Daysam panted and looked at him, "I like...I liked it a lot." She started to cry, feeling so secure and safe, ironically, with a man, who some hours ago, made misogynistic comments on her. Still, he treated her well. The older man who had been her father's friend, had always acted nice. However, had said things about her, while trying to assault, that made her chill.
Even nowadays, porn could make her cry, if she heard someone call another person, bitch, or something similar. It bothered her so much. She would either pleasure herself, to bring in the oxytocin and serotonin, to bring back her feel good feelings. To be restored in her faith of tranquil masculinity, with its passionate parameters.
So, Ronnie did more than okay. He may have been mean outside. However, in the bedroom, he was animalistic when he needed to be and was also being a gentleman. It made her pleased to know; that he was not all conceit and arrogance. She had never had many many partners. She hardly had sex with any of her previous encounters more than once.
Daysam, thirty-two, never dated or had a relationship. She had been single all her life, both by choice and by trauma. So,. in her mind, she was thinking: This was it. There was no reason for Ronnie to ask her to do it again. No reason for anyone to contribute time and energy on her.
In her head, this was the last line. The attraction had been consummated and now, they would probably return to the chemical distance of some jabs, then some smiles. She did not know or even conceive of anything else. For her reality, for the longest time, had tainted love and sex.
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