it looks like this place could use the help first..." I'm pretty much talking to the building at this point arent i? First the cat now this.... Maybe I am going crazy... huh. @Naka in Wonderland

His reaction came as a surprise to her. She had expected him to see the structure and not understand. Either that or not care at all. It was old and fallen into a state of abandonment that would take a while to recover from. Most humans would not put any effort into it, regard it with a ‘wow that’s cool’ and move on their way. Yet this human seemed to have instantly formed a connection with it. Even as he placed his hand against that marble, she could almost feel it against the very inside of her soul. She wished to try and help him, but what could she do in this form? As she watched from the sidelines all she could do was using her powers to help him this time. Instead of tools disappearing, they would be right where he would need them. Seeing him work on her home was filling her with a strange feeling of bliss and happiness. @StroopWaffle

I begin my work, reaching in my bag to immediately get a small spade... huh, usually it takes some digging to find my tools... I begin with prying the vines and foliage off of the marble and wood, taking extra care as to not damage the building. I take a few hours to get one of the pillars done, my body starting to get sweaty before I remove my jacket, my muscular arms on display now with a light sheen of perspiration as I work. I look over ot see you sitting to the side, simply... looking at me? "Heh... I guess I shouldnt expect you to pick up a tool should I?" I grin and chuckle after a moment before getting back to my work. I spend the majority of the day there, pulling roots and vines, cutting off overgrown wood and shrubbery from this shrine. By the afternoon I finish pulling the overgrowth from the pillars and main altar. I step back and marvel a bit at the progress I made... it's still not back to it's old glory... not by a long shot I'd imagine "But... It's a start" I sit down against a nearby tree, obviously a bit tired from the exertion... @Naka in Wonderland

The whole day she watched him work at the structure. The work should have tired him out, yet he seemed nowhere close to stopping. Even as he stripped from his jacket, his body gleaming with a small layer of sweat. He was right, she could not help in her current form. Neither was she ready to reveal herself to him yet. By the end of the day, close to the setting of the sun the man finally rested. As his eyes raised to the structures so did hers. Her shrine was starting to get some of it's old glory back. Even if the stone was still showing green, most of the nature and vines that had strangled it were removed. Some of the ancient text on it able to be read again. She liked the view of it. As he sat down against a tree she went over to him and jumped into his lap. She could feel his exhaustion, knew he had worked hard. She once again entered his mind and spoke the words into him. Thank you. @StroopWaffle

I can feel my exhaustion rising with every second, as I simply sit back against the rough bark of the tree and stare at the shrine with a small smile on my face. It desn't look half bad... I can't wait to see what it looks like when I finish all of the repairs... I'll have to get some of the paint out of the storage room, hopefully I have the right colors for the wood... My thoughts are interrupted by the feeling of you jumping into my lap, my hands automatically moving to scratch and spoil you, my eyes starting to close before I finally hear your voice in my head... Thank you. I look down at you curiously... before a small smile graces my features once again. "I might be crazy for saying this... but you're welcome.. Kazue"

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His acceptance of her gratitude made her feel even better. She looked over to that structure once more and could finally remember again how it had looked during her birth. She wished to see it like that again. She had abandoned the care for it long ago, figuring it was not worth it if nobody actually came to worship her. But now.. perhaps she did have someone who would. She would work on it herself whenever she felt strong enough and slowly.. she would restore it in it’s old power as that was the only way she knew how to repay the human man that had tired himself out the whole day to do a good bit of the work. As she focused back on him she could feel how spend his body was, how tired he was after his work. Even if his body had slept, his mind had been at work during his sleep. With visiting him she had stole a part of his sleep, it was no wonder that he was tired as he was. Perhaps she should lead him back to his house. So she jumped from his lap once more and motioned towards the side of the forest she had taken him into. @StroopWaffle

I look at the shrine again, still trying to think about what the shrine will need befew I feel you jump out of my lap. I can see you motioning to the direction back home so i get up. I feel a bit sluggish but I think I can get back. I walk up next to you. "alright, I'm reqdy to head back home if you are." @Naka in Wonderland

During the walk it occured to her that she had spend almost an entire 24 hours with this human, most of it spend in this form. Not that she detested the form, but it had it's.. limitation. She was in dire need to stretch her limbs, to walk upright, to brush out her hair with her fingers, to let her six tails move in the wind. Despite what the man was giving her, she needed to be herself for a bit. Not his pet, not an animal, but herself. She eyes him over her shoulder as they got home. Because that was how he saw her in that moment. An animal he could take care of. Something he could feed and touch. Something to warm his feet at his bed and somehow that angered her in that moment. So as he went towards his house, his home.. she stayed behind near the tree line. @StroopWaffle

I finally reach our home, opening the door to,head inside before i realize youre not with me. I look back to see you at the treeline and realize you want some alone time... Huh, well i guess she is a cat... They can be pretty aloof at times... I reach over to the window and open it just enough for,you to get in before waving goodbye to you and heading inside "good night kazue, stay safe" once inside I set my tools on a nearby table before heading to my bedroom. I start to get out of my work clothes reminiscing about the day "damn, that shrine must be her home... I'm gonna fix it up for her... I swear it..." As I get into bed I for once have my mind occipied by something other than the past, letting me drift off into a soft dreamless slumber @Naka in Wonderland

With his eyes finally away from her form she wasted no time to shift herself back. The moment she found herself in her own body she stretched herself out, a soft moan like noise coming from her mouth as she did. It felt good. She opened her palm and produced a flame inside of her palm. Her powers were growing.. she felt strong. The strength of the flame proving as much. She closed her palm and looked towards the house. Was he the source? The reason that she was finding her very soul back? Determined to put some distance between her and the human and make her way back towards her shrine and once more eyes it over. She let her hand palm over it's smooth pillars before she settled down on the smooth marble in the back. There was a small crook there that fit her perfectly, like it was made her her. She curled herself up, her knees close to her chest and her six tails wrapped around herself. And even if she did not need sleep, she found herself wallowing in the darkness of her concious. @StroopWaffle

I wake up the next morning, well rested. My eyes opening to find an empty room. "Huh... She must have stayed outside last night... I hope she's ok" *I get up and stretch out a bit, hearing th crackling of my bones... Damn that feels great after a good night's rest... I get dressed and head downstairs to get my tools and some food to take with me after I gather all my supplies and food. I head back out into the forest, walking along the slight path that I made yesterday, my thoughts drifting to another subjext as I go... Hmm this is a shrine... Maybe I should offer a quick prayer to the guys while I'm there.... It's no Sistine Chapel, but its the thought that counts right? I whistle a little tune as I continue to get closer to the shrine @Naka in Wonderland

Her body had needed recovery more then she had believe it had. Even if she had felt strong, powerful even.. remaining in the form of the cat for as long as she had took more out of her then she could offer. Her body had laid resting for the entirety of the night and even as morning dawned she had not found herself waking. So as Rev approached the shrine he would fine a mount of strawberry blond dense fur folded in the back of the shrine. Dressed in the short red kimono, her feet bare and her golden jewelry reflecting the light of the sun. @StroopWaffle

as I finally break through the treeline I finally set my supplies down, making sure not to drop them carelessly... Hah, thank God i was able to find this place again... Turning around so i can get a better idea on what to do next I see a... a... The woman from my dreams is just... Laying there, at the foot of the altar soundly sleeping... I rub my eyes for a moment before seeing the same thing as before... Fuck... Well I'm not crazy at least... I slowly walk up to the altar, thinking of touching you before holding back... I shouldn't, she's helped me, I'm not gonna interupt her sleep... Instead I kneel down for a moment, taking the dogtags from my neck and holding them in my hands a few extra tags on mine, my brothers' tags... If there's a place to pray, in front of a spirit sounds like that place to me... I pray silently, just wishing my brothers a good life beyond. Saying goodbye one last time @Naka in Wonderland

Once she stirred she had to blink her eyes a few times, the light bothering them after having been closed for such a time. The second thing she noticed was a strange buzzing feeling inside her chest. It had been so long since she had felt it that it took her a good moment to be able to place it. It was prayer.. soft spoken words that she could not hear but feel in the very edge of her soul. And these ones were thick with sadness and grief. As she turned around the find the source she couldn't help but jump, her back pressed against the cold veined marble of the shrine. The male was before her, his eyes closed, pieces of metal embedded into his palm. His knuckles white with pressure as he held into them. She had not meant for him to see her.. not yet. Yet there was no way his eyes had not laid upon her. @StroopWaffle

as I finish up my prayer and collect my thoughts I hear a thump in front of me. Opening my eyes i can see... You, kazue pressed against the shrine as you look at me in surprise. My eyes widen as i realize how close I obviously am, scooting back a bit as i hold my hands up "shoot, I'm sorry! I just cam back to continue fixing this place and i saw you there.. And i just..." Fuuuuck... I put my tags back around my neck before looking down, not able to meet your eyes. My hands on my lap trying not to seem threatening "ehm... I guess you're real then... Kazue..." @Naka in Wonderland

Her eyes took him in once more as he stood before her and for a moment she relaxed against the marble behind her but did not come forward. Her red eyes were practically gleaming, as if they were glowing bright in the golden sunlight. The jewellry clinked together as she moved. Her strawberry hair falling over her chest and shoulders. The red kimono hugging her body and showing off her form while the red tattoo's that adored her legs, arms, face and chest stood in stark contrast to her fair complexion. "Apologize not, human." she said, her voice soft and femine, almost as if she was singing instead of talking. "As it was I who showed you this place. As it was your hands who showed me the beauty of my shrine once more and for that I wish to thank thee." @StroopWaffle

*I hear your voice resonating through me, even more wonderful in person. I cant help but look up and stare at you for a moment, transfixed before i snap myself out of it. "Well, that makes us even then... Cause youve been helping me through my memories.... Helping me not make a mistake I cant take back.. So thank you as well" @Naka in Wonderland (sorry for the wait. I'm working an airshow)

She finally brought herself up from her sitting position. Standing up on her long legs. Her tails drifted behind her as it they were weightless and her ears always stayed into his direction. She stayed silent for a while, trying to decide what her next move should be. She did not trust humans, especially not once they knew what they were. Being near him as if she was a pet had been safe.. but now. If he figured our she was powerful, she feared he would use her just like his ancestors had. Her distrust in that moment was thick. "You are welcome." She simply spoke then. "Yet I do not control your dreams. I merely appeared as a distraction to calm the demons in your mind." @StroopWaffle

I stand up as well, standing just a bit taller than you as i watch your ears and tail with a bit of astonishment still... Theyre so cuuute.... And they look so soft too! Damn it Rev get ahold of yourself! I reach my hand forward for you to shake. Trying not to stare at your beauty "still... You helped me, I've been in a damn bad place for months, and youre the only one who not only helped me, but actually seemed to care... So again, thank you" @Naka in Wonderland

She considered the hand he reached out to her, yet did not take it instantly. She still did not trust him with this form of her even if his attitude go her had not seemed to change. Eventually she did reach out and placed her hand in his. Her skin was soft and flawless, her nails a gentle length on her long fingers. "Why did you come here Soldier?" She asked him, remember how he had called himself in the dream. "Why did you seek solitude yet accepted my company?" @StroopWaffle

I shake your hand in mine, my hand being not as soft but still gentle as before. My lips quirk a bit into a gentle smile, the same one ive been giving you this whole time "well, as much as we need our solitude from time to time, nobody deserves a life alone. After all, you've accepted me is more like it" @Naka in Wonderland

The hand shake was quit a foreign thing to her, something that had only become custom after she had already left the land of the humans for the forest that was behind her. She had expected him to kiss her hands, like they had in old times. So for a small bit she was simply staring at it before she pulled it back. “I merely sought to see who was occupying my forest. I usually don’t allow humans on my grounds. The few before you I chased away soon after they came.” She said, almost matter-of-fact like. Of course why she had not done it with him she did not understand fully. Even now that he stood in front of her, in front of her true form, she found herself unsure of what she wished to do with him. @StroopWaffle

i let you retract your hand, before returning mine to my side. I contemplate what i should do now that i know kinda what you are now. "so... I guess I should thank you for not chasing me off... I only hope you'll consider us even when i finish up fixing your shrine here." *I slip a bit into my southern accent before catching myself. Returning to a more neutral tone. "And once im done, feel free to visit as often as you like... I'll do my best to host you comfortably in my home.... After all, this whole place is pretty much yours heh.." @Naka in Wonderland

As he mentioned her Shrine she looked behind her once more and took a look at the structures. He was still planning to go on with his restorations even after seeing her. She didn’t know if that was a good sign or a bad one. She also was unsure of how much she could actually share with the human that was in front of her. “You do not need to offer up your home to me now that you know my true form. I would understand if you would rather keep to your own. Even if I thank you for the deed you have done for me, I could restore this place on my own if that is what you would wish.” She had somehow already convinced herself that he wouldn’t stick around with her. @StroopWaffle

I chuckle a bit, waving off your offer. "Hehehahah, no... I would offer it to you either way, I enjoy your company, be it fox lady or cat... Hell, you're practically apart of the family now." *I'm practically beaming at you at this point. Simply glad to have a friend here. I finally collect myself a bit, looking up at the shrine with a bit of an appraising eye "and if ya dont mind, I want to fix this with my own two hands... Doenst feel right to start something and not follow through, ya know?" I scratch the back of my head a bit bashfully @Naka in Wonderland

This time it was her turn to let a soft chuckle escape her. One that was quickly hidden by her hand. “I am a Kitsune.” She chimed, her eyes full of small twinkles. “Not a fox lady.” Again a chuckle rang the air, almost like a soft bell that went off in the distance. “And if that is what you desire, then you are free to work on my shrine.” @StroopWaffle

"well I'm glad to know what the proper term is now" I smile down at you, happy that you're a bit more relaxed around me now. Though i now realize... Wait, if,she was kazue... I cuddled this woman... A lot! "oh, ehm... I do apologize about all the cuddling I did, heh.." a light blush dusts my cheeks for once

@Naka in Wonderland (bit of a rush cause of work)

Her eyes softened a bit as he said that. Her head tilting to the side just slightly as she looked at him from where she stood. Her tails slowed down their swings a bit as if she was thinking. “Would you not have if you knew this was my true form?” She asked him. “Would you have rather not have had me share your bed during the night?” She added to it, thought there was no sexual intention behind her voice. To her she was stating facts. @StroopWaffle

I relax after a moment, scratching the back of my head as i laugh a bit. The blush remaining on my cheeks "not at all, I enjoyed it, though I would have asked permission first before I pulled you into my lap, or my arms heh..." my thoughts go back to all the times i simply held Kazue, pressed against me warming me up.... Geez I haven't held anyone like that in years, never really had anyone to cuddle with after i joined.. "I dont regret sharing the bed with ya, not at all. It was... Nice" @Naka in Wonderland

She averted her eyes from him once more, though a small smile danced on her lips. Her tails once again started to pick up their movements. The blush on his cheeks was curious. She had seen it before, usually when humans courted one another. To see it displayed upon his cheeks made her wonder if perhaps.. She walked towards him then with a casual stride and placed a hand gently against his chest as she brought them close. She looked up into his eyes then, holding them with her gaze. “Would you want me there again?” She asked him, a small hint of plafulness in her gaze. @StroopWaffle

my eyes widen as you step towards me, placing your warm hand on my chest... My god... She's beautiful.. "I uhm...." I stop for a moment, collecting myself as I blush furiously. I'm not going to stutter like some middle schooler. "I would enjoy it... Though only if you wanted to" I look into your eyes, trying to convey my sincerity... "Just having someone there... Helps me. I've had the best sleep in years these past few days. But I dont want to,subject you to those memories" *I place my hand over yours on my chest, almost like a pledge

@Naka in Wonderland

She couldn’t help but be amused by his reactions. The way his cheeks found color and his body seemed to tense underneath her touch. Even his voice has started to skip like a stone that was bouncing on water. It drew a small chuckle from her lips. “Does the thought of me next to you really please you so?” She asked him, still an amused tone behind her voice. “And your memories do not disturb me as they are nothing I have not seen before.” He eyes travelled down to look at the hand that was placed over the back of hers and she remembered the look of his body when he had half undressed himself in front of her. “Tell me.. is sleeping the only thing you wish to do with me?” She asked, though again, there didn’t seem to be a sexual intonation beneath them. @StroopWaffle

(I'm actually headed to bed. I'll pick this up in the morning)

(Np :3)

My thoughts shift back to all the times we cuddled, even back to a very warm feeling i had when i was asleep... It felt like I was really holding someone... That must have been her... I look back down at you, my blush starting to cool down "well, holding you in cat form was nice, though I have to say... This form of yours felt warmer and more comfy" I chuckle lightly as I hear your second question however, my blush returns in full, eyes widening in surprise, and a bit of emberrassment. "well.. I mean... Um... Besides cuddling? Well I simply enjoy my time with you..." @Naka in Wonderland

She couldn’t help but feel enjoyment from the blushes she was getting out of him. The insecurity in his body. It was so different from the guy she had seen walking into this forest. Neither was he like the man that she had found in his dreams. He was a curious one. “Well then, perhaps I shall join you tonight.” She said, tilting her head. @StroopWaffle

I finally begin to calm down, before pulling you into a warm firm hug... Even if she's teasing me a bit... I know she means it.. Thank you Kazue... Though dont think you have to... I appreciate it. You're presence... It helps" my body is firm and warm, obviously built hardy, though still being gentle enough in my embrace as to not squeeze you too much.. @Naka in Wonderland

The hug came as a surprise and for a second she didn’t know quite what to do with it. Being embraced by him had been one thing, but seeing he was still willing to do this with her in this form.. it took her for a bit of a loupe. Eventually her weight came to rest into him. Soaking up the warmth that he offered. He could smell his scent in her nose. He smelled of pine needles and ocean breeze.. “I will be there..” @StroopWaffle

you feel a bit small in my arms, warm and fluffy as well.... You feel like comfort. Eventually I pull back. A small smile gracing my features as I step away from you "Again kazue, thank you. I'm not sure what sort of state i'd be in roght now if it wasnt for you" I give you one last smile before heading back to the tools I set down, as well as the food I prepared for lunch...hm. "well I'm going to get to work for a bit, would you like to join me for lunch in an hour or two?" I look back to you again, my relaxed grin across my face again as I speak @Naka in Wonderland

He kept thanking her and that was curious thing. It had been a long time since she had been thanked for anything. Eventually humans had just started to expect things from her and then eventually they had started to take. It seemed they had come full circle once again. She took her own step back as he broke the contact and watched him walk off as he gathered his tools. “Yes. I will be here.” She assured him. “Though I do not require food. So you might wish to keep it for yourself.” @StroopWaffle

my eyes click with understanding. "Ohhh, so,that's why you only ate occasionally... So if you don't need food, what sort of sustenance do you need?" I think for a moment... She's not like a plant right? Does she photosynthesize? No I'm being stupid... "If I can help you out I'll give you whatever ya need... As long as its not my soul or something crazy like that" *I chuckle while taking out a paint brush with some primer. Walking over to the wooden post I start priming it as i talk to you @Naka in Wonderland

She looked him over. Her eyes going from his eyes all the way down to his feet before she answered him. “I require energy.” She said to him. “Attention.. prayer.. faith.. restoring my home.” She said as she turned towards the building that his paintbrush had just brushed over. “They all give me back something of me.” She tried to explain to him. @StroopWaffle

I listen to you for a moment, mulling the idea over in my head.. Hmm so she gets rejuvenated by positive attention... I'm, I wonder.. "ahhh got it... Do you get anything from eating or drinking though?" as I talk idly to you, I continue to prime the pillar. My thoughts however have turned towards testing something out. I begin to think positive thoughts toward the shrine and yourself, a kind of quasi prayer @Naka in Wonderland

“I enjoy the taste.” She said to him and she did. It was the only reason for her to take food or drinks to her. And sometimes she quite enjoyed it. Especially sweets, they were among her favorites. She watched as he worked on the building. That will suddenly she felt this warmth grow in her chest, a small vibration that went through her body. She looked towards him again, her eyes furrowing together. It was coming of him. “What are you doing?” She asked him curiously. @StroopWaffle

I look up from my work for a moment, a sheepish smile on my face as I run my hand through my hair "heh.. So I guess that worked... I thought that if I thought positive thoughts and feelings towards you and the shrine, it would give you some extra energy while I work... I mean, if i can help you then why not right?" @Naka in Wonderland

She eyed him with curiosity as he seemed so pleased himself. “You spoke a prayer?” She said, still confused as to what he had just done. That small vibration that had been felt in her very core. It was a feeling that she had not felt in such a long time that it had taken her completely by surprise. Yet it was a nice feeling and she couldn’t help but bring her hand to her chest and marvel in it’s feeling. “Thank you..” @StroopWaffle

I'm a bit concerned at first as to whether i did something wrong for a minute, but when i hear your gratitude I can't help but smile. My lips curling up into that familiar expression once again "you're welcome Kazue, I'm glad i could help" I get back to my work again, my demeanor remaining cheerful as I start humming some pop songs ive heard recently... She's so.. Cute when she gets like that...

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@Naka in Wonderland

She left him to it for the next few hours. At some point she even left his side. She had spend two days with the man and even if the forest was her own personal little prison she had made for herself, she still provided for it. And with her new found energy she could provide for it even better now. She shared the wealth of her energy with the trees and the plants, ensuring their blooms to be big and beautiful and to provide nutritious berries for the animals in the forest. It was her work that kept it balanced and working. It wasn’t till the lunch that she appeared back before him, coming from the tree line still in her true form. Her eyes wandered to her shrine and even in those few hours it was starting to look more and more like how it once was. Or perhaps even better. Th paints he used were more vibrant then she could remember them being in the old days that the shrine had been build. “You must be tired. Do not feel that you need to finish this task for me as once. I do not want you to grow exhausted.” @StroopWaffle

I wipe the sweat from my brow with a spare rag i brought, the heat being worse than I thought it would be in the shade. I look over and give a bit if a tired grin "you're probably right, I can get caught up in my work sometimes heh." I step back and survey my work for a moment, my eyes scanning for any spots ive missed so far...hmm looks good, though I might want to brace the back a bit.. "hope it's up to your standards so far, I never saw it in its prime after all. I'm gonna go eat the lunch i made, if youd like to join me?" @Naka in Wonderland

“It is beautiful..” she said honestly as she had a hard time peeling her eyes away from the structure. Though when she did she found something else that caught her eyes. She could tell how hard he had worked. The sweat on his skin was caused his arms to gleam in the sunlight. It also had drenched his shirt enough to make it stick to his skin and show the curves of the muscles that lay underneath. “If you’d like to join me?” It was those words that pulled her away from those thoughts. She focused her eyes back upon his face and forced them into a smile. “I will sit down with you, though I still believe you should keep your food for yourself.” She offered him as she walked over to him and sat down upon the ground. @StroopWaffle

I smile widely pleased at your reaction to my work. Sitting down against a nearby tree, I pull over my lunch box and open it up, to reveal a rather large amount of food consisting of sandwiches as well as a bag of chips and a few water bottles. Obviously I'm... Quite the eater. "I'll enjoy the company none the less, especially yours." beginning to dig into my food, I eat quickly yet not impolitely. I wipe my mouth after a few bites "so.. Is there anything you'd like to talk about? I can tell you've been out here for quite a while... Anything you want to know about the world?" @Naka in Wonderland

She watched him as he ate, content to say at the side lines and listen to the sounds he made as he worked on his food. She had always enjoyed watching humans eat. It was a strange thing really. She figured it was because she knew that it would keep them strong and healthy if they ate well. At his question her eyes would raise from his mouth to his eyes. “Almost 200 years..” she said softly, mostly to herself as he guessed she had been here for a while. She couldn’t believe it had been so long. “Though I don’t think it matters much if the world has changed. As many things don’t change. Humans are selfish and most their choice are made for their personal gain..” she said, though she realized she was claiming him to also have those intentions. She couldn’t take back what she said. @StroopWaffle

I stop eating for a moment and contemplate how long you've been here, my mind thinking back to what it might've been like back then... Wasnt that when they started trading with the West? Damn... You're other words bring me out of my own thoughts. I look back to you for a moment, a bit of a sad smile on my face though not sad for myself. "yeah... You're not totally off base with that to be fair. I fought in a war against people who were the worst cases of personal wealth over others wellbeing... I like to think im better than that but I accepted my paycheck to fight all the same... Though... Whenever we got to free a village, or give out some food to those who needed it... That made it all worth it..." my smile becomes more genuine as I reminisce a bit of the better times "I'm not a completely unselfish being... But id like to think im not all bad either"

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@Naka in Wonderland

She eyes him curiously as he spoke. She had rarely ever heard one of the humans admit to what they were, or what they did. They usually liked to hide and blame it on others. To hear one admitting to their selfish ways, even if just a little bit was interesting. As he claimed to not be that bad she couldn’t help but look at the shrine behind her and the way that it was already looking so much better then it had in maybe a hundred years. She finally looked back at him. “I believe you to right.” She offered him. “But I can not trust your kind.. not anymore.” She admitted. @StroopWaffle

i think back to all I've done, the good and bad... Regret and feel pride in... I like to think that ive done more good than bad but thats something I'll never truly be able to know... When i hear your words my lips curl into a small smile, a chuckle escaping from me... "Heh... Yeah that's probably for the best... Im not sure how I can anymore either. You may not be able to trust me, and i respect that so keep an eye on me as much as you want... I dont mind.." *my eyes turn back to yours, years of exhaustion showing but a solemn determination also shining through @Naka in Wonderland

Every time his mouth seemed the open, the less she understood the human before her. He was so different from the rest of them. Yet she could not see him as an entirely different being. He was still human, a human that admitted to it’s selfish ways. Yet he also kept surprising her with how he seemed to know that was how he was. “Why can you not trust humans anymore? Because you fought in a war?” @StroopWaffle

"well... I have to admit its a bit of a personal reason.." I look down at my food, frowning outright at the memory. "I was married at first... During the war, at least the first part of it... I went home for some rest and relaxation and... Lets just say my spot in our bedroom was filled while i was gone..." I smile ruefully "I was a fool in love... But that ended pretty quickly" @Naka in Wonderland

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