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Jasper BOT 23-Aug-22 09:14 PM
Jasper was nervous, tonight was kids night at the libray, and he was stressed. Not only did he have to deal with the full moon that was hsppening that night, but he also had to make sure the libray was set up , handing out snacks to all the parents ans kids who come to visit. With parent who dripped their kids odd for a few hours, also came his job as free babysitter. He had a movie playing for the kids who decided to stay away from their parents mingled. He was a very quiet and shy person, he kept to himself, ans minded his buiness. Alot of the kids at the elementary school admired that about him, and always came to him when they had problems. When they came to library feeling grumpy and just needed a hug, if the girls needed their hair braided and the boys needed it spiked. If a kindergarten was having a hard time with leaving mom and dad, he would always be there to offer a tight hug, and a promise he would come check on them at lunch. And for that all the parents were thankful for him. He didn't mind doing this, he was glad he was able to provide the kids with a sense of security, and a sense of safety while at the Libray. Heck some of the kids had began to call him a Vampire, because of his bright ginger hair, and pale skin. The way he spoke they were convinced he was a vampire or someone Peter pan would be friends with, because he spoke in a British accent. Which he didn't mind this either, he happily kept the illusion away from Vamprire. Now Jasper was in the libray putting up some last minute decorations. it was almsot time for the parent mingled with their friends, His favorite kindergarteners were there, giving him decorations, and tape to hang everything up as they prepared for winter. "Mr Jasper, my mommy said your not really a Vamprire, is that true?" One of the girls asked hugging his leg sadly. Jasper chuckled softly. "Well darling, it's hard for grown ups to believe, yeah? So it takes time for others like us to help keep the mag
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ic alive." He replied gently petting her head softly."If you really are a Vamprire, then where's your fangs?" A little boy asked crossing his arms He chuckled. "Now, where would the magic be if I just showed my fangs?" He asked carefully putting the chair back where it belonged looking at the kids. "Is believing seeing?" He asked All the kids shook their heads, Jasper made sure they all held their beliefs close to their hearts and believed fully. He smiled softly. "Then, I'm just as much of a fairy as Santa is real." He smiles, causing all the kids to smile, and try and hold his hand while he lead them to his circle rug so they could all enjoy the movie. It was going to be a long night but he wouldn't have it any other way.
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🍂Ken🍂 23-Aug-22 09:14 PM
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Elif Ling BOT 24-Aug-22 09:57 PM
When she had been younger, most people disapproved of her pink hair. It was a rare phenomenon, and in some local villages, it heralded evil portents. Remembering this, her mother had tried to cut her hair off by the request of her Aunt. She did not wish it, but she was scared of her daughter getting bullied. She had cried when her mother had shaved off her head when she was four, starting kindergarten, in the village of Serena Sol. This caused many people to make fun of her anyways. Her mother later found out she had been jealous. Her own children had red or brown hair; the rare phenotype was supposed to be auspicious in their family. Her Aunt was angered that her younger sister's daughter inherited this gene and her own children had not. So, there had been a fight. The aunt thought she had been successful, in using superstition and envy to rid herself of competition. To her aunt's anger and her own mother's relief, her pink hair grew back dense and beautiful. Sure, it was still considered portentous in the village-town of Serene Sol, though she was happy to have her pink hair back. In the twilight it glowed and looked one with the sun. This caused both awe and jealousy in many. Not many people had biological pink hair. She also had the rare combination of having it with black eyes as most people had it with blue eyes. In all honesty, Elif Ling, did not know what was so special of it when she was younger. She loved it though did not understand the hullbaloo around it. She did not understand what was the mystique; soon, her grandmother, a travelling herbalist, who had come back from many travels, slapped the hell out of aunt, told her. She had the blood of something immortal and when it combined with human genomes, it could create an elixir, which helped many. The tale was such that her blood could either heal or damn demon races and provide some hop for mankind. Hence, as hair was 'dead' in some ways, her hair was pink, a slight blush of blood on her hea
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d. The rare combination of black eyes, meant it was potent. It was rich and in high concentration. That she could do a lot with it. The other side to her blood, the oft overlooked and not understood, was that she would find her true love more easily. If the strands of her and her love, bind at a particular time at dawn, and he is of red hair, that means she found her eternal partner. Someone she could rely on and they could rely on her for the rest of their lives, maybe even after life was over, and souls went away to a more gentle repose. When she was younger, Elif had constantly hated being told to watch out from being kidnapped and trafficked. There was a moment when she was fourteen, her mother, fearing someone had been following her to take her away, dyed her hair blue and black. This made Elif start hating her hair. Why was she saddled with something that caused her misery and ostracism? Angered by this, she constantly dyed her hair green, blue and even blonde. She did not always enjoy it, but during the time she was a lawyer in the popular form of Straus and Diadem, she had short blonde hair, even at one time, platinum blonde hair. She was known to wear beautiful sapphire earrings and be a powerhouse to deal with. Most people were scared of her. One day, she had an accident, it had one of those accidents, that changed your life. Someone sabotaged her car ride as she was going to an important case. She was supposed to serve as prosecutor for someone in the mob , the young and upcoming, Denny Diablos, the smart talking and vulpine upcoming ruler of the streets. Denny had been trying to scare Elif off with as many tactics as possible. Denny had even tried to get some men to beat up Elif when she was trying to take the subway. It got so bad the police gave her a protection detail. Though, it did not stop the chain of events that would occur. There had been a shootout. She was caught in it and got shot nine times. She had survived but with trauma.
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There had been PTSD she had to deal with. So many things had happened and then she went back and told her grandmother, that she wanted to learn her herbalist trade and integrate with allopathic medicine. So, now, she was a hospice doctor/nurse and also a resident psychologist. She was brilliant and even if transition from law had been hard, well, she knew she would have to do it. Elif had come to the library because she needed two books, one on medical anthropology and the other on some medical laws that could traverse common law and federal law. To her surprise, she saw children and their parents were here. She was a bit surprised at the sudden arrival and forget what day it was; she hardly frequented the library in these hours. She saw the library entertaining the children — she deduced he was the one as he was the adult fixing up stuff for the children to watch and entertain themselves with: "Uh, excuse me, Mister, could I speak with you for a minute?" He was taller than her and he had red hair and more prominent freckles than her. @🍂Ken🍂
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Jasper BOT 24-Aug-22 10:32 PM
Jasper looked from from where he sat on the carpet, he gave her a kind smile as he carefully stood up dusting himself off. "Alright you turkeys, I must help this amazing young lady, you all be on your best behaviors. Or no lollies for you lot." He said half heartedly, as he smiled "now, go see miss Rebecca at the children's desk, she eill give you each one lolli, and please for everything holy, dont smash it into the carpet he begged." With the mixture of groans and 'Yes Mr Jasper.' He gave a satisfied smile, before he began to walk over towards Elif. "Goodevening miss, lovely night for a stroll innit?" He asked carefully leading her back to his desk, were he booted his computer up, making sure it was ready incase she needed him to look at anything. As he looked up at her with a happy smile. "Now, welcome to Lincoln libray, is there anything I can help you with today? Looking for something Spacific? Or nut browsing ?" He smiled couriously at the woman. He couldn't help but have a strong feeling, the more he looked at her, the more strange he felt. He had a deep sense of belonging, when their eyes met, his skin felt tingly, and his brain was working faster then I should. He quickly moved his feelings to the back burner snd smiled waiting for her reply @Ruvik the Unchained Predator
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Elif Ling BOT 25-Aug-22 01:40 AM
"Oh, yes I am Elif Ling." On his comment about strolls, "Uh, well, I work in hospice, so I need to be very vigilant on times. Though, it is a very nice night for a stroll." The candour of his voice and spirit, truly made her feel at ease. Was he the one I was hearing vampire rumours about? She felt a surge of something yet decided heavily against it. She needed to be focused and she needed to get those books she had browsed before on the internet. She should have made a booking for later, but it was better to get acquainted with the staff at these hours. Elif also had noticed how nice he was with the kids, which was always a good sign with the people who worked with kids and in libraries. "So, I am looking for two books, Innovating for Patient Safety in Medicine by Rebecca Lawton and Gerry Armitage. And, Still Not Safe Robert Wears and Kathleen Sutcliffe." She smiled at him, "I kinda wanted to do some reading before I have to go off and take care of some of the patients in some of their homes." @🍂Ken🍂
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Jasper BOT 25-Aug-22 06:18 AM
Jasper gave her a kind smile "of course, it's lovely to meet you Elif, I am Jasper." He replied getting a postit note writing down the books, before he began to search up the locations of the books on hid computer. "Now Miss Ling, do you have a libray card? If not I can get you set up with one, it'll only take a few moments." He replied writing Down the locations of all the books. While he worked a young kid maybe 4 came behind his desk, and just hugged his leg. normally a libray worker would tell them to leave, and go back to their families, but Jasper just stopped what he was doing and picked up the kid, holding him on his hip and resumed his work. "Alrighty, these are fairly easy to find. If you'd follow me I can lead you to them." He smiled picking up the paper. "Now Harry, your parents. Let's see do I have a thumbs up to take you with me. I see the thumbs up, we are good." He told the toddler with a smiled gently walking back Over to Elif, leading her up the stairs. "I apologize for the craziness miss Ling, tonight's out kids movie night, all ages of kids come and watch a movie with their parents. Looks like Harry here wants to work tonight ." He teased gently bouncing the toddler, who just giggled. Jasper walked over to a asile of books, beginning to pull out all of her book requests. He gently set them in her arms, as he carefully got the last book. "There we are. I hope these are too your liking !" He smiled at her @Ruvik the Unchained Predator
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Elif Ling BOT 25-Aug-22 12:54 PM
"Do you have kids of your own? Or younger siblings? You seem very good with them?" Elif asked as she waved to the child, it was nice seeing a young man good with children. In hospice, she always encountered, usually men than the archetype of Nurse Ratchet, who were mean to kids and the elderly. They did not seem to possess the comprehension on Why they were going about it wrong and even as a form of abusive nature. "You can call me Elif. Can I call you Jasper?" She smiled as she took the books, "I do have a library card. Do not worry, I know the filing system of this library. Used it for over 10 years. Had many late nights here, once upon a time. I think there was a staff change two years ago. So, I have been away and did not know the new people. As you." Elif tried not to remember getting shot. @🍂Ken🍂
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Jasper BOT 25-Aug-22 01:08 PM
Jasper smiled "I wish, but sadly I am an only child and have no children of my own. Working in the libray, i have learned the kids all deserve love, even if they arnt my kids, i still show them love. I tend to babysit on weekends, all the kids you see down stairs, I've babysat at least once. Harry here, I get him every Sunday night and during the day. " He said softly gently rocking the toddler in his arms, as he looked up at Elif. "Yes please call me Jasper. well Elif it is very lovely to meet you.' He replied softly, looking at her with a smile. "Yes there was a staff change, actually the libray closed about five years ago. I bought it about three years ago, and reopened it. I live in the flat upstairs. Im very blessed to have the opportunity to fix up the libray, i hope everyone enjoys the new programs thay happen. " He smiled helping her get the books down stairs to the front desk. "Would you like to update any of your information on your card?" He asked her with a smile. @Ruvik the Unchained Predator
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Elif Ling BOT 25-Aug-22 01:14 PM
"Wow, managing the library and having the kids over? Aren't you amazing?" Elif grinned, genuinely meaning it, "I do not always work with compassionate men. I am not tryiing to be mean. Just the other week, some dude got fired for punching an elderly gentleman. They had a struggle and he got mad and hit the poor old man. Yes, it is criminal. There are going to be charges. Unfortunately, you meet these sorts of people in hospice." Elif looked at the kid, Harry and wished she could take him in his arms. Though, not without permission. It is sad...how I tried for kids...oh well... "Oh yes, I live somewhere else. I have not been here for many years myself. Though I now remember I think I seen you around back then. When you were not fully the owner yet. I used to have short platinum blonde hair." @🍂Ken🍂
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Jasper BOT 25-Aug-22 01:39 PM
Jasper laughed softly. "Yes well, I'm not amazing , I am just have a bleeding heart ." He replied softly, quickly trying to change his wording when Harry gasped. "Im not bleeding Harry, it means I am very kind toward others and make sure to be kind to everyone." He said smiling softly ad the toddler relaxed. He frowned listening to Elif talk about the man who was fired, he had an dark look on his face, he gently shook his head worriedly. He sighed softly, carefully typing in the computer, pulling up Elif's libray profile so they could update her adress. "People like do not deserve to be near others. They deserve to be alone with no contact with other humans ." He said, sounding a bit bitter when he said the word human. He sighed shaking his head. "Applogies, hearing those sort of things happening in thos town, makes me very sad." He admitted looking at her a bit confused, he hummed softly looking at her. "Maybe, I moved here three years ago, I can't remeber sadly. But..... you do feel familiar." He replied softly looking at her with a kind smile.. @Ruvik the Unchained Predator
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Elif Ling BOT 25-Aug-22 02:37 PM
"Yes, I agree with you. Sometimes, caring for others is more than just some pay-job. It requires empathy, my well, I guess he is not a boyfriend yet, we been dating a bit. David Annapurna. He is a nice one. He actually does a lot to take care of people." Elif smiled at how Jasper made sure Harry was okay. "Yes, I was a different person back then. Well, looked different. I dyed my hair blonde and like was a prosecutor. I moved to hospice." There was no reason to tell Jasper she got shot nine times, one near her womb, which made it harder for her to get pregnant. Her fiancé of the time left her because of that. Married someone four years younger than her and him. Has four kids and is looking unhappy. Hits up her DMs many times. She never replies. @🍂Ken🍂
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Jasper BOT 25-Aug-22 02:53 PM
He nodded softly looking back at the computer. "Im glad you found someone who is just as kind and caring for you." He replied softly. Carefully sitting in his office chair so he could use both hands to type. "Im afraid there is only a few people who are that kind, and those blokes are very hard to find ." He replied with a small frown. He couldn't help but feel jelous, Jasper had a fiancé, her name was Charlie. But she ended up passing a month before their wedding due to an accident. And that was back in the 1990s. He hasn't dated since , he tired at least. But with the rumors of him being a vampire going around caused it to become harder and harder for him to be able to find anyone, who doesn't believe the rumors. He chuckled softly looking up at Elif. "Yeah well, I believe everyone was diffrent back then. I mean I use to wear contacts. Noe I only use glasses ." He chuckled softly. "Well....it's not really the same innit. But hey it's a difference." He smiled carefully checking the books out on her card. @Ruvik the Unchained Predator
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Elif Ling BOT 25-Aug-22 03:00 PM
"I had an accident. Made me change majors." Elif felt saying this much was okay, "I met David after a long time as well. I was supposed to marry with someone from my law firm. After my accident, he dropped me and started a new family." She laughed, as pain was apt to make people laugh. "I am glad I found David. I think it was nice meeting someone who, you know, did not define me as less. Did not define me for my wounds." @🍂Ken🍂
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Jasper BOT 25-Aug-22 03:12 PM
Jasper looked at her sadly. "Im sorry that happened love, you didn't deserve that, I'm glad you have David, he sounds like a lovely fellow." He replied softly carefully putting her books in a fabric libray bag placing them on the desk. "I truely hope you found your soul mate, you didn't deserve any of that." He said softly looking at her with a kind smile. He wish he had that, bit sadly he couldn't. "Um...you should bring David here, tomorrow night wr have a couples wine and dine night. You'll be able to sit and chat if you'd like. It should be a romantic night. A lovely winary owner is hosting it." He said getting in the desk to give her two tickets for the dinner. @Ruvik the Unchained Predator
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Elif Ling BOT 25-Aug-22 08:44 PM
"That sounds like a great idea. Actually, I am not sure if David, is my boyfriend, yet. He said he had some important things to talk about. You are right." Elif smiled, "Maybe, I should bring him over the couples wine and dine. Thank you! You are really sweet!" @🍂Ken🍂
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Jasper BOT 25-Aug-22 08:52 PM
He smiled nodding "of course love, it's a new program we are trying to help get more people involved with our lovely libray." He chuckled softly, looking around his desk frowning when he saw a note. He sighed "well Harry, I guess your staying the night tonight. Your parents forgot to ask." He sighed carefully looking at the note shaking his head head. He wished they woukd of spoken to him, but it wasn't the first time it's happened. @Ruvik the Unchained Predator
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Elif Ling BOT 26-Aug-22 12:25 AM
"Oh, they just made you...take care of Harry?" Elif found this strange, she did not know why the parents were doing this. Not that she found it odd that Jasper was being the nanny, he seemed more than capable. She was just displeased they just imposed it on him. Did not even ask. "Do you want me to help you care for him?" She asked, after all, he should not have to do things alone. @🍂Ken🍂
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Jasper BOT 26-Aug-22 06:18 AM
"Its alright, not like Harry is an awful kid, just has loonies for parenrts im afraid. We more then likely will eat some chicken nuggets, have a bath, snuggle while watching bluey. Then he'll be asleep by 7." Jasper smiled looking at her, he blushed softly "um. Oh if you'd like I don't mind, but what about David? " He asked her couriously. He was worried if she came upstairs she'd find his blood supplements, or shed find out he has no silver in the flat at all. And with the full moon, he wasn't sure what was going to happen. @Ruvik the Unchained Predator
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Elif Ling BOT 26-Aug-22 02:16 PM
"I am taking these loonies, his parents, well, they come to the library frequently? Are they coming to wine and dine? Where did they go off to?" Elif was perturbed, they had just abandoned their son to Jasper, what if the kind and sweet library had not been there? She shuddered to think of the poor four year old, Harry, sitting all alone in the library at night. "God, I have had nightmares as a child. Being left alone in a library. With something chasing me." It was strange, yet Jasper's kindness, sweet voice and sense of self, and his care for children and love as one like Harry, made her divulge something she never really told anyone. Not her ex fiancé, hardly her parents and definitely not David. It seemed, Jasper would understand these things better than anyone else. "Harry, you are much braver than me." Elif smiled at the child. Throughout the night, she noticed the boy treated Jasper more of a father, in some respects. "David would not mind. I am texting him right now about wine and dine plans tomorrow. He did say he needed something urgent to discuss with me." @🍂Ken🍂
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Jasper BOT 26-Aug-22 02:31 PM
Jasper blinked slightly as the thunder of questions. He hummed softly, gently patting Harry's back as he listened to her. "They do come frequently, no they arnt coming to the wine and dine, so Harry will be with me then too. Heaven knows were they go, I'm just thankful they started waiting until Harry is with me to scurry off." He hummed softly gently swaying the toddler, who just happily snuggled close to him. Jasper laughed softly. "Goodness, I cannot lie, but I've had those dreams as well. The worse one is standing infront of your classmates with no trousers on." He snorted softly shaking his head, he didn't know what it was, but it was so easy to talk to Elif, his words came naturally and the sense of belonging with her, was something he wasn't sure if he should be afraid of or welcome. Little Harry just smiled widely, pointing to Jasper, causing the man to smile, doing a few hand guesters to the boy. "He said I'm braver. Sorry, Harry can't speak. I'm working with him, he just likes sign language betterm much to my demise, it's American sign language. I only know biritish, so I am learn." He chuckled looking ag het with a smile. "Hopefully it's a good urgent ." He replied softly @Ruvik the Unchained Predator
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Elif Ling BOT 26-Aug-22 03:01 PM
Elif found this so worrisome. The way Jasper was describing things. She would be surprised if one day, social services got involved. It did not seem Harry ate well either. Thr boy was a skinny and small four year old. Why do parents have kids, if they do not want them? Harry did not deserve this unkindness and neglect. Her lawyer instincts flare their nostrils, wanting to sue. "Harry could talk in the sign language he prefers." Elif knew a bit and signed to him he was incredible and that he was strong. On his question, "Hmmm. I do not know. So, I am not certain...I...David?" She saw her somewhat boyfriend come in and she smiled, "Uh, Jasper, this is David Annapurna." The man hugged Elif and smiled st Jasper. "Hey, Elif, can we talk?" She knew that tone and she nodded as she asked Jasper to give her moment. They went to some of the shelves, rhough Jasper may catch some of this conversation. "I think...I think dating was not the best idea. Maybe, we should stop?" Elif felt her face drain of colour, "Seriously, David? Here and Now?" This had to be some plot to a B movie. She was getting dumped in the library. It felt more high school than adulthood. "I know...I know..." David's gentle voice made it harder for Elif to even question his seeming audacity. Though there was a pain in his eyes. This mist of sadness, she had not expected to see or encounter. "I know...where you went last night. And, why, you are in the library tonight." Elif looked away in shame. She should have know David would figure it out. "I am really sorry..." "I am not angry you are doing this. I just feel like...a bit betrayed you know? I think you think I am going yo be immediately judgmental " David sighed, "Is that the reason, you were going around my back, hiding this?" "Well, you are being pretty judgmental, now." She knew that was not true and she was being mean saying it like that. She was the one wrong here. She should not have hid this from him. "I mean. I am not
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, Elif. I am legitimately just worried. You know his family hating you visiting and taking care of him. I know you think people would hate you for even consideeing caring for him." David was so understanding and gentle, it made Elif want to cry, "I just wished you told me more. How can we date if you do noy trust me on this? Maybe, we work better as friends? I am just thinking...why would Elif not tell me?" "Because of this. What is happening right now. Most people just assume he and I, should be enemies. I just...I just cannoy forget about him." Elif sobbed a bit. She wiped her tears. David hugged her, "I think you are brave and kind, Elif. I know we are still friends. I think it is best we stay this way for now. I think you have trouble trusting me. I cannit blame you for that. But I would be lying if I said it did not bother me." Elif hugged him back and nodded. He was not wrong at all. He had to be right. David smiled at her, "See you in Mrs. Shelly's house?" "Yup. See you during work hours." Elif meekly commented. This breakup was less than ideal. Though it had been coming. @🍂Ken🍂
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Jasper BOT 26-Aug-22 03:22 PM
Jasper nodded staying with Harry, he turned to his desk, sitting the small boy on his lap, gently rocking him from side to side. Making sure to look busy, he didn't mean to listen in, but his vampire hearing caused it to be a bit difficult not too. He hummed softly, wondering what she had done to caused David to ultimately break up with her, he wondered why people wanted her and this other person to be enemies. There was just so many questions he had, but he wasn't going to ask. He listened to them talk, while he send a email to social services again, asking them about His options. This wasn't the first or last time, they had left poor Harry, last time they were gone for more then a week. CPS had said if it happens again, Harry would be fully in his care. Which made him worried for the poor boy, wondering hoe he felt about his parents leaving him all the time. but he was more then willing to keep him safe. He hummed a soft lullaby, grabbing his phone to order he and Harry dinner, just so the two of them, by that time David had left. He looked up at Elif and hummed carefully pulling out the extra desk chair. "Sounds like your having a piss poor day love. Have a seat and take a moment ." He replied kindly , getting a bottle of water from his small fridge, handing it to her. @Ruvik the Unchained Predator
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Elif Ling BOT 27-Aug-22 02:03 AM
"Oh, you heard." Elif felt a bit embarrassed but knew that Jasper had good intentions. He was close by, needing to take care of Harry, at the same time, she was also feeling a sense of shame in what had occurred. Firstly, as Jasper had heard so much, Secondly, she must have done David wrong, for him to finally come, without waiting to pull the plug. It seemed like those situations, where she could not say she had no fault. She perfectly did. "I am sorry. I guess, I am not coming to wine and dine after all." Elif wiped away the tears. This gnawing feeling of disappointment, spread through her. She had no right to feel this disappointed. David was still one of her close and best friends. Maybe, knowing how it was failing with him, romantically. Made her feel, nothing in the world was going for her, in this personal manner. This was why she was so saddened. She had thought love was still possible. Now, she was uncertain, once more. @🍂Ken🍂
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Jasper BOT 27-Aug-22 06:01 AM
Jasper hummed softly. "You have nothing to apologize, you can stick go I'd you'd like, I know plenty of singles and widows go, just to enjoy the atmosphere and talking with others." He replied softly, sending the email he was working on, before he turned to face her. "Im sorry your going threw all that love, no one deserves to be broken up with in public. My advice, is to just breath and let him have time to think yeah? Maybe then he will come around to the idea maybe he was in the wrong ." He offered softly. "I dont need details, it is none of my business, but whatever happened you got this ." He offered her with a wide kind smile. @Ruvik the Unchained Predator
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Elif Ling BOT 27-Aug-22 03:37 PM
"David is not a bad person." Elif quickly came to his defence, it was becoming second nature in many ways. Why would she not? He was one of her best friends. One of the only one since she got shot who had been ever present for her. The one who did not shirk away from her when her life incontrovertibly changed. She did not know what else to say on it. Commenting further would make Jasper suspect she had secrets she did not want to share. "And, it is more of a...we do not work well together as a couple. Then being broken up." This was the truth; David may have even felt a bit betrayed that she had gone there, without him. "After so many things we have been through as friends." This was vague enough, it measured the weight and not the details, "I know that he would have been happier if I seemed to trust him more in some aspects. Being a couple is that you know? I disappointed and hurt him. He has the right to be upset." Then she smiled, wiping away tears, "Nice to know. Wine and Dine is okay for Singles." Well, she would need to get drunk after tonight. It is good thing she did not need to see David tomorrow at work or any of the houses she did work in. That meant she could visit him again. They were thinking of better treatment options; so, she would like to be around for those conversations and discussions. "Thanks Jasper." Elif appreciated his kindness, "Your Dad." She said this to Harry, meaning full well her meaning, "Is a Good One." @🍂Ken🍂
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Jasper BOT 27-Aug-22 05:00 PM
Jasper froze for a moment, he didn't mean to offend her, he had no intentions of doing so. He stood there in silence watching her. He did feel bad for her, and he hopped that everything would go back to something happy for her. He hated that she had to go through all of it. He didn't mean too, he honestly tried not to zone but the longer he listened, that way Elif knew she had his conplete and undying attention. But the more and more he zoned out. He remembered an argument he had with his late fiancé. *She was sat on the bed, her head in her hands sobbing, begging him to quit the FBI and stay with her. But he couldn't. It was his Job, but wver since the accident where he almost died and she was forced to turn him into a vampire, things had been diffrent. He knew she was scared of him having things happen to him at work, or people treating him differently, but he was more worried to keep her safe with his job. They had fought and argued alot the months leading up to when she had passed away, that was one of his many regrets he has. * As he focused back into the conversation, Elif was thanking him, he gave her a kind smile, gently nodding. "Of course Elif, you are always welcomed here, if you need a friend to talk to I am always here for you." He promised softly. Watching as Harry giggled and hid his face against his chest. @Ruvik the Unchained Predator
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Elif Ling BOT 28-Aug-22 01:48 AM
Elif had not seem Jasper's lack of focus and the distraction in which he was being with himself. Surely, he had not been obstructed by some other feeling? She thought the worry he had clearly been showing was one of guilt. "I am clearly very sorry, Jasper., You are only trying to help me. I am not attempting to act like your care is underappreciated. It is just, ever since, my accident. David has been an unwavering presence by my side. I had not known I would be hurting him in ways. I had thought I would not. Clearly, I have hurt him. I have done something in which I should have been more open and upfront." Elif felt she had to defend David. He had always been there for her. When she had wanted to change her professions, some people clearly were not happy about it. The income of a hospice nurse was lesser than that of s solicitor and a prosecutor and she would be lying if she said she did not miss the money. She had wanted to branch out in some legal work when she had the chance to do so. However, she had been learning a lot of the care of her own herbalist lineage and so had been tethered to it in many ways as well. It was something she did not wish to give up with very quickly. In the absence of a seemingly good enough rationale, most people thought her ideologies and philosophies sucked and that she was gearing up for many failures. Many failures included the fiscal and the economical, the sort of freedoms and lifestyle she had gotten out of being a high powered lawyer. Those had to be, well not all, some of them definitely, were sacrificed. She understood the hegemonic dimensions of not getting ample pay but putting in more hours. To be doing work constructed as 'feminine', 'menial', 'unnecessary' and a 'dead-end.' Hospice was not the revolutionary frontier of medicine. It lacked the flare of bio-tech and the hard lined profit induction of pharmaceuticals. It was a sense of devotion, care, time, commitment and the fundamentals of compassion. It was a job m
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eant to have social skills and the ability to speak in many angles, contexts and understand the role you play in the communication. It was not the winner/loser oriented world of legal battles and conduct. This was a world where there would be winnings and losings; each would have effects that permeated her as cleanly as IV injections into the bloodstream. Due to her background, so many people had doubted her and had not even wished to work with her. Their definitions of lawyers were they were blood hungry sharks; power-positioned and profit in-taken. Some of them envied her, to have had a job, which many of them would have wanted and then abandoning it on something, some of would deem, failed doctors would follow in - well, this was the culture and the nuances she was dealing with. She knew there would be discriminations and prejudices in the forefront. It also did not help that she was older than people starting out and as they were starting out. With lives ahead of them, she could see they felt she had her time in the sun, being almost approaching her thirties. They did not wish to share much with her; also her accumulated wealth jarred them and made them dislike her more. She was branded as the interloper. She should not belong there. Then there were the untold rules of race and things associated with it. Elif was mixed with her father coming from Iran and her mother's family being mostly Chinese. So, already this was a union not many people anticipated and even her own Aunt, who had wanted her to be the cursed luck, could not accept. She was the mixed bloodlines of seeming two different sorts of peoples and she thrived with the love of her parents and the obscurity and rarity of her lovely pink hair. Already, Elif had checked so many categories of being an outsider and it did not help at all that she was choosing to go so many different paths. She had done this and David had always been, one of those rare people, who had shown her love and understanding.
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Jasper BOT 28-Aug-22 05:01 AM
Jasper nodded softly. "You don't have to tell me anything, Elif." He reminded her softly. "I can tell David is very important to you, and i know he is someone you care for, and didnt mean to hurt, i trust you. Things just happen, and maybe you filled find someone who is able to understand where you are coming from." He spoke softly as he carefully grabbed his messenger bag, and a little paw patrol bag for Harry. He turned off the libray computer as he looked to her "I need to get Harry upstairs, so I can start his bedtime, you are more then welcome to come up. " He smiled, grabbing his water waving and saying goodbye to all the kids, before he lead Elif upstairs. He carefully grabbing his keys, putting them in his pocket as he began to unlock his door. "Please don't mind the mess, I haven't had time to clean." He sighed, as he carefully opened the door reviling a beautiful large aparment. In the living room stood floor to ceiling bookshelves filled with books on one side of the room. In the middle sat a soft plus sofa, a big fluffy blanket had fallen on the floor, books was scattered everywhere on the floor. But by the TV was a small blue basket, filled with diffrent toys, next to the asket was a framed photo of a beautiful woman with pink hair, she had a wide and freeing smile that brightened the whole room. On one side of the room was huge windows, with a view of the entire city. Jasper carefully set Harry down, smiling softly when the boy went straight to the toys, picking up the picture holding it close while he played. He let Elif in with a kind smile, once she was in he closed the door behind her. "The restroom is down the hall to the left , kitchen is just to the right as soon as you enter." He smiled, carefully putting his messenger bag on the coffee table. "Im going to heat up Harry's dinner. Please make yourself comfortable I will only be a moment. " He smiled, walking to the kitchen, going to make Harry his chicken nuggets and Mac and cheese, as
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well as for him and Elif. This is the life Jasper has always wanted, being a dad cooking for his family, watching his son grow and become a happy and well rounded member of society. Being the husband that was always there for his wife no matter what, but he didn't have that. Well, he would soon. He would more then likely be taking custody of Harry, within the next few days, he didn't mind it, he loved Harry to death. The boy did not deserve all the things his parents put him through, he was one brave little boy, Charlie would of loved him. He knew the little boy already loved her, even if he had only heard stories of her up to this point, he could tell the boy wished he knew who she was. He gently shook the sadness away and continued making their dinner. Once the nuggets was placed in the over, Jasper went back into the livingroom offering a smile as he began to pick up the books from the floor, placing them back on the shelves, before he folded the blanket. "Dinner will be finished soon." He replied sitting on the sofa with a soft smile, watching her gently. "Why don't you sit, you seem like you needed to talk, and my apartment is more private so you have nothing to fear about people listening in." He offered softly. @Ruvik the Unchained Predator
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Elif Ling BOT 28-Aug-22 05:59 AM
Elif did not wish to intrude, however, she also was having a hard time being by herself. She did not wish to be by herself and think about what a horrible failure of a person she was in many respects. She hated it so much, this sinking feeling of depression, trauma, complex post-traumatic stress disorder and all of that. She had wanted so badly...so badly too get away from all of that. Now, she was not sure that which was inescapable and which she could venture out from. She had nothing to really give to herself or others. What if I am not even a good healer? What if...all of this, just keeps on telling me about my obvious failures? Deep inside, all Elif wanted to understand what she could do, what was she able to do. How, she was not certain if she could do anything, if she could accomplish anything. She wanted so badly to love and do so much of loving. Now, she was not sure, if she was able to do any of those things. Everything in her life seemed to be suddenly become more shit. Well, it was not complete shit. Though, she was not sure, if she could really outgrow or die down, the disappointment that David was feeling for her. What will I say to him? Maybe, he could go fuck himself! Elif knew she was angry at him. Why would she not be? She never ascribed for perfection and never really lied to him about anything. | So, what if she hid SOME details, it was not like she was demanding he be an open book to her and for her at all times. Why was this erasure...? She knew why but she did not wish to fully accept it. So, strange, as a lawyer, she was taught things could be black and white. You pounded out the sheets of grey, bulldoze them into fine grain, produce the tar and cement and voila, you have this new road. The fresco of the old died down and there was no need to worry about things as such. Morality could be grey and that is the precedent you, as a lawyer or even drafting contracts as a solicitor, worked on. However, the causation, the climax, the
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incontrovertible finality had to be absolute: Either/Or. Well, when one wanted too be Machiavellian and ruthless. In one's strategy, there could be no pause for hesitation. You were the hunter, your breathed in, you readied the arrow and you went Cupid and Artemis of the motherfucker's ass and that they pray to God for mercy. Life outside the courtroom was so not always binary; the legal system, both secular and the religiously inspired, was dedicated to presented complex evidence and simplifying it as the mathematical equations of yore. Still, it could not erase the complex systems things existed in. The matrices of so many Either/Or, side by side, paradoxically existing and so...she was meant to face this. On one hand, she was okay not telling David certain things, in which the explanations were hard to give. On the other hand, David never demanded explanation as he was were her confidant. he had expected her to give some details by her own consent. The pain was, by this act of not telling him anything, she had somehow defaulted him as a form of outsider. This was what she saw in his eyes. This pain of knowing her and yet not feeling privy to her life. When Jasper had stated he wanted to make dinner, she had wanted to help,. Though he left very quickly and she did not know if she should bother him. Elif saw the picture of a pink haired woman. It was strange because she hardly seen pictures of women like her. Or, even men, with the pink hair. Though, she did have the blue eyes, not her rare black ones. She was more rare as told by her mother and grandmother. Her combination of phenotype was Heavenly and even to some say Divine. She needed to find her Earthly Divine. Though, the way her love life had been going, she felt, there was never going to be a need to actually loom out for others. Elif was staring to think, well, she was destined to care for others and not really have a romantic soul mate. After all, maybe some people did not get partners.
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Elif just smiled and Harry and stated, "Your Dad is awesome. Do you also have a room here?" It was clear by her statements alone, she was thinking, in more than the metaphorical sense, that his father was Jasper. With his parents always abandoning him, it would be counterproductive to think that, well, Jasper was not his father in almost all terms and commitments. When he came back, she smiled at him, then she did sit. Got somewhat quiet: "What is there to really talk about? I suck. I suck and that is why..." Elif could not hold back her tears, before she could do anything, she started crying a bit. She wiped her tears away and attempted to be strong, "Maybe...Maybe I should leave." How awkward it would be...to just cry in front of this young man she just met today? She was feeling mortified. Maybe, she should retreat? After all, this was not sounding like the best idea. @🍂Ken🍂
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Jasper BOT 28-Aug-22 07:55 AM
Harry looked at Elif nodding, he did have a room, it was across from Jasper's. He went back to playing, while Jasper frowned looking at her with so much sympathy, he felt bad she was feeling this way. "Elif, you don't suck, I personally think you are a wonderful person. Your just having a bloody awful day today." He replied softly , giving her a sad look. "I promise you." When she started crying he gently pulled her into his arms, and just hugged her letting her cry against his chest, he hoped she would be okay soon. He gently rocked her. "No you don't have to leave, you seem like you need someone to talk too." He replied softly "im here to listen if you want to talk." Harry gently walked over giving Elif a blue stuff dog, he gently laid it on her lap, before going back to the toys. Jasper smiled "the stuff animal is Harry's confort item, he wants you to snuggle it for comfort." He explained @Ruvik the Unchained Predator
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Elif Ling BOT 28-Aug-22 08:46 AM
Elif did not expect Jasper to console her in such a way. She was not understanding why he was being so kind; yet she appreciated it. She had been feeling so lonely but now without a doubt she could say that with him around she felt less lonesome. There was a kindness to him, in all honesty, she had not expected and she had not known there had been much kindness she could have had around. Though now, she was wondering on why she had missed this form of kindness? Well, she got some of it from David...but...maybe she wanted it from someone, who was not simply a friend. When Harry brought her over the Blue Dog and before she could listen to anything else, she started to cry and hug the dog, "How did he know? Oh , right, it is his favourite. Oh, you sweet boy. I loved Blue's Clues since I was little." Elif snuggled with it and cried a lot. She felt like a fool crying on something that had no definite promises but she did not know what else to do but cry. There was this feeling of disappointment. She did not want to show ungratefulness towards Jasper. She just hoped Harry was not overly frightened by her crying so much and making a tear jerker out of one of his favourite plush toys. "I need to get my own." She sobbed and smiled quietly. @🍂Ken🍂
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Jasper BOT 28-Aug-22 09:03 AM
Jasper gently patted her back gently. He was there for her if she needed to talk, he grabbed a box of tissues, gently placing them on the coffee table close enough for her to grab it. He nodded softly. "Yes, it is like a weighted blanket, he keeps it here so he has a comfort item when he comes. I hate to admit it, but i was always afraid his parents would sell it, so little max stays here" he explained realizing how much of dad he sounded like in that moment. He couldn't help but admit he loved it. Jasper watched her sob, his heart broke for her, they had just met that day but he couldn't help but feel a sense of heartache seeing her this way. He gently grabbed a tissue wiping her tears away gently, being so kind. "I can send you the Amazon link If you'd like." He offered softly, gently getting a blanket putting it over her shoulders, he was pulling out all the comforts he knew, what he hoped would work. @Ruvik the Unchained Predator
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Elif Ling BOT 28-Aug-22 06:31 PM
"Oh so it is not Blue, From Blue's Clues?" Elif genuinely asked, she had thought The Blue Dog had been the popular personality from the toy merchandise and the television show. She even remembered the man presenter from that show had gotten fired, supposedly from his receding hairline and pictures surfaced on the web of him smoking weed. It was a bit jarring to see someone she had always seen presenting the animated pre-school dog show to be smoking a joint. Still, though, this was an unexpected kindness and she surely did appreciate the child coming to her and give her Max. "I am such a failure." Elif hated that she was crying in front of Jasper. She hated being weak'; as she had been a high profile lawyer in her early twenties, she had cultivated a persona that was made to endure the hardest of difficulties. Now, without the empowering and even deadly environment of the courtroom, she had lost some of that armour. She had emotional outbursts and exchanges, she just also enjoyed controlling her emotions. I think Jasper is definitely thinking I am such a stupid ass loser. Elif thought on it. Maybe, this is the last thing Jasper had wanted? Bringing back this woman he barely knew, into the privacy of his home and hearth, and seeing her lose control? Yup, that is exactly what he needed considering he was also being a Father to someone else's child. The stupid asshole of parents who just dumped Harry here, because it was convenient and they knew the kindness of Jasper would not preclude him for taking care of the young boy. Was she not doing the same thing to him? Elif felt she was because she was dumping all of her emotional burdens on him. She did not wish to do that at all. She had no right to take over Jasper's sense of kindness and obligation. He seemed to have this unquestionable and unwavering sense of duty. She valued this in many people, especially men she had liked and wanted to had dated. Her ex had that, well, she thought he had. Her ex always radi
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ated a sense of compassion towards clients seemed to emit a sense of directional empathy. Elif had realised later on he was a bit of a narcissist and had sociopathic tendencies. To win people over, with charisma and compassion, was more of a challenge to him and not something he actually meaningfully engaged in. When she had once explained why a loan shark was a terrible person exploiting a mother and a small children, he had taken it dryly, as if it was a regular business transaction. At the time, she had wanted to ignore it, those these incidents did keep coming up — like the one time, the butcher who got robbed was told by him to be vigilant and get better insurance. The man was thrusted with debts due to his children attempting to get into a better school district and him moving. When, she had wanted to explain this to him, he had looked at her as if she had been a Martian. Saying why she had been making apologies for this butcher and did he have any other invested interests in him. The butcher was a young father, and he had been handsome, fit, more fit than her ex. She knew what he was pointing at and begrudgingly dropped the topic. She could not rationalise and reason with someone who was accusing her of indirecting cheating on him. Well, he had been jealous and possessive as well. When Jasper spoke of the Amazon link and also brought her a blanket, she really relaxed into those things. Though, she was clearly, also surprised by his level of care. Why was he doing all of this? Elif had become too accustomed to people being mean to her that she had forgotten the taste of genuine kindness and warmth. It came in spades with Jasper like he was The Martian; alienated from human selfishness and more in touch with his interiority, more in touch with a masculine sense of protection and affection. Elif blushed really deep. Dare she say? She was finding this, incredibly attractive. She had not thought she would. Though here she was, falling slightly for him
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The Librarian she had just met today. She had not known she would and yet here she had been. She had missed her father and knew she would need to call him and her mother. Though, seeing him, having paternal and avuncular ways, with Harry and even her, did make her interested. Well, she was so used to taking care of others, that it did emotionally drain her. So, she was wondering, at times, who would take care of her, when she needed it? She was fiercely independent, though she knew she had been becoming co-dependent with David. It was this co-dependence that was making him feel that she had maybe hurt him. To make him do so much and then not meet his expectations halfway. She did not wish to do anything like this to Jasper, even as a friend. She knew she was attracted to his care but she had no right to demand so much from him. She smiled at him though and sobbed out a smile: "Thank you, Jasper." @🍂Ken🍂
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Jasper BOT 28-Aug-22 07:19 PM
Jasper gave her a kind smile. "No idea love, I haven't seen that program since I was young ." He replied chuckling softly, giving her another tissue to wipe away her tears. Her next words caused him to frown worriedly, he gently took her hand in his watching her with a frown. "Elif, you are not a failure." He replied seriously "no one here is a failure, and definitely not you. Yes you may have hid something from your partner, but you were doing it to spare his feelings yes? But you had your reasoning to do it to help someone you care for right. ." He said softly looking at her, he was worried for her, ans wasn't sure why she was continuing to call herself a failure. As she sobbed he couldn't help but flinch at the sudden volume raise, that wasn't good. He frowned looking towards the window realizing the moon was beginning to rise. He hummed softly as he stood up "i-im going to get dinner plated, sit here and take some deep breaths." He offered, carefully walking towards the kitchen. Once he was out of sight, he quickly went to the fridge getting in the secret container he had, he looked for his O negative juice pack, which was discised as a cherry juice. He was trying to make sure his thirst was quenched before the moon got any higher. As he drank the juice pack , he got Harry's chicken nuggets put on the plate before he got his and Elifs. He carried the plates onto the room setting them on the counter as well as putting water bottles down. "Dinners served loves, I apologize for getting up so quickly Elif, I wanted to make sure I didn't burn the bloody kitchen down." He laughed softly picking up Harry helping him get settled for dinner. @Ruvik the Unchained Predator
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Elif Ling BOT 29-Aug-22 02:33 AM
Elif was going to smile as he was bringing in all those nice things. Only, in his hurry, Jasper had not properly wiped his face. Elif look at him, "Why is there blood dripping from your mouth?" She had worked in hospice and the viscosity and thickness of that liquid did not look like juice. It did look like blood to her. There was a slight terror in her face and she was so afraid, she got up and grabbed Harry. She had found it odd, looking around, the lack of silverware. They were classy and she felt a librarian it would be classy. Yet now — she had laughed her grandmother telling her about them. She slowly patted Harry, "What do you really want?" Though...she softened when she realised. Harry had come here all this time. Jasper never harmed Harry. Elif sighed out and let Harry go, "Your Dad and I were just playing a game." Elif grabbed his hand and took him to the kitchen and started rubbing out his mouth, "Get the blood out. Do you know, how scared I gotten?" Then she gave him a hug, "I am really sorry, Jasper. I was so frightened I lost my senses for a minute. Please forgive me." @🍂Ken🍂
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Jasper BOT 29-Aug-22 06:56 AM
at the sudden grab, Harry let out the loudest, most blood curdling scream, his little body could produce..and he didn't stop until she let him go. He ran to Jasper and cried he did not like that he was grabbed, or the fact Elif had been very mean to his dad. He did not like that game. Jasper jumped at all of this , he quickly wiped his mouth quickly, not realizing he had gotten it in his face, he thought she was diffrent, he made a mistake, he let his guard down and now harry was hurt. But why was his heart hurting as well? He did not hug her back, he held onto Harry, trying to calm him down. He just took a step back from her. "If I wanted to hurt you, miss Ling, I would of done so by now." He replied hurt in his voice. He carefully walked Over to the sofa, gently picking up Harry's stuff animal, gently rocking the little boy ad he comforted him. "Its my fault right? How dare I bloody drink in my own home. I get it, I deeply apologize ." He replied looking at her with tears "I am over a hundred and twenty five years old. I get it, I never wanted to be like this, but I was dying, my fiance at the time made a decision amd saves me. " He replied feeling as if he had to defend himself. But he wasn't sure why he was getting this feeling. He didn't have to tell her, he didn't have to tell her anything. So why was he. He shakenly sat back on the sofa, gently feeding Harry, wanting to help him have some sort of normal dinner. He let a few tears fall quickly wiping them away. "Go ahead tell the town, I won't be able to adopt Harry then, but Maybe other people will be better for him....I am a freak after all." @Ruvik the Unchained Predator
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Elif Ling BOT 29-Aug-22 07:10 AM
"I am really sorry." Elif looked ashamed, "I do not think you are a freak at all. My grandmother actually fought terrible kind of vampires. That is why I did not understand. It is my fault. I am really sorry... Please do not think I will ever tell anyone. I do not think it is my business. I was just alarmed." She saw his tears and went and softly wiped them with a tissue, sitting down in front of him, "Could you forgive me? Do you want me to leave?" @🍂Ken🍂
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Jasper BOT 29-Aug-22 07:28 AM
Jasper sighed with a soft sniffle, he didn't know how to feel ."if you are scared I am not going yo force you to stay. If you are only here to make sure I don't hurt Harry, then I'd like you to leave ." He replied feeding Harry, who slowly ate. "I have lived here, minding my own buiness how could I have been so stupid and careless." He said looking down letting more tears fall. "I got careless and that will not happen again." @Ruvik the Unchained Predator
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Elif Ling BOT 29-Aug-22 07:30 AM
"I am not afraid of you." Elif talked slowly, "I am sorry. You are not stupid." She wanted to hug him but she did not know how to tell him she did care about him. "Jasper, I am really sorry with the way I acted. Can you not forgive me?" She asks, deeply feeling accountable and apologising. @🍂Ken🍂
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Jasper BOT 29-Aug-22 08:05 AM
He nodded hugging Harry close. "Im sorry." He replied, felt bad, hut he was hurt. He did forgive her, but the hurt was still there. He rubbed his eyes gently moving her plate towards her. "You should eat. I don't want you to be hungry." He replied gently rocking Harry. Once Harry was done eating, Jasper got up and went to go get him dressed for bed, he came back with a blanket and Harry sitting back on the sofa. "Tonight....is hard." He admitted "irs another full moon, and everything is extra sensitive ?" He explained @Ruvik the Unchained Predator
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Elif Ling BOT 29-Aug-22 11:27 AM
"Then you should drink more blood." Elif smiled at him. Then she faintly smiled, "When I was younger, my Aunt, tried to cut off my pink hair. She said it was a sign of being cursed. So, I grew up wanting to alienate and fear most things that did not seem worldly and grounded in facts. Being a lawyer helped some of that. It was a form of non-acceptance. Not fully but a bit." She chuckles, "Then I went up against a mafia Don, Danny Diablos. And I got got shot nine times. I had a feeling my law career was over." @🍂Ken🍂
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Jasper BOT 29-Aug-22 12:02 PM
Jasper nodded softly, listening to everything she said. Carefully holding Harry, as he covered him up, gently patting his back to help the little boy to fall asleep. He looked at her sadly, he understood that feeling. "Im sorry you got hurt. I too was shot a long time ago, thought I'd lose my career in the FBI, but my fiance at the time turned me...I remained in the FBI, until she passed away. Then I became a libraian. " He sighed softly "yout panic is understood, and I apologize for scaring you, I truly didn't mean to scare norepinephrine hurt you." He replied gently patting her shoulder. "Im okay, I will drink another blood packet before bed, if you have any questions about me being a vampire please let me know, I will try my best to awnser them." He replied leaning back against the sofa. @Ruvik the Unchained Predator
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Elif Ling BOT 29-Aug-22 10:12 PM
"No, you do not need to say sorry for anything. I should have been more careful and not jump to conclusions. I guess I am just very traumatised." This was undoubtedly a truth. "I mean I went from high powered lawyer to someone who never got of their house for half a year. "Elif gave him a hug, "I am so happy and glad we met. Thank you, Jasper." She softly laid into him, "I am sorry you were heart. I am sorry about your fiancé. At least, she was loyal to the end. Mine married one of my ex-friends in a year. Well, she was prettier than me. Real pretty." @🍂Ken🍂
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Jasper BOT 30-Aug-22 10:59 AM
He looked at her "don't worry about her, it's okay she past in the 90s, everything okay." He promised gently hugging her back. "Don't talk like that, no one is better looking then another. Everyone is beautiful and unique in their own way." He replied looking at her as serious as he could. He wasn't trying to flirt, but he hated when others compared themselves to others. He didn't want them to worry. @Ruvik the Unchained Predator
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Elif Ling BOT 30-Aug-22 07:29 PM
Elif did not know what to say really. She had always found herself a little less feminine than so many others. So, she was not sure how to initially respond. All she knew was that Jasper was making a valid point: "Well, I know you are not wrong. We all have our uniqueness and we all matter in so many ways. However, you know what I mean. Well, Andy chose someone who was more presentable. A good image to the firm. I cannot say he was wrong about that as many men and women do this. It still pained me because..." Well, she knew why it had pained her. Elif had been so happy when in many ways they started dating in their Bachelors of Law, in The Law School. She felt his ambition, drive and ways of understanding legalise was exactly the things she had wanted in both a professional partner and a romantic partner. Of course, when you are blinded by love, the problems were that, you were always letting things slide. You did not wish to come across as judgmental or obtuse, uncaring and unsympathetic. There were times where he had been so nitpicking; saying things that made her feel like she was the one to blame. That she had some deficiencies in her character. Elif's grandmother had stated that it was bad match from the start. She had stated to her granddaughter their spiritual energies were not at all in sync. Hers were warmer and indicative of a cool and tranquil day, with some sunshine in intervals and zephyrs. And, he was swamp humidity , the unnerving Bayou that was plunged into weeds and poison ivies of darkness. Where the crocodiles there did not even rely on their mothers for support as the drought and the heat was emergent of survival fierceness. It ambled on and did not encourage affection and fidelity. When Andy had made his choice, on her hospice bed, in their home. Well, she could only look at him with impregnable shock and a need to feel like the world had been silenced. Elif did not understand, what did he mean? What did he mean when he said that
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he just could not see her like this? What was wrong with her? Sure, she knew that she was partially paralysed. Yes, she would have to relearn how to walk, sit and even run. Her hands hurt and there had been scarring on her spine. She had survived, so what was the matter? Well, his life was taking off. That was the matter — he did not wish to tend to the needs and care of a paraplegic. Even if the situation was temporary; it inconvenienced him. In such a realisation, all love went out the window. Defenestrated faster than Icarus burnt in the clouds. There was this molten hearth of volcanic ash, smothering her lungs. When she had begun to weep, knowing he had just broken up with her, when she could not walk. The look he gave was the same; she was inconveniencing him. It took that bitch, Angie, around a month to move into the house, the high scale one, with Andy. Well, he had been smart and was able to buy most of it. Hence, she was the one who had to move. She got a quiet and small apartment; it was a challenge. She had used to some luxuries like that expensive Brass French Press, that helped her at times with the morning coffee. Now, it was back to Nescafe Instant; those grand smoothies and English Breakfasts were nowhere in sight. She did not have a boyfriend-fiancé anymore to help her out. Moving around in the stilts and crutches and making elaborate things was clearly a challenge.
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There were days in anger she just threw the pot of oatmeal on the wall. Or, into the sink, because there was no way she could keep on labouring over it. Things she had once taken for granted were now a chore for her. It made her angry; it made her upset and feel like a failure. Even though she had tons of savings, most of it went on the hospital bills. Then there was also the fact she needed to spend things prudently. Saving off for a better apartment. Well, it was this time, her Grandmother, came in and taught her the arts of their Ling family healing. She took the time to learn; after all, she was no longer in the courtroom, she was no longer tethered to a busy schedule that involved solicitation, court cases and a romantic partner she had to appease with meals, cooking, sex and all of those things. She could now learn in peace with the tutelage of her Grandmother, who was a Master Herbalist, whose skills resonated among many continents and nations. During this time, she stopped dying her hair platinum gold and she stopped cutting it in the Paige boy style. She always thought the short hair would be a convenience. Though she had to admit; the upkeep on the platinum curls also cost a lot. She was happy to let her pink hair shine. Those days, the remnants of her blonde hair, appeared as silver highlights that complimented the pink, did not erase it. So, she learned of care, Herbalist, homeopathic care and then fused it with allopathic treatments. Elif changed careers and the rest was living history. @🍂Ken🍂
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Jasper BOT 30-Aug-22 08:20 PM
Jasper watched her with a sad look, he gave a small hum as he carefully stood up, walking over to the photo of his late fiancé. He walked back to Elif, carefully sitting down with her. He gently handed her thr photo and smiled. "My beloved Charlie, she struggled so much with her self-esteem. She is and forever will be beautiful, inside and out." He replied softly. "It makes me sad, that people choose looks over inner beauty, looks fade, the feeling you have for your lover will grow and become more as time passes." He explained with a soft sigh. He looked at the photo of Charlie. She was his world, he held her the days she cried, when she didn't feel beautiful. He was the one who would kiss the tears away, making her smile, and remember how beautiful she is. And she would do the same for him. He remembered nights he'd come home feeling less then, and she would be there to kiss him, and call him handsome. She would point out partd I'd him he hated and tell him how handsome and amazing he is. He gently stood up, gently grabbing her hand with his free hand, walking her towards his bedroom. "You seem like you need a boost." He replied, opening his door, gently moving her towards his large mirror that was covered in post it notes. "I read these every time I feel unworthy." He explained with a smile. On the mirror was words like 'you are handsome, worthy, kind, not a monster, a rock star, caring, ect.' Jasper smiled moving so it was only her in the mirror. He walked to the bed, gently laying Harry down until he could put him in his own room. He sat on the end of the bed and watched her. @Ruvik the Unchained Predator
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Elif Ling BOT 30-Aug-22 09:08 PM
It surprised Elif, that a vampire, someone whose whole existence and mythology, was based on the external reality of appearance, of looks, was coming to this conclusion. Well, it seemed more than amply understandable. The beings who did not have to fuss on seemingly ageing and thinking too much on skin-care routine and diet (as Vampires rarely gathered excess fat unless they chose to do so), were going to look for inner beauty. After all, there was nothing beautiful about the diamond when you always look at it. The gold, silver, platinum around it, made it empathetically more exquisite. Seeing him speak so highly about Charlie, made her sad: "Alas, Jasper, I have no such tales of Andy. When he dropped me as I lay partly paralysed in our house, telling me he would marry that bitch Angie from work in our shared profession, I knew the man I had imagined was just my imagination." Elif smiled sadly, "There had been signs I avoided. Though, he did abandon me when I needed him. When I was shot nine times and I could mot walk for almost four to five months. Those were hard days and he made them harder. Let us just say, he was no Charlie. He was selfish, arrogant and a mistake.' Elif is a bit uncertain when he says they can go to the bedroom. She does not know what he means but she can see he is paternal and that he did not have any strange motivations. What he does is clearly NOT what she had expected. She had thought he would tell her to relax on the bed. She starts sobbing with a smile seeing the wonderful post it notes and the way he seems to get her. "Thank you, Jasper." @🍂Ken🍂
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