ROLEPLAY HQ - unlikely-love

The speakers let out more bass than recognizable rhythm or melody. It was a steady thumping that one could hear in the floors and in the air until it all blurred together. It hardly mattered - nobody actually came to these things for the music. The mass of partygoers writhed to a tune that came less from the song and more from the burn of alcohol and the herbaceous scent of marijuana that barely managed to cover the sweat of unwashed boys who thought bypassing the age of twenty was enough to make them men. Milena had dreamed of college parties, when she'd been a high school student. Two years since graduation felt like forever ago. Enough to become disenchanted with them. She still came, because her friends would want to go, and because shutting herself in to finish her programming homework would have been social death. She wasn't sure this was what her father had had in mind when he went on his tirades about how the strongest survive, but it was the reality. The best she could hope to be was the ringleader. She'd started out surrounded by her own entourage of friends and hopeful, soon-to-be-friends, though they'd slowly wandered off to hook up with other students or try something a little harder and more expensive than what was out in the open at the party. Her present company was some thirty-something year-old man who had taken it upon himself to talk at her while she tried to drink enough to make this tolerable. She kept enough presence of mind to keep one hand over her cup between sips as she didn't really listen to him. There was a break in his monologue, in which she had the chance to turn and look at him, then to respond. .

8:38 AM

"I love how you just don't care what people think," she said, and he smiled, apparently taking it as a compliment. Until she continued. "I mean, showing up at a college party to talk to younger girls even though you look like you were dragged through a swamp and blow dried? Truly revolutionary. Where can I find you on the sex offender registry? What's your wife's phone number?" It felt good, taking down someone who deserved it for once. He seemed taken aback, long enough for her to down the rest of her drink and walk away to get another. There was a large basin on one of the tables where various alcohols had been mixed together by whoever felt like contributing to it. A potent mix, usually. Sometimes something riskier. She stood by it just to be safe, observing the activity around it. One of the guys took a sip, didn't react. Probably fine then - it was when the boys avoided it or someone made a look of unmasked disgust that she was better off getting a bottle of beer instead. She filled a cup for herself. It burned going down, but she'd already had enough that the effect was dulled. The more she drank, the slower the party grew, and the more she could distance herself from the desperate attempts at interpersonal connection by her peers.

8:38 AM

@Kain the Insane

Kain stood in the corner of the party, looking around. He had earbuds in and was currently drinking coffee. Now, why would he be at a party? Well, he didn't get social often, and he wanted to perhaps attempt to be? No, it was mostly because of the threats. After all, things didn't change after high-school, no sir. No matter how much he wished that he could go to class without having to worry about getting kicked in the groin, or without the hottest girl in college insulting him and making fun of him. Every day, Kain knew how unfair everything was better than others knew. A fancy, expensive college famous for letting on those who had large amounts of money in, despite marks. Kain wasn't fortunate enough to have the latter, but he had the former. He'd earned maybe a dozen or so scholarships just to be able to live at college and not have to work on top of taking as many hours as he possibly could of classes here. He'd been taught that he was worthless unless he could make something of himself. His parents, school, bullies, every part of his life drove in the point. That he wasn't manly so he wouldn't get girls, he wasn't smart enough on his own to do college, he wasn't coordinated enough to do sports, so he just worked harder than he ever thought he possibly could. Every day, he studied religiously, going over the class notes, watching the videos, talking to the professor, and giving everything he had to his studies, just so he could stay in school and be successful. And the truth was? It had eaten him. Heart, mind, and soul. He was all alone and spending 24/7 studying just to be able to hopefully get out of college and maybe earn the right to have a mediocre job where he could get a mediocre salary, and live a mediocre life. Milena had drilled into him that he was worthless.

12:44 PM

The guys at the party were all getting incredibly drunk, and some had begun taking the girls to bathrooms, bedrooms, or any place they could find some privacy. Loud, messy sex followed. The sounds of things falling and breaking were drowned out by the thumping music. The old guy before that Milena hadn't been listening to had been pretty boldly talking to her. “Hey girl, you've got the BIGGEST tits I've ever seen~ Seriously girl, look like you could plop those things down on a table and snap it in half~ And that ass of yours~? Fucking amazing~ Just about as big, and it has that perfect shake when you walk~ You probably need 3 chairs for you to sit comfortably~ And your thighs~? I'd love for you to put my head between your perfect thighs and crush my head nicely~ I'm sorry I'm saying such lewd things, I suppose I just don't care what other people think~” Then, she spoke to him and ripped him a new asshole. Rage rose up in his chest, and he grit his teeth as he stared at Milena. Storming off, he walked off and didn't SEEM to bother her after that. But after about 5 minutes, a football guy approached Milena and he smirked, offering her a drink. It was sealed, and it looked pretty fancy. “Hey, since you're the hottest girl here, I thought I'd give you the most expensive stuff we've got. It'll taste better than ‘the brew’, and I imagine a girl like you would appreciate the fancy stuff. And don't worry, I don't expect anything from you.” The guys said, giving a friendly smile. Honestly, he seemed like he was sincere, plus he was pretty hot himself. So he wasn't an uglier guy trying to get her drunk so that he could get laid. The bottle did look like it was high quality stuff that could go for a couple of grand. And he was willing to blow so much money on her because she'd hit the genetic lottery jackpot in litterappy every possible way she could.

@Al the Killer

Milena's attention shifted to the next guy to gather up the nerve to talk to her. She looked him up and down, appraising him carefully. Well-built, a jawline sharp enough to cut glass, pleasant to look at and pleasant in demeanor. An act, maybe, but the sort of person who might be worth a little positive attention, so long as she held onto all the cards. The drink itself seemed to still be in its original bottle, good quality and untampered with. Maybe she still should have been cautious. After all, she knew the rules to live by, had carefully curated the list over the years to learn from the mistakes of those around her. She knew not to speak with the accent she'd gotten from her mother, not to let anyone think they can have the upper hand with her and, above all else, not to accept drinks from men who were hitting on her. But she was already tipsy. Her inhibitions were low and the friends she'd arrived with had vanished. She could use something good tonight, and he seemed like her best shot at the party not being a complete write-off. She flashed him her usual charming smile, one that reminded people that a beautiful woman was no less capable of eating them alive, and leaned in closer. "So there is a gentleman in this place after all." Her fingers curled around the bottle, brushing against his in a way designed to make him think he stood a chance but still maintain the ability to claim it was an accident. She had no intention of going anywhere with him, of course. But she'd learned long ago that it didn't matter what she did; people would look at her and assume she was playing games with any man she so much as spoke to. So, she might as well have fun actually messing with them. "Thank you."

5:44 AM

She set the cup of the other drink aside, knowing that the second it left her hand and her eyeline, she'd be abandoning it forever. That was fine - it really wasn't very good. She took a moment to inspect the bottle. No twist cap. That was fine; she came to these things prepared. She grabbed her key ring from her bag, popping it open with the small bottle opener keychain. She'd seen the guy in front of her around before, but couldn't for the life of her remember his name. Not that she bothered to try. And she'd been nice enough by thanking him, when he'd probably been lying by telling her he didn't expect anything. Not very sexy and mysterious of her, she had to admit. She took a sip of the drink. Honestly, she'd never been able to tell the difference between a high quality drink and the cheap stuff. She didn't drink any of it for taste, but at least she knew what to expect from a sealed bottle. She lowered her drink, her lips remaining ever so slightly parted as she looked at the guy. Maybe it was one too many, because everything felt just a little less real. All the better to prevent any guilt from her next actions. "Hm... You're right, this is better." She picked up the cup of the other stuff, the one she'd already decided was dead to her. That didn't mean she could just leave it lying around for the party's host to take care of. So she emptied it first... Onto the front of the football player's expensive outfit. "Next time be honest about your intentions." She dropped the empty cup for effect and walked away. "See you around, cutie~" she concluded, as though she hadn't just dumped half a cup full of alcohol on him.

5:44 AM

Something was wrong. Too much to drink, or something added to what she'd already had. With how much she'd taken to drink, it was hard to tell the source of the problem. The room titled sideways and she almost stumbled, catching herself on the back of the chair some other guy she didn't recognize was sitting in. Moderation had never been a skill of hers, but she normally wasn't this bad at it. Was she being watched? It was hard to tell. Maybe everyone else was already too drunk to care.

5:44 AM

@Kain the Insane

The guy didn't act outraged, he acted surprised as she splashed the drink on him. But as she walked away and he saw her slowly falling, he smirked. The older guy earlier had brought a bottle sealer, allowing them to dump some of the “Good stuff” in and seal a new cork into it. Even one sip, and it would've taken rapid effect. The older guy from earlier and the one who had just given her a drink helped her to stand up. The older guy copped a feel of her ass, while the other groped one of her clothed breasts a bit. “Well, looks like we had to do this the hard way~ We spiked that thing, and now you're not gonna be able to stop us~ Can you feel your muscles relaxing to the point of uselessness~? Your voice failing you~ You may have a goddess’ body, but you're a little bitch to the core, and we're gonna teach you a lesson~” The older man mocked, speaking softly into her ear. Now, Kain had been watching the party, making sure none of the guys he was supposed to drive home wouldn't leave or anything. He didn't need to have the shit kicked out of him because their stupid drunk asses couldn't make intelligent decisions. That was when Kain said Milena. Scowling, he shook his head and sighed. She treated him like a bitch all the time. She made sure to make his life a living hell, and that only made it worse for him. Especially because she was responsible for some of his more… Dark thoughts. But then he saw a guy give her a drink. Something nagged him in the back of his mind, and he remembered that he'd seen an older guy earlier give this guy some sleeping pills. Normally not as strong as a Roofie, but if they put in the whole bottle? So, he quickly pulled out his phone and began to record the exchange. The bottom of his stomach fell out when he saw her fall and get picked up.

7:06 AM

Now, why should he help her? She treated him like shit! Constantly! Every day of his life was made WORSE by her being there to say some more vile things that made him hate himself with a Fiery passion. Why should he go save her, when if he was in a burning car, she'd get her makeup and run away, leaving him to burn to death or explode. BUT… No one deserved this. Saving her was the right thing. Maybe he couldn't do anything else right, but he would do what he always did. Show kindness. So moving quickly, he approached the guys. “Oh goodness, I'm so happy you found my girlfriend, she is SO wasted! You did such a great job, and you DEFINITELY didn't drug her in view of a camera i happened to be holding up! And you DEFINITELY shouldn't worry that I have SENT said video to a friend, and if I'm not in class tomorrow, it will be sent to campus police, all the faculty, and the coaches! No no no sir-ry! So, thank you both!”

7:06 AM

Kain spoke fast, barely giving them time to process before he scooped Milena up, with SURPRISING strength, into a bridal style carry. He then sprinted out the door before they could properly process what had happened. Carefully pulling out his phone, he Cursed. “Fuck fuck fuck fuck FUCK!” Ordering a nearby Uber. The car pulled up, and Kain nodded. “Listen, I need you to round the block and then just DRIVE for a couple hours! Charge me and I'll pay you in full tomorrow!” The driver gave him a strange look before he took off. The counts of footsteps grew nearer, and Kain put her inside a large bush. The older guy and football player appeared, and they rushed down to Kain. “Where is she, you little fucking loser!?” “Yeah, where is she!?” The sounds of violent impacts filled the air, and Kain began to wheeze. He said nothing, as they began to beat him once again, this time the noises sounding more wet. “Tell us, or we'll make sure to put you in TRACTION!”

7:06 AM

Kain spoke quietly, and he wheeled. “What's the matter… You morons couldn't get laid so you had to assault some poor girl… How fucking pathetic…” They kicked Kain in the face from what it sounded like. His voice sounded like he was on the ground, and then there was the impact. But at that moment, the Uber came back around, and Kain smirked. “It's too late… She's already escaping…” Kain said, letting out a weak laugh. The older man and the football player looked toward each other and rushed back toward the party, getting in a car together before they took off. Either to follow the Uber or to simply escape. Kain slowly stood up, and he came to the bush. Getting her out of it, his face was caked in blood, and it looked like they'd given him a blackeye so bad it was swollen shut. But Kain picked her up, wheezing loudly as he began to quickly walk with her. His arms felt more shaky, but he didn't show signs of letting go of her. He was going to get her to his place, somewhere safe, and then they could hole up there until sunrise. “Can you make yourself throw up with your fingers, Milena…?”

7:06 AM

@Al the Killer

Milena's vision faded in and out of focus as she felt hands pull her to a standing position. She was pretty sure she'd dropped the bottle somewhere, but hadn't heard it land. No amount of help could keep her upright, and she didn't have the presence of mind to recognize the voices. It took a moment to process that the hands had moved to squeeze her breast and slip under her skirt, and another to realize the violation. She tried to push them away, but her movements were sluggish, her protests sounding like they came from miles away underwater. Helpless. Exactly what she'd promised herself she would never be, and now those hands burned her skin. Did they have superhuman strength, or was she weaker than before? Then the world faded to black. She was in the air. No, in someone's arms. A voice she'd heard before was yelling something at someone in a car, but she couldn't make out what it was. The memory of unwanted hands on her resurfaced and she struggled weakly to escape. Did she fall on the ground, or had she been placed there gently? God, she was so tired... She came to again, surrounded by leaves and twigs. This wasn't a good place to sleep. But something told her not to move, even before the sounds of someone being beaten to a pulp reached her ears. She wasn't a complete monster. She should do something. But her arms weighed a ton, and her vision blurred, and she was relying on the sounds of fighting to mask her ragged breaths. When had it been so hard to just breathe? A face appeared, bloody, between the leaves of the bush. To her eyes, with everything else blurred and no way of being sure it was his own blood, the visage was nothing short of monstrous. She tried to scream, but all that escaped was a pathetic sob. When had her eyes gotten this wet? Trembling arms pulled her free of her hiding spot, the motion causing her stomach to lurch. Would this nightmare end? Was she safe, or about to face a worse fate?

1:45 PM

She clung weakly to the cloth. A shirt. A lifeline. Her lips moved, though even she wasn't sure what they would be saying if they weren't silent. A quiet hope that this was a rescue and not a kidnapping. The voice came again, and she could finally recognize it. Kain had been there from the start, like a lost puppy dog- no, that wasn't a good comparison. She didn't like to think of herself as someone who kicked puppies. A target. Another person so far beneath herself that he'd needed to be reminded of it. ...Enough to be vengeful? If she didn't do what he said, was she going to be murdered, or buried alive beneath a construction site that was about to be covered with cement? Maybe her mother had a point, and she shouldn't have watched so much true crime as a teenager. "Huh?" There was a delay as her drugged brain caught up to his words. "I cah 'ry... lemme dow." Between the slurring of her speech and the hints of a Bosnian accent that slipped through when she wasn't self-aware enough to mask it, there was no telling if he'd even understand what she said. Not that it mattered much. If he did let her down, she'd crawl over to the grass beside the sidewalk and make her attempt there. Otherwise, she would do so while still in his arms, likely to disastrous consequences for his clothing. It should have been easy enough - she was already nauseated, after all. She opened her mouth and put two fingers deep in, like she'd heard it described before. Nothing happened; she just instinctively breathed through her nose instead. So she pinched that shut with the other hand, dug a bit deeper, and tried to close up her throat.

1:45 PM

The feeling of acid coming up her throat heralded her success as she leaned over, bile spilling out of her mouth. The drinks were even worse coming back up than they'd been going down. She gasped for air, and the second spew came up on its own. Then more. She couldn't say for sure how long she spent there, curled up and emptying her stomach onto whatever bit of ground she ended up closest to. When it was all over, her vision had cleared and she could breathe better than before. Her face was streaked with tears and less-waterproof-than-advertised mascara, and her eyes hadn't stopped watering. Her head was still pounding, motions still slow and thoughts foggy. But the worst of the danger had passed. With the return of clarity came the return of shame, and she buried her face in her hands, only daring to glimpse her rescuer through the gaps between her fingers. He'd have no reason to help her. Not after everything she'd done to him. All of human interaction was transactional. She'd learned as much from a young age. So it only followed that he was doing this with the expectation of repayment. The only question was what it would be. Had she avoided one assault only to be subjected to another? "Why?" was all that came out at first. Awfully vague. She tried again. "What do you want?" She tried her best to make her voice sound solid. Strong and fierce as always. But she was scared, and still too foggy to keep the fear out of her voice.

1:45 PM

@Kain the Insane

“Why… I sorta asked that myself…” His voice was a bit difficult to make out due to his swollen lip. But he sighed softly as he picked her back up. “The truth is… I'm just a nice guy. No matter what you might think, I wouldn't hurt you even if I had the opportunity. No one deserves to be assaulted… Left helpless. Even if you've done so to me…” Kain carried her through the night, gently wiping her mascara, tears, and bile away. His touch was so gentle compared to the guys. He didn't cop a feel, he didn't have those nasty eyes that desired from her. No. He'd bled for her when he had no need to, and here he was, walking miles while he was hurt, carrying her, and looked like he himself might just keel over and pass out from the pain. His breath was shaky as he arrived at his apartment complex, and he slowly walked inside. Once they arrived, his place… Was a cramped shoebox. It had a kitchen, living room, bathroom, and bedroom. And they were all incredibly small. Laying her on the couch, he retrieved a blanket and pillow that he brought and set her up with. Next he got some medicine, cold water, and a trashcan in case she needed to empty her stomach anymore. Then he blocked his door with some things and retrieved a baseball bat. Sitting in a chair that faced toward the door, where Melina's feet would be, he sat down. “Go to sleep, Melina… I'll watch until morning, and then we will call the police and head to Campus Police. I need you to be in top shape so we can describe the guys together…” Kain said, making sure he spoke loud enough for her to hear, but not so loud to hurt her head.

2:08 PM

@Al the Killer

Milena groaned. "Don't say that. Nobody who calls himself a nice guy is actually nice," she protested, but there was no venom behind it and she didn't try to leave his arms. Because despite the alarm bells the wording itself sent off, his behaviour was genuinely decent. It felt satisfying to tear apart someone who deserved it. From what she could remember of the party, those two guys had definitely deserved it, if only in hindsight. Her rescuer, her long-term punching bag who had taken it upon himself to get her out of that situation despite everything, as a matter of principle alone? Maybe he really hadn't. It left a knot of guilt in her stomach that she wanted nothing more than to find a way to unravel. The apartment itself resembled the type of squalor she'd imagined whenever her father had threatened to leave her and her mother in poverty during one of the usual Lovell family fights. Cramped, barely room for one person, let alone two. But for tonight, it was a safe haven. She settled onto the sofa, sitting up and pulling her knees to her chest, legs tight together and arms wrapped around them. All she could do for now was sit still, stay out of his way while he gathered things. Really, how did people from poor backgrounds live like this? When he spoke again, she shook her head. Not too quickly, lest she bring up a new wave of nausea. "No police," she said, already imagining what that encounter would be like. "I..." Flashes of the incident surged through her mind, and her stomach lurched, but there was nothing left in it to lose. "I'm not ready to talk about what happened." Was it selfish of her? They'd attacked him too, after all. And they couldn't easily accuse her of lying, with him to corroborate her story. "You can give your statement, but I..." How was she supposed to explain the cocktail of rage and shame to someone whose experiences were so far separated from her own? "...I can't relive that."

3:06 PM

She closed her eyes, drew in a deep breath, and tried to think of a better plan than just saying no police. "We need a hospital. You're injured, and there's no knowing for sure how much they dosed me with." They probably should have gone straight to the ER, all things considered. But she didn't want to be in public right now. To go out near people again, to feel their eyes on her.

3:06 PM

@Kain the Insane

Kain looked over at her and he sighed softly. The blood on his face was drying and Hardening, but he didn't pay it much mind. “I've had worse beatings from your friends, trust me… I will just do what I always do, and treat myself. No need to waste the time of the hospital. But… We'll get you there. They might call the police if they find what's in your system though, just so fair warning… I'll try to take care of it if it comes to that.” Kain pulled out his phone and he dialed 911. Waiting for a moment to be connected to an operator, he took a deep breath and gently tapped his foot against the ground. Then he nodded. “Hello? Yes, I have a girl here who was drugged at a party… I saw that they put sleeping pills into some wine to give to her… Yes, she is conscious. I had her throw up shortly afterward to see if it would help her out, and she seems more responsive…” Kain told them where they were, and then hung up. Softly sighing, he rested his hand against his forehead and let out a long, soft breath. Looking at her, he sighed and hit his forehead softly. “They're on their way now… Hold on, let me get something that'll be more comfortable for you…” Walking to his room, he retrieved a sweatshirt/hoodie and some large shorts. Being as tall as he was, her tig ol’ bitties and her lower half would make them fit perfectly despite the difference in their sizes. Slowly handing them to her, he nodded. “They're clean… I'll go to my room and lock it so you can change here into something comfortable. I imagine that dress isn't very nice to move around in… And you likely don't want to try to move around in a hospital room with it.” Kain said, clearing his throat softly before he walked back to his door and shut the door. Then he locked it, just so she could be double sure he couldn't peak. @Al the Killer

It didn't make much sense, when Milena thought about it. He'd been strong enough to carry her while injured, yet this guy regularly got his ass kicked. Which meant the only plausible explanation was that he chose not to fight. That sort of decision was nothing short of baffling to her. She stared silently at him while he made the phone call, wondering for the first time just who this boy she'd spent the first couple years of college tormenting really was. As he spoke to her, she just nodded, not saying anything at the moment. Now that fear had faded, exhaustion had begun to set back in. What she really wanted to do was sleep, but a small part of her told her that she couldn't. Sleeping pills and alcohol... how many pills? She vaguely recalled having heard about a potential lethal interaction between the two substances in a health class years ago. If she gave in and fell asleep, would she wake up again? She clenched her fists, digging her nails into the palms of her hands to keep herself awake as she waited for him to bring out the clothes and leave the room again. She didn't mind the dress, and she'd probably end up in a hospital gown anyway, but if she got out of the hospital tonight, it would be colder and the hoodie smelled nice. Almost comforting. She changed and put great care into folding the dress before setting it on the sofa, as though to prove a point that she was perfectly fine now. She was not going to go to the hospital looking like she'd just been assaulted.

1:10 PM

Except she had, hadn't she? She tried not to think about it as she walked to the bathroom, taking advantage of the moment of privacy he'd granted her. She turned the sink on, splashing the cool water over her face to wake her up further. It took some searching to find a clean washcloth that wasn't white so she could wipe away the streaks of makeup without feeling like she was ruining the linens. Even with her face clean, her eyes were still red and puffy from crying, but she could feel like a person again. Once she ran her fingers through her hair to push it back into order, she almost seemed presentable enough. She walked over to Kain's bedroom door and knocked. "You can come out now." She sighed. "And thank you. For everything." Those words wouldn't fix anything. Not what she'd been through, and not what she'd put him through. But they needed to be said.

1:10 PM

@Kain the Insane

“Of course. You didn't have to apologize, but you chose to… And hey. I know it's easy to feel weak because of this happening… But you're not. You're just human… This was set to happen maybe at least once. And if you want to cry… Then please don't be afraid to. You can make fun of me all you want after tonight, but… I need to cry… And everyone else does too.” Kain spoke softly, and he didn't try to physically comfort her, yet he made sure she knew that this place was safe. Love and care in his words that so many others simply didn't possess. Not to mention but His hands were so big and warm as he had carried her, yet they felt so soft and gentle as he did so. Maybe Kain wasn't weak like everyone assumed him to be. Maybe he was stronger than any of them, just because he could be beaten, pay for a car ride that would perhaps last all night, and he would carry his bully on foot to his home to keep her safe. He was no longer wearing shoes, and his feet were bandaged up, perhaps due to the walk having injured them. He looked her in the eyes, his big Lavender orbs locking onto her own eyes as he smiled softly. “I'm very sorry that this happened to you… And I promise that I'll keep you safe here. Even when they take you in the ambulance, I'll make sure you make it to the hospital nice and safely. No matter what, I'll make sure you're as safe as possible.” Kain spoke calmly, probably in the most serious voice she'd likely heard from him. He was cool and focused as he reassured her that he would make sure she was safe. Especially since they weren't calling the police to guard her and keep her safe. Not to mention, when he spoke like this, the gangly, thin boy seemed so much bigger. Before he'd always been so tall, yet timid like a mouse. Now? He was no mouse, not at all. @Al the Killer

Milena would listen to his reassurances and take comfort in them, but she wasn't about to cry in front of someone she barely knew. That wasn't how the world worked - none of this was. If anyone saw her at a low point, they would bury her. The fact that he hadn't was an anomaly. She sat down on the sofa, her hazel eyes avoiding contact with his unusual hues. If they met, she might let him convince her the world was a safe place. Forgetting that it wasn't, even for a moment, was what led to situations like the one he'd rescued her from... right? Except she'd taken every precaution, followed every safety tip she'd ever been told except, perhaps, 'don't have any fun ever', and it hadn't helped. The thought that there was nothing she could have done to prevent it might have been comforting to some, but helplessness always carried its own form of terror. She silently wondered about the feasibility of his own promises. Would he even be allowed in the ambulance with her? It wasn't like they were family, or even friends. He was just a near-stranger who'd saved her life after she'd put him through hell. After a moment, she opened her mouth to comment on the matter, only to be interrupted by the sound of sirens approaching. "Is that them?" she asked instead as she stood up and walked over to the window. The flashing lights were visible outside, an ambulance pulling up to park beside the building as though in response to her question. She turned away from the window to face Kain. "Let's go." She forced her voice to sound more as it normally did. Decisive, a bit forceful. But there wasn't malice in it, unlike the other times she'd spoken to him. She walked over, grabbed his hand, and started toward the door before pausing to let him put some shoes on.

4:26 AM

@Kain the Insane

He VERY gingerly slipped some shoes onto his feet and walked out with her. The Emergency Responders began to do the normal run of tests while Kain re-explained what happened to them as best he could. They noted his injuries, and he vehemently refused them checking him out in favor of just getting Melina to the hospital as fast as they possibly could. Loading her in, Kain insisted that he ride with them as he wanted to make sure she was safe. The emergency responders didn't seem to want to argue, so he climbed inside with her. Sitting to the side of her while they administered some medication and kept her awake. Kain didn't want to make her uncomfortable, but he made sure she knew he was there if she needed to look away or squeeze his hand or something. Kain was tired too, but he didn't care about that right now. As much as he hurt, he knew that she had to be hurting just as much, if not worse. So, he pushed his own feelings aside to focus on just keeping her calm and comfortable.

4:45 AM

To Kain, this may have been going above and beyond, but he'd made a promise to her. He couldn't just stand by while she was in danger or upset, he wanted to see this through to make sure she was OK. Taking a deep breath, Kain softly exhaled and shook his head. “Melina, it'll be ok…” Was all he could say. She looked a bit scared and bothered by all of this, and he could tell, because he felt that way a lot. Perhaps he wasn't good at putting his thoughts to words, but he just wanted her to know she wasn't alone. Others had gone through this, and it wasn't her fault. The responders took her blood-alcohol level to test it as well as asked if Kain had seen how much she had thrown up. He described it as loosely, as to not make her sick again, and they responded that a lot of what the hospital would do would be monitoring her to make sure that she didn't stop breathing or anything while she slept. But they also assured it was unlikely due to her likely throwing up a majority of what was in her system. @Al the Killer

The moment they were outside, it was a flurry of activity. She wanted to insist that Kain let them take care of him, but she was too busy answering the usual questions. Name, age, medical history, NHS number, what happened, medications and so on. They gave her a capsule of activated charcoal and a glass of water while she informed them that no, she didn't want to report the incident and yes, she was safe now. Luckily, they accepted her answer and moved on to the various tests. It was a bit of a blur, everything happening quickly and at once while the ambulance made its way back to the hospital. She could only relax slightly once the EMT assured her the worst had passed by. She sat on the small cot in the middle of the ambulance, trying to appear unbothered by it all. The act didn't convince Kain, and her first instinct was to respond with some insult. She kept her mouth shut though, instead nodding in acknowledgement of her words. When the vehicle pulled to a stop, she stood up. By now, she was just lightheaded, likely from dehydration, so she finished off the last of the water before looking at Kain. "You're right; I'll be fine," she told him. "Now let the doctors help you. You look like shit." To be fair, in this context it was nowhere near as offensive as the other times she'd said similar words to him. She insisted on walking out on her own, and followed the medical techs into the hospital proper. She'd refrained from having her emergency contact called - she would call her mother later, on her own, once she'd figured out what to say. Her father didn't need to know, and was unlikely to care. @Kain the Insane

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Her insistence on him being treated made him sigh softly. There had been worse beatings before. He'd had times where for the next several days he'd bleed from places he wasn't supposed to bleed. But as he went to follow her, he felt himself stumble and fall onto his face. As Melina was brought inside, they treated her and eventually brought her to a room where they hooked her up to machines to track her heart rate and breathing. The doctors and nurses were all very understanding and kind. Soon after, Kain was wheeled into her room, bandaged up. They had an IV in him, and half his head was wrapped tightly in bandages. Still being conscious, he sat in silence as he looked over at Melina and he smiled slightly. “Told you that I'd be here… Not exactly like this, but STILL…!” Kain chuckled with a bit of a wheeze and he sighed as he stared up toward the ceiling. Shaking his head, he glanced over at her.

11:07 AM

“You know… I always thought that the only way I'd share a room with a girl was in a hospital… And I am right so far. But seriously… I can see how bothered you are. You may not think it, but I can see it in your eyes. This situation… Is terrible. But I must tell you, you're not the only one who's been through a lot. Maybe this will help you. I live on my own, barely able to come here because it's so expensive. My parents love my little brother more than me, and they always made sure that I knew the only place I'd get in life is behind a desk or in a casket. And then I came here, and you made sure I knew that was where I belonged. The sad part is, I know it. I know that I'm going to live alone, work alone… And die alone. Every day the thoughts get darker, and I wonder if it's worth going on. The truth is… For me… I don't know. But for you? You're on your way to a bright future. You've got money, you make good grades, you have friends, you're attractive, and so much more. You, more than anyone else, has a bright future… But you're still just human. Prone to errors sometimes, but… Still…” Kain rambled to her quietly, the pain medication loosening his tongue a lot as he spoke. At least, that seemed to be the case. Why else would he share so much? @Al the Killer

If he was actually trying to make her feel worse by laying her effect on him bare like this, it was working. She watched him speak from his wheelchair, barely managing to keep the horror from her expression. No, she couldn't have caused... Damn it! She looked down, face flushed with more shame than before. She couldn't even bring herself to correct the inaccuracies about her own life - how her grades were only good because uni allowed her to specialize in the only things she was any good at, or how her friends never really felt close, or how the money was just something more for her father to hold over her head to force her to tolerate his bullshit. It didn't matter that he was partially wrong. Not really. "Not everything is about you," she said after a while. The phrase was meant to be reassuring. She only realized after the fact how rude it really sounded. She sighed, then clarified. "I mean... Like you said, we're only human. Nobody's an oracle, and someone who hasn't taken the time to get to know you can't really know your flaws, or where your future is going. Sometimes, people tell you what they hate about themselves and it will sound like they're talking about you because it's easier to be an arse than it is to be vulnerable. It's not always about you." She lay back in her hospital bed, looking up at the ceiling. "You have a life ahead of you. Nobody else can tell you what kind of life it will be. Not even me." @Kain the Insane

“I'm glad you're so certain I could. But wasn't it you that said money makes the world go round, and those without it are destined to be stepped on by those who do?” Kain said, looking at her, his face genuinely quizative. Sighing softly, he shook his head and gently smiled. Rubbing his forehead, he cleared his throat and nodded. “Yeah, I know it's not all about me. I understand in the end that I'm a cog in the machine more than anything else. As for why bullies bully… I know some of it can be enjoyable.” Kain paused and chuckled softly. “With you, I think I have always thought… That by telling me that I was ‘fugly’ and that I would end up working for you, or that I could be lucky to polish your shoes… That you just genuinely believed that was my place. But, if you're questioning that now… It makes me happy. Because it would be nice to have someone believe in me.” Kain chuckled softly as he looked at the clock and looked out the window. He'd given a description of the guys so Security could try to stop them if they even came close. If they did, Kain would get up and make sure he at least tried to stop them. “It may just be the painkillers loosening my mouth… But I always secretly hoped that maybe the ‘pigtails’ theory was true. And that deep down you bullied me because… Well, you liked me. You are very pretty, and you are interesting. I imagine… That being you could be very fun…” Kain said, closing his eyes a bit and for a few moments, he kinda seemed to have gone to sleep. But his head kinda bobbed a bit and he slowly stood up from the chair and nodded softly. “You want anything from a vending machine…? I'll get it, no need to get me back or anything like that Melina.” @Al the Killer

He was... Strange. Melina wasn't sure how else to describe it. But she didn't mind the company right now. Compared to everything else he'd said, the admission that he'd hoped she secretly liked him was no surprise. She'd known he was attracted to her. He hadn't hidden her well. It was how she'd known she could get away with targeting him. To some extent, maybe it had been a game, tormenting a cute guy to see how much she could get away with, testing the limits. Wait... Was he cute? Or just tall? But either way, it would have been too far to say she'd liked him. She'd still seen him as someone who needed to be kept beneath her, in a completely... Mostly... Nonsexual way. "Don't be ridiculous," she said. "If someone treats you like shit, it doesn't matter how they feel about you - stay away from them either way." Then he stood up, and for a second, she thought he was going to take her advice. But no. She picked her head up to look at him straight on, then shook her head. "No, I think I should get some sleep." She really did have homework to get done over the weekend. She couldn't slack off like she had in high school, because her studies were something she actually cared about. "And you should rest, too." She lowered her head again and closed her eyes to leave the strange, traumatic, surreal evening behind her. "Goodnight, Kain." @Kain the Insane

Kain shook his head, and he positioned himself to watch the door. He wasn't going to let it out of his sight. He'd made a promise, and he wouldn't break it. So, as the hours passed while she slept, he watched the door silently. Just having a lot of time to think to himself. This wasn't really a good thing, as the least safe place for him was his head. Blinking slowly, he just had time to think it all over. His mind was inebriated by the bit of painkillers they'd given him. It honestly just felt good to him, but he knew that it would only get worse. He'd helped Melina, but it changed nothing between them. Not that he expected it to. From the beginning, he knew it would be back to normal form like before. Softly, he hummed and looked at his phone, staring at himself in the reflection of it. He rolled out of the room quietly to get some things from the vending machine, before he rolled back and resumed his position in the room like before. Once it was morning, about 9 A.M. Kain was feeling the tiredness catching up to him. But it wasn't something new to him. He'd spent many nights sleepless as he contemplated things that would involve putting him in a casket. Then he'd go to class with dark eyes no one noticed because he usually had one or both eyes bruised pretty badly. Slowly getting up, he got some nurses to help remove his bandages. They'd change them after he took a hot shower. That was something he could enjoy here. At his apartment, he didn't even really have a water heater for a hot shower. The shower wasn't too loud, but it was bright outside and the sunlight began to shine in the whole room. Staying asleep could be difficult, but hey, maybe she was one of those people who could fold a pillow over their head while they were sleeping and continue to do so when something bright or loud comes close to interrupting it. @Al the Killer

Milena hadn't expected to sleep peacefully through the night. But exhaustion won out in the end, and her next moment of awareness came with the bright light of mid morning. She opened her eyes, and her surroundings immediately reminded her that the night before hadn't been a horrible nightmare. The faint sound of running water came from behind the bathroom door, and in the hallway, medical staff were going about their daily business. For now, she was being left alone, and wasn't about to disrupt that peace by calling for a nurse. Breakfast could wait, when there was something she had to do first. She sat up and looked around until she found her bag, and her cell phone in it. She hesitated, unsure of how to explain what had happened. There was nothing she could tell her mother that wouldn't cause the woman to worry, then to rush to the hospital and fret over her at the expense of her own health. Her mom had enough stress going with the divorce, and the uncertainty it would bring. In the end, she sighed and put the phone back. She hadn't been administered an IV, but was hooked up to an array of monitors that keep track of her vital signs. The temptation entered her mind to remove all of them so she could move freely, but she didn't want to set off any alarms. Annoying, when all she wanted was to get out and pretend nothing had happened. Her saviour and roommate for the night wasn't in the room, so she assumed he was the source of the running water. Best to leave him alone, then. She located the button that would call for a nurse, then waited. @Kain the Insane

Shortly after she pressed the button, the nurse came in. Approaching her, she smiled softly. “Good to see you awake… Your boyfriend must've been worried sick! He spent all night making sure that you were safe…” The nurse smiled, probably being well intentioned and not meaning to make her feel awkward or anything. She checked her vitals and smiled. “You're looking good… Now, I'll take some blood and we will make sure it comes back clear, just to make sure your system is properly disposing of it.” She nodded and used a tool to get a little blood from her finger to send and have the proper tests run. Although st just about that time, Kain was emerging from the room's bathroom. He had a towel wrapped around his waist, and he looked at the nurse. Requesting she bring him another gown. He looked surprisingly gold with his hair clean and his purple eyes visible and sparkling in the light. Plus, seeing him shirtless would let her see many scars on his body, along with a surprising amount of muscle. A vaguely visible six pack, and his arms seeming a bit more muscular than they seemed to be before. Now Kain looked much better than yesterday too. The cuts having scabbed up, his bruises having seemed to swell less and faded slowly, Kain looked just about ready for anything. Before she could stare for much longer, the nurse returned with the new gown and Kain stepped back into the bathroom to change. Returning to the wheelchair, he sat down and took a long, deep breath before @Al the Killer

"He-" Milena opened her mouth to correct the nurse, but decided that informing her that he wasn't her boyfriend would raise too many questions that she frankly didn't feel like answering. "...He worries too much," she said instead, allowing the nurse to check her over. "Once my tests are clear, I'll need the clothes I came here with and my discharge paperwork." This entire experience had been the worst kind of surreal, and she wanted nothing more than to go home an pretend nothing had happened. Get a better breakfast than anything the hospital could serve, take a proper shower, change into something that wasn't made of paper or so cheap it may as well have been paper... Everything would return to normal, because it had to return to normal. She'd been on top of the damn world, and she wasn't about to let this drag her down- Kain's arrival interrupted her from her thoughts. She looked over at the nearly-naked man in her hospital room, unable to ignore the lean muscle she'd failed to notice before. It shouldn't have been surprising - he'd been able to carry her, after all. The heart monitor still registered a slight quickening of her pulse before she looked away. "Startled me," she commented as a quick excuse, but the nurse was already getting a new hospital gown for him. She returned quickly, he changed, and they were alone together in the room again. "I left my dress at your flat, so I'll have to stop by and pick it up later," she said, but wasn't sure when or if she'd be able to bring herself to return to that tiny place. How did he live like that? "I'll just call am Uber to bring me home for now, so don't worry." And if either of those guys from earlier dared to cross her path again... well, she was lucky she had access to a good enough lawyer to keep her out of prison. @Kain the Insane

"He-" Milena opened her mouth to correct the nurse, but decided that informing her that he wasn't her boyfriend would raise too ...

@Milena Lovell (@Al the Killer) - jump “You… And I could share an Uber to my place. I'll give you the dress and then you can leave. I promise I won't talk anymore, cross my heart.” Kain drew an X over his head with a small smile. This was the end of this, and he knew it. She wouldn't change how she behaved or ever mention this again. But the least he could do was live in the moment for as long as he could. It would never be able to last forever, but at least Kain could pretend his life wasn't an absolute shitshow for a little while. Honestly, he wouldn't have minded staying in the hospital a little while longer, but he knew that someone else probably needed the room, so he would go. Once they brought his new apparel, he put it on and laid down to let them do the tests and everything they needed for him to be able to check out and go home. The whole time, he did his best not to look over at Melina and make her feel weird or awkward. Especially because he had a feeling he'd made it incredibly awkward for her, and that wasn't what he had wanted from her at all. She may have done horrible things to him, but he wasn't the type of person to desire REVENGE or VENGEANCE or whatever else. @Al the Killer

Typical parasite, expecting her to pay for his Uber and pretending it was- no, that wasn't fair. Not after everything he'd done. She owed him her life, never mind a joint Uber. He was even offering to shut up. She nodded. "Fine. I'll order it once you're finished getting checked out. Just don't take too long or I'll leave without you." No she wouldn't. She stood aside while the nurses and doctor tended to him, making sure he was in good enough condition to leave. The medication and alcohol were almost entirely out of her system, and there was no longer any risk, so she was cleared to go as well. All she could do was wait and avoid looking over at him. At the injuries he'd gotten protecting her. She waited until everyone else was about to leave before taking her phone out and opening her app. The last thing she needed was for him to beat her to it and try to request - and subsequently pay for - their ride back to his place. "Tell me your address and I'll put the request through," she said, once the two of them were alone once more. @Kain the Insane

Kain told her his address, making sure she got it right. Although he could see she gave him a bit of a weird look, and he gulped. “Hey, I'm sorry if it seems like I'm trying to mooch off of you. I just… Spent basically all my expendable income last night to distract those guys. They chased him for a couple hours, and I've been charged… A LOT. Probably won't be able to buy Two meals a day anymore after this…” Kain said, giving her a bit of a guilty look. Obviously he wasn't meaning to take advantage of her. Rubbing his forehead, he nodded gently and cleared his throat. Once their Uber arrived, Kain hurried out to open the door for her and be gentlemanly. Once she'd gotten in, he climbed in and gave her some space. As much as he wanted to talk, he didn't want to ruin things even more from now on. So, he sat silently with her, as they were driven closer to his apartment. Yawning softly, Kain looked out the window and began to count cars to pass some time and relax as much as he could. Didn't want to accidentally talk her ear off or fuck up his chance to maybe become friends with her. @Al the Killer

Despite her skepticism about his intentions, Milena couldn't help a pang of guilt. Of course that would have been expensive, and she didn't really consider her safety worth someone else not being able to eat. She avoided looking directly at him as she typed in the address and had him double-check to make sure it was correct. "He's here," she said after a few minutes and stood up. She followed Kain out, thanking him briefly for holding the door open as she got in the car. Aside from those few words, she kept quiet. It was odd, imagining everything going back to normal after this. Would she be haunted by the previous night forever, or just move on like it had never happened at all? She looked out the opposite window until the driver spoke up. "Lovers' quarrel?" he guessed tactlessly. Milena rolled her eyes and contemplated telling him off. But she didn't have it in her right now, and he kept talking. "Every relationship has their ups and downs, you know? If you really love each other, it will work." That sounded like a load of bullshit, but she kept her mouth shut. A few minutes later, they pulled to a stop in front of Kain's building and she hastily stepped out. But she couldn't rush directly to his flat, since she didn't remember where that was. It wasn't like she had the keys anyway. So she waited for him. @Kain the Insane

Kain awkwardly sat in the car and tried not to look towards Milena. There were a lot of weird things about him. Perhaps it was her bullying that had made him like her. Because it reminded him of his mother and father. The moment his brother was born, he'd never been good enough. His father had done horrible things whenever he didn't do something perfectly, and his reward for doing it perfectly was to be ignored. He'd always been told that no one got love for free. You had to earn it. Be someone worthy of being loved before you could be loved. And perhaps in some ways its sorta true. Vut that was all he'd grown up to know was that he was bullied constantly and couldn't stop finding new ways to screw up his life even more. Resulting in his father's “discipline”. Something he'd become very resistant to. Once they arrived, Kain exited the taxi and he grabbed the door and opened it for Milena. He led her to his small, shoebox of an apartment, and he cleared his throat gently. Opening the door, it was still the same shithole it was before. Obviously one could live in it, and Kain had cleaned the place up. But this was the sorta place people would buy to gentrify nowadays. He helped her to retrieve her things, making sure not to touch any delicates just in case she would find an issue with that. All he wanted to do was give her a helping hand. “I'm sorry he thought we were… A thing. I probably didn't help with us talking in front of his car a bit. But… I promise I wasn't trying to mislead him into believing that we were in a relationship or anything like that…” @Al the Killer

Milena followed him up to the apartment, not minding the silence. She usually didn't, when she had a moment away from the crushing weight of expectation. There were no expectations here, not really; in the grand scheme of things, Kain was nothing. His opinion of her would get her nowhere, one way or another. The apartment itself was vaguely familiar, though she didn't want to think back to the circumstances that had brought her here. "Talk less," she told Kain after his apology, then reconsidered her wording. "You don't have to apologize, when I didn't bother to correct him either. That's far from the worst thing to happen to me in the past twenty-four hours." She gathered up her things, the stupid dress and bag. She didn't feel like changing back into the same outfit, and was strongly considering burning it. "Just give me a minute to wash my hands and I'll be out of there. God knows who else has been in that guy's car." It was a habit of hers. Any public place or shared vehicle left her with the feeling she had to wash its remains off of herself afterward. It wasn't quite a fear of germs, so much as... she wasn't sure. A disdain for everything and everyone? That seemed about right. She walked into the bathroom and turned on the tap, waiting for the water to run warm. And waiting. And waiting. "Does it normally take this long to get hot water?" @Kain the Insane

“Yes and no. This place doesn't have a water heater. It was in the contract, and that's why the rent was cheap.” Kain said, feeling that disdain. Definitely made his weird confession make him feel even worse. There wasn't any awkwardness at all, he was nothing at all to her. Sighing softly, Kain shrugged and got a pot before filling it with water and using the small stove to begin heating it up. “It usually takes about 5 minutes. You mix this in the sink eith about half a sink full of cold water and it balances to be warm. A little less cold water if you prefer to feel like you're being steamed or cooked.” Kain offered to her, not even thinking much of it. It was a routine, he was incredibly used to it all now. Barely scraping by, buying and eating meals when he could, yet having to divide money in such a way where he'd have enough for the rent and the one or Two meals a day that he would eat. Not nearly enough food, which was one reason he was as thing as he currently was. @Al the Killer

Milena frowned and looked over at him. "Contract or not, that doesn't sound legal," she said. "Even in affordable housing." She told herself she wasn't worried for his well-being or anything. It was just the principle of the thing. The landlord had a responsibility to provide livable housing, and had failed to do even that much. That was all. "My father's lawyer will be writing to your landlord, in accordance with..." She trailed off, trying to remember which law it was. Her father had wanted her to study law, so she'd read up on the topic so he'd believe that was what she was doing in uni. It wasn't, though. "...The law that outlines a landlord's responsibilities in regards to health and safety. That one." She turned the sink off because she didn't want to waste water, hot or not. Sure he had a solution in mind, but it was just as horrifying as having to wash with cold water. Possibly more, considering the burn risk. "No, that's fine. I'll just wash up when I get home." At least her apartment was in livable condition. She refused to let herself feel sorry for him, but the heart had a way of disobeying the brain. She gathered up her things and walked toward the door, pausing. She felt like she should say something. "...Thank you." The words were quiet, unfamiliar in sincerity, and she found herself walking out in a hurry after speaking them. @Kain the Insane

Kain didn't say anything as she left, but her thanks did make him feel a bit happy. Smiling a bit, he went to his notebook and quickly began to write. He had an assignment for his English class to write a long couplet. Now he felt the inspiration, not very sure what he could or should do before, but now he had a clear thought in his head. . . . Several days later, Kain hadn't seen Milena, although he had sorta been avoiding her. However, he had handed in his couplet, and it had done well enough that it ended up being read in front of the class. The problem? After receiving his paper, one of the guys grabbed it. Kain had been chasing after it to get it back, as the guy was telling him that he was going to show it to Milena. Kain didn't care if she saw it, but he didn't want her to be embarrassed by it. So, he attempted to grab it, however, after running for about 20 minutes, the guy spotted Milena and ran up. “Hey, that loser Kain submitted this in class! It reminded me of someone, and I think someone has a little crush~” His voice was low, making sure only she heard before he handed her the paper. The handwriting was clear, and the A on it was a red mark. If she read it, then she would find the words.

2:15 PM

In a world where beauty reigns supreme, There lies a girl with hair like a gleam, Blonde locks that shimmer in the sun, A sight so breathtaking, second to none. Her hair cascades down in waves, Like golden rivers, it gracefully behave. Each strand perfectly in place, A mesmerizing sight that no one can replace. Her hair so radiant, it catches the light, A beacon of beauty, a pure delight. Blonde like the sun, bright and bold, A sight to behold, a joy to behold. With every step, her hair sways, A mesmerizing dance that always stays. Each strand tells a story of its own, A tale of elegance, effortlessly shown. In a room full of people, she stands out, Her beauty unmatched, without a doubt. Her blonde hair a crown of grace, A symbol of perfection, a heavenly place. People whisper in awe as she walks by, Captivated by her beauty, they can't deny. Her blonde hair like a soft, gentle breeze, A vision of loveliness that never cease. She is the epitome of beauty with the blonde hair, A sight so rare, beyond compare. With every glance, hearts skip a beat, Enchanted by her radiance, so sweet. In a world full of chaos, she is a calming sight, Her blonde hair a beacon of hope and light. A reminder that beauty can be found, In the simplest of things, all around. So here's to the girl with beauty so rare, With blonde hair that shines like a flare. May she continue to inspire and impress, With her beauty, a true success.

2:15 PM

In a world where beauty is prized, The girl with the blonde hair never hides. She embraces her uniqueness with pride, Her beauty a treasure, impossible to hide. So let her hair shine bright and true, A symbol of beauty, a dream come true. For in her blonde locks, there lies a tale, Of beauty so pure, it will never fail. In a world full of darkness and despair, The girl with the blonde hair is a breath of fresh air. Her beauty a reminder of all that's good, A beacon of hope in a world misunderstood. So here's to the girl with beauty so rare, With blonde hair that sparkles, beyond compare. May she continue to shine bright and bold, A vision of beauty, a sight to behold. @Al the Killer

Life went on. It was supposed to go on like nothing had ever happened. The friends who'd abandoned her at the party feigned concern that she'd left early without warning, but nobody mentioned the reason. She was sure they all knew, but nobody wanted to acknowledge it. It was something that happened to other girls all the time, so of course she was meant to just... deal with it. Somehow. She saved her tears for when she was alone. Today, as with most days, she tried to forget. She sat at one of the picnic tables on the university quad, reading through her textbook for Introduction to Machine Learning and pretending to be bored, as though it wasn't her favourite class. A voice caught her attention, and she tried to remember his name for a second before deciding it didn't matter. She rolled her eyes, but morbid curiosity dictated that she take the paper and read over it. The mark caught her eye first, and she flicked her gaze over toward the guy who had brought it. "I can see why it caught your eye. This letter must be unfamiliar to you, huh?" she joked, with perhaps a bit of genuine malice behind it before she read the details. Oh. She'd tried not to think about Kain's earlier confession, but the guy was down bad. Her gaze almost softened as she read on. She didn't know the girl he was describing, not really - she only had distant memories of her genuine self. But she wanted to know her again. Wanted to be her. To avoid that painful tug in her heart, she shrugged and folded the paper up. She should say something cruel, but no critique came to mind. She was not a literature student. "Big deal, it's nothing everyone didn't already know about him. Thanks for showing me anyway, though; it'll be good for a laugh." Despite her words, she looked past him to see if Kain would be following behind. She wasn't sure what she'd do if she saw him, but if he was there, she was about to find out. @Kain the Insane

Kain stood behind the guy, a good way away. The moment he saw her, he sighed. He let the other guy leave before he approached. “I'm sorry, I tried to grab it. Please don't misunderstand what I mean when I say this, but I really wasn't writing a love poem. You… Inspired me the other day. And I just started writing. I promise that while I find you beautiful, I don't expect you to be some shining Goddess on a pedestal…” He said before he turned around. “And I'm sorry I apologized with so many words again.” Before he began to take a step. Honestly he wasn't down bad. He hadn't meant it to exactly be about her. While she inspired him, some of this was just stuff from his mind. But in that case, why did part of him hope she liked it? No matter how unlikely that is, why would even part of him ever think it was remotely possible for longer than the briefest of moments that Milena actually liked his couplet or something. @Al the Killer

Milena kept a careful eye on him, appearing almost thoughtful. She held onto the poem, since he didn't ask to have it back. There was something pure to it that she couldn't quite place, and she didn't want to give that up. She listened in silence, then stood up as he turned away. "You're not..." She wasn't sure where she was going with this. "You're not a terrible writer," she tried again. Words faltered beyond that, but her attention was soon drawn to the sound of chatter as two of her friends, Clara and Aubrey, approached. Their conversation paused as their attention fixed on Kain. She knew that look too well, the look of someone who had just spotted easy prey. They knew she was there too, and they knew she would join in, taking the lead rather than stepping apart from the crowd. A week ago, that might have been true. Instead, she smiled brightly and grabbed onto Kain's arm, holding it toward the center of her chest as she spun him to face the two of them. "And I don't think I've introduced you to my best friends yet!" She looked over at them. "Clara, Aubrey, this is my new boyfriend, Kain." What was she doing? Honestly, she wasn't sure. Maybe she just felt obligated to protect him as an official thanks for what he'd done for her. @Kain the Insane

Now normally Kain couldn't have pulled this off. He was a blushing mess in any other circumstances. And who could blame him, his arm pressed up on/between her huge booba, her warmth right by him. However, his shock saved the situation, as he managed to say, “Oh- Its nice to meet you, Clara and Aubrey. Well, you know my name, but I'll reintroduce myself. I'm Kain Bennett, it's nice to meet you.” Kain smiled and pushed his glasses back up, leaning into Milena a bit. Not too much, as he didn't want her to be uncomfortable, but enough to help sell the image and idea that she was putting up for her friends. The real question in his mind was, why was she doing this? Had she decided she'd be his girlfriend? Or was she faking this to mess with him? Or was she just helping him? Honestly, he couldn't tell, but he'd just make sure to play along as best he could. His body, while boney, was surprisingly warm. Through her holding his arm, she could feel his heart beating fast and hard. In actuality, it felt like his heart was slamming against his ribs, trying to beat its way out of his chest the old fashioned way. “You were right, Mil, they do look just as surprised as a deer in headlights. Must not have expected a guy like me to have any charm I suppose… I'd be hurt if it wasn't kinda true.” @Al the Killer

Milena forced out a laugh. "Don't talk about yourself like that," she said. "You're exactly as charming as you need to be." The warmth was pleasant, as much of a comfort as another person's body could be. Which wasn't much, by her measure. She looked up at him affectionately before turning toward her friends again. They did indeed appear shocked. Especially Aubrey, who'd been almost certain that Milena had no real interest in men. Clara was the taller and slimmer of the two, with tan skin and curly black hair that reached her midback. Aubrey was shorter but with a more muscular, athletic build, straight red hair tied back, and a smattering of freckles across her face. Clara was the first to recover. "Well, she must have seen something in you," Clara said, giving Milena a puzzled look. "How did this happen, anyway?" "We ran into each other at that party last week," Milena said vaguely. "I won't bore you with the details." Because she hadn't talked to them about it. "Anyway, we were about to head out, so we'll catch up later." She had to let go of him so she could pick up her textbook, carrying it under one arm so she could hook the other around Kain's arm. "We'll see you around~" @Kain the Insane

“Yeah, see you around… And let me help you with that, Mil…” Kain gently took her bag to help her out. He gave her a brief look to try and communicate that this was a thank you. Part of him really hoped this somehow wasn't fake. That this was all somehow real. As they walked, he began to quietly whisper to himself, before it became clear that he was writing a poem in his head. You held my arm and saved me From the darkness deep within Your touch was like a lifeline A beacon in my sin You guided me through shadows And led me to the light Your strength and love surrounding me Gave me the will to fight I am forever grateful For the kindness that you showed For reaching out to help me When I was at my low You may not even realize The impact that you made But know that I am thankful For the hand that you displayed So thank you for your kindness And for being by my side You held my arm and saved me And in my heart, I feel happiness reside He spoke softly. It was barely audible, so if she wasn't paying attention, it would probably go unheard to anyone else but him. He simply nodded and mumbled it to himself. It was just an idea, but she'd inspired him yet again to write a poem where she was the muse. The one who inspired the creation of it. @Al the Killer

Milena wasn't entirely sure where she was leading him, only that she wanted an excuse to get away from there. She didn't mind walking quietly, but she heard him whispering to himself and couldn't help but listen in. A reflection of her own thoughts, as though he really did see her... Just a coincidence, probably. She looked away from him, only daring to speak when it was clear he had finished. "So... Do you have any other classes today?" she asked. "If not, I'd like to speak with you. Alone." There were things she didn't want to risk saying out here, in the open. @Kain the Insane

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Shaking his head, Kain sighed and cleared his throat. "No no, i... Am done with my classes for the day. We can go somewhere and speak privately if you wished." Kain offered, getting the sense she was asking because she wanted to talk with him. Although if that was the case, he sorta was equally excited and dreading whatever she wanted to talk about. Although, whatever the case, he just prepared himself for whatever might come next. Whether that be heartbreak from her telling him that this was all fake, or excitement when she said that it might really be real for the two of them.

Milena's mind raced, trying to figure out what the hell she was doing as she led the way down the sidewalk. "Great, my flat isn't too far from here." She didn't even bother driving to campus most days, since she resided in the luxury apartment complex just across the street from the main administrative building. "Oh, and when we're done there, I can take you out. Shopping, maybe dinner somewhere... My treat." She waited for the walk signal, then crossed the street. The building was a tall edifice, entirely modern in its design. Each unit sported floor to ceiling windows, luxurious interiors, and a large balcony or two. Her father had splurged to make sure she could have a two-bedroom, because no daughter of his was going to live without a private office like some pauper. Of course, he was clear on the fact that she could end up the street if he decided it had to be so. Nothing came without the threat that it might one day be lost. She led the way into the lobby, where she waved hello to the concierge before pressing the elevator call button. @Kain the Insane

As much as Kain wanted to say something, he couldn't manage to do so. The words she'd said a couple days ago, telling him to be quiet. Right now, she was holding his arm as they rode up the elevator, and he didn't want to ruin that. Especially since she was bringing him to her apartment to have a conversation. It must've been extremely important if she wanted THAT much privacy. There was a little voice in the back of his head wondering if she was taking him to her apartment for… Fun reasons. However, unlike all the horn dogs around school, Kain wasn't just thinking about Milena like that. She wasn't just a pretty face or a nice body. He'd seen something in her that he hadn't anywhere else. A kind of sadness perhaps? It was hard to place. But the point was, he didn't care about her because of her status, and it wasn't just about her appearance. He truly saw something in her that made his heart feel strange. @Al the Killer

Milena looked up at the elevator as they ascended, not even thinking to let go of his arm. "...How is your flat?" she asked. "Has your landlord said anything about installing a water heater, or is this going to turn into a game of legal chicken?" There were, of course, guidelines around rent increases that would prevent the building's owner from doing anything so underhanded in response. She still thought it best to be prepared if he tried. There was a soft ding as the elevator reached one of the higher floors, and she stepped out to lead the way. "Make yourself at home, but not too at home. I'm not planning on staying in for too long." She typed in the entry code on the door's keypad and the lock clicked open. The interior was more spacious than it had to be. During the day, there was no need to turn the lights on, as plenty of light filtered in through the large windows. She had a few potted plants growing on the balcony, and the large living room had more a large, plush sectional sofa that she rarely used most of, with a flat-screen TV that she used even less of against one wall. It was all immaculately clean, each surface gleaming. She didn't say anything as she walked over to the kitchen sink to wash her hands. @Kain the Insane

“Ah, well, he's been coming by to do inspections. He's given us warnings in line with the contract. But so far, people said it seems like he's snooping to see if he can find any hints as to WHO called your lawyer. But so far, it's seeming like he's going to cave in and buy a water heater… As well as having some other inspectors come in. Apparently trying to get ahead of any other issues because your lawyer calls for a court appointed inspector to come and check on things.” Kain tried not to speak too much, but it was sorta hard. The update was kinda informational. The landlord had stopped by his apartment, and he didn't have anything there to indicate a lawyer. Then again, he was probably the poorest one who lived in the building, just barely getting by on scholarships from the college. But once they arrived at her apartment, he looked away to let her type the code. It wasn't like he could sneak in anyway or something creepy like that. This was more so just to show her he respected her boundaries. Once inside, he pulled out a lint roller and gave himself a quick wipe down with it before he carefully sat down. “I understand, don't worry.” He nodded. That answered the little piece of his brain talking before. Although, it didn't quite pipe down asking him if she was just thinking he wouldn't last long. So, instead Kain just thought about what she could say and focused on other things just to quiet his inner thoughts down. Whatever she had to say, he needed to hear it, and it was important enough that she wanted to talk about it in extra private. Not, like, in a broom closet where someone might hear a word or two. A place where no one could hear them talking except for them. @Al the Killer

Milena smiled a bit to herself as he gave the update. Good, something was getting done. Improving his situation was the least she could do in return. She finished washing and dried her hands off on the small towel that hung from the sink door. It was odd, having a guest. She'd had a few friends over once or twice, but usually despised hosting and never had just one visitor who wasn't family. This was different, yet she found herself more relaxed than she thought she would be. She took a seat on the sofa, keeping a comfortable distance between them so he wouldn't get the wrong idea. "You know why people target you, right?" she asked after a moment. "Myself included. Or I was. It's because you're an easy target. You just take it and never really do anything to defend yourself. So everyone mistakes that for weakness and, when they smell weakness, they exploit it. It's not something wrong with you..." She leaned back and looked out the window. "In the meantime, I am a raging bitch, but I'm a raging bitch with status. If we're seen to be dating then, by the transitive property, people will respect you. Or at the very least, leave you alone, because they know I wouldn't tolerate them mistreating you." She turned to face him. "I can't express how much what you did for me at the party means. But I can protect you in return, if you'll let me." @Kain the Insane

“O-oh! Um… Huh. Well, I suppose it makes the most amount of sense. While I've never really had a girlfriend or a fake girlfriend before, if I'm being honest. But, I think that makes sense. And plus, you could use this to get your parents off your back. I remember you said that they were really wanting you to find someone…” Kain offered to her. She hadn't said much, but he had a feeling why. She was, by all definitions, a very smart person. But her attitude seemed like her family was not. Not to mention she'd said her family wouldn't have cared if that guy had done something to her. They wanted a male heir so badly they'd let their daughter get assaulted to make it happen. Perhaps without that bait dangling, he could help to protect her too? His thought process was probably easily readable for Milena, since she'd gotten more of an insight into his character as a man. He had done the right thing and taken a beating to protect her when he didn't have to. He'd gone out of his way to get her to safety despite bleeding and injured. For him, he wasn't thinking about the benefits for him all that much. The suggestion he had made was what he cared about. That he had another way that he could help her. Because that was who he was. He wanted to keep her safe and protected more than anything. Hell, he would probably do it for her friends or some of the guys who beat him too. In a world about survival of the fittest, he'd rather be the rabbit who was run over to save a fox from being crushed under the weight of a car. Perhaps it was ignorance? Or a bit of stupidity? Or perhaps he was someone who genuinely believed he could help and save people like this. @Al the Killer

"I've never dated anyone before either," Milena admitted. She had her reputation, sure, and there had been rumours before, but she'd never been too nice to say 'no' to someone, or desperate for financial security, and couldn't fathom any other reason someone would subject themselves to the nightmare her mother had endured throughout Milena's entire life. "I never saw much point to it." She knew what the romance books said, but they were called fiction for a reason. None of that was real. "But I guess... look, I can't risk anyone finding out that I faked having a boyfriend, so as far as anyone is concerned, us included, we're actually dating. Understood?" She'd meant to take a softer approach, to let him know he could still back out if he wanted to. But she was quickly realizing she was not good at this. Oh well. She stood up. "Leave my textbook on the coffee table. I'm taking you out on a date." @Kain the Insane

So they were dating now… Huh. Honestly, he didn't want to argue with her. His parents may have been terrible, but love was good, especially when you choose the one you care about. “Yeah, I… I'll date you. No holds barred. You… You decide the pace of things. I really like you, and I want to help and see you happy.” Kain stood up and he approached her, offering a hand to her. If she didn't want to hold hands, then he'd understand, but he was just offering to her what he was thinking of. For him, this wasn't a relationship of convenience, and he was going to make that very clear. In fact, he already was trying to. For him, he wanted this to be real. “I'm all in. No questions… Whatever problems come, I'll back you up. Because I want to, and not because this is convenient. Because it may not always be.” He said softly, not sure what else to say. After all, to someone who doesn't see the point in trying to fins love, the only thing you can really do to help is to try and grow her some love. @Al the Killer

Milena looked up at him as he spoke. For a moment, she was silent, trying to figure out what this twisting feeling in her chest was. It was horrible, and she liked it. "I..." This was already more tenderness than she'd ever been shown before, and she hadn't the slightest clue what to do with it. She held onto his hand. "Alright, good to hear. Come on, let's get you some new clothes. If you keep dressing like that, nobody will actually believe we're together." She led him to the door, grabbing her car keys from their wall hook on the way there. "I'll pick everything out, but I'll also pay for it, so it's fair... Oh, what's your favourite colour?" There was an extra energy to her steps now, almost like she was a bit excited about their first date. @Kain the Insane

“Oh! Uh, it's orange and gray. A bit basic, I know.” Kain smiled. He didn't want to bring up her excitement, because he had a feeling that if he did, she would stop herself from feeling that way. Or, well, act like she wasn't feeling that way. Holding her hand, he didn't try to intertwine their fingers, at least not yet anyway. “Oh, and I'm sorry, but yeah! You probably have a better fashion sense than me. I always kinda wore whatever fit. Although, uh… I wear baggy pants and shorts because…” He blushed and he tried to think of a way to say it. How could he bridge the topic without it being too weird or anything. “I… Have a similar… I don't quite know how to say it. I imagine you've gotta get shirts that are big because of your genetics. Let's just say my genetics have left me with… Something that caused problems with tight pants when I get… Worked up.” He said, just wanting to let her know ahead of time. He was packing a size that could rip pants or just be very apparent when it was fully woken up. Similar to her own very appealing body, the one part of him that got good genetics meant his clothes and preparation had to be carefully done. @Al the Killer

She could work with that colour combination. She listened to him speak as she called the elevator, but ended up rolling her eyes at the explanation. From what her more experienced friends had told her, that sort of thing didn't really matter as long as the guy knew what he was doing, but it still sounded like a humble brag. "Don't worry. It's not like we're just grabbing things off the wall or whatever you do when you go clothes shopping," she assured him. "I'm sure whoever's working today will get something that's comfortable and looks good. And we can always have things custom tailored if we need to. That's what I do for shirts, even though I still have to pay over a hundred pounds apiece for a bra that fits... Now that's annoying." The first date still felt like a bit soon to bring up dick size, but she reminded herself it was purely a practical concern. She stepped into the elevator and pressed the button for parking level two. @Kain the Insane

“Alright, alright… I'm sorry, I know it's much too early to talk about that…” He said quietly. He continued holding her hand, although he had a feeling he may have ruined the mood. Although honestly, he wasn't trying to humble Brag. His size had always been an issue with clothes, and he had to come up with tricks. Coiling it up and letting the part he couldn't fit in his underwear down his pant leg was the standard one he used. But he wasn't going to talk about it anymore, she would probably get to see it at some point. Whether because of how things went or just by accident. While most of him was boney, his hand wasn't really uncomfortable to hold. His skin was warm and soft, and for him, he felt a sense of safety and security. Honestly he hoped that she did too. After all, even if he didn't look like he could fight, he could at least take a beating from someone. The wounds from that had seemingly faded well, and his feet didn't look to be causing him any problems for the moment. @Al the Killer

Milena shook her head. "Stop..." She trailed off, finally considering that maybe telling him to 'stop talking' would be misinterpreted as cruel. "I mean, you don't have to apologize. It's a practical concern." She smiled, and hoped it was comforting enough. The elevator came to a stop and the doors slid open. "My car's this way." She led him to where she kept it, covered in a tarp to keep prying eyes from it. Granted, it was nothing she considered too fancy - just a simple Lexus - but you could never be too careful. And she didn't want it to get dirty, either. She removed the tarp and folded it up, setting it in the trunk. "I'll drive." She held her phone out to him. "You can pick the music. Just don't run around telling people what I listen to." She stood by her insistence that Suicidal Tendencies, Rancid, and Subhumans were fantastic bands, but they weren't exactly popular in the social circles she surrounded herself with. @Kain the Insane

Kain nodded, her smile reassuring him in ways he hadn't quite expected. Once they arrived, he was a bit surprised how nice her car was, but he didnt go touch it. He'd never had a car before and he hasn't driven in a long time. His license honestly shouldn't hold up with how long it had been. “I would kinda like… To hear your music. I'm a nerd, so the majority of the time, I'm listening to stuff like Epic the Musical. It's the Odyssey, but this guy turned it into… Well, a musical…” Kain chuckled and climbed into the passenger's side carefully, even scraping his shoes on the concrete just in case there was dirt on them or anything. He wasn't trying to mess up her car, it was really nice and she'd taken care of it. That would just be a dick move on his or anyone's part to disrespect all of her dedication and work. If she was leaving the music up to him, he thought that he would perhaps just hit random. And he didn't confirm that he wouldn't talk about her music, although he hoped she'd understand he wasn't the kind of guy that would do that. Especially his girlfriend when she had specifically asked him not to. @Al the Killer

Milena listened to him talk this time. When he wasn't excessively apologizing, she actually didn't mind hearing him ramble a bit. She buckled her seatbelt and waited for him to get settled in before pulling out of her parking spot. The music that came from the car's speaker was fast, aggressive, and heavy in its use of both guitar and vocal distortion. Just the way she liked it, though she'd understand if he needed to turn it down a bit. She drove out of the parking garage and pulled onto the street. "There's a decent enough mall uptown. One of their menswear stores should be a good start, then we can get something to eat. Wherever you want to go." A few outfits would be fine to start with, maybe a couple for casual wear and a nicer one for nights out. Of course, her definition of casual was probably different from his. @Kain the Insane

“Well, I think… If have to ask for your help on that too. I… Haven't ever really gone out to eat. Not in years at least. I just eat breakfast and dinner using my student card these days…” Kain said, once again feeling a bit embarrassed. Whenever he didn't get to eat food the college provided, he was getting cheap stuff he didn't have to use a lot of time to make. Package Ramen Noodles or Microwave meals. But he listened to the music and nodded a bit. He wasn't too used to rock music like this, but it was nice. He appreciated it quite a bit. “I like it, Mil-eena. It's been a while since I listened to rock.” He nodded his head. He almost had called her Mil again, but he saved it by just using her full name. If they ever did pet names, he'd discuss with her what she was okay with. He continued bobbing his head to the beat a bit and smiling. It wasn't like the small once he usually gave when he was being contained. No, this time, he had a big, goofy grin on his face. It was adorable, and perhaps it was just because of how rare it was, but it was pretty nice. After all, before this, she'd only ever just seen him quietly moving around. Looking neutral or defeated, or giving one of his small smiles. Whether because he was a bit happy or he was hiding his pain. @Al the Killer

"Punk," Milena corrected automatically. "...Right, not important. Sorry." She spared him a sideways glance and couldn't help but smile. She'd never seen him look this happy before. It was... Warm. And cute. "If I'm going to date someone, I'm glad it's you," she said, realizing it was true. At least she knew she was safe with him. She drove into the parking lot of a shopping complex. The signs that remained visible from where they were gave off names of stores she was pretty sure he couldn't even afford to look in. She hoped it wasn't too daunting for him. She parked and stopped the car. "We'll see what we find for food... What sort of stuff do you normally like?" @Kain the Insane

"How romantic, Milena~" Kain said, perhaps the first time he'd sounded a bit teasing, but he smiled still and let out a bit of a laugh. "I'm happy you chose to date me. And I want you to continue being happy... That you chose me." Kain's smile softened as the teasing faded and he just let her know how genuinely happy she had made him. Honestly, his cheeks hurt a bit from how much he'd been smiling, and he practically was glowing. As they parked and he heard her speak, he had to pause and think for a bit. What did he enjoy eating? Most of the time he just ate to fill his stomach. "Well, um... You... May not know them. Or maybe you do. There's these noodle packages that you add boiling water to, and then you drain most of the water and add a seasoning package. I ate those a lot. I also ate those... Hamburger and gravy steaks that you can heat up in a microwave. Other than that, uh... I ate from the college's meals. And usually I just took whatever they had for the day. Whether it be sandwiches or Ramen Noodles, but a bit more fancy. Although I remember stuff like burgers from when I was younger, when my parents still..." His voice seemed to die out, and his face lost that happy expression for a moment, and the small smile he used to protect himself appeared. "When they still had money to take care of me..."

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@Al the Killer

Dear god, how was this man still alive? The sodium content alone sounded like a horror story. She could work with it though. "Well, we'll start with something a bit familiar to you. There's a great ramen place not too far from here. Not like you're used to - the real deal, not the instant packages. You'll taste the difference, trust me. And they have bubble tea, too." She still didn't move from her seat though, noticing the shift in his move. She placed a hand on his arm, unsure of what else to do. "I'm sorry," she said. "Ever since we first met, I've been awful to you, but you deserve better." He'd proven that much already. Her hand fell away. "I won't make excuses, but I'll try to be better to you. I'm just not sure how, so bear with me." She sat upright and looked out the window. "Ready to buy some new clothes?" She didn't know how to give emotional support. Her mother had tried, but by the time Milena had been born, she'd been too broken down to know how, either. What she did know was how to provide, and if his parents couldn't care for him, she'd have to step up. So she would do just that. Between the money her father gave her and her own freelance projects, she could more than afford to. @Kain the Insane

Nodding, his smile returned. Perhaps a bit smaller, but her words were helpful. Although he had to admit, her mention of bubble tea reminded him of BOBA tea, and a part of his brain imagined her doing the thing that a lot of those anime drawing showed where the cup rested on/between her boobs. Although with their size, he imagined the only difficult part for balancing it would be how cold it was. Coming around to her side of the car, he cleared his throat. "As long as you do your best, Milena, it's good enough for me. But... I will say that... I haven't received a lot of them. But if I seem down, I wouldn't mind a hug. Whenever we could do that, I mean..." He said. He didn't try to wrap his arms around her immediately, as he said before, he would take it at her pace. Although it also made sense. Hugs might be more saved for multiple dates? Honestly he didn't know. A bunch of movies had people kiss or have sex after one or two dates, but he'd heard some relationships take months to get to that. For now, hand holding was good enough for him. He even took her hand gently and intertwined their fingers. Wondering if she might like that a bit, or if she preferred the other way. @Al the Killer

Milena got out of the car, only to pause as she listened to her words. Oh. That made sense, she remembered that some people conveyed comfort through physical affection, and he was going ahead and giving permission for it. "What, like this?" She wrapped her arms around his slim frame, pulling him into a tight hug. "Let me know if you can't breathe." She let the embrace linger for a moment longer, resting her head against his shoulder. He was warm in her arms, a human warmth she had nearly forgotten. Maybe she'd needed this as much as he had. Still, she let him go, instead taking his hands again, her fingers intertwining with his. "Now come on, let's find something for you to wear." She wanted it to be something that would look good, but also something he'd like, too. A challenging balance to strike, when she didn't really know him very well. "Oh, and can I keep the poem you wrote? I really did like it." @Kain the Insane

"Oh! Um... Sure... You did inspire it. And... I'll write you more. There's this whole thing with love Languages. I... Well, I've always liked touch, but u also verbally enjoy it. Hearing you compliment me... Makes me happy. And so, I would love to write you more poems..." He squeezed her hand a bit and didn't lean into her too much, but made sure to be close to her. The hig was very nice and his heart raced from it. Once they made it to the clothing store, he let her take the lead, but he did look around at some things. There were some nice t-shirts and polos. He spotted a couple Hawaiian Shirts and Button-Up shirts as well. Although he had s feeling the Hawaiian shirts weren't going to be what she wanted him to pick. There were some nice Khakis and blue jeans as well that he appreciated.

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@Al the Killer

Milena nodded, trying to keep in mind what he was saying. As long as he was trying to keep her happy, she saw no harm in doing the same for him. The store she led him to was the sort that solely existed for expensive men's clothing. One side of the display showed their available suits and pretended five hundred quid for a three-piece was a steal, while the other showed off some of their more casual wear. The employee that greeted them had a well-tailored suit of his own, along with a smile that said the job came with a livable salary and fantastic benefits. "Good afternoon," he greeted cheerfully. "How are you two doing today?" "Great." Milena caught Kain's hand to stop him from wandering too far. "We're looking for a few new outfits for him. Clothes, shoes, and any accessories you think would suit him. Could we get his measurements taken first?" She glanced at Kain, then lowered her voice as she added to the employee, "he will require more room in the ah... Inseam area, so let's try to find something a little generous there, alright? No tight pants." The worker, whose nametag said Allister, nodded, clearly used to hearing way too much information about clients. "That won't be a problem." He waved to Kain. "Right this way." @Kain the Insane

Kain was a bit surprised, and he had to admit, at first he felt like a child. She was forcing him to stay close. But then again, it made sense. This place was new and foreign to him. Gulping, Kain took a deep breath and nodded, following Allister. Once they were in, he cooperated with the measurements, doing exactly what he was told. It was a bit weird, but not entirely bad or anything. When he measured below the waist, he could tell by the look on Allister's face that he realized why the measurement was so large despite how skinny Kain was. And when he measured the width of the legs, he could also tell that Allister probably felt weird when the measurement for one leg didn't match the other and as his pants were tightened, there was a bulge there that was in a particular shape. Kain licked his lips and tried to look up to ignore the reaction. It was the same as it always had been. When he was in high school, it had grown a lot, and it kept growing even into college. However he remembered wearing tight pants and girls staring uncomfortably at the massive bulge and guys insisting he had stuffed his pants. The locker rooms for gym had been tense too, as he had been the big dick in the locker room. Those guys at least stopped accusing him, although they always avoided him. It wasn't like he'd had time for dating anyway, as he was studying constantly while he wasn't in school to make sure he got all As. Otherwise his father would be upset and would bust out… That memory made the color drain from his face, and he had to take a second to bring himself back to the present moment. Once he had, he realized Allister was finishing up. He followed him outside of the booth and he took his place beside Milena again and hoped that he didn't look white as a sheet anymore. @Al the Killer

Milena let him go, since he might want some privacy. There was a small curtained-off area for measurements, though not quite a changing room; those had proper doors, after all. Allister picked up a tape measure and set to work. Neck, chest, shoulders, arm length, torso length, waist, inseam, leg length, thigh width... only a few were factored into the actual size, but it was all useful for selecting cut and for any tailoring. This guy's girlfriend had clearly not been exaggerating, but Allister remained the picture of professionalism, giving no reaction one way or another. He simply did not care, as long as he got his paycheck and good customer reviews. He paused between measurements only to write them down on a chart. "Longer shirts with a slim fit would suit you well," he said, standing up straight and looking over the chart. "For pants, a relaxed straight fit would be fine - we can go up in waist measurement a bit, but I wouldn't recommend doing so too much. We can also go up to a wide leg if that is more comfortable, but it won't be necessary in all cases." He couldn't in good conscience recommend denim pants for any purpose unless the client was also planning on purchasing extra-long boxers to reduce chafing. "Is there a special occasion you wanted to find something for?" Meanwhile, Milena looked at the selection of clothing. A two-piece suit would be good for dates, of course. Gold accents, perhaps, or some sunstone to give orange accents. For casual wear, slacks and button-ups would still be fine, maybe a few outfits that leaned more toward t-shirts and casual pants... maybe joggers, to make the extra space in them blend in with the style. She picked up a few samples to show the employee, and two pairs of shoes, one casual and one dressier. As the two men walked back out, she smiled toward them. "How'd it go?" She looked over at her paler-than-usual date. "Is everything alright?" @Kain the Insane

“You know, I just… I got a bit nervous is all…” Kain shrugged. He'd told Allister that there were no particular special occasions other than this being an anniversary. So he couldn't quite get something special so fast. This was mostly so he didn't say it was their first date. Didn't want any detectives slashing out their initial lie, Eben thought it was now true. Kain told her what Allister had about a relaxed fit with a bit of extra room with some fabric as well as some looser fitting legs for some occasions. Although if he messed up, he was sure Allister might say something to help. Kain took Milena's hand and gave it a squeeze to sorta let himself calm down and refocus. Although he was sure that Allister might make references to the particular measurements, so even if she thought he was faking, she'd know that he wasn't. Although he hoped that any additions made wouldn't cost her too much. 100 Quid for her bras was alrighty a lot, and he didn't want her to spend too much on him. Make any bad impressions or anything like that, as he wasn't in this to take advantage of her. @Al the Killer

Milena took a moment to focus on Kain, squeezing his hand gently back. "I found a few suggestions," she told Allister, which was an understatement. Three casual outfits and one suit wasn't exactly a full wardrobe, but it was a good start. She could afford it, but made a mental note not to show him the bill once all was said and done. Allister took the sample items and walked away to retrieve everything in Kain's size. "Now, let's look at accessories," she said. "Nothing excessive, but at least a belt and a tie. Oh, and do you have pierced ears?" She looked at his ears, but unless there was something actively in them, she wouldn't be able to tell. "Don't worry about how much we're getting, either. I have more than enough." She liked the idea of being able to spoil him. Even more, she liked being able to pick out some clothes for him. Maybe it was the way she could exercise power without actually hurting anyone, or maybe it was just knowing that he trusted her enough to let her do this. @Kain the Insane

Shaking his head no, he rubbed the back of his head. He'd always been a bit of a chicken when it came to pain like that. It was weird to say, as he'd been beaten a few days ago, and had managed to stay brave through that. Although, perhaps it was simply because he was protecting Milena that he could handle that. "A belt and tie are good with me. I... Never learned how to do a tie, but there are youtube tutorials, so I think that'll work." He said, leaving it somewhat blank. Mostly it was because he didn't want to talk about what happened on the first date, but it was also because he blamed himself for what happened. After all, if he'd just been good enough, he could've earned his parents love. But he didn't think on that for too long. He saw a Grey tie that he liked and gestured to it. "You think that would be a nice tie? Or would it be better to have something that clashes with the colors a bit more?" @Al the Killer

Milena didn't know either, so online tutorials would have to do. She helped him look, considering what might look best. "I wouldn't say clash, but some colour wouldn't hurt. The shirt and vest are already white and charcoal, so let's find something that will pop out more." She picked up one made from a softer material, in burnt orange. "This could go well. What do you think?" Her attention drifted toward belts. Something simple would be fine, probably black so it could pair with anything. While she looked, Allister wheeled a moveable rack carrying the outfits she'd chosen over to the fitting rooms. The area included four different rooms, each with a blank whiteboard sign that a name could be written on, and a few comfortable chairs in the middle of the area so anyone who wanted to wait could. Once he moved everything into one of the rooms itself, he walked out to greet the two customers. "Whenever you're ready, I have prepared a fitting room for you," he informed them, then looked at Kain. "May I have your name for the sign?" @Kain the Insane

"Kain, sir." He responded politely. He liked the orange tie, and he put it over his arm, ready to go and try all of these new clothes on. The shoes were very nice, and the belt was alright. His father had never used such a fancy one before, so it didn't quite remind him of what his father had done. So, he nodded and blushed slightly. "I'm ready to try on things and model for you. Although I doubt I'll look as good as some of those guys in the magazines." Kain chuckled and squeezed her hand a bit. All of this was really nice, and while part of him wondered why they would get so many suits, he had a feeling. Her parents... Plus, if this Relationship was a permanent thing, then he'd need to look good for company functions. Otherwise, maybe dates at really nice places might also require an extra fancy suit for him to wear. So, he went back with Allister to put on and show off the suits, watching a quick tutorial to tie the tie in the collar of the shirts he wore underneath the suit jackets. He did know some etiquette, so he left the lowest button undone and made sure to tuck the tags in a bit so Milena could see what it looked like without the tags put into the fabric. @Al the Killer

Milena shrugged. "Even the guys in magazines don't actually look as good as the guys in magazines. It's all photoshopped," she said, following him to the fitting rooms while Allister wrote Kain's name on the door sign. "Now stop comparing yourself to others and show off for me." There were mostly casual outfits in the mix. It was just that her definition of 'casual' was probably still dressier than he was used to. And a couple of jackets, one a bit more formal in wool and one a more casual leather jacket. "If you need me to help you out with anything in there, just let me know." Unless requested otherwise, she took her seat in the chair facing his fitting room. Admittedly, what he had said about certain proportions of his was downright haunting, but she wasn't really in a hurry to find out for herself. Just... curious. She could wait, though. Preferred to. If anything like that were to happen between them, she would want it to be because she'd developed a genuine attraction to him and not just out of simple curiosity. He deserved better than that. When he stepped out, she sat upright. The clothes looked good on him, to say the least. "Fantastic." She smiled brightly, standing up to get a closer look. "Don't forget to leave the jacket unbuttoned if you have a vest on - you want to show that off. How does it feel? Do you need any adjustments? Hold your arms out, make sure the sleeves are good." @Kain the Insane

"It feels good Milena. Sleeves are nice, I have room to move around, and it doesn't grip to my legs like plastic wrap." Kain smiled, unable to stop himself from her fussing over him a but. Maybe not a lot, but still, it just felt good. Although he did notice that while her gaze had softened, perhaps she didn't have the same look he did in his eyes. Maybe he was misreading, but he saw his new girlfriend as the most beautiful girl in the whole world. But he had a feeling that she perhaps didn't quite feel the same about him. Which did sting. He unbuttoned the suit jacket to let the vest show off before he went in and came back out. He modeled all the clothes, being a little silly with poses, but he made sure to not go too silly and embarrass her here. After all, he didn't want to be an embarrassment to her. The casual outfits, the suits, he even did a bit of mixing and matching with some of the undershirts and different suit jackets, although he made sure to keep them organized with whatever suit they were originally paired with too. All of the clothes felt good, and they all hid what was down there pretty well while still looking nice. He really liked the looks of a lot of them, mostly because she liked the looks of them. To Kain, what was important was that she enjoyed them and liked them. Even if she had bought him the most uncomfortable thing in the world, he'd wear it for her. Both because she was his girlfriend and because he knew that she knew better about this side of things than he did. He was never going to have someone come to him and ask him for fashion advice. But as he looked at himself in the last outfit, he wondered if she thought he wasn't good enough. Was this him? Perhaps it was. He was willing to change for her, but he wondered what, if anything, she really liked about him. @Al the Killer

It was all too easy to relax around him. Everything about her brightened when she felt safe with someone, and Milena found herself smiling more genuinely than she had in a long time, laughing at his silly poses and encouraging the moments he took to get more creative. Most of what she'd chosen could be mixed and matched easily enough. Once he had tried everything, she looked over the clothing he'd tried. "I'd like you to wear this out today," she said, picking up one of the more casual button-ups and a pair of trousers. "You look adorable in it. Other than that, we'll buy your favourites." Was it unfair, her telling him what to wear...? Oh well. Maybe she'd find a chance to let him do the same in reverse later. Allister carefully removed the tags from the clothes she'd picked for Kain to wear out, then brought them with the other clothes they'd chosen to the cash counter while Kain got dressed. "Congratulations on your anniversary, by the way," he said cheerfully as she paid for the clothes, which was a bit of an odd thing to say. "...Thanks," she said, trying to hide her puzzlement. She'd just have to ask Kain about that later. For now, she requested nondescript bags. They did have some more basic bags without the store logo on them for anyone buying gifts, which was convenient for them. After all, if Kain's landlord was snooping around to figure out who had spoken to a lawyer, she didn't want her new boyfriend to be caught walking home with bags from an expensive store. His safety came as such a natural priority that she didn't even have to think twice about it. @Kain the Insane

He picked his favorites, leaving out maybe 2 or 3 outfits that he could sorta tell she didn't like much. Or that she wasn't as excited about. Once he was in his new clothes, he out his old clothes in side the original bag that held his current outfit. Seeing her happy and all of that had eased his worries a bit. He must've just been thinking about it too much. It was hard believing that he was getting this affection like this when he always been told he had to earn it. And to earn it, he had to go above and beyond. All As on a report card didn't work. Taking college courses in highschool didn't work. Graduating valedictorian didn't work. His brother was always said to be smarter than him, better than him. In fact, that core belief had been drilled into him so hard that he truly did believe everything they said. That he was just totally worthless and a constant failure. And the only thought crossing his mind was the worry of how long it would take for her to realize that same fact. Once they were outside, he cleared his throat. “I-I wasn't exactly sure how to let him know this was a special day without telling him it was our first date. But, I know that your friends can dig up nearly ANY dirt… So, I… Told him that it was our anniversary. Kept it vague so that if anyone came asking and Allister said something, our original lie wouldn't be ruined or anything…” He explained quietly and rubbed the back of his head. Over his lifetime, he'd not gotten a whole lot of chances to practice his lying or anything like that. The only lies he'd ever really told were to relatives about the marks on that his mom and dad treated he and his brother equally and loved both of them. “I… Am sorry if that was too much.” Was all that he kept it too. He was trying to stop apologizing as much, but he allowed himself this one since he hadn't exactly run the ides over with Milena beforehand. @Al the Killer

His explanation made sense and, aside from one brief moment of confusion, it didn't really matter. "It's fine," she told him, leading him out of the shopping centre and back to her car. The only thing she really worried about was people questioning what kind of anniversary they were talking about, and just how long her relationship had been hidden from them. But she'd heard plenty of sappy couples talking about their 'one week anniversary' even though, by definition of the word, that was definitely not a real thing. "Anyway, the restaurant isn't far from here. Do you want to drive or walk?" Either way, she stopped by the car so they could pack up his bags in the trunk. No point in carrying them around everywhere if they didn't have to. "Oh, and is there anywhere you want to go after?" If there was, and it would be further away, maybe it would be better to drive, after all. @Kain the Insane

"Maybe we could watch a movie or something? I know that's usually a date a lot of people do. At least in movies." Kain said with a bit of a shrug. Plus, this could be a “week anniversary” as he was the sort of sappy guy that might do that sorta thing. When they arrived at the car, he helped out things up, and he quietly looked over at her. He smiled and began to softly speak again, unable to just think to himself. He would simply just softly speak. Milena the pretty With a smile like sunshine bright Beauty so divine Her eyes like deep pools Reflecting the sky above Mesmerizing all Milena the pretty A gem in a world of stone Radiant and true May her light never fade May her spirit soar freely Forever cherished A haiku. One of the more unique forms of poetry, but he couldn't help but admire her as he looked at her from the side. She was his muse, one who inspired his words to mean something deeper. @Al the Killer

"A movie sounds good," Milena said, though she wasn't sure what was out at the moment. She didn't say anything further for a few moments. She wasn't sure if he realized he spoke the poems he was thinking of out loud, but if he didn't, she didn't want to ruin the window it gave her into his mind by pointing it out. She simply listened instead, smiling to herself. Once he was finished, she unlocked the car doors and climbed into the driver's seat. The theatre was a bit farther, so they could take the vehicle so it would be easy to drive there after they'd eaten. "What sorts of movies do you like?" she asked as she started the vehicle. @Kain the Insane

He blinked and then rubbed the back of his head. There was the real answer and the 'protect your coolness' answer. "I've watched Romantic Comedies, Comedies, Hallmarks, and... Animated Movies. Sometimes things like comic books, other times things like studio ghibli..." He said, looking a bit embarrassed. Honestly, he knew that she would see eventually. Although he didn't watch things often, he liked more lighthearted stuff. Although it wasn't like everything he watched was all sunshine and rainbows. Oh gosh, now he wondered if she was someone who might not like him crying at a movie. That certainly made him a bit nervous, but he'd just have to find these things out. More than anything, his number one goal was to NOT screw up this first date and their relationship. This was perhaps their one shot to do this right, and so he couldn't have things be going wrong so quickly into them dating. Otherwise they wouldn't be dating long, right? @Al the Killer

Milena considered as she drove. She could appreciate a good romance every now and then, despite knowing the real world wasn't like that. It was nice to relax and pretend sometimes. Aside from that... She smiled brightly. "I actually love Studio Ghibli films," she admitted. Because how could someone not, really? "I'm sure we can find something nice and light then." Besides, something with a darker tone hardly seemed appropriate for a first date even if it was something either one of them would enjoy on its own. "And if there's nothing good at the theater, we can go back to my flat and watch something there." It was, despite what some people would expect, an entirely innocent offer. Though she wouldn't mind a bit more privacy to cuddle. And if one of them had to cry. It happened. She found a spot near the restaurant and parked her car. It wasn't overly fancy - their casual clothing would fit right in - but the menu was expansive, and definitely went far beyond anything he'd be used to. She just hoped it wouldn't be overwhelming. @Kain the Insane

Back to her place. The little voice reared it's ugly head again, and the logical part of Kain's brain had to wrestle it down and beat it into submission. So, instead of saying something stupid, he smiled. "That's good to hear... It's one of my favorite studios for a reason. It even inspired me to read Howl's Moving Castle the Book... Let's just say, while I KNOW books can be different, I did not realize how much they would've changed from the book. So much stuff is gone and entirely different..." Kain said with a bit of a chuckle. And it was true. He'd kinda been surprised hoe unlikeable Howl was in the books that he was in, although they perhaps made sense since he was a man with the heart of a child. It might kot have been in his body, but it was still a child's heart. Then of course was Sophie being a better and more interesting character. The movie did her some justice, but the books giving her power was something he'd liked. But he shook his head out of the stupor. If she hadn't read the books, then she wouldn't know about those things, and he didn't want to spoil. Once they'd arrived at the Ramen place, he moved and opened her door for her, helping her out with a goofy grin on his face. Once again, he absent-mindedly took her hand and gave it a squeeze as he smiled to himself and let out a long, gentle yawn. @Al the Killer

Milena listened and decided that, when he wasn't accidentally making her feel bad about her past actions - which, to be fair, she absolutely deserved to feel guilty over - she actually liked hearing him talk. It was odd; there was nothing particularly insightful about his current words, and yet... Perhaps it was the passion with which he spoke about his interests, once he started opening up. "I haven't read the original book before," she commented. "I wouldn't mind, though. Do you have a copy I could borrow sometime? Or does the library?" She couldn't remember the last time she'd used a public library. The university library for school work, sure, but she usually just bought her books. "Tired?" she asked, leading him inside. Maybe a movie at her flat would be better. More comfortable if he accidentally fell asleep. Their host greeted them politely, showed them to a small table, and set their menus in front of them. "We could share a pot of hot tea, or order some boba if you want," she said as she let go of his hand and sat in one of the chairs. "Up to you." @Kain the Insane

“Maybe a bit, but… I am just enjoying spending time with you, Milena. It's really nice. And yeah, I do have a copy of all three books. The other two never got adapted… Or, well, technically the NAME of one did, but the story from the film is nothing like the book.” Kain said with a bit of a chuckle. Sitting across from her, he looked over the menu and blinked for a second. Yeah, there were a lot of options, honestly so many he didn't quite know what to say. Chashu Pork sounded pretty good, and he could see they had things like pork skin cracklings for some crisp and crunch. “This looks really good… I haven't eaten a whole lot of pork before…” He said. Looking at the pictures for bubble tea, he realized it WAS the Booba- BOBA tea! Apparently some of his baser thoughts still were fighting a bit, but he just didn't have the time to deal with their bull crap. Rubbing the corners of his mouth, he did his best to just pay attention to the food and not some of the more… Dirty parts of his mind. Although once he'd realized bubble and Boba tea were the same, at least he could focus on something other than the image of a cup sitting somewhere real nice. Mostly his embarrassment that while he had some.idea about Japanese culture, he still had more to learn. He was just glad he hadn't said anything too stupid. @Al the Killer

"Then I would love to borrow all three, if you don't mind." It would give her an excuse to see him again. Not that she needed one now. And she still needed to return the clothes she had borrowed. For now, she focused on the menu. "I think I'll get the miso shrimp," she said. "Oh, and maybe the strawberry boba." She'd always loved strawberry flavoured sweets and drinks. She set her menu aside and leaned forward, resting her cheek in one hand. "I think my home will be better for the movie," she commented, before realizing the implications. "Not... I don't have any ulterior motive, I just want to be able to talk, and I'm not sure what's in theatres right now." She usually kept her socialization to the bare minimum required to maintain her social standing, and even that tended to exhaust her. Movies with friends were almost as rare as genuine friendships. @Kain the Insane

Why would she need an excuse? They'd decided to permanently date, after all. Although Kain was thinking something similar to her. When she sounded a bit flustered or at least was correcting herself, he smiled and laughed. “Milena… Please, it's okay. Seriously, I'm usually the one making these sorts of mistakes. I don't think you're some… Trollop? That might still be a little too vulgar. I don't think you're that kind of girl.” Kain said with a decisive nod. He also made a mental note, she liked strawberries. That was important, and he would make sure to keep that nice and strong in the forefront of his mind. It would do him no good to forget such important information. Although he could sorta tell she wasn't used to the idea. Honestly he hoped that this didn't mean they wouldn't spend time together. He was fine going out or staying in. He decided he'd see about watermelon bubble tea, one of his own favorite fruits. Something about it was always just very nice to him. @Al the Killer

"Trollop?" Milena echoed, then laughed at the absurdity of such an archaic word being used in this context. "Sorry, sorry," she said, once she'd caught her breath. "I'm not laughing at you. Or I guess I am, but not at your expense." There was no malice to it, really. "But no, I don't think there's really a polite word to shame women who happen to enjoy casual sex, regardless of the fact that I don't fall into that category." She understood what he'd meant, though; he hadn't interpreted her words in a lascivious way. Which was, ultimately, a good thing. Her attention shifted away from him as the waitress arrived. She offered for herself, then handed her menu back, allowing Kain to order his own food and drink. Her own awkwardness had faded already. He was agreeable company, and gave her plenty of reason to spend less time around people she didn't really like as much. Maybe she really did enjoy dating him, after all. @Kain the Insane

“Yeah, Trollope wasn’t the best choice.” He admitted with a laugh. After all, he wasn’t trying to shame her or others. Just trying to say he didn’t think she was the type of girl to do that sorta thing. But seeing her laugh and some of the tension break did ease a part of him that he hadn’t realized was still a bit tense. He ordered his Ramen with Chashu and Pork Cracklings. A bit of a fusion dish, since frying the pig skin was something more western. Once the waitress had left, Kain looked at Milena. “Well… How about you tell me about yourself? Whatever you think is okay for me to know. I know that your father has a company, and that you picked on me because I wasn’t standing up for myself. But other than that… I don’t know a lot. And I’d like to know more, because… I want to take this seriously. Because I really do like you, Mil… And I’ll tell you some things about me. If you want to know, I mean…” Kain was offering her a chance to tell him about herself. She could always say no, and he’d respect that. He was a sweet guy, after all. He’d saved her life after she’d done nothing but treat him like gum and animal crap caked on her designer shoes. @Al the Killer

Milena had to think about it for a second. She spent so much time being what would keep her safe that it was hard to say for sure who she was once that was all gone. But there was an inviting warmth to him, like she wanted to be known by him. To be understood by someone. "It's a tech company, specifically," she began. "My father doesn't think I'm smart enough to get involved in it, but I actually did end up becoming interested in software engineering, so I might branch off and do my own thing with it after uni since that's what I'm studying. I even do some freelance programming work on the side already. Maybe I can show you my computer setup later. I've never shown anyone before, but I actually built the desktop, and it has a coffee maker built in." For no reason other than she could. Of course, there was a divider built into it to prevent any incidents from coffee being brewed so close to sensitive electronics, and a hell of a cooling system. "Aside from that..." She had to think about it. "I'm also bilingual. We mostly spoke English at home growing up, but my mom and I always use Serbian when we don't want my father to overhear what we're talking about. I don't actually like partying that much; I prefer to stay at home when I can, but of course I need to go out to maintain a social life." What did she want to know about him, though? She considered it, then decided to leave it as open ended as he had for her. "Your turn. Tell me about yourself." @Kain the Insane

Kain listened with plenty of interest and wonder in his eyes. It was cool to know he had a really smart girlfriend. “Well, I… Am nowhere near as cool. My dad works a desk job at an accounting firm. My mom… Well, she works part time baking. I have a younger brother who… I didn’t ever talk to much. He…” Kain paused for a moment, and his left arm moved up, gently touching his right shoulder. An old wound she couldn’t see. And he wouldn’t want her too. His body was ugly. No matter what, it always would be covered in marks that showed every screw up he ever had. “I don’t talk to my parents much anymore. If I’m being honest, it’s because I know that I’ll call them, and all they’ll do is complain. Because I… I should save this for later, maybe. It’s our first date, you probably don’t want to hear me talk about what they’ve done. Well, I am an English Major. At one point I taught other students in my high school… It’s been one of my favorite subjects. Because language is our expression. It’s our love, our hope, our dreams. A form of art that sometimes goes without appreciation. My goal is to become a writer, but also a professor of English. At least, as long as my books aren’t selling. I’ve spent most of my time here studying to make all As in my classes, and people always look at me like I’m some genius. I’m not… I have no life because all I ever do is make sure I don’t lose my scholarships that let me be here and live without a need for a job. Because then, I would probably have to cut sleep out of my day to make sure I could keep going. And I’m a romantic… From the moment I saw a blonde haired girl with the most beautiful eyes I have ever seen… I knew some part of her was hurting. Just like me… And I always wanted to hug her and tell her that… I would be there for her. As a friend or more. Because I know what it’s like to hurt.” @Al the Killer

He didn't have to say what his family had done to him. Not really. The pauses, the hesitation, the way he'd seen the pain she hid so well... It said enough. "I understand," she said softly, because she did. She just wish she'd understood sooner. Soon enough to avoid contributing to the cruelty he anyway lived with. But it was too late now. The damage was done. "But you are still pretty smart, you know. At the very least, you have a way with words. Sure you work hard for it, but that doesn't negate anything you've accomplished. And... You're good at reading people, I guess." She offered a small half-smile. "I'm not sure I believe in romantic love. It's cute in movies and all, but if it does exist, it must be rare. But sometimes... There are moments when I want to believe. Times when I think the right person could change my mind." And when she imagined that person... Well, it was always someone like him, wasn't it? Someone gentle and kind hearted, someone who could understand how she felt without needing to be told. Maybe it wasn't love that she doubted the existence of, but the person in front of her. @Kain the Insane

“That's a hard conversation to have. I understand though… I don't deserve anyone's love for what I do. I know that. I've always been kind because I want to be. No matter how hard it works. And I've doubted that love exists before too. Well, love for me, at least. You deserve a guy a million times better than me, Milena.” He used her full name again. It wasn't that he was withdrawing from her, but he'd extended a hand and she'd gently pushed it away. Love wasn't something she believed in. And who could blame her? He certainly didn't. He understood better than anyone. She didn't know everything, and this had hurt badly for him. Even if he wouldn't let it show. Not because he believed she had to love him, but for a brief moment he thought that he could have finally earned someone at least starting to love him a bit. “Milena, I am sorry. I probably have overshared. I know that it probably tarnished the mood a bit. Especially because we were having a fun time… But, I… Suppose we'll just have to try and move on.” He gave her that smile he used to mask how he felt. This one was.more convincing than usual because they had been having fun, but he didn't want her to know that he had felt a twinge of pain in his heart that was incredibly deep. He'd hoped maybe she had felt a spark before, but that hope had died right there and then. @Al the Killer

Milena didn't fully understand his reaction. Had she been too opaque? "I wasn't rejecting you. I'm saying you might be the right person," she said bluntly. "I... I don't think I deserve better. Or..." She hesitated, then lowered her voice so only he would hear. "Or happiness at all, really. But I mean, maybe it's unfair to ourselves to think in terms of what we do or don't deserve. Maybe..." She hesitated again, unsure of where she was going with this, then sighed. "Obviously, if love exists, I don't expect it on the first date. That would only be lust, which I've only experienced maybe once or twice in my life at most, and only toward a friend - former friend now - I'd already gotten close to." One who was in her life anymore; they'd both moved on to other things in life, as was usually the case after high school. She'd always kind of thought everyone was joking about being attracted to people they didn't know or get along with. "But I'm interested in you, Kain. Romantically. I want to take this seriously. I want to try." She sighed. "I always thought love was an illusion that could only lead to pain and suffering, but you give me hope that my mind can change." The waitress returned with their tea, and she sat upright again, smiling once more as though she had everything perfectly figured out. She was not, but maybe that didn't matter. Maybe a relationship was always just two imperfect people trying to get their shit together. @Kain the Insane

Kain blushed and he took a deep breath, looking down. “I'm sorry. I just… I haven't had the best experiences either. I have felt lust before, I'll admit, but… I wasn't expecting love. I just have been so used to being looked at like I'm garbage. And I had hoped you at least felt a bit of a spark. I misunderstood.” As they received their order, he looked it over and tried not to look like his mouth was going to fly open. With hoe thin he was, it might be expected he'd shovel it in without a care in the world. However, he kept good manners and began to carefully get the Ramen and a bit of his Pork Chashu with chopsticks, before he tried it with a smile. “This is amazing. Thank you so much for this, Milena. I… Know we are both works in progress. But, I think partners help build eachother up. And after all, if I'm anything, it's supportive…” He laughed a bit and sighed gently. He didn't want to reach across the table and try to hold her hand right now, especially since they were starting to eat. But he just wanted to show her that he was there for her. But he'd save a supportive hug for later on. @Al the Killer

"I'm not even sure what 'spark' is supposed to mean," Milena admitted. "I feel... Calmer with you, like I can be myself near you. Your company is comfortable, safe. I like it. And you. You're not trash. You're one of the best people I know, and I hope one day I can give you the same support." But their food was here now, and she wanted to focus on that. She started to eat her ramen, taking her time to enjoy it. It really was as good as she remembered, even though she hadn't been here for a while. "After that conversation, we really do need to watch something lighthearted," she joked. "I vote after this we find the cheesiest Hallmark movie we can and eat popcorn drizzled in way too much chocolate syrup." @Kain the Insane

"Oh definitely... But I'm getting to try tons of new things today. I've never had chocolate on popcorn. The only sweet thing I've ever tried was caramel on it." Kain laughed. He wouldn't push her or anything. Honestly he thought perhaps that was a spark, but that was up to her to find out. After all, he couldn't dictate how long things took or anything like that. So, he ate the Ramen respectfully, and while he was polite, there was nothing left once he'd finished. If the bowl could have been licked clean, he might have done it. The watermelon bubble tea was really nice, and he even joked. "There was a whole thing about girls putting this on or between their... Chest. Usually it was anime, then people in real life did it. I actually practiced a bit..." Before he balanced the cup on top of his ribs and below his neck. His neck and ribcage keeping it in place as he drank from a straw and gave her a silly smile. Although he did make sure no one was watching in case that might embarrass her or anything. @Al the Killer

"Caramel is good too... I think I have some of that as well, if we wanted to double up on toppings." Milena smiled, more genuine this time, then finished off her ramen. She took more time with the boba, since it was sweet and she wanted to savour it even more. "Is that seriously a thing?" she asked. Clearly, they were not watching the same kinds of anime. "I don't think you have the uh... Assets to..." She trailed off as he actually tried it, and covered her mouth with one hand to stifle a giggle. "That can't be comfortable for you, putting your neck at that angle. Watch an expert." She set her cup on her chest, letting her cleavage hold the base in place. Maybe that was cheating, but it worked. She raised an eyebrow, offering a cocky expression as she sipped the strawberry tea. @Kain the Insane

"That's how it's done, you're just doing it right~ I'm really the one whose cheating. Also, uh... I've been put through a lot more painful and uncomfortable situations than this. Once one of your friends had me try to undo her bra. If I said no, her boyfriend would beat me. If I couldn't do it, her boyfriend would beat me. Let's just say 2 minutes and I couldn't figure it out. Luckily I had gotten used to it by then." Kain put two fingers on either side of the bottom of his cup and drank from it. And he even casually moved his hand around without it wavering too much. "Let's just say I'm VERY good at balancing things. I used to balance all my my family's plates on my head and hands whenever I had to put them away, which was... Every night. So, when you... Get in trouble for dropping plates, I got good at balancing things instead." He winked and gave her a cocky smile back, although his was moreso meant to be teasing. He wasn't flexing to her, just letting her see a cool trick that he could pull off.

3:57 PM

@Al the Killer

Milena wasn't sure he understood just how horrifying the turn in the conversation was. Her smile faded as she listened. "I... didn't know about that," she said softly. It was true; she'd always drawn a personal line at sexual harassment, having put up with it since before she even knew what the term meant. But that didn't mean things didn't happen in her absence. Once she'd chosen the target of cruelty and started others down that path, she didn't really control the forms it took. "I'm sorry." Now seemed like an inappropriate moment to be holding her drink like this, plus the ice kept it way too cold for comfort, so she set the cup back on the table and watched his trick. It left the neckline of her shirt damp from condensation, but she ignored that for now. "That balancing trick really is impressive, I have to admit." She finished off her drink, then was left to hunt down the last few remaining tapioca pearls in the bottom with her straw. She silently considered the hunt half the fun of the drink. @Kain the Insane

“Oh, I'm surprised you didn't know. People talked about it for a while, said it was because I was a virgin… Which, I mean, isn't UNTRUE. But still, kinda embarrassing I couldn't do it.” He shrugged a shoulder before watching her hunting the tapioca pearls. It was funny and really cute. Honestly, he'd found her beautiful, but he'd never quite seen her cute before today. As he looked at her, he wondered to himself what he'd do to see her smile. Her eyes sparkle, looking at something in wonder. “... Anything…” He thought to himself. He'd do anything to see that and protect it. He hunted for his own and got to try them for the first time. Just like a lot of things, it was really nice, and he enjoyed it a lot. Setting his hand on the table, he closed his eyes and took a deep breath. His hand and arm laying there, doing nothing. He wasn't thinking much about it, just absentmindedly focusing on getting out some tapioca pearls. Not caring about anything in the world for a long several minutes, just himself and Milena. For once in his life, he wasn't thinking about those around him. Not that his thoughts were selfish or anything. @Al the Killer

She remembered a vague rumour, but people made shit up all the time, especially about people they had collectively decided on as a social punching bag. She hadn't put much stock in it, especially since she found the story itself rather unbelievable. The friend in question had had an infamously jealous boyfriend, who definitely would have beaten Kain up if he had succeeded, and bras weren't that difficult to remove. But maybe she just thought that because wearing one every day meant she got plenty of practice. She didn't mention it more, though, since he seemed... peaceful now. Happier. With his eyes closed, she could watch him and just... smile. Then she decided it was creepy to stare, and waved the waitress over. "We're ready for the bill," she said. Once the machine was set in front of them, she paid with card, only using it for the amount billed. She paused for a moment to do the math in her head, before leaving some extra cash as the tip. The waitress thanked them and walked away, leaving Milena to turn toward Kain. "We can head out whenever you'd like," she said. @Kain the Insane

Kain nodded, standing up and taking her hand gently as they left. He opened the door for her and opened the car door to let her in before he walked around the car and got in himself. Once inside, he took a deep breath once again and looked over at Milena. "That was very nice. Thank you so much, Milena. I don't know how I could make it up to you, but... I'll try my best..." Kain said, taking her hand from a moment and giving a light squeeze. Maybe he should try to become more physically appealing? Help her feel a bit of lust for him? Well, she hadn't exactly given him any signs she liked muscular guys or anything, although he could try to put on some weight. Maybe that would be a start? Whatever the case, he was thinking of ways to try and do things for her too, as he knew he wasn't always the best when it came to stuff like this. Although he was intending on a special gift or something he could do for her also. @Al the Killer

She took his hand and walked to the door with him. Maybe dating wasn't as bad as she'd imagined it; the conversation had taken a few dark turns, but he seemed genuinely kind and supportive throughout. "You don't have anything to make up to me," she said. "I've been having a good time, too. Thank you." She returned to the driver's seat, buckling herself in. "Could you put the music back on?" she asked. "We can listen to something you like this time. I'm curious." Besides, the mood right now seemed a bit too calm for her more aggressive tastes. @Kain the Insane

He sorta could tell she was thinking her music might not fit the vibe of the moment. Honestly he didn't think Epic would either. Didn't want to cry or anything. The Odyssey was definitely a very depressing story and Epic matched that. So, he took a moment before putting on some uplifting anime openings. Why not, it wouldn't be too bad for some fun Japanese style music to keep the mood up a bit. If she didn't like it, she could always let him know and he could choose some other songs or music to listen to. Yeah, this was the proper choice. He'd have to show her Epic the Musical later, although he might have to warn her there was a lot of death and no one was safe. Just in case certain deaths would upset her, and he wanted to prepare her for that fully. @Al the Killer

It wasn't her usual thing, but Milena had to admit it was catchy. She didn't mind at all. It wasn't long before they arrived at her place again. She drove around to the parking garage entrance, the gate giving off a loud beep as it scanned the keychain given to all of the building's residents and lifted to give her access. She drove the rest of the way to get parking spot before turning off the vehicle. "So, we agreed on the cheesiest Hallmark movie we can find... Any preference beyond that?" she asked as she popped the car trunk. She took out his bags so she could hand them to him before taking out the cover to put over the car. @Kain the Insane

"Not exactly. I'm down for just about anything... Although, any Cuddling, or do we want to keep a popcorn bowl's distance between us?" Kain asked, smiling a bit playfully. Of course he was mostly messing around with her, but it was important to have the line thoroughly drawn ahead of time. He wouldn't mention crying, because they were talking about a silly cheesy movie. Something stupid and funny. He gathered up all his bags and he pondered for a moment before he cleared his throat. "Should I take these back to my place while you prepare the movie and popcorn, or do you want me to bring these up with me and just put them somewhere they're not in the way of anything?" He asked, a bit confused as to what was the proper action for this scenario. After all, he wasn't going to be living here... At least, not for a while if they ever got there. But it might take him half an hour to go back to his and then come back, which he didn't really wanna break the pace of the date up. Especially since it was going so well and Milena seemed so happy at the moment. Couldn't screw that up, otherwise they'd be starting things on a bad note. @Al the Killer

Milena hadn't really thought that far ahead. She considered for a second, because it would be good to know where the boundaries were. Including figuring out her own. He was warm, comforting, and she could trust him not to do anything stupid. "Cuddling is fine, I think," she decided. "If I change my mind, I'll let you know, but don't take it personally if that does happen." After all, given her recent trauma, it would make sense if she did grow uncomfortable with that sort of close proximity. She just wasn't sure unless she tried. She covered the car, then took his hand to lead him back to the elevator. "Bring them up with us. It won't take that long to get everything set up. And I can show you that computer setup while the popcorn's in the microwave." She pressed the call button, then stepped into the lift once the doors opened. @Kain the Insane

Nodding, Kain smiled gently. He didn't mind if she chose not to, he knew having guys hold her might make her a bit nervous. He hadn't said anything, but he did Anonymously report them for possessing drugs. Last he'd heard, they'd been grabbed for all the date r--e drugs that they'd been found with. He didn't mention Milena or anything, as she said, she wanted to stay out of it. But he'd heard other girls might be coming forward once they knew that they would be safe from those r--ist assholes. Once they arrived at her apartment, he found a place where they wouldn't get in the way or anything and propped the bags up. He stretched up and popped his back before he began to rotate his arms and do stretches to let his bones pop pretty audibly. Once he'd loosened his body up, he came to check on her progress while making the batches of popcorn. "So, earlier I called you Mil... Um... Is there any Nickname or petname that you'd prefer I call you? For me, I don't mind, you can call me whatever you'd like. I just wanted to know ahead of time so that I know what to call you... Snookems~" Kain laughed and shook his head. He had a feeling if he'd said that in public, she'd shake her head and sigh audibly. But hey he was just teasing and they were in private.

5:39 AM

@Al the Killer

Milena shuddered at the popping from his joints. "Are you alright over there?" she asked, trying not to grimace at the noise as she unfolded a bag of microwavable popcorn. She got it started before looking over at him again. "Mil is fine, as long as you don't accidentally add an 'f' at the end. No clue how I'd explain that away," she laughed. "And when it's just us, feel free to get creative with the nicknames." Snookems sounded absurd, but oddly endearing, after all. "I'll have to think of something for you in return." Easier said than done, but she'd figure it out. For now, she grabbed his hand. "But first, I have something to show you." She led the way down the hall to the second 'bedroom' that she'd furnished as a home office. As she opened the door, it revealed a wall of bookshelves, along with a mini fridge in one corner and a u-shaped desk that held a massive desktop computer tower and three large monitors, so she could multitask to her heart's content. @Kain the Insane

"You could always use the petname my parents gave me. It was their favorite thing to call me. 'Disappointment'..." He said quietly, shaking his head. But what could he call her? Saying doll would be rude, it was comparing her to something meant to look pretty and do nothing. Darling could be good, but he could sense her own relationship with her parents probably wasn't the best, so calling her something her parents may have at one point probably wasn't good. Love could be good, once they'd said the three words to eachother. Or, maybe more of a "IF" they said them. Especially since she wasn't sure about her feelings. Babe was kinda simple, wouldn't know if she'd like it. Dear, perhaps? Although that was sorta formal. Smiling, he knew what he should do. Her eyes were what he had first loved. "This setup is sweet, Angel Eyes... I can even see the coffee maker and computer combination. That is REALLY awesome." Kain smiled and he gently put a hand on her waist, holding her a bit closer to himself. It was loose, and not at all like other touches. She could sp easily move it, and yet, it was still a secure hold. Kain wanted to make her feel safe when he did this, and he hoped that's what he'd accomplish. @Al the Killer

Milena shrugged. "I can't just lie to your face like that. You've never disappointed me." Sure it would probably happen sooner or later, but only because minor disappointments were a part of life. They didn't have to be all-consuming. "If it wasn't too late in the day for caffeine, I'd boot it up and show you how it all works. I created a small program that runs in the background and keeps the coffee set up to a specific keybinding." It required pressing four keys at a time, so it couldn't be triggered unintentionally. "Once they're pressed, this part grinds the beans and feeds them directly into the coffee maker itself." Most of the fun had been in creating the program, but she still liked the convenience of having it. She leaned against him. "Maybe sometime if you're here in the morning... Sweetheart? That seems like it suits you." Outside of the room, she could hear the popping slow down. "Popcorn's just about ready, let's go." @Kain the Insane

“Sweetheart works for me…” Kain smiled as he took one last look inside the office before he left with her. Her hard work was what had impressed him. She was a hard worker, and he couldn't help but admire that about her. Why wouldn't he? She put in so much effort, dedicated so much love. It was beautiful, honestly, and he could appreciate it. “You're super Awesome, Milena. That is… So cool. Seeing you so passionate… Makes me happy…” He smiled and held back his urge to give her a nice, big hug. He needed to give her time, especially since he was so much taller than her. Once they arrived back, he helped put the popcorn into bowls and then add the caramel and then the chocolate. Making sure they were mixed into their respective popcorn bowls well. Reaching into the chocolate one, he put one chocolate popcorn kernel into his mouth and ate it to give it a try. Nodding, he smiled to let her know that he really enjoyed it. Carrying it with her into the living room, he set both bowls on the table and sat down on the couch, leaving enough room for her to sit beside him if she wanted to. @Al the Killer

Milena glanced back at him. She couldn't remember hearing anyone say that about her. Not genuinely, at least - not when she was being herself and the other person was not simply groveling in hopes of avoiding her cruelty. "I... thank you," she said, unsure of what else to say in this situation. He was the words guy, not her. In the kitchen, she paused to give him a hug. Loose and quick, but a hug nonetheless. She grabbed the caramel and chocolate syrups from the cabinet and joined him in preparing the popcorn. Really, the syrups were meant for ice cream, but she could use them for whatever she wanted. While he carried the bowls, she walked ahead to set up the smart TV. It took a moment to scroll through the different services before deciding on something. "Look, I know it's still March, but hear me out... The Spirit of Christmas has a hipster ghost and the most absurd ending you'll ever see," she suggested. "My Boyfriends' Dogs could be a fun one too, if you want something more seasonally appropriate. You really can't go wrong with dogs." @Kain the Insane

“Spirit of Christmas sounds good to me, it sounds like it would be very funny!” He smiled, reaching behind her and gently wrapping his arm around her and resting his hand on her waist. Sitting closer to her and taking a deep breath. Hopefully she wouldn't mind him holding her like this, but if she did, she could let him know. He just wanted to be close to her and share their warmth. He made sure not to eat too much, only eating one or two kernels at a time. That way he wouldn't eat too much and keep Milena from enjoying the popcorn too. He just had a big goofy smile on his face, unable to contain his happiness and joy. Honestly, this was just amazing, and he was really enjoying the time he spent with her. Him and his adorable face couldn't help but show just how much he was loving this time they were spending together on this date. @Al the Killer

Milena started the movie and sat on the sofa. As the film started in earnest, she got comfortable next to him. She picked at the popcorn a bit, but found herself thinking less about it as time went on. She smiled and inched closer until she was properly snuggled up against him. She'd expected him to feel more on the bony side, but he was actually rather comfortable. And, at least with her initiating contact and him knowing where not to put his hands, she found that none of this troubled her. Anything bad that had ever happened to her was far away right now. She didn't dare speak, lest it disturb the peace over them, but her expression did plenty to express her own joy. Perhaps she was too relaxed though, as an hour into the movie, she found herself slowly beginning to drift off, leaning more heavily against him as her eyes closed and her breathing slowed. @Kain the Insane

Kain didn't notice, but he was still and quiet as they watched the movie. He gently rubbed her side, enjoying her warmth. Not particularly minding her leaning up against him. This felt really good, and the movie was funny. However as it grew late, he made sure not to laugh too loudly. His own eyes felt a bit heavy, but he made sure to keep himself awake. His free hand either ate from the popcorn, or he pinched himself. No matter what, he'd see this movie through to the very end. Her cheek was so soft, and he didn't notice her breasts pressing against him like this. Honestly, it was because right now he didn't notice anything sexual. This situation was loving, sweet. Romance was all this moment was, it was not tainted by his lust or darker desires. @Al the Killer (edited)

The movie reached its conclusion which, as promised, did not make logical sense. Milena slept through the end, peaceful for now. One of her arms had snaked around his waist, holding him close like she was snuggling up to a giant pillow. Regardless of whether he focused on any particular body part or not, she'd at least prove a soft, cozy companion to cuddle up with. @Kain the Insane

Kain looked at her and he closed his eyes. There was a dark part of him that wanted to feel her a bit. To hold her and feel her body. But, that wasn't right. So, he carefully moved and gently scooped her up. Bringing her to her room, he pulled back the covers carefully and laid her under them. It was a bit cold still, so, he grabbed a pair of socks and put them on her feet before he covered her up. Carefully moving her hands from him, and closing his eyes. "This is what is right..." He whispered before he attempted to move back from her. It was late, maybe he'd try to walk home with his clothes. Although there were probably still some assholes up. Maybe he should risk it? @Al the Killer

As her back touched the mattress, Milena stirred slightly, cracking her eyes open just enough to see Kain move. "Hm?" She sat up, rubbing the sleep from her eyes. "Wait..." She yawned. "What time is it?" If it was after dark, she couldn't just send him home with bags of expensive clothes. She should either give him a ride or let him stay over. He'd be safer that way, and the whole reason she had initiated this relationship had been to protect him. Well... Part of it. She was beginning to suspect that she actually did like him. The bed itself was more than large enough for two people to sleep comfortably. Or there was the sofa if he would prefer that. Whatever he preferred, she'd accommodate as long as he was safe. @Kain the Insane

"It's 9 P.M... I didn't want to take advantage. As much as I like cuddling... You never gave me permission to sleep in the same bed as you or cuddle..." Kain gently took had hand and held it tightly. Of course he gave her an earnest look, there was no pity in it. Just respect and caring for her, something deeper than the suck ups that others did. He wasn't trying to guilt her into Cuddling or sleeping beside him, he truly cared about adhering to her wishes and her boundaries. Plus, he had been worried she'd get clothes, so he'd put some socks on her feet. "I just don't want you to think that I was taking advantage by letting you sleep. You're my girlfriend, and I care about you and what you want. I thought, unless you knew I was sleeping with you, the last thing you'd want to wake up to was a guy right beside you. Especially after what happened..." @Al the Killer (edited)

Definitely too late to send him walking home alone, then. And she really couldn't fault him for being considerate. For all she avoided thinking about what had happened, she wasn't actually a hundred percent sure what might send her reliving those memories all over. All she knew was that the panic gripped her at times, and it was like she was helpless again. Not right now, though. Right now, she felt... fine, just apprehensive at the mention of it. "I appreciate it," she said. "But I'm not sending you out alone at this hour. Now that I know you'll be here, you're welcome to share the bed. Or the sofa, if you'd be more comfortable doing that. Cuddling is fine too, I think. I mean, I had no trouble falling asleep while doing it earlier, so I can't see it becoming a problem." She chuckled softly, then settled back onto the bed. Sleeping in a bra wasn't something she'd normally do, for the sake of comfort, but she wasn't about to take it off in front of him either. They weren't at that point in their relationship yet. @Kain the Insane

Kain nodded and he took a deep breath. Perhaps it would be better to do it this way. He walked around her and laid behind her. Wrapping his arms around her stomach, he put then in big spoon, little spoon position. This way he wouldn't be like a perv pressing her boibs up against him. Plus he made sure to out his hands in a spot where they wouldn't touch anything except her stomach. Closing his eyes, he sighed and he mumbled. "Goodnight then, Angel..." He had to resist the urge to kiss the top of her head. He was tired and a bit loopy, but he didn't want to make this weird or anything. So, he just closed his eyes and held her, wanting to share his warmth with her and make her feel safe. Make her feel like no one could hurt her when she was like this. After all, her boyfriend was right here, holding her and making her safe. Of course, he knew she might not think that way. Yet or ever. But he would try his best to make it happen. Soon, he drifted off to sleep, his touch and hold not too tight in case she wanted to shift around or anything while he was asleep like this. @Al the Killer

She settled back against him, closing her eyes as she relaxed into his embrace. "Goodnight, sweetheart," she said softly. She shifted her position slightly to test how tightly he was holding her. It was a loose grip, easy enough to wriggle out of if she wanted or needed to. Knowing that helped her relax even more. Sleep came easily, the warmth of his breath a gentle lullaby. Peace never lasted long. It was something different every night, but it was always something. Tonight, she floated in a black void, torn between the peace of oblivion and the existential terror of nothingness. The longer she spent here, the harder breathing became, until her breath stilled and spectral hands reached from the nothingness. She tried to avoid them, knowing that any touch would sear her skin, but there was no movement in a vacuum. No breath came to let her scream, and the hands grabbed whatever they could reach, slowly tearing her to shreds- The vision faded but the terror did not as she woke paralyzed. She tried to scream but only managed to draw in a gasping breath before she could finally roll over. She left the warmth that had encircled her and landed with a thud on her hands and knees next to the bed. Every instinct had her stomach starting to heave. Her fight to keep everything down at least managed to succeed. Too late to silence a sob, she covered her mouth with one hand, but the tears had already begun to fall. Damn it. Damn them. Her free hand balled into a fist. What was this? Fear? Shame? Rage? She still fought, forced herself to calm down as she remembered who she'd woken up beside. She couldn't let him see her like this. Not again. @Kain the Insane

When she rolled out of his grip, Kain's eyes shot open, especially as he heard a thud. He quickly got out of bed, and he came to her. Crouching down, he took her hands. “Its okay, it's okay… It's just a nightmare… I'm here, Milena. It's Kain…” He spoke softly. His hand moved and he began to wipe her tears gently. He was there, and he gave her a look of kindness and love. Those eyes, so full of compassion and care for her. His touch was gentle, and she could pull away, but he wanted her to know that he was here for her. “As long as I'm here, I'll never let anyone hurt you. You're a kind soul, and I want… To help you. You're so strong, but it's okay to need to lean on someone if you need to…” He whispered and held back the urge to hug her. Seeing she was sick, he carefully picked her up with surprising strength, and he brought her to the bathroom. He then moved onto the floor with her nearby the toilet or the trash can, wherever she preferred. And he made sure to sit close by and hold her hand. No judgment, no shame, he just wanted to be there for her. To show her that he genuinely cared. No ulterior motives, no dark desires, no deep seeded hatred, he had forgiven her and was just wanting to give it all for her. In fact, seeing her cry made tears roll down his own cheeks. He'd been beaten within an inch of his life, he’d been bullied all his life, and yet the only time he ever felt sad enough to cry was when he saw HER cry. Her own pain was the only thing that had driven him to this. @Al the Killer

She pulled away at first, not quite ready for physical contact unless she was initiating it. The nightmare wasn't worse than those that had preceded it, on the nights she spent alone, but it certainly wasn't better, either. She closed her eyes, took a deep breath, and leaned against him. "I am anything but 'kind'," she commented. "But it's nice to hear you say it anyway." Something felt deeply dysfunctional about wanting to be lied to, but she opted not to focus on that for now. She wrapped her arms around his neck as he picked her up, but it wasn't particularly romantic to her in the moment. It just felt like that night, when he'd first carried her away from that party despite how badly he'd been hurt. "Are you okay? Maybe you should..." She trailed off, remembering that he was no longer injured and didn't need to go to the hospital. "Ah... never mind." She kept the toilet lid shut but leaned her head against it, letting the cool porcelain against her skin calm her. "I'm... fine, physically." If anything, it was just her body's memory of what she'd needed to do then, to clear out the alcohol and the pills. She squeezed her hand and looked up at him. "I was... I don't know how to feel about what happened. I don't know what to say about it, I just wish it would go away." She reached over, brushing her thumb across his cheek to wipe the tears away. It wasn't as effective as movies made it out to be, but it was an attempt. Slowly, she stood back up, holding her hand out to him. What had happened, had happened; it couldn't be taken back. "Maybe I just need to go to therapy," she commented, and honestly, maybe that wasn't such a bad idea. She'd always scoffed at the thought of it, but it was worth a shot. She wiped the tears from under her eyes, causing some of her foundation to come off on her hand. "But right now, I should wash up, maybe take a shower. Thank you for being here." @Kain the Insane

“That's a good idea, Milena. But… If it helps…” Kain paused for a second before he stood. “I didn't report them for what they did to you. I called the police and told them that they had possession of date r--e drugs. They got them and have them in custody. They won't question you or anything, but those guys ARE gone. They won't be able to hurt you or do anything like that again. Especially because I'm going to keep you safe.” Kain said, standing up and nodded before he smiled. She didn't want contact right now, so he turned around to leave her to shower. Let her have some time to herself. As much as he wanted to help her, she didn't want it right now. Or, rather, if she did, she would let him know. So, he sat in the living room, despite how dark it was outside still, and awaited Milena to come out of the shower. Then, he could cuddle with her or just give her some love and attention. He didn't want to dig through her fridge for things to cook, but he did think about trying to make something for her to try and help her out. @Al the Killer

It was a comfort, but a temporary comfort. The younger guy had been from a rich enough family that he'd get out unscathed, even if she did step forward and say what he did. People like that didn't face consequences, but it was nice to imagine they did. She would have loved to live in that world. For now, she simply nodded. "I'll be out in a bit." She watched him go, then closed the door. She washed her face first, making sure to get off all of the makeup she'd forgotten to remove before falling asleep. She normally didn't let anyone see her bare face, but leaving makeup on overnight would wreak havoc on her skin and she'd regret it later. Besides, her natural face wasn't that much different; her skin was pretty clear, with just a bit of natural pinkness to it that didn't show through the foundation, and a little less like an idealized version of a woman and more like an actual human. With her face clean, she undressed and paused as though to look for injuries, for physical signs of the scars from that night. Physically, she was fine. There were no markings left on her body from what had happened; all she really had right now was a bit of red where her hands and knees had hit the floor when she'd fallen out of bed. She started the water, waiting for it to run comfortably warm before stepping into the shower and washing herself clean. She kept it quick, not wanting to lose herself in her thoughts and, with them, unwanted memories. After she felt a bit better, she turned the water off, toweled herself off, then put her clothes back on. She kept the bra off, because she wanted to sleep comfortably and Kain would just have to deal with that fact, and walked back to her room first to toss her day clothes in the hamper and change into proper pajamas. Sweatpants and a t-shirt would be fine. After a moment's consideration, she put on the hoodie she'd forgotten to return to him over it and walked out to the living room. @Kain the Insane

Kain was in the living room and he had his hands folded. He was in deep thought, putting a finger on either side of his chin. He didn't notice she was there. That's when he stood up and he began to speak. For the first time, his poem wasn't quiet and under his breath, he said it outloud. Wounded petals fall Yet the rose remains so pure Beauty in the pain Every tear that stains Only adds to the allure Of this fragile bloom In the brokenness There lies a deeper beauty A hidden treasure The thorns may pierce skin But they cannot break the soul Of this resilient flower Each scar tells a tale Of battles fought and trials faced Strength in every petal Wounded yet still whole The rose stands tall and proud A symbol of grace? *So never underestimate The power of a wounded heart For it still beats strong His voice was clear, and he didn't seem to be hesitating anymore. There were teardrops coming from his face, and as he turned around, he saw her. That confidence he had seemed to waver and he stood up taller. “You are kind. You're beautiful, Milena. More than even you know. No matter what anyone else says, you are beautiful, kind, sweet, thoughtful, and so much more. And even though you hurt me in the past, I forgive you… And I know you are strong. Stronger than even you know…” @Al the Killer

She didn't know what to say, so she stood by the hallway, watching him and listening. The moon filtered in through the large windows, creating a halo of pale light around his silhouette. The poem was lovely, though she couldn't call every word of it correct. There was no beauty in her pain - he carried all of it, with her joy and with everything good in the world. She didn't know how to be a good person without losing herself, but hearing him speak made her want to. "Kain..." She trailed off as words failed her. Instead of speaking, she crossed the living room, pausing to take a tissue from the box on one of the end tables. "You're too good to be real," she whispered at last when she was right in front of him. She used the tissue to dab away the tears beneath his eyes as she looked up at him. "You never deserved to be hurt." When she was done wiping his face, she let the back of her hand rest gently against his cheek. @Kain the Insane

“Circumstances made me. Perhaps I could've or would've been a terrible person. I… My family…” He put his hand on her's and her decided he'd open up. Maybe see if it would help her. “I am not an only child. Until I was 7, I was all there was, and my family was… Decent. But then my brother was born. And… He could never do anything wrong. He spoke before I did, he crawled before I did, he didn't cry as much as I did, he wasn't as needy as I was. My… Parents invested all their time in him. Everything he could ever want, was given to him. They started ignoring me. That is… Until I got a D in my physical education class. Then…” He paused and he moved up his left sleeve, showing her a scar that was very clearly a belt buckle. “My father took off his belt and… He hit me. Every time i failed, he would. And I could never do anything right. I got all As and I wasn't smart enough. I studied all the time, but never hard enough. I wrote poems, but they were never creative enough. They told me… To have love you have to EARN it. And they'd love me when I earned it. So, I came to a top university to graduate with honors and perhaps finally… Make them proud. Finally earn their love… And the truth of it is, Milena… I'm tired…” His voice began to weaken a bit and he rubbed the back of her hand. Tears fell and he took a deep breath, trying not to lean into her touch so much that it ruined the moment.

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“You and your friends could never make me feel more worthless than they did. I never wanted to earn you liking or loving me. I simply wanted to do what was right. And this place may have a lot of shifty people, but I promise that… There are other people who want to be kind out there too. I'm not very unique… But I am here because I need to be…” Kain said softly. All his circumstances had led to him being here so he could support her. So that he could show her that people cared. Or, at least, that he cared. And perhaps it would come into view for her as well. Kain was a giver. The sort of person who would give and give and give until there was nothing left to give, and even then, he'd FIND something to give. Although other things perhaps also became clear. Especially the fact that no matter how hard he tried, his parents were never going to love him at this rate. @Al the Killer

"Kain-" The first words to pop into mind were 'stop that', because that's what she was used to hearing from her father when she cried. She stopped herself, and instead wrapped an arm around his waist. "Come on." She guided him to the sofa to sit down. Truth be told, she didn't know how to help him right now, and probably wasn't in a state to do so. But she wanted to try. "I'm glad you're here. Perfection isn't real, and even if it was, it still wouldn't be enough for some people. You're not the problem." She had, in her own way, promised to keep him safe. So that was what she would try to do. She placed her hands on his as she stayed with him. One drifted up his arm, fingertips brushing gently across the scar as she looked up at him to see if he was alright. "Is there anything I can do to help you right now?" she asked. "Anything at all. I have seen what happens to a person when they give everything in a relationship but receive nothing in return, and I won't have that for you. Not for either one of us. You keep supporting me, and I'll support you." For as long as she could remember, she'd worried about meeting that fate, the same life her mother lived, but now it seemed her boyfriend was someone far more likely to end up living that nightmare. She wouldn't allow it. She wouldn't become like her father. Nor would she become her mother; she had to be her own person, to stop thinking about what she feared and start going after what she wanted. @Kain the Insane

“Can you just… Hold me…? When you hugged me before, I felt so… Happy. I promise, I'm not trying to perv on you. I just want to be held…” He said quietly. Already her concern was important to him. It made him happier. The therapy she was talking about getting would be good too. But right now, he craved physical touch and affection. And he didn't want to ask for too much. “If you can't do that, then… I really like holding your hand. And seeing you smile. Seeing you during the movie and while we ate, looking so happy… It made my heart beat really fast…” He said, leaning his head onto her head. Honestly he hated that he was leaning on her right now, he'd meant to let her lean on him. When she touched his scar, it didn't ache like before. But he did lift his lower shirt to let her see more of them. “And… I'm sorry they're so ugly. I… Can't look at myself in the mirror without thinking about all my failures… Because I'm covered with them from head to toe…” @Al the Killer

He didn't even need to explain himself. The moment he asked her to hold him, her arms were tight around him, holding him close. At the moment, all she wanted was for him to be happy. Not to see him acting happy, not for him to stop crying so she could be more comfortable, but his genuine happiness. "Nothing about you is ugly," she said softly. He was quite lovely, really. She'd always noticed, even if her attraction was purely aesthetic and not sexual (for now). Like a painting you admired but didn't want to do anything to. Even if his taste in clothing had seemed a bit questionable to someone wealthy and out of touch. "And you don't have anything to apologize to me for." She rested her head against his shoulder as she held him close. For a moment, she just stayed there with him quietly. His warmth, his strength, his concern toward her... everything about him was a comfort. The last thing she wanted was for him to hurt. "I care about you," she said after a moment, and realized it was true. "How about we go back to the bed? It will be more comfortable, and I think I'll be able to sleep better now." Her eyelids were growing heavy, exhaustion beginning to properly sink in. @Kain the Insane

Kain nodded and he took a deep breath. The hug they had been sharing was really nice, but he couldn’t quite do it for the moment. Arms under her legs/thighs and he lifted her up. Carrying her carefully back to bed. Once they’d returned there, he moved his arms to wrap around her waist again. Her belief that none of him was ugly made his heart sing. All this time, that was all he could think about. How ugly his body was. He’d been told that for so long he’d begin to believe it. He angled himself a bit to where she couldn’t quite press up against what he had hidden below his waist, although not she could probably feel a bit of its outline. It didn’t matter. All that he cared about right now was holding her and focusing on their bodies being intertwined. Feeling the warmth and care from her, just wanting him to feel better after he had been crying. It was beautiful. It made him so happy, he could barely contain all these endorphins pumping through him. @Al the Killer

She stayed close to him, allowing him to carry her. She'd meant to walk beside him, but she didn't mind this, either. She settled into the bed, letting him settle into whatever position was comfortable. The feeling of warmth and safety returned. Hopefully it would last this time. With a smile, she shifted back against him a bit more, but didn't try to angle herself against him more directly. Best to respect his boundaries as he did for her. "Goodnight," she whispered softly. "Ag-aaaaiiin-" The last word was distorted by the massive yawn that hit her in that moment. She closed her eyes and rested in his arms, allowing her fears to ease. It had been intense for a first date, and she wouldn't have imagined it going this way, but she was glad to be here with him. Slowly but steadily, she drifted off to sleep once more, and would manage to stay that way this time if nothing woke her up. @Kain the Insane

Kain held her in silence for a while, running his fingers through her hair a bit. He wasn’t going to let her know he had problems when it came to Insomnia. The last thing he wanted was her blaming herself for this. Maybe an hour or two passed before he could manage to get to sleep himself. The all consuming void of darkness that was his dreams slowly enveloping him. However, unlike usual, he felt a sense of warmth. Like a blanket was wrapped around him, shielding him from the darkness. He had a lot of mixed dreams, watching her as she used to be, making his life hell. Then watching as things shifted to a first person view of that night, his breaths labored as he carried her home. His feet bleeding, his body in so much pain it reminded him of some of the worst beatings he had taken from his father. Then came today. Bits of their date together. The sounds of her voice filled his dreams and he found himself waking up to the sun in the sky. What was today? That wasn’t a good sign usually, but for once, if he DID have a class, he wouldn’t mind missing it. He’d had perfect attendance, so it wasn’t like he should be too stressed. He tried to move, but found her holding him extra tight, and so he just rubbed her back and softly hummed. @Al the Killer

At some point in the night, Milena had turned to face him, locking her arms around him in a vise grip. As he tried to move, she grumbled and locked her leg around his, keeping him even closer. A few more minutes passed before she actually began to wake up. Her eyes opened slowly as she nuzzled into his chest. When was the last time she'd felt this comfortable with another person? "Morning," she muttered, only pulling her head away to look up at him. "How'd you sleep?" She was in no hurry to move. Some of the science students had labs for certain classes on Fridays, but that wasn't something she had to worry about this semester. She had the day to kill, which would give her plenty of time to focus on the work she didn't get done the previous day before she had to even think about the upcoming party she'd agreed to attend with friends that night. @Kain the Insane

“Not too well, but… That's usual for me. It's better than I usually do though.” Kain smiled, enjoying her legs and wrapped around him. Partially because he'd always wondered what that felt like, since it always happened in porn or hentai. The girl holding her partner like this. But this was significantly less sexual and more romantic. It was Friday, that was right. Because the party was Sunday and it had been 4 days. He wasn't taking science, so he wouldn't have to worry about missing any class after all. In fact he didn't have many classes today. Rubbing her back, he smiled and looked down. “You're not just pretty, you're also absolutely adorable… I hope that you got to sleep better after you and I talked for a bit…” Kain said, and gave her a nice smile, resisting the urge to shift too much with her so close to him like that. If he felt her nipples or anything, then it might get very uncomfortable very quickly. And after all their work to make sure the date night ended extra wholesome? Kain didn't want to ruin that because of his hormones. @Al the Killer

Milena smiled at the compliment. She should have been used to them, but this was sincere in a way she rarely heard. "I did," she said. "What do you want for breakfast? I can make something for us." She thought back to her time in his flat, and the lack of hot water there. "If you want to take a shower in the meantime, you can. The water pressure here is heavenly." She'd never liked talking too long to get started in the mornings, so she had no problem disentangling her limbs from his. Still, she had to pause and observe him for a moment. It was nice, waking up together, feeling his warmth and listening to his voice. Something she could get used to quickly. @Kain the Insane

Nodding, he helped her to detangle her limbs as best he could by shifting to make it easier. Then he decided he'd give her one more tight hug, holding her head to his chest this time before he gently let her go and stood up. “I'd love breakfast… You can make what you'd like, I am not picky or anything. Most of the time, it's just an egg or two that I eat.” He said with a long yawn and a soft exhale. Once done there, he went to the shower and began to take a hot shower. It was very nice, and he did his best not to take too long. Part of him wanted to try and take care of his half awake “partner” downstairs, but he didn't want to deal with the hassle. Plus, the last thing he wanted to do was clog her drains or anything like that. Instead he cleaned up his hair and for once, he didn't leave it just random, he tried to style it a bit to look better. It let his eyes become more visible. Stick out some more, have some more vibrancy than when they got covered up. Soon he emerged from the bathroom in one of the new outfits she’d bought him, brushing it down and making sure not to make the fabrics crease or wrinkle as he came out to let her see him in the outfit with a smile. @Al the Killer

An egg or two sounded rather boring, so Milena opted to surprise him with something sweet and probably a lot more filling. Besides, she enjoyed cooking. Not enough to attend culinary school, but enough that she'd considered it at one point. "Take your time," she told him. "Breakfast might take a while to be ready." She walked out to the kitchen, not thinking to get dressed for the day just yet. She was comfortable and not going anywhere, after all. Wasting no time, she grabbed all of the ingredients she needed, bringing out the waffle maker as well. Waffles with caramelized banana, Nutella, vanilla ice cream, and whipped cream on top seemed like a good idea. To kill time and fill up more of each plate, she fried up some maple bacon to put on the side as well. She was just wrapping up as she heard him come out of the bathroom. For once, she'd let herself be outshined by someone else because he really did clean up nice. She smiled over at him. "Well now I feel underdressed," she commented. "Breakfast is almost ready. Do you want coffee, tea, juice, or milk?" @Kain the Insane

“Milk works for me. Lord knows I need the bone strength, it’s all that’s under here…” Hengesturee to himself with a laugh, unable to hold back his amusement. If no one was gonna laugh at your jokes, you might as well, right? Kain then sat down and looked at the meal she prepared. He waited for her to sit down too so that they could eat together, and he bowed his head. “Thank you for the meal, Angel… It looks and smells delicious. I’m glad to have such an awesome girlfriend.” He said with a big, goofy smile on his face. He began to dig in, eating with manners, but still managing to show just how much he enjoyed it. Keeping the noises to a minimum was surprisingly difficult, but he didn’t want to seem like a disgusting slob to his girlfriend. He wanted her to be attracted to him, and hygiene and etiquette were probably two things high on her list of importance. Plus it wasn’t like he could ask her what she found sexy in a guy. So far it seemed like maybe she was only attracted to those she built a genuine bond with, since she said that the only time she had those urges was with a friend. But he wouldn’t let that excuse him to be disgusting and uncleanly. After all, he didn’t want to be an embarrassment to her. @Al the Killer

Milena poured two glasses of milk, then sat across the table from him. "And I'm glad to have you," she said, thinking about how he'd comforted her the night before. His smile was contagious, and she found it impossible not to return it with the same energy. "You really do look good, too." The hair was unlikely to hold up once it dried without product, but right now it looked nice. She ate her food as well, savouring the balance between sweet and savoury flavours. She didn't normally go for ice cream with breakfast, but since she had her boyfriend here, she could spoil the both of them. "Do you have any plans for today?" she asked, wanting to strike up conversation while they ate. @Kain the Insane

Kain blushed and shook his head with a look down. “Was probably going to go to class and then head home. Probably study, like usual…” He said, shaking his head slightly. It wasn’t exactly like he wanted to, but it had been drilled into his head that he needed to work much harder than he really needed to. However, he had a girlfriend now who had a lot of sway here. But he was leaving it unsaid. It wasn’t that he was trying to pressure her into doing something with him, just his general lack of confidence that was keeping him from asking her for another date. After all, they’d gone out last night, and he wasn’t sure how much time she wanted to be spending with him. “Unless, I guess… If you want to do something.” He found himself saying. Huh. Maybe he had a bit more confidence than he thought he did. Although he would understand if she already had plans for tonight that didn’t include him in them. @Al the Killer

Oh shit, was Milena keeping him from class? She was so used to not having Friday classes that she'd neglected to consider that. At least they were near campus though, and he didn't seem to be in a hurry. "I should study, too," she said, since she hadn't gotten to it last night. She enjoyed his company, but it was important for them to be able to spend time apart, too. Especially when they both had to keep on top of their grades. But she didn't want to attend another college party where she'd end up by herself in a pool of sharks. "But you know... If you're all caught up on studying by seven tonight, there's a party going on tonight. Finlay Hopkins is hosting at his place." Finlay was a bit of an oddball, socially; he tended to float between social groups, ignoring any conflict while getting by on being genuinely likable and throwing a hell of a party. It would be a good one to bring Kain to, she was sure. "I wouldn't mind having a date. Maybe you could meet me here and we could get ready together?" She found her heart to be racing as she asked. The dizziness that accompanied it wasn't unpleasant by any means, and one thought filled her mind. 'Please say yes, please say yes, please say yes...' She didn't want to attend a party alone, that much was true, but more than that, she wanted to spend time with him, specifically. @Kain the Insane

"Of course I'll go with you. We've gotta be seen together, plus I... Really like spending time together. Plus, I'll bring my staff. Didn't bring it last time because I was promised not to be messed with as the designated driver. Plus, I don't really care when I get beat up. And I do have paperwork saying I can carry it around to help me walk." Kain shrugged and smiled. Reaching across the table, he took her hand and squeezed it before letting it go. Just trying to let her know that he was there for her. He could see the fear and the desire that he should come, but he wouldn't try to embarrass her or anything. After all, he didn't want to step on her pride or anything. He finished his plate of food and he drank his milk slowly. Part of him really wanted to ask what exactly she was into, but he just took a deep breath and instead nodded. "While we're there, we hold hands a lot, stay in arms reach, and occasionally hug? Or will we have to do more to make sure everyone knows we're serious with eachother?" @Al the Killer (edited)

Milena relaxed as he squeezed her hand. Of course he was going to say yes... Was this what it felt like to actually like someone romantically? She smiled over at him as she considered the answer to his question. "It's not like anyone's going to demand public displays of affection," she assured him. "Just because it happens in every fake dating fanfiction doesn't mean it's realistic." And there she'd accidentally revealed a little more of her uncool side. Oh well, she could trust him with it. "We don't have to do anything we don't want to. I'd love to hold your hand, hug, and stay close to you, but for our benefit. Nobody else's." There wasn't usually a whole lot of dancing at these parties despite the music, which was a shame - she'd love to dance with him. Maybe she should invite him clubbing sometime. "Was there something you had in mind in terms of 'doing more'?" she asked, then decided to tease him a little. "Bear in mind that I'm not going to take my clothes off in public on the second date." @Kain the Insane

“Angel Eyes, I find you beautiful… And yes I… do feel lust for you. It's so much more. And if we were to do something, I guess… I have always…” He blushed and sighed before just blurring it out. “I've never kissed a girl and I really wanna kiss you…!” His hands rested on the table and his face turned a darker red before he sighed. He needed to contain himself, but he wanted her to know about the passion he felt for her. Then he took a deep breath and looked down. “Of course I get you may not be ready. And I'll happily wait… But… I don't know. I'm new to relationships. And… I'm the type to fall head over heels. I'm all in this. Please don't be… Freaked out by my weirdness…” He said, looking up at her and closing his eyes with a more embarrassed look. He wanted her to have his first kiss. Perhaps it wasn't right to expect more, although society did really set up strange standards like kissing on the first date and other such things. Although he wasn't trying to pressure her into having sex on the second date or anything. @Al the Killer

For a second, Milena worried that either she'd teased him too much or he was about to bring the conversation in a mess lighthearted, less wholesome direction. But of course he didn't; his answer was perfectly innocent. The deep blush was a bit sweet, but she made sure not to laugh, lest he assume she was doing so at his expense when really, he was just adorable right now. As he kept talking, she stood up and moved to stand next to him. "Kain," she said, once there was a lull for her to speak. Instead of saying more, she cupped his chin gently in her hand and kissed him softly, closing her eyes. Her lips didn't linger for long before she carefully pulled away. "I'm fine with kissing you. You don't have to overthink it. If you asked, I would have yesterday, as long as it wasn't poorly timed." It felt nice, a sweet way to be closer to him for a moment, and expressed her care for him without words. She let go of his face and sat back down, next to him this time. "I really do like you. More than I thought I would." @Kain the Insane

The last bit definitely wasn't necessary, but he overwrought everything. Now it was time to just take a deep breath and accept it. He returned the kiss, and he didn't try to move it into a disgusting place or anything. It was gentle, and he held her as their lips touched. Just that gentle, sweet hold to show her that she was free to leave while also giving her that feeling of safety. After it was done, he took a deep breath and the logical part of his brain did something smart for once. It had been one date, it throat chopped his desire to say the three words. Wasn't the right time, and if ANYTHING were to scare her into not not wanting to continue, it would be that. No dropping the ILY bomb. “Wow… I… Really like you too. Although, I resent the fact that you thought you'd like me less~” Kain said, the smile returning as he teased her. Of course he wasn't going to obsess over her previous thoughts, he could just make it a fun little tease to give her a taste of her own medicine, since she still seemed to enjoy teasing him some. @Al the Killer

Milena laughed at his teasing and leaned against his shoulder. "Hush, now," she said lightly. "I just meant that I never could have predicted... This. I guess that's my fault for not bothering you get to know you." She kissed his cheek, wrapping an arm around his waist. If neither of them had things to do, she could have held him all day. But they had their lives, and their studies to focus on. "If you're done eating, let's exchange phone numbers so we can text each other later," she suggested. "And text me when you get home safely, too. Or to campus, if you're going straight there." She always worried more about safety in neighbourhoods like the one he lived in but, when she really thought about it, maybe it was just because it was unfamiliar territory to her. After all, she'd been in a rich part of town when she'd been assaulted. @Kain the Insane

Kain gave her his phone number and gathered his things. He gave her a kiss on the forehead before he left with all his new clothes. The walk back wasn't particularly hard, it was still pretty cool, so he wasn't overheating or anything. Once he arrived there, he sent her a text. “Made it home Angel. I'll be putting my new clothes up and then heading to class. See you tonight.” Before he closed his phone. He sent an old fashioned smiley face, since he didn't have a smartphone. He had a blackberry that did have a touch screen, but he didn't have any emojis or apps. Honestly, if he were to play anything, he had to play the ball bouncing game that came installed on the phone. At least he could download music to this phone and listen to it, since it didn't have internet normally, which was what he did most of the time. He locked his door after himself and left to class, not expecting to encounter anyone along the way, since word spread fast. Although he didn't think about any jealous guys who might come to rough him up at some point. @Al the Killer

She gave him her number in return and helped him gather everything. Once he was gone, she cleaned up after breakfast, humming cheerfully to herself all the while. His departure left her plenty of time to get dressed - albeit in comfortable clothes still meant to stay at home - and focus once more on her studies. Her wasn't such a distraction that she couldn't think about her coding, but the memories of their morning together did leave a smile on her face that felt permanent even if she knew it wouldn't be. When she received his text, she replied to him. "Thanks for the update. Have a good time in class : * (I think that's how we did kiss emotes before smart phones but I could be wrong. It looks weird I know.)" On campus, the combination of Kain's new look and the gossip about him and Milena guaranteed that he got plenty of attention. People generally didn't bother to talk to him, but those who knew Milena were more than willing to stare and talk about him. @Kain the Insane (edited)

He definitely felt weird while everyone stared AT him. Usually he just tried to fly under ths radar as much as possible, but now, he was thrusted into the attentions of the school. Looking around, he cleared his throat. He could already hear the rumors. That he must've been blackmailing her. Or that he had a huge cock (which, to be fair, was true but not why she chose him). Yawning softly, Kain saw someone in the corner of his eye. He had a feeling something was coming. So, Kain stepped away into an empty classroom. . . . Hours passed, and he hadn't texted her once. Perhaps it would be a bit worrying since it was so late. However, he texted her that he would meet up with her at her place. He approached her door with an employee trailing behind him. His hand in a cast, and one black eye were new to his appearance and only one surprise she’d find out about. However, he wasn’t carrying himself as if he were in pain. No, in fact,he looked totally fine. In fact, he practiced how he would greet her, hoping she wouldn’ freak out. Smiling with a slight chuckle, he quietly said to himself, “Hey Angel… Hope your day went well…” As if she might not notice the new injuries decorating his face and arm. @Al the Killer (edited)

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For a while, Milena thought nothing of the lack of a text response. She was lost in her own work. She had never really communicated the comfort that her chosen course of study gave her. There was a process to it, an organization, a way to make sure everything lined up just how she wanted. It was creative work, yet there was still a right answer to each problem she wished to solve. Despite her claims to be bilingual, the only languages she was truly fluent in were those of numbers and computerized commands. She assumed that Kain was also busy doing his own thing. But the time approached and she checked her phone, and started to grow concerned. "Is everything alright, sweetheart? Text me when you get the chance." She returned to her bedroom to put on her makeup for the night, only to pause when she got his text. Since she'd asked to get ready together, she replied under the assumption that that was what they were doing. "I'll call the concierge to let him know to send you up. Apartment 1208." When the knock came on her door, she all but ran to it. She saw him standing there first and smiled, until she noticed the black eye. "Kain, what happened to you?" She grabbed his uninjured hand to gently pull him into her flat, closing the door behind him. "Who did this? Why? Stand right there, I'll get you an ice pack." She ran to the kitchen to grab a cold pack from the freezer, wrapping it up in a hand towel as she ran back to him. @Kain the Insane

“Oh, well, the black eye… Uh… Well, that was given to me by the younger guy who went after you the other day. He followed me into a classroom and hit me. It wasn’t too bad, but he then began to say some stuff…” Kain said, rubbing the back of his head and clearing his throat. Honestly it had all been a bit of a blur, and he was only now fully realizing what happened. “He said that I’d taken you for myself. And that I had taken you from him. All of that was stupid, but I didn’t want to give him the satisfaction. He pushed me over a desk and then he said that I must’ve given you good sex because you were…” His face darkened, and for the first time ever, anger touched his face. He took a deep breath and then nodded. “He said you were a whore. I didn’t mind him saying shit to me, but when it included you, well… I punched him in the face. Twice. I apparently hit his jaw which broke my hand… And a finger. But they had it on camera, so the police grabbed him and just took a statement from me. Although he looked petrified of me, which… Was a first…” Kain said, accepting the ice pack and gently placing it on his eye with his good hand. @Al the Killer

Milena's expression shifted to one of horror as she listened to his story. Stupid of her to assume he'd be safe just because they were together... Ice ran down her spine at the mention of him being out of police custody. Maybe not anymore, but still. She could only hope an assault charge would keep him away for a bit longer than the matter of drug possession had. She handed the cold pack over and tried to think of a way to lighten the mood when what she really wanted to say was that if she saw that man again, she'd kill him herself. She decided to address the accusations against her instead. "He called me a whore?" She scoffed, intentionally exaggerating her response. "God forbid women work for a living." Her smile faded though. He'd been hurt because of her, and she certainly didn't want him to run around fighting people, either. "If you want to stay in and recover, we can." She'd never canceled plans before, but there was a first time for everything if needed. "Or we can go and cement your new reputation as a certified badass. Up to you. Just... please try to avoid getting into more fights like that. I don't want you to end up in the hospital or prison." @Kain the Insane

Shaking his head, Kain laughed and he looked at his hand. “Well, I won’t intend to get into more fights… But if someone insults you like that or hurts you, I kinda think… I won’t be able to stop myself from punching them in the nose. But I wouldn’t mind going to the party. I don’t care what people think of me, just that you’re safe… And everyone knows you're awesome.” Kain gave a smile as he moved the ice pack and blinked. It wasn’t too bad of a black eye, the rich prick had actually hit like a child. Kain was all bones and yet he broke the guy’s nose and clocked him so hard on the chin he passed out. In fact, he remembered the guy even giving him a terrified look when he was recounting “his story”. Even after the truth had been revealed, Kain had seen him look terrified of him. Like he’d done some great feat of strength. But then again, perhaps this was the only time he faced some form of consequences for his bullshit. @Al the Killer

Milena sighed, but she knew it couldn't be helped. As long as that violence was never directed at her, she'd be fine. "Be careful anyway," she said softly, stroking his hair with one hand. "Anyway, if you still want to go, then I still have to get dressed. I was thinking..." She trailed off, thinking that maybe the idea was a bit... intimate, in a way. Her cheeks flushed, partly out of embarassment as she worried that it might just be a stupid idea. "Since I picked out the clothes I bought for you yesterday, I'd let you choose what I wear tonight? You don't have to, I thought it might be nice." She didn't have to worry about clothing bringing back memories; she had, during the week since the party, taken a pair of scissors to the dress she'd worn there and sent the scraps down the garbage chute into the building's incinerator. She kissed his forehead and stayed close to him for now to make sure he really was okay, but if he did agree to her idea, she'd given him space to make a decision without her watching over his shoulder. @Kain the Insane

“Oh! Uh… Sure. But, I have gotta admit, I don’t exactly have the best sense of… Style. But I could try and see what I can do.” Kain said, wrapping an arm around her. Once she had moved away to let him choose, he looked through her things. Hmmm, what should she wear? Well, not something sexy. Perhaps this? He grabbed a white shirt sleeved shirt with a black jacket and a blue Jean skirt. He came out, showing them to her. “Would these go together like this? I think it would be cute and simple. No need to dress up too much for the party, after all…” He suggested, raising an eyebrow as he inquired about his decision. He really wasn’t that great when it came to styl, but he was genuine and sweet about it. Obviously he thought she’d look beautiful in anything she wore. Closing his eyes, he took a deep breath and blushed. Damn, he just couldn’t help but feel a strange euphoria. Maybe it was the look in her eyes when she smiled. Or the fact that she made him promise not to get in so many fights, but it seemed like she relaxed a bit. He wasn’t going to go out picking fights, but he cared about her enough to make sure no one insulted her or tried to hurt her. No one would touch the woman he cared for most in the whole world. Milena was all he had, and while he may not have given a rat’s ass about himself, he sure as hell cared with every fiber of his being about Milena and if she felt safe, secured, and adored while she was around him. @Al the Killer

Milena had turned to face away, so she had to turn back around to see what he was asking about. It was a simple selection, but cute. It would go well with a pair of sheer black tights, too. "They would," she said, taking the clothes from him. "Thank you." She kissed his cheek, then stepped back, holding the clothes now. "Could you just look away for a few seconds so I can get dressed?" She wouldn't take long, but privacy for what little time it would take would be nice. She was still a bit worried for his safety, but surely nobody would try anything with her around. They knew she would fuck them up if they did. @Kain the Insane

Kain nodded, turning around snd closing his eyes for good measure. He didnt want her ti think he was trying to get a peak underneath. He hummed to himself and tapped his foot. He'dseen some nice looking dresses she had, and several of them his more instictive/lustful side would enjoy. But he wasn't giving into THAT idiot’s issues. That idiot wasnt the one who had gotten him a girlfriend, his more seeet and logical side did. Once she gave him the all clear, he turned around with his eyes closed just to make sure that he didn't mishear her or anything like that. That simply just wouldn’t do, especially since she just started to really trust him when it came to this sort of stuff. @Al the Killer

Once she was dressed, Milena took an extra second to look in the mirror and straighten out her skirt. "You can look now," she said, looking back at him. Although he was facing her, his eyes were still shut, and she had to laugh just a bit. "You'll have a hard time looking with your eyes closed, I think." She walked over to him and patted his shoulder. "I promise I'm fully clothed, sweetheart." Well, she still had to put on her shoes and grab her purse, but she was decent, at least. "Did you want to do anything else to get ready? I have hairspray if you wanted to style your hair, but you already look good. Aside from, you know... Your injuries." @Kain the Insane

“One thing…” Kain said before he gave her a kiss. Gentle and sweet, although it wasn’t too long. More a peck on the lips. “You look… So beautiful. No matter what clothes you wear… You are beyond compare. My heart beats so fast, I wish this moment could last. But as another moment passes… Your care gives me classes… On how to care for someone as amazing as you…. Fresh as the morning Dee. My beloved Angel, Milena…” He said, gently squeezing her hands and giving her a goody grin. Perhaps it wasn’t quite as final draft-y as his other poems had been, but it was from the heart nevertheless. @Al the Killer

Milena blushed faintly as she listened to him. It was nice to be cherished at all, of course, but there was more to it. It mattered that it was by him. When he was done, she kissed him again. "That was beautiful. And you're adorable," she told him before walking to the door. She put on a pair of ankle boots and picked up her purse before looking back to make sure he was ready. Once he was, she opened the door and stepped out. "I can drive us," she said. "I... Don't really think I'll be drinking tonight." Fresh tap water seemed like the safest option for a party now. Even if the host was a decent guy, she couldn't trust most attendees anymore. @Kain the Insane

"I never drink, so... No worries for me. Plus, even if you did, I'd make sure you were okay." Kain nodded and followed her out. He walked alongside her, but he didn't reach for her hand. If she wanted to hold hands, she'd take his hand, he'd learned that last night. Plus it was proper etiquette for a guy anyway. So, he walked down to her car with her and opened her door for her, letting her get in before he hopped into the passenger's side. Looking over at her, he cleared his throat. "You know, for the future, if you don't want to go to a party... I'm happy just to stay home with you and watch another movie or something." He said, leaning on her a bit with a smile.

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The possibility was there, after she'd had time, but for now she was avoiding drinking alcohol altogether. She held his hand on the way down to the car, only letting go so she could unlock it and remove its cover. "I'll keep that in mind, but I don't think becoming a shut-in is the solution to my problems," she half joked, starting up the car. "But a date night in every now and then sounds fun. Maybe not a movie if we want to talk, but we can find other things to do. Cooking together, playing a board game and breaking all of the rules, trying a puzzle together... Oh, maybe an at-home spa night. That sounds relaxing." She smiled as she thought about the possibilities for future dates, but kept most of her attention on the road in front of her. @Kain the Insane

Shaking his head, he smiled slightly and laughed. "Those sound fun... But I mean... Less of a shut in and just... Taking things at a pace. I agree with what you said last night, that you should go to therapy... And I'll even go with you. Cause... Well, I probably need it too." Kain admitted, but he was just trying to let her know that there was no shame in admitting she needed help. There was no shame in GETTING help. No matter what her father or mother had told her. That had been where this was coming from, right? @Al the Killer

It helped, knowing that she wouldn't be going alone, at least. Even if it brought the conversation in a heavier direction to talk about it, she didn't mind. "The waiting list for NHS services can be years long, so I was thinking of finding a private practice," she admitted. It would probably be extra for two people together, especially when it wasn't couple's counseling, but she'd see what she could find. Still better than paying for two separately. "Not the date idea I had in mind, but I really do appreciate it. You, I mean. I appreciate you." She parked about near the house. Already, there were plenty of other vehicles in the area, clearly not local residents but guests. "Ready?" She turned the vehicle off and gathered her purse. @Kain the Insane

"I can help if need be... I don't have a lot, but... Ya'know..." He said, a bit of a smile. But once they arrived and parked, he nodded and slowly got out of the car. Coming around to meet her, he offered her his hand in case she wanted to hold it. He wanted to Socialize and not embarrass her, and at the very least, he'd get to remain closeby her. Ultimately his goal was to not fail. She and her were officially dating, he liked her, he didn't want anyone to think less of her for dating him. But he wasn't going to lean into being some big tough guy. Maybe he just needed to play it straight. That he cared about her and wanted to keep her safe. Let everyone see him for who he was, a sweet dork who just wanted to help his girlfriend be happy. However, that wouldn't stop him from punching your teeth out if you decided you wanted to.fuck around with his girlfriend. Insult her or try to lay a finger on her, and they would have to be reapplying a new cast to Kain's arm pretty shortly afterward, after what he was going to do to their face. @Al the Killer

Knowing what she knew about his living situation, Milena absolutely could not accept money from him. Nor did she need to. "I have plenty saved up between what my parents send and what I make from working freelance," she assured him. "Putting a little less into savings every month will be worth it. Don't worry about helping." She took his hand and stepped out of the car, pausing to lock the doors behind her. Loud music thumped from the building nearby, the sort of large house that only the obscenely wealthy could afford. She led him down the driveway, giving his hand a gentle squeeze. "Hey Milena," a girl greeted. Milena couldn't remember her name, if she'd ever learned it, and her first instinct was to either ignore her or say something dismissive or rude, such as asking if she got lost on the way to an ugly sweater contest. But around Kain... She wanted to be better. So she smiled and waved hello, thinking that that would be the end of it. Instead, the girl talked again and now this was a conversation, but her words were what really caught her attention. "Are you... Are you alright?" she asked, then lowered her voice. "I heard what happened with Connor last week." Right, that was his name. The asshole who'd helped drug her. "It's terrible that he's still-" No no no, Milena couldn't do this. Whatever solidarity this girl was seeking, she could sympathize but she couldn't... She couldn't talk about it. "I have to go now, bye," Milena said in a hurry and rushed off, all but dragging Kain by the hand if he'd let her. @Kain the Insane

Kain was waving too. When she mentioned Connor, he felt the color drains. He hurried along with Milena, but Kain wasn't afraid. Connor was afraid of him now. Not only that, but after getting Drug Possession leveled at him, he assaulted his persecutor. Not to mention the Dean had to get involved. Connor would be outta there before he could even think to say “Oops”. But he followed Milena and he gave her hand a squeeze as they went, not trying to stop her, but letting teoher know he was there. That he would protect her. Of course he knew that he couldn't repair everything, and that she would likely have problems when it came to this from now on. He would support her through-out whatever she needed. Therapy, a trial, moving, whatever she needed to feel safe and back in control of herself. He would support her with every bit of love and care that he could muster. He noticed as they approached the party, people staring at him. He tried to politely wave, although with his free hand being in a cast and one of his eyes being dark, perhaps it wouldn't quite be as… Relieving as it would be… Scary? Weird? Whatever the case, he would deal with it, just like everything else. “Milena…” He said softly, just wanting to perhaps help ground her again, not wanting her to lose herself in the rush of emotions and confusion that he imagined she would be feeling at the moment. Honestly all he wanted to do was hug her and tell her it was okay. To cry or just lean on him however much she wanted. But, he knew that she needed to deal with this how she wanted to, and if she wanted to lead on someone, she would tell him. Because he would gladly do so, of course. @Al the Killer

Milena wasn't thinking about more than getting out of there, leaving the very confused girl behind. Once they were surrounded by people, she forced herself to calm down, to breathe slowly and pull herself together. She couldn't afford to freak out in a place like this. The people who had already heard about the fight and saw Kain looked at him with a bit less disdain than they once had, and more respect. So there was that, at least. She turned to face him. "I'm..." She couldn't lie to him. "I will be okay," she said instead. She pulled him into a hug, not caring who was watching. "It will be fine." Again, this time to reassure herself. The smell of alcohol hit different, carrying apprehension that hadn't been there before, but she could power through it. It wasn't about to set her off. "How about we go find some snacks?" she suggested, since she was pretty sure neither of them had bothered to take time for a proper dinner. She reminded herself that she had to eat, even if her panic moments before kept her from properly feeling her hunger. @Kain the Insane

Kain nodded and took a deep breath with a bit of a smile. He followed her to the kitchen or wherever they were keeping the snacks. Of course he was looking around for food to eat as well as making sure no one tried any funny business. Grabbing a bottle of water, he emptied it in the sink and put some fresh water in it before handing it to her. Just a bit of a double precaution. After that, he was trying to see what all they had here. He wasn’t used to parties, and he didn’t know what would’ve been at a more “middle-class” party, much less one that was run by a rich person. To be fair, he’d never really seen Milena with any snacks, the most he had seen was what she would eat for full meals. Not just the one from their date, but he’d also seen her with other things whenever he would be eating and she would come over to mess with him and make his lunch as unpleasant as possible. Although he wouldn’t have worded it that way to Milena, as he’d forgiven her, and he didn’t want to guilt trip her or have her constantly be living in the past. @Al the Killer

The kitchen was probably bigger than Milena's living room. Platters of food were set out on most of its surfaces, each with a small label so people knew what was there. Milena was cautious with picking up a piece of baklava soaked in honey, pausing to make sure nothing smelled off about it. As Kain handed her the bottle of water, she smiled over at him. She'd seen the extra care he'd taken, the precautions to make sure she felt safe accepting it, and she wanted him to know she appreciated it. "Thanks." She kissed his cheek then took a sip of water, before starting on her snack. The patterns of her choices between the boba, popcorn, and party snacks were clear on one thing: she had a hell of a sweet tooth. She looked out into the living room. A few people had opted to dance to the music, while most sat around trying to talk over the volume. She'd never noticed how tightly-packed the crowds were. Already, a few couples had wasted no time in sneaking off upstairs. It was... underwhelming, aside from the food. "Is this what these parties are like when you're sober?" she asked Kain, unimpressed by it all. After all, he may not have been to many of them, but he had been to the last one, as a designated driver. "No wonder everyone gets high and wasted at these." Another thing caught her attention; people were leaving her alone. Whether it was because she had a boyfriend now or who that boyfriend was, they didn't really take the time to approach her. And for some reason, she found herself grateful for it. @Kain the Insane

“Yeah, just about. Although at least these people have the decency to go upstairs. I can't tell you how many times I've stood in a corner while a couple were grinding on each other right by me. Or the amount of times I've seen a line of people at the bathroom before hurling on the floor, because a couple or Throuple decided a bed was too good and they needed to do it in a bathroom…” Kain said, munching on some things. He didn't mind sweet things, but he hadn't really gotten the chance to eat a lot of them. His brother had, of course, because his parents had spoiled him rotten. “You also couldn't imagine the vile things I've heard said. About… Well, everyone. Guys talking about girls… Girls talking about poking holes in condoms. Yeah, let's just say that I try to give some anonymous warnings to guys and girls alike. Or, well, I do whenever I don't get attacked. A few guys who have kids here with other girls… Yeah, that's because they wouldn't listen and instead decided to beat on me instead.” Kain shrugged and squeezed her hand. His fingers on his casted hand could move except for his middle finger, so he was carefully pinching food and bringing it to his mouth so that he could eat. Plus he imagined that Milena wasn't going to feed him food. If she did, it would be a nice surprise, but he wasn't going to put the burden of his decisions on her. He was the one who decided to break Connor's nose then knock him the fuck out. His hands twitched at that thought and he cringed a bit. He needed to be careful to not think about flexing his hand or anything, lest he put himself in a lot of pain. Blinking, Kain chuckled and he leaned over against her a bit. “You know, I think I can see a couple of girls whispering about me. They keep glancing over. Probably wondering how the most beautiful girl in the world got with a guy like me~” He was only self-deprecating a bit, but he was serious that they'd probably been thinking those exact thoughts about this. @Al the Killer

"The beds were probably occupied," Milena commented. Then he kept talking, and her expression turned to one of horror. She'd thought she was the worst, but maybe she'd been surrounded by subtler monsters all along. "That's... horrible." At least he'd tried to do the right thing and warn people, but fucking hell. She couldn't even figure out who in the right mind would want to get pregnant in university with a man who probably wasn't willing or ready to take responsibility for it. That just sounded like a shitshow all around. She noticed him struggled to eat and hold her hand at the same time, so she finished off the piece of baklava, glanced over at her water bottle to make sure it was still safely on the counter, and reached out to take what he was eating. "Allow me," she said. "Open up." It seemed like it would be a cute idea to feed him, and it definitely cemented that they were a couple. Besides, it probably hurt to move that hand. How he managed to make out a few whispers in a building like this, she had no idea. "And let them whisper. At least I get to have the most wonderful boyfriend imaginable." If they couldn't see the kind of person he was, that was their problem. And their loss - that just meant she got to have him all to herself. @Kain the Insane

Kain Blushed a bit, but he let her feed him. He couldn't help but smile as he felt some tears come to his eyes. He blinked them away and cleared his throat. “Sorry, I'm just… So happy…” He shook his head gently and enjoyed this intimate moment. He kept an eye on the water bottle just in case, but he eventually did just make eye contact with her and not stop. Taking a napkin carefully, he wiped his mouth and he had to hold back again. No saying what a part of him was thinking. Nope nope, not time yet. However, he gently moved his hands and placed them on her back. “You're the best girlfriend ever. I love-... That you are trying so hard. That's the best part. You may not be perfect, but you get better and better… And you TRY. You don't half ass things… And even I'm guilty of that sometimes. I… Am so happy that I met you. And I'd go through it all again just for this…” He kissed her lips, once again, there was no tongue. This time though, it wasn't a peck. And this wasn't a performance. He was kissing her because he wanted to and he was all too happy at that moment. He never thought he would deserve to feel as happy as he did at this moment. In fact, a piece of him still wondered if he deserved to feel this happy and whole. However, as usual, his hold was loose. She could back away at any time she wanted to. @Al the Killer

Milena kissed his cheek even though it wouldn't do anything about the tears of happiness that ran down it. Then the word 'love' escaped his lips, and her heart raced for just a moment of anticipation. But that wasn't what he was saying. Odd, she hasn't expected she would be disappointed by the shift, but she didn't say anything. There was no need to rush, after all, and she was still a bit conflicted about the concept. And that hint of disappointment faded as his romantic speech went on, gone altogether but the time he kissed her. She wrapped an arm around his shoulders and kissed him back, melting into his embrace. It was soft, gentle, with no rush toward anything more. The sort of pure affection she'd never believed in but always wished could be real. She still had to stop for air at some point. She opened her eyes and looked at him adoringly. "You're so wonderful," she whispered. "Is there anything you want to do while we're here?" @Kain the Insane

“Not that I can think of… Although, I suppose we could try to dance. But the only dance I’ve ever had SOME idea of how to do is a waltz~” He smiled and gave her a kiss on the forehead. That hint of disappointment didn’t go unnoticed, but he just wanted to be careful. She was conflicted about how their relationship could/would go, and he didn’t want to say it way too soon and have her leave. Either for space or because he’d moved too fast. Whatever the reason. Not everyone was as weird as he was, and he’d seen plenty of shows talk about saying the ILY bomb too soon. One of his favorites, How I Met Your Mother, had the first EPISODE about it. And a later episode about him being an “I love you” slut, who said it much too quickly and much too much. Last thing he needed was to be like that, especially when he was in his 20s and he’d finally gotten his first girlfriend who actually cared about him. Plus she was very pretty. He couldn’t ruin his one chance at a relationship between the two of them. @Al the Killer

Milena knew that waltzes happened in 3/4 time, but that was about the limitation of her knowledge. "Learning to waltz does sound like fun, but..." Milena looked toward the stereo, and the couples whose version of dancing resembled really bad foreplay. The songcs singer proclaimed 'I'm trying to find the words to describe this girl without being disrespectful... Damn she's a sexy bitch.' "I don't think this is exactly a waltz," she concluded. "If only because the time signature is wrong." She chuckled and picked up her water bottle to drink some more. "But if you want to try what they're doing, we can. I'll show you the ropes now, and we can waltz around my flat later," she promised. @Kain the Insane

“Hmmm, I'd be down with that. Although perhaps we wait for a more… Subdued song. After all, you're no bitch… Sexy, sure, but no bitch~” He smiled and squeezed her hand gently. But he went out with her and he did his best to follow her lead. He was tall and had gangly limbs, but he did his best to follow along and stay close. Not so close like other guys and girls, bur enough that if anything happened, he'd be able to see it. Couldn't have someone come up and try to grind on her or cop a feel. Although he did wonder if at one point she'd wanna do what the other girls did rubbing their buts against guy partners… Or eachother. He did see a couple girls doing that, and unfortunately saw a couple guys staring as they did. He'd never really gotten guys’ obsession with lesbian stuff. It was a sexuality, they were free to choose it, but he didn't really find it hot or anything. That was one thing that set him apart from the groups of guys he'd tried to chat with occasionally. But right now his focus was on Milena and trying not to embarrass her. @Al the Killer

Nobody else would believe his claim about her, but it was nice to hear anyway. "Well, you don't need to relate to the lyrics to dance to it. If anything, you should ignore the words and melody, relax, and follow the rhythm. And it's not gonna get more subdued than this. This is... silly, lyrically speaking, but pretty mild." She finished off her water first, then led him out toward the crowd. It was hard not to be close to other people here, but as long as nobody got handsy, she could handle it. She kept him close, holding his hands in hers at first as she danced in time with the song's rhythm. For now, she faced him directly, to let him know he had all of her attention. Also to make sure he wasn't getting too uncomfortable. @Kain the Insane

He focused his gaze on her, keeping her his sole attention. He remained aware of his surroundings to make sure he didn't bump into anyone or anything, but Milena was his focus. He kept pace with her, focusing on the beat, the rhythm, and the music. Normally he was pretty awkward, but her holding his hands and seeing her smile filled him with confidence. Confidence that he couldn't mess up. That he could do anything as long as she was here by his side. So, he danced with her through the song, even occasionally adding in a bit of his own movement when he was really feeling the moment. For the first time ever, his large gape instead of proving to be a hindrance, meant he could pull off movements he couldn't usually do. He even got to show off his surprising strength occasionally by gently lifting her in the air, spinning a bit before setting her back down on her feet to continue their synchronized movements together. @Al the Killer

Milena laughed as he picked her up, a sound of pure glee as she was spun around. Maybe it wasn't necessarily 'cool', but she was genuinely enjoying herself. Once her feet touched the ground, she continued to dance, paying no mind to the women talking about them nearby. The show of strength had escaped neither their notice nor their appreciation, and... okay maybe she was paying some mind to the way they were looking at him now after all. She wrapped her arms around his neck and pulled him closer as they danced, as though to signal that this man was hers. He was, after all, and she did genuinely enjoy being close to him. "I guess I'm not the only one who sees how cute you are, after all," she whispered in his ear. She didn't mind pointing it out to him, because she trusted that he wouldn't stray. Not after everything he'd already said to and about her. They were equally fond of each other, after all. @Kain the Insane

“Of course, it's only after a guy gets a girl~... Oh well, they had a chance, I suppose. Now I'm spoken for… And why would I choose some random girl over the woman that I love?” Kain spoke and then he nearly froze. His face was locked in a look of horror, as he hadn't even taken the time.to ponder his words before he spoke. The one time he really felt confidence for once, he let out words that he had been attempting to hold in! However, his body kept moving, and he found words not coming to his mouth. Instead, he had to fight his voice to allow him to speak. “I-I… I… Uh…” He floundered and his face was red as he moved his mouth as if trying to form words, but he couldn't manage to. But after wrestling his mind, he finally nodded. “I'm… A Hopeless Romantic… Please, forgive me for saying it so soon. You don't have to say it back… But… I… I do love you. I want to keep you safe and see you happy as much as possible. To cherish your smile, to hold you if you feel down, to help lift you up, and… To let you know that you're an amazing woman…” He said quietly, closing his eyes and letting out a short breath as he looked down a bit in embarrassment. @Al the Killer

The words brought Milena's dancing to a grinding halt. It wasn't... unpleasant, just unexpected. She lifted her eyebrows and looked up at him, knowing he hadn't intended to say it out loud but not sure what to say. After he'd rambled for a bit, she blinked and pulled closer to him. "Kain, it's alright. I..." She was still sorting herself out, and he knew that, so she wasn't ready to say it back yet. But she certainly felt something for him, and the confession brought some joy to her heart. "I know you meant it." She smiled, knowing that, with what she had told him about not quite believing in love, acknowledging his sincerity about it was still a big step, and it meant as much as if she had said... ah, fuck it. "And I love you too." She cupped his cheek in her hand and kissed him, soft and gentle, because she knew in that moment that she meant it, too. He filled her heart with a warmth she had never known before, and she never felt safer than she did when she was alone with him. He deserved all the love in the world, and she was grateful that he was willing to settle for what she could give. @Kain the Insane

Kain's mouth went wide open in time for her attempted kiss. He kinda ended up with her lips inside his mouth for a moment before he managed to get ahold of himself. Shifting the position of his head and moving his mouth, he managed to salvage it into a proper kiss rather than her full, plump lips pressing against his tongue. He held her tightly, perhaps a bit tighter than he usually did, and he lifted her up and spun her around. Joy filled his heart and he had to hold back tears. It was the first time anyone had said it to him. His parents hadn't, his brother hadn't, he'd had no one ever say it to him. And yet here was Milena saying she did. Some girls and guys gawked, although he didn't care who saw him passionately kiss his girlfriend! He broke from her lips to let her catch her breath and he panted a bit too. “I… Wow, I… I'm sorry if I rushed you, but… You cannot understand how happy I am to hear you say that to me. It… I'm sorry, I'm trying not to cry.” He admitted and began to kiss the inside of her hands since she'd been cupping his cheeks. In front of everyone, he spoke softly. ”Your love surrounds me, Filling my heart with pure joy, Completing my soul. In your warm embrace, I find peace and comfort too, Love's sweet embrace blooms. Every moment shared, Is a treasure to hold dear, Feeling whole with you.”* @Al the Killer (edited)

Milena's lips parted with the kiss as she let him lift her into the air again. Her heart was fuller than she ever thought it could be, the moment reaching a perfection she never wanted to end. Maybe it was a bit too soon, but it didn't feel rushed. To her, it felt like the most natural thing in the world. He'd already said he had been attracted to her before they had started to really talk to each other, so he'd had plenty of time for his feelings to develop, so it made sense that the process would be quicker now that they were dating. And of course she loved him in return. How could she not? The music and the other partygoers felt like they faded away into the background as she listened to him. He spoke of a warmth they both shared, and she kept her arms around him as she listened. "I love you," she whispered again after, because she could. She smiled. "Do you want to stay here or go somewhere quieter?" she asked, because the setting hardly felt appropriate for confessions of first love. @Kain the Insane

“Let's go somewhere else… We'll go outside. That way no one suspects… That sort of thing…” Kain said, nodding before he carried her out onto a porch and shut the door behind them. Setting her down, he looked back at her and took a deep breath. She must've wanted to have this moment of privacy to tell him something important. So, he remained quiet as he approached her and blinked away tears forming in his eyes with a smile. He was trying to keep it contained, but she'd made him so happy that he could hardly hold himself together. So, he closed his eyes and cleared his throat gently to help wrestle control of himself back. The tears were fading, but the smile didn't fade. Perhaps for the first time he wanted to be silent so that she could speak. He did his best not to interrupt, but part of his instinct was usually to try and fill the void of sound. Now, he stood there and waited for her to speak, his breath silent, while at the same time, he was holding his breath whenever he could. @Al the Killer

Although Milena didn't really care what anyone suspected, she let him carry her outside. There was a cool evening breeze in the air as they stepped out onto the porch. Pleasant, but enough of a chill that it gave her an excuse to stay as close to him as possible. A cushioned bench rested against one wall, so once she was back on the ground, she took a seat and gestured for him to join her. She didn't really have any specific words in mind - she had simply wanted to spend time alone with him, or almost alone. Somewhere quieter, whether it meant leaving or simply sitting outside. "This is better." She waited for him to join her so she could rest her head against his shoulder. "You can breathe. I just thought this seemed like a more romantic setting." She smiled. "I really do love you. Everything you are, but especially your heart. I never imagined someone like you could exist." It was comforting, realizing that genuinely good people existed, and that she could be with one right now. "I only regret that I hadn't known you sooner." It would have been so much better, so much easier to enjoy their relationship, if it hadn't been accompanied by the trauma that had led to it. But she would take things as they were, and appreciate him as he was. @Kain the Insane

Leaning on her he smiled. “I love you too. More than anything. You're the only one whose ever said it to me… And I never doubted for one moment that you were anything like you portrayed yourself to be. I could always see deep down somewhere… You were in pain. And now… I am here for you. And I'll love you with all my heart until I can't anymore…” He said, taking her hand and squeezing it gently. His silver hair sparkled a bit in the moonlight, and his body was so warm, it was like he could beat back all the cold around them by just sitting there. Kissing all over her face, he closed his eyes and took a deep breath. “I know I can be a pain sometimes… But… I'll never stop loving you. No matter what. Because that heart you love so much…” He gently placed her hand on his chest so she could feel it. “It already belongs to you and you alone… Nothing withheld from you, ever… My Angel Eyes…” @Al the Killer

Milena smiled and closed her eyes as he adorned her face with kisses. "You're not a pain. Never," she assured him. Her eyes opened halfway to look at him as her hand rested over his heart. It wasn't his heartbeat she felt so much as the rise and fall of his breathing, but even that steady rhythm was still a comfort. How had she never made the connection before, that his hair was like moonlight, while his warmth was that of the sun? Perhaps because she had opted to leave the poetry to him. Something unnamable stirred deep within her. She couldn't say for sure what it was. Not love, but a welcome companion to the love that existed between them. "And I am yours alone," she promised. "I've never felt this way about anyone before. I want to stay by your side for as long as you will have me." She moved as close as she could and kissed his lips again, parting her own for him. @Kain the Insane

Kain had expected a kiss, sure, but not in the way she’d given it. This was… Was it? He returned her open mouthed kiss with his own. His tongue sliding into her mouth to intertwine with her’s or, well, if she didn’t stop him. The heatedness he was feeling was normal, but he also felt that lust bubble up. Honestly, even if she accepted this kiss, he would likely quash that lust. She wasn’t going to be ready for things beyond this yet for a while, right? If he was wrong, then he’d be practically powerless to stop her. She had put boba tea in her cleavage and it had gotten him hot and bothered, he imagined that her even showing a bra strap might have him kicking his leg and howling like a fucking loony toons character before he could even stop himself from doing so. Although a part of him was very happy. That darker part of him was the one that scared him. Simultaneously the self doubt he felt towards himself but also the one who made him think about his twisted motivations. The part that asked him if he’d helped her because it was the right thing to do, or if he helped her because he wanted to see what she had hidden under her shirt. That was the part of him he was constantly battling for his own good and her’s. @Al the Killer

Milena's arms wrapped around his shoulders as she continued to kiss him, not wanting to stop. Of course she had to come up for air at one point, but she got right back to it afterward. Honestly, she wasn't sure where she was going with this. For now, just passionate kissing felt like it would be enough for her, but there was something twisting deep within, a longing to be even closer, for their bodies to become one. Not right now, not yet and certainly not here, but in the future... It was becoming clear to her that in the future, she would love to become more intimate with him. The door opened and she jumped, springing apart from him. But the pair of men who stumbled drunkenly out of the house with their arms around each other's shoulders as they sang off-key together paid no attention to the couple on the bench, instead walking down the porch steps and all but collapsing onto the grass where they lay on their backs and stared up at the stars together. She chuckled softly to herself, because it really was a cute display of affection, whether platonic or not, and whether drunken or not. "Should we give them some space, too?" she asked, lookng over at Kain because she didn't really feel like having an audience for their little makeout session. @Kain the Insane

“Yeah, that's a good idea. Maybe… Your car? Although we may not be leaving yet…” He blushed and tried to play it cool like she and he weren't just having a super passionate and sexy kiss. He actually had to close his eyes and envision something disgusting. Help keep the blood from leaving his legs and entering his third leg. Couldn't have him ruining these pants or at the very least having to attempt to hobble out of here with a hard-on. He slowly stood up and noticed hid lips were a bit wet. Honestly, he laughed a bit and carefully wiped his lips to make sure they weren't quite as noticeably wet. Although he wondered if Milena was going to keep herself looking a little more messy. And a part of him wondered if they'd done it when she was wearing more makeup, would his face be covered in red or pink kisses. That thought made him excited to see how such things would work later on. Whatever the case, he was okay leaving so they could continue their make-up session as well as perhaps slow dance a bit like she'd offered to him earlier, which he'd happily do. @Al the Killer

Milena smiled, because that sounded like a great idea. "Car it is then," she said, though honestly, they'd probably end up leaving once they stopped kissing. There wasn't much point in coming to a party when he was the only part he was really enjoying. For now, she noticed the extra bit of shininess on his lips. Partly saliva, but probably some lip gloss as well. She took a tissue from her purse and wiped away the ruined remnants of the gloss that remained on her lips, before dabbing his mouth clean with a second one. "There." She stood up, ran her fingers through her hair to make sure it was nice and neat, then led him back through the house, grabbing hold of his hand to avoid being separated. She ignored the people and the stares the two of them were getting as they walked back out onto the front porch and down to the driveway. "Front or back seat?" she asked, looking back at him. Her heart was racing a bit with excitement as she severely overthought the choice. The front seat would be convenient - they could drive away as soon as they were done - but they could be closer in the back seat. Would he get the wrong idea if she chose that, though? She was a bit too nervous to go all the way tonight, after all. @Kain the Insane

“Let's do it in back seat… We can be closer that way.” He squeezed her hand before opening the back door, offering for her to enter. Right now he had blood pumping through his body quickly. However his practice of control was leaving him able to handle it for the most part. Once she was in the backseat, he quietly entered behind her, reaching to the front seat to lock the doors before turning to her. He wrapped his arms around her waist and pulled her close, not going for the kiss just yet. “You've made me the happiest guy on earth. I love you, my Angel Eyes…” Before he began to plant several gently kisses on her face. Nothing too wet or anything, but he gave her quick pecks all over her face. Partially to tease her, and partially to help her focus on just the two of them for a moment. To help do what she did, bring her down to the moment rather than worrying more about the grand scheme. Obviously he wouldn't pressure her into going further than a make out, he'd already made that clear. @Al the Killer

Milena's face flushed pink at his wording. Dear god, did he have to say it like that? Still, she unlocked the door and sat in the back, waiting for him to join her. "I love you too, sweetheart," she whispered, wrapping her arms around him. She smiled at the warmth of his lips on her face, once more savouring his affections. Then she caught his lips with hers, tightening her embrace as she kissed him again. @Kain the Insane

Kain returned the kiss and shifted a bit to make sure that she was comfortable. Free to pause to take a nice deep breath before continuing if she wanted too. His hands gently rubbed her back as they shared this symbol of their love. And as much as a part of him wanted to refer to this as Snogging, that wasn't very accurate. To him, at least, he wasn't thinking of this sexually. To him, this was simply the both of them sharing intimacy that they hadn't been ready for before. But now they were. Her arms around his neck felt so warm, his face and neck began to turn red from blushing as well as her heat. The cold of the night locked outside and easily being beaten back by the warmth of her body and his being so close in the car. @Al the Killer

Milena brought one hand to rest against the back of his head, her fingers tangling in his soft hair. His hands on her back felt like perfection; she couldn't have imagined a more soothing sensation. Her pauses for breath never lasted long before she returned to the embrace of lips and tongues. It would have been so easy to stay like this forever, to kiss endlessly and never need anything else. She nearly moved into his lap, before thinking better of it. She didn't want to risk getting him too worked up; it would make things awkward and might be unfair to him. After a while she pulled away, breathing a bit heavier than before. As it turned out, it wasn't possible to do this forever. "You're so wonderful," she whispered, leaning her head against his shoulder. They could drive back to her home in a bit. First, she wanted a moment to cuddle. That, and to pull some chapstick out of her bag, because a heavy makeout session could really take its toll on the lips. "Do you need some? I hope you don't mind sharing - I know it's basically an indirect kiss, and you prefer to do things directly," she joked. @Kain the Insane

“Don’t tempt me~ Otherwise we might have to put a ton of chapstick on you and then have me kiss ya~” Kain teased her, and he gently took it before applying some. Gently, he squeezed her to himself again and leaned on her a bit, as she was doing to him. His heartbeat was rapid once again, and it was only growing faster. He couldn’t quite feel her’s through her chest, but he had a feeling her’s was probably faster than usual too. She always had been so calm and teased him about things, but the look she gave him was certainly letting him know the teasing was mostly bluster. Shifting her, he gently sat her on his lap as they cuddled. It wasn't hard, but she could probably feel the bulge a bit. But honestly, he just wanted to hold her as close as possible right now. Plus, now that they were just huggling, he wasn’t feeling quite as pressed sexually as he had been before all of this. Instead he felt an odd amount of peace for once. Perhaps because her words had made him feel something he’d never felt before. Or maybe he was simply high on endorphins, and he was coming down, but still feeling the euphoria, just not the rush of energy. “Do you think that if you kissed me with Lipstick, it would leave those lipstick shapes they always show in TV Shows or Movies…?” He asked with a bit of a smile, just wanting to hear her speak again as they held each other. @Al the Killer

She let him move her into his lap, glad for the closeness. As long as he was comfortable and calm enough for it, she didn't really mind. She still tried not to move too much, since she could feel his bulge beneath her and didn't want to kill the gentle, sweet moment. As he spoke again, she looked up at his face. Truthfully, she already knew the answer: it would only happen if either she used some sort of cheap drugstore lipstick (which was unlikely for her), or she simply did not bother to blot it. But she wasn't about to miss the opportunity to flirt anyway. "Hm... I guess there's only one way to find out. We can always experiment with it later." She winked, slipping the chapstick back into her purse once they'd both taken some. As they enjoyed the peace of the moment, she reached up to twirl some of Kain's hair around her finger. She liked that he kept it a bit long, even if it wasn't considered fashionable; there was enough for her to play with, and it was nice and soft. "How about we head back to my apartment? We can make a proper dinner together, then try slow-dancing." She probably had a song or two on her phone that would work well enough for it. @Kain the Insane

“I'm sure we could do more than just make dinner and slow dance~” Kain said, his fingers rubbing her spine, his voice low and while a bit fake, still sexy. “I'm a cuddle monster, and I'm gonna hold the prettiest girl in the world all night~ Give her lots of cuddles~” His voice, once sexy, became a super goofy deep voice, and he laughed. Honestly, he hoped he hadn't scared her with his words, he was just trying to tease her a bit and have some fun. Obviously he would apologize if he'd scared her into thinking he was that kind of guy. His fingers weren't tickling her spine anymore, he just rubbed her back and kissed her cheek gently as He leaned his head on her's. “No, I think we both know that you're the one with all the control here. If you told me I had to wear a dog collar and bark to keep being your boyfriend… Well, it might be a bit weird, but I'd do it because I love you SO MUCH. Seriously, across the whole universe and back, Angel Eyes…” @Al the Killer

For a moment, Milena's voice caught in her throat, flustered by his words. Then he kept talking, and all of the tension released as she laughed along with him. However, she soon sobered at the last part of what he said. Her face turned dead serious as she looked him straight in the eye and told him, in the same tone one might use to deliver horrifying news. "You do, actually. You're going to have to wear a dog collar and bark like a good boy. I will be getting you a leash for our next party." Her serious expression quickly cracked as she laughed again, snuggling up against him. "No, no, I wouldn't demand something like that. I'd never make you do anything you weren't comfortable with." And she knew it was mutual. "Cuddling all night sounds like a great plan though, Cuddle Monster." She kissed his face a couple of times before leaving his lap. "Let's move up, I can't drive from back here." She pushed the door open, grinning like a fool. @Kain the Insane

"You know what, I could try it at some point if you wanted... As long as you don't ask me to hunt your leg~" Kain spoke and then a look twisted on his face. He sighed and rubbed the back of his head with a bit of a gulp. "Oof... That... I thought it would be funny, and... No, it was just super creepy..." He said, helping her out of the car before he moved up to the front seat, still cringing at what he said a little bit. Damn, a swing and a miss! And his jokes usually felt like they were kinda good. Maybe settling down was making his humor more cringe. Oh no... Soon... He'd be making dad jokes! The horror of it... Coulr their relationship survive that stage...? Honestly, all he could do was hope, because... He might not even have any control over it. Rubbing his hands together, he would have to just deal with it. This was the death of his comedy, something he would dearly miss. But it was a worthy trade for the love he had for Milena. She was his Angel Eyes, and he wasn't going to mourn forever. @Al the Killer

Milena grimaced. "Oh no, that's cringe," she said bluntly, then shook her head. "Let's forget you said that. They can't all be winners, sweetheart." She closed the door once they were both out of the car and moved to the driver's seat. She still loved him, even when he made bad jokes, so she could accept that. Once he'd taken his seat again, she pulled carefully away from the house and started on her way back home. Was it too much to have him stay the night at her place two nights in a row so soon...? Then again, after seeing his usual living conditions, a part of her was tempted to just have him stay with her permanently to get him out of that situation. That was probably way too soon though. "So, what do you want for dinner? As long as I've got the ingredients, we can make it. I'm not too picky." @Kain the Insane

”DON'T SAY YOUR ASS, YOU ALREADY WERE CRINGE TONIGHT YOU MORON!” The logical side of his brain was currently slamming his more horny, dark side's head down a toilet. Making sure that Kain didn't say something fucking stupid again. So, instead he cleared his throat. “Uh… Hmmm… Chicken Alfredo has always been one of the rare things I really enjoyed eating at one point. Maybe that? My mind jumped to pizza first weirdly enough, but I know that Pizza Dough has to be prepped two or three days before using it. Plus it would probably be a lot of work…” He'd thought about saying his favorite food. It was the one thing he remembered clearly. When he'd gone on a school trip once, because he managed to convince his brother to get his parents to sign the sheet. He'd gotten to try Crab Rangoon at a Chinese Buffet. That flavor, that texture… To this day, he has craved one of them again. However, he couldn't afford to make them, and he needed things that would last. If he got a package of crab Rangoon and they tasted like the ones at the restaurant, he might just eat a whole week or two’s worth of them in one sitting. And rationing his food to make it stretch was already enough work as it is. @Al the Killer

Milena considered. There was such a thing as premade pizza dough, but the stores that sold it would be closed at this hour. "I'll keep pizza in mind for another night," she promised. "I think I have things for chicken alfredo at home though." She didn't eat much pasta, but she kept plenty of the ingredients around, since they were shelf stable. "Could you search up a recipe for the sauce on my phone? I don't remember how to make it." She drove down into her building's parking garage and pulled into her spot. Once she stepped out, she held her hand out for Kain to take. "So you're spending the night again? How soon is too soon to move in with me?" she joked, before realizing that it might not come across that way. "Um... I mean... That wasn't... I don't want to make you uncomfortable, I know you probably have to keep paying through the rest of your lease anyway. That isn't to say that... What I mean is that I was joking," she fumbled over her words, worried that she might have scared him off. @Kain the Insane

“You word fumbling? I'm a bit happy it isn't me for once… I mean, if you want space, then I would understand. But… My place is shit. I'm poor as shit. It's why I live in a crapbox… If you WANT me to live with you, I will. Just will… Hate myself for bringing all those new clothes to my house just to bring them back…” Kain laughed as he helped her to get the things to make the sauce. He'd looked up a recipe, and it had seemed simple enough, so they went with that. While he wasn't much of a chef or baker, he could do some work. He wouldn't tell her it was because he did a lot for his family to try and earn their love and NOT earn a beating, as he didn't want to ruin their moment. But he honestly couldn't help but smile when Milena had to kinda back track her words and worried about scaring him. Whatever she wanted, he was okay with it. If this made their relationship harder, then he would do his best to try and fix it. And if necessary, he could perhaps move back out if they ended up needing space or something. Whatever that would or could mean. @Al the Killer

Milena looked away, blushing deeply. But she couldn't get caught up in her embarrassment for too long. They had dinner to make. She did the bulk of the work with finding what they would need, since she was more experienced with this kitchen. Did she want him to move in...? It would save time and petrol, and he deserved to live somewhere nice. And they did technically have a second room if either of them needed space. Sure it was an office, but they could probably put a futon in there or something. "I... Do you want to?" she asked. "I mean, my dad's paying for this flat so I'd have to tell my parents and I'm not sure how I'll explain..." She trailed off as a realization hit her. "Shit. The last contact I had with my mom, I texted her 'we need to talk' after I got home from the hospital, then chickened out and never replied to any of her response texts." She buried her face in her hands, cursing her own stupidity. "I ghosted my own mom." @Kain the Insane

“I would love to live with you, but if you aren't ready to speak to your parents, then we can suspend me from moving in until you're more ready…” Kain said, looking at her with a reaffirming smile. He would support her decision, and he wanted to help her as best he could. However, he also knew that pressuring her into it wouldn't help. She didn't need him on her back, making her more stressed out. No, he was there to make her feel good and support her… Until it became necessary for him to perhaps be a bit more of a hard ass. Although that usually wasn't him, so he wasn't sure how well he'd be able to do it. “I… Shouldn't ever want to speak to my parents again. But I've had the opposite problem. They've ignored me since I left. You need to take this at your own pace. I love you, and I'm your partner. I won't always support you like a crutch, but this is YOUR life we're dealing with, not a joint decision. So, I'll be here, ready to cuddle or hug you, and always ready to support you, no matter what that means. So, don't blame yourself for ghosting... It was a terrifying experience, and we'll get you and I some help.” @Al the Killer

Milena needed to think about it for a moment. Whatever he said, this was a decision that affected his life just as much as hers, if not more, so it should be one that he had a say in. But she supposed he'd already spoken his peace - he was ready, but wouldn't rush her. "I should talk to my mom, at least. Tomorrow. Catch her up on things, see if she knows how to break the news to my dad." She focused on the stove, making sure everything was going well there. "Maybe... maybe we finish off the year first and you can move in during the summer? I am worried that if you move in now, we'll be too distracted by each other to focus on our studies." The summer would give them a couple of months to get used to having each other around, so they wouldn't have to worry as much once third year started up. "And if you do want to reach out to your family sometime, or pay them a visit... I don't love the idea, and I don't think they deserve it, but it's your life, so I will support you. All the way." She kissed his cheek, before stirring the sauce a bit more. @Kain the Insane

“Yeah, we'd DEFINITELY be smooching the whole time… It's not like I'm a nerd who can't help but study…” Kain poked her forehead, but he was just teasing her. Obviously he was fine with her decision. He closed his eyes and smelled the air before he began cooking the pasta, mixing some garlic salt into the water to help flavor the noodles a bit ahead of time. “No, but we could try the summer… I… It gives us two months to work out what we need to. You talking with your dad and mom, me… Dealing with a shitty landlord. Plus, hey, who knows. Maybe spending all that time together would make it irresistible. After all, you can't have a man who is THIS hot without wanting to jump his bones~” He gently moved his hips and hit her butt with his. Obviously he wasn't trying to push her, and it made sense. He was skinny. She had an ass you could bounce quarters off of. She could probably hit him into a wall if she wanted to by just hitting eith with a sway of her hip. And he knew she could do that… She practically naturally sashayed. @Al the Killer

Milena laughed at his teasing, offering the gentlest of hip bumps in return. "You..." She shook her head. "You're funny, but looks aren't everything." She paused to give his cheek another kiss, so he'd know it wasn't mean-spirited. "I'm joking, you are irresistibly handsome." She moved to the pot of pasta and carefully spooned up a fettuccine noodle. It took a second to run it under cold water before holding it up to Kain. "Anyway, do you want to see if this is cooked enough?" she offered. @Kain the Insane (edited)

Nodding, Kain's stomach growled and he licked his lips. “Oh, that certainly looks like it'll be enough for both of us.” Kain said with a smile, wrapping an arm around her and getting a nice fork full before bringing it to her lips to try some. She should get the first bite since she did most of the work. Plus, she'd fled him earlier, so she should get the same treatment. “I love you so much. You're much more than your appearance as well… Although you are absolutely gorgeous. I love your heart more than anything else.” Kain licked his lips, smelling the food and feeling excited to try some homemade chicken Alfredo rather than the stuff they had just shipped to them to heat up. Plus he got to show her he was decent at cooking, which he knew was a sexy quality in a man. Or at least, he'd heard it was. @Al the Killer

"With leftovers," Milena confirmed, before taking a bike for herself. The noodles were definitely tender enough, so she poured the rest of them over the strainer, then mixed them into the sauce with the chicken. It smelled divine, and her stomach growled just a bit. She was undeniably excited to try the finished dish and get a taste of his cooking. Well, their cooking since she had helped. "Of course, my heart. Not your fault my boobs are in the way," she joked. "Could you finish stirring everything together while I set the table?" She smiled affectionately at him, glad to have him in her life. She'd never thought anybody would be this good to her, never mind a romantic partner. @Kain the Insane

“It’s not MY fault my favorite part of you is hidden behind my second favorite~” He teased back with a wicked smile. He mixed the pasta up, making sure to season with some final touches as he coated the noodles and let them absorb the flavor of the sauce. As she set the table, he came over and carefully spun the noodles to try to present them in that fancy swirling pile that the professional restaurants would do for their pasta. It wasn’t HALF bad, but it wasn’t going to be a golden standard for how a place that wants to impress you would do it. Kain made sure to give her the first dollop before he then gave himself one. He then carefully got a pad in the center of the table to put the pot down. That way either of them could get more if they wanted or needed to. Licking his lips, Kain nodded and gave her a smile. “Thank you for this meal, your Supremeness…” He said with a snort, unable to take it too seriously for all too long. @Al the Killer

Milena laughed at him again. She seemed to still do that a lot, but no longer at his expense. He really did have a fun sense of humour. "I couldn't have done it without you, my beloved sweetheart," she replied. She pulled her bowl toward herself and started to eat, closing her eyes like that would help her enjoy the taste more. "Mm~ this is wonderful," she said, before digging in more. She didn't rush through the meal. Partially because it would be rude, partially because she wanted to enjoy it properly. She imagined more nights like this, cooking or ordering takeout together every night. Sometimes by candlelight, if they were feeling fancy. A calm, quiet life together... It sounded like perfection incarnate. @Kain the Insane

Kain ate hungrily, but he managed to take some time to make sure he didn’t just messily eat everything. Table manners would be important to a lady like Milena, plus he should practice them here for eating out in public. Habits could be made, and manners would be one he’d work on. “It is delicious. I… Hope we can do this a lot more. Just you and me, cooking together, eating together, cuddling. Maybe playing board games or… I don’t know, have pillow fights. Whatever I do with you is perfect, no matter what, because I love spending my time with you…” Kain smiled and he gently moved his foot to touch her foot. The smile becoming more playful and humorous by the moment, rather than just a show of how happy she was making him right now. @Al the Killer

"I would like that," Milena agreed. "Never too old to have a pillow fight, then build a fort out of those same pillows, I think." She smiled back and pushed his foot back playfully with her own. "And I mean, we can study together sometime. I know we're not in the same programmes - not even vaguely similar, really - but we could just... I don't know, enjoy being in the same room together while we're working? Is that weird?" Regardless of whether he found the idea weird or not, she took the next few moments to finish her share of the meal. She left plenty, partially because she'd eaten her fill for the night, and partially because he deserved to eat well. She knew he didn't normally get to. @Kain the Insane

"We can study together, I don't see why not? I mean, at this point, I've practically memorized all of my classes text books and have just been studying for classes I might take in the future. If necessary or just to fill out a spot on my list. So... I'd love to come and just hold your hand while we study or quietly sit by you..." Kain said, taking her hand and kissing it. He couldn't help himself, he loved her from head to toe. That dark part of him was even willing to kiss every square inch of her body to shoe her how much he loved her. Of course though. That part of him was silenced by the headlock his logic was placing on it. It would be forced to quiet down. He ate the rest of his and he got permission to get more before he ate more. He tried to make sure she had some left for leftovers, as even now he was very much in a mindset of not wanting ro inconvience her. Especially since she put so much effort into making this for him. He already had a plan to make something for her too, especially since he'd learned a secret fun fact that he bet Milena didn't know that he knew about her. @Al the Killer

Milena smiled in response. It sounded like it would be nice. "Then we'll do that sometime," she agreed. Once he was finished eating, she walked over to the kitchen and brought down a tempered glass storage container from one of the cabinets. "Could you put the leftovers in here?" she asked, walking over to hand the container to Kain. "I'll take care of dishes." Which would be a quick, easy enough task; literally all she had to do was put them in the dishwasher, then let it run later on. She wouldn't run it now, though; the noise would get in the way of the next plan. "Once we're done, I'll put on some music and we can dance like I promised." But first, she kissed his cheek and wrapped him into a brief but tight hug. @Kain the Insane

Returning the hug, he nodded and gave her a peck on the lips and a Eskimo kiss. He then gathered the leftovers and put them into the container that she'd given to him while she loaded the dishwasher. He made sure to get every bit of the Alfredo that he could, making to not waste any bit of it, even the sauce. Coming to her fridge, he opened it up and found a spot where he could put it before shutting the fridge and returning to the living room. Stretching and carefully moving to make sure that they had enough space for a slow dance. He was happy he could move the fingers of his broken hand carefully too, because that meant he could put that hand on her waist while the other held her hand as they danced. He was ready to give her the full experience, using the dips and lifts and all. @Al the Killer

Milena worked on arranging the dishes in the dishwasher, before taking out her phone to find a good selection. Her usual music taste was not prone to this sort of thing, but there were some more melodic selections in her favourites as well. She opted for a love song with vaguely Medieval vibes, since she'd always found it cute, and the tempo was suitable for a waltz. Besides, it seemed like one he might enjoy. The phone connected to the Bluetooth speaker she kept by the television set first, before she tapped play. As the instrumental intro began, she walked out to join Kain in the living room, setting the phone on the coffee table. "Are you sure it will be alright with your injured hand?" she asked, taking the other in hers gently. @Kain the Insane

“Just no dips, probably. That hand just rests on your back, after all.” Kain smiled and he gently began to dance with Milena. Slowly moving his body with her's in a slow waltz. At first he kept it basic, just taking steps with her. Then he began to practice some small spins, letting her move around before gently returning to the original position. He began to shift the steps with her, instead of juet.koving in a square, he began to move her around the room, careful of the things in the room to.make sure he didn't damage anything. He even incorporated him lifting her up occasionally. Nothing too fast paced, he wanted to keep it slow and romantic with her, letting her enjoy the movements and feel just how much he loved her. Keeping his waist and her's close, before he spun her gently again and softly smiled. @Al the Killer

Her movements lagged behind his at first, but she quickly got the hang of it, picking up on the patterns and following his lead with increasing ease. She laughed as he spun her the first time, losing her rhythm at first. She fell back into it though, learning as they went along. At least she wasn't accidentally stepping on his toes; she was careful not to do that. She found she couldn't stop smiling, either. There was something so... perfect about all of this. As the song drew to a close, she rested her head against his shoulder again, slowing to a stop. "That was a lot more fun than the party," she admitted. In her opinion anyway. She could see the appeal for other people, but was definitely sure it wasn't her cup of tea while sober. She closed her eyes and kissed his lips softly again, glad to be in his arms. @Kain the Insane

Returning her kiss, Kain squeezed her tightly and closed his eyes. Taking a long moment to enjoy himself, he moved back and rubbed her back before nodding. "Oh yeah... I love you so much. And this is so much more fun than a party..." Kain nodded and rubbed the back of her head. He'd probably have to go home soon, right? Or stay the night again. Whatever the case, he had a special treat he wanted to cook up for her. Especially since they'd started dating, she'd said she loved him, and her just being an absolute sweetheart. He wanted to hold her tight and give her all the kisses and hugs possible. Shower her in love and affection, because she meant the world to him. @Al the Killer

"Do you want to stay the night again?" Milena asked softly. "It's gotten late again, and I seem to remember you promising cuddles. I like to think you're a man of your word, after all." The music had moved on on to a random selection though, and Too Drunk to Fuck simply did not suit the mood for the moment. She looked away from Kain toward the speaker. "Alexa, stop the music," she said, trying not to laugh at the temporary absurdity. The room went quiet, and she stayed with Kain, arms wrapped gently around him. "I love you, and will gladly have you here for another night and morning." @Kain the Insane

“Yeah, probably… Not to mention I can't resist the urge to snuggle up to my angel~ Shower her in kisses and hold her nice and close~...” Kain smiled and he kissed her forehead, rubbing the back of her head. No perversion, he just genuinely enjoyed her company. Even waking up last night and this morning hadn't been sexually stimulating or anything. Maybe it was only because of Milena's distress that he didn't? Or maybe he wasn't quite as one-minded in the morning. He began to kiss her all over her face before he kissed her chin and closed his eyes. “Do you want to go to bed right now, or… Did you want to stay awake and cuddle for a while before we do?” Kain asked, gently patting her back as he swayed from side to side with her. No longer dancing, but just messing around while she held him so close. Milena made him want to be a better man. Every day she drove him forward to continue to improve. To become better and better. For her. He wanted to be someone that she could be extra proud of. That she could see and feel utterly happy that she'd chosen him. No hints of doubt or anything like that. @Al the Killer

Milena chuckled, closing her eyes as she accepted the forehead kiss. It was such a warm, tender moment, that she didn't care where they went as long as they could stay like this. She considered for a moment. "We can go to bed," she said, because that didn't necessarily mean they weren't also going to keep cuddling. Memories returned to her mind, of how they had kissed earlier. Different from other times, and she couldn't help but feel that it had awoken something inside. Something she hadn't felt ready for at the party, when she had felt less safe. Now... She wasn't sure. She could think about it later. Right now, she needed only the comfort his presence provided her. She lifted her head for a peck on his lips, before pulling away and taking his hand. "Come on, sweetheart." She led him to the bedroom, excited to get under the covers and rest in his embrace. @Kain the Insane

Kain spotted an odd look on her face. She was… Conflicted maybe? He wouldn't ask right now, but he could see that she'd had a thought or two and she was mulling them over. Now, all that mattered was cuddles. He didn't pick her up this time, he he held her hand the whole way. Once they got there, he gently took off his shirt. Letting her see his bare chest. It was, indeed, covered in scars. Some looking very old, in the shape of belt buckles or something thinner. There were newer ones too, that had a more angry red color than faded pink. The shape of high heels or other such objects. He was just as skinny under his clothes as he always looked, although it was a bit more obvious to see his very lean muscle now. Not a 6 pack of anything, but enough to show that his surprising strength wasn't some fluke. And with her body, she wasn't exactly light when it came to that sort of thing. “If you need to change, then I can wait… And if you want me to… Put my shirt back on… I'll understand. They're not very pleasant to look at…” @Al the Killer

Milena let go of his hand and looked over at him. She hadn't expected him to remove his shirt right away, but it wasn't an unpleasant surprise, in some ways. She could see where that strength came from better now that the details were visible, but other details were... His body wasn't ugly, by any means. But a sadness did stir inside of her as she saw the markings of what he had been through. Some of it possibly her fault. She wanted to kiss every scar he'd been left, to hold him and tell him how beautiful he was and how she would keep him safe from now on. Instead, she blushed faintly and looked away. "You can keep it off, but could you turn around so I can get changed?" She contemplated for a moment whether she should stick to the more modest bedclothes from before or wear something more usual for her. Once she'd decided, she took the nightgown from her dresser. It fell to her knees and was barely held up by a pair of thin shoulder straps, but it was also silky and incredibly comfortable. @Kain the Insane

“Oh, I'm sorry, I wasn't trying to stare. I had thought you might want to go to the bathroom to change, that's my bad…” Kain turned around, turning red as he looked down. Honestly he hoped he hadn't come across as that perverted. He'd never had done that for her. Once she gave him the okay, he turned around and he didn't stare, but he blinked and flushed a bit. It was… Wow. He was glad they did big spoon little spoon, because with the size of her boobs, it sure made keeping his eyes where they belonged harder. He climbed into bed and opened his arms while he closed his eyes. A big yawn slipped from his lips and he cleared his throat a bit. “Whenever you're ready, I am… I'm so happy… I get to spend my night Cuddling with the woman I love. You definitely are the most amazing, lovely girlfriend I ever could've asked for. So much so, I would sit her all night showering you with compliments if I could…” @Al the Killer

"I didn't think you were," she assured him. She just thought it was better to ask him to turn away than to kick either one of them out of the room. She changed quickly, tossing her clothing from the party aside into the hamper before pulling on the nightgown. The neckline admittedly left little to the imagination, especially since she valued comfort too much to wear a bra to sleep. "You can look now." Honestly, she didn't mind even if he did stare. She knew he wouldn't hurt her, and as long as she was safe, she liked being wanted. She watched him for a moment, smiling at how absurdly adorable he was when he yawned. She'd had a cat growing up, and it took all of her self-control not to comment 'awww, big yawn' when he did that. "You're sweet," she said softly as she crawled beneath the blankets with him. She settled into his arms, facing the same direction he was, and let him make her feel safe. "But I don't think you'd get much sleep showering me with compliments alright." She turned her head to plant a kiss on his hand, since it was the easiest thing to reach right now. "Goodnight, my beloved." She closed her eyes. @Kain the Insane

"Good Night Angel..." Kain whispered before he fell asleep. It was a peaceful sleep for him, and he finally got some nice relaxing sleep. It would be Saturday the next day, and he always made sure to leave Saturday and Sunday open. Not that there were really options for those days. Kain did his best not to squeeze Milena too hard. His dreams had him spending time with Milena, some spicy moments, lots of love and kisses, and much more. All seemed to revolve around Milena and the two of them. After all, she was his dream girl~ if Kain had been awake, he certainly would've immediately cringed at that thought. Instead, he just held her and made sure that she knew he was protecting her. Loving her. Like he always would be. No matter what it took, he wanted to protect her smile and shower her in all the love he could muster. @Al the Killer

It was her first good night since the assault. Perhaps because she felt so completely safe while dealing asleep, or perhaps because she was beginning to come to terms with it and develop a plan to find help. Regardless of the reason, she was grateful for the hours of nothing, only sometimes interrupted by dreams of a life with Kain. Of being in love, of building a life together, perhaps not in the same wealth she had been raised in but of comfort and mutual support. She had her programming work, he had tenure as an English professor, and they both had each other. It was a future so out of sync with what she'd been raised to strive for, but one that her sleeping mind realized would be worth it. She woke up in the morning to the warm light filtering through the curtains and her boyfriend's warmth behind her. She leaned back into it without opening her eyes, wanting to enjoy a few more moments in his arms. @Kain the Insane (edited)

“Mmmmph… Your nipples are pressing into me…” Kain mumbled softly, not fully awake to think that he shouldn't say that outlook. He snuggles against her and rubs her back gently with a yawn. He'd noticed that she had her nipples pressing against him last night, but he had the presence of mind not to bring it up. Now he was asleep and apparently his sleepy brain didn't mind mentioning her nipples. Feeling her shift definitely was waking him up more, and as he opened his eyes and blinked, he realized what he said and his whole face and even his ears turned a dark red color. Panic set in, but his body and vocal chords were totally frozen, entirely unable to think about what he should say or do in the moment other than pretend to be a human character in Jurassic Park. @Al the Killer

Milena had turned to face him again, feeling the warmth of his breath on her forehead. Then he said that and she opened her eyes wide, beyond surprised that he had actually said such a thing out loud. "Kain!" she scolded, albeit playfully. Then she saw how red his face had turned at his own realization, and she couldn't help but laugh out loud at the absurdity of this all. It took a moment to stop enough to catch her breath and speak properly. "Good morning to you too, sweetheart." She hadn't moved away from him though, since she didn't really mind what he'd said, or knowing that her chest was against his now. She moved her arms, though, to cup his face in her hands and trail kisses across his forehead, cheeks, lips, the tip of his nose, whatever she could reach to help calm him down. "Did you sleep well, or were my nipples too distracting?" she teased. @Kain the Insane

Kain was frozen solid as he was processing his life decisions at the moment. Eventually when she gave him some kisses, her words broke through and he managed to say, “I-I slept well… Lots of dreams… All of them were very sweet…” He mumbled softly and felt utterly mortified. Of course his unconscious brain would say something so stupid. After all, it still nearly won out. ”Your nipples were in a couple of them though~” Instead, he blinked and he looked down at her, utterly mortified by what he'd said. Sighing softly, he shook his head and he nodded. “A couple of… Naughty dreams. After all, I could feel them against me a lot of the night. Plus, I love you… So imagining a future with a big loving family… You can't blame me for that…” He said with a bit of a tired smile. @Al the Killer

He really was sweet, even when she could tell his mind was still at least a little bit in the gutter. To her own surprise, she didn't mind that. If anything, it made her feel more safe. He was attracted to her, he was just waking up from intimate dreams about her, and he was not acting on them in a way he thought might make her uncomfortable. Something stirred within her once again, pesky in its insistence. "I love you too," she said. "And after we're done with school, and we're settled into careers, I wouldn't mind starting a family with you." She had abhorred the idea of family when she was younger, but perhaps things did change after all. "Though... neither of us is really sure what parenthood will be like, so maybe we can start small." She ran her fingers through his hair, and she had to admit that curiosity was getting the better of her. "I wouldn't mind hearing about those other dreams, either," she admitted, blushing faintly. She couldn't ignore how close their bodies were, or the feeling of his bare chest against her. @Kain the Insane

“W-well, I mean… I dreamt of us getting our jobs, and getting married. The wedding night we try a lot of things… Me on top, you on top… I've… Watched porn and stuff before, so it was us trying some things. Another one was just… You decided to take my Virginity on my birthday. And the last one…” Kain looked to the side and his face flushed pink again as he sighed. “You, uh… You and I just started kissing. And then you complimented me, and I… Got excited. We kissed some more, and it evolved into you complimenting me a lot and us just… Trying it… I suppose…” Kain had a praise kink, and he'd always had some idea. He hadn't listened or watched anything since he'd started dating her, but in the past, he'd listened to clips.of girls praising the cameraman and just enjoyed it. He'd never gotten any praise from his family. Or from anyone really. His teachers gave some, but he could control his reactions in public. In private, with the only person close to him? Yeah he'd get really excited when she complimented him a lot. @Al the Killer

She listened, and it started out pretty standard. She wasn't about to rush into marriage though, since they were both still at uni. Even though her family would pay for it, she knew that money came with conditions. And she just wasn't ready for that stage yet anyway. What mattered more was what he said after, since it gave her some ideas of what sorts of things he liked. Actually, the last idea sounded great, the more she thought about it. Then she thought about it more, trying to imagine any of those scenarios, and found herself grateful that she didn't have the sort of anatomy that would make her excitement obvious. At least, not unless he were to end up between her legs to feel it, but obviously he wouldn't do that. Not without asking. "When is your birthday?" she asked thoughtfully, twirling some of his hair around her finger. "Your hair's so soft..." The compliment slipped out without her meaning to and, considering what he'd just confessed, with bad timing. She blushed. "I- sorry, I'm not trying to tease you. I think it's cute, actually." @Kain the Insane

Kain shifted uncomfortably as she complimented him, mostly because he didn't want to start getting too excited. Especially with her nipples still up against him. “December 4th… There was a whole… ‘Let's share body heat~’ thing going on too… Plus it's a while away…” He looked down. It was 9 months away, so it would give her lots of time if she really needed it to prepare for what was going on. Although she could give him a late birthday present if she wanted an excuse. They'd known each other for 2 years, so she was technically owing him 2 years of presents… Right? Well, if that was her logic. “No, but… I… If you don't want to go further than this, then… I might need to go. Not that I would do anything, I just… I would probably need some privacy to take care of the… Issue… As it were…” Kain said with a blush and a slight cough as he gulped and felt his heart pounding faster. @Al the Killer

December... It was a while away, so she'd have to think of a different gift. She was not in the mood to wait that long. He was giving her an out though, even now, and she did pause to think about it. She trusted him, of course, and felt safe enough with him, not to mention that growing desire inside of her. "I think... We can start kissing and see where it leads?" she suggested. "If I can't go through with it, I can leave the room and give you some privacy to take care of yourself, but I'd like to try." There was a box of tissues on the night stand if he'd need them. Or whatever guys used... All she really knew about what men did while alone came from crass jokes her guy friends made. She hoped it wouldn't matter, though. She just didn't know how she'd react once things got more heated. Would she be able to stay safely in the moment, or would the flashbacks ruin it? All she knew right now was that she wanted him. "I mean... If you're willing." She blushed as she spoke. @Kain the Insane

“Y-yeah, of course…! I mean… Sorry if that was a little too eager…” Kain said with a bit of a blush. He kissed her lips gently before extending it into a make-out. His hands gently glided down to no longer rest on her stomach. He moved them first to her hits and then to her thighs/the sides of her butt. His hands rested there as he passionately gave her tough, but did so gently enough. It wasn't a tongue boxing session so much as a slow and sensual makeup where he let her feel the love, the lust, the pure, the dark, he let her feel what he was feeling. Let her understand his passions and desires in all the most intimate and deep ways that she possibly could. Let her feel the passion in his tongue, the love in his lips, the gentle desire for her body in his soft touch, and his heart beat by keeping her close to him. He was just as nervous as she was. @Al the Killer

Her nervousness began to melt away as she kissed him back. He was here, he was gentle, they were both safe. She wrapped an arm around him, resting her hand against the warm skin of his shoulderblade as she pulled him closer. Her leg hooked around his before she slowly, carefully, shifted her weight and hopefully his so she was laying on top of him. "You don't have to apologize for being so eager," she whispered once she had to come up for air. "I love your enthusiasm." She pressed a gentle kiss to the side of his back, just to tease him. "You're so cute~" Her chest pressed against his as she locked her lips with his again, nipples considerably more prominent than earlier. @Kain the Insane

Feeling her hard nipples pressing into him certainly excited him. He began to pick up when it came to size, and Kain actually moved his hands to remove his shorts before he accidentally tore them. Kain moved his hips a bit, his quickly hardening member feeling between her legs. His hands now gently moving to her butt as he began to squeeze it a bit and love her with everything that he had. She was on top of him, and he didn't mind that at all. They were both inexperienced, and he only had ever really seen porn. Anatomy was something he'd studied, so he could use that to help a bit, but it couldn't carry him. So, they would have to find out what eachother liked. Although as he was packing on more size, it became apparent that there weren't really going to be any condoms that fit him. So, they could try pulling out and washing her sheets, blankets, and pillow cases every time they did this, or she might have to get the pill. In Kain's mind, that was something they'd have to figure out later, right now it was just all about her and him. Their bodies intertwining, their love encompassing one another. A moment of passion, lust, love, so many things right here, right now. @Al the Killer

He was more comfortable to lay on than she had imagined, giving his thin stature, but she certainly wasn't complaining. Especially when she was busy kissing him. She felt him moving though, and shifted so he could remove the last scrap of his clothing. Then his words from their shopping trip echoed, and she couldn't deny being a little curious. She broke the kiss and looked down, shifting her hips so it wasn't poking her. And this was not the fear she expected to feel. Not trauma, not even really fear, but certainly intimidation. Her eyes widened. "Oh, that is impressive," she said. It was exciting to see, but would it even fit? She knew the vagina was made to stretch, but she also knew it wasn't that deep. "I, um..." She paused to kiss his neck, then his collarbones before looking up at him. "I'm not sure I'm ready for penetration yet, but... can I touch it?" She still wanted him, more than anything right now, but was also definitely more nervous. @Kain the Insane

“G-go ahead~... I-I know its… A lot…” Kain's voice was breathy, containing a bit of a.moan in it. Her body pressing on his as well as her comment about his size was exciting him. His hands moved from her, only one now gently wrapped around her, no longer touching her ass, but just resting on her waist. Lixking his lips, Kain rubbed the back of his head. “It is… Very difficult to… Manage. Take care of. I… Have to stroke with both hands to really get a lot of satisfaction. With one, I either hold too loosely or… I hold it too tightly and only stroke the base a bit…” The words were a bit of a warning, but also just letting her know of his difficulty. It wasn't as easy as it might be for other guys or even girls. And he didn't have enough cash to buy a fleshlight that could do a good job. The most intimate details about it were what was important. Her tits definitely couldn't outmatched it either. For once, the description that fanfiction gave or pictures she'd seen didn't make it look like she'd be able to just swallow it up between them. @Al the Killer

She listened, because there was some genuinely helpful advice in what he was saying. It wasn't like she was about to give it a death grip and squeeze the life out of him. That just sounded painful, even if she lacked the personal experience to empathize with it. She would be careful with him, gentle, since this was a first for both of them. She moved down the bed so she could focus and see what she was doing, coming to rest between his legs. Her breasts squeezed together by the base, not consuming it, but definitely touching. She circled her hands around his member, working her way up and down the shaft, firm but gently. "Like this?" The tip was near her mouth, and she couldn't resist the urge to give it a slow lick, looking toward his face to see if he had any reaction. @Kain the Insane

Kain shivered and moaned. Her face was so fucking adorable, he couldn't help but blush. Even though there was a cock so lewdly by it. Her touch made it pulse and throb gently, and a shiver ran up his body. A bit of precum leaked, but other than that, her warmth made it feel very hot. He'd made sure to take the best care of himself as he could, so there weren't any problems with it or anything. His face was dark red and he was doing his best to try not to lose his little composure he had. Her touch made him feel like the first time he'd ever been hugged by her… But like a billion times better. It was.making his heart pump so fast that he felt like he was utterly Paralyzed with fear and worry and doubt, and yet at the same time he felt excitement, happiness, anticipation. He wanted her to like it. His desires wanted to have him go inside and the two of them hold tightly to each other as he inched into her. “Th-that feels amazing, M-milena~... I… I want to help you out too, if… I can~...?” @Al the Killer

It was a rush she hadn't expected, feeling him react beneath her touch. She must have been doing something right, at least. Her tongue flicked out again, lapping up the bit that had already started to leak out. She heard his offer, of course, and the thought of it sent her heart racing, but she didn't want to give up on spoiling him like this first. "After this?" she suggested, not minding the idea of waiting her turn for pleasure. She'd probably be better off waiting before taking his cock inside anyway; she wasn't on the pill yet and, while she'd seen people fit their entire arms inside of condoms before to make a point about how flexible the things really were, she simply did not have any handy because she hadn't expected this. She sat up for just a moment to take off her nightgown, giving him a better view of what was beneath. She let him get an eyeful of her bare breasts before lowering herself again. She showered his erection with her affections, licking and trailing kisses from base to tip. "Hm~ You taste so good," she sighed happily. It wasn't... well, it was an oversimplification. As it turned out, dick just tasted like skin, which was in itself bland, but his reactions? Seeing him twitch, shiver, blush, watching him grow so excited just for her? That was delicious. She wrapped her lips around the tip, slowly easing her mouth onto it to see how deep she could manage to take it. @Kain the Insane

Her compliments once again elicited a bit of a reaction. He leaned back and moaned more as he watched her mouth take in his tip and her tongue move. “O-okay~... I… Was thinking I'd try to use.my mouth too, but… It can… Wait~...” He was trying to speak while still being prompted to take breaths in. Tears rolled down his cheeks, but he made sure to lean his head back so she couldn't see. He didn't want her to see him cry right now and ruin this for her. He just… Never thought he ever deserved to be this happy. Never once had he considered the idea that he deserved to be as happy as he was feeling right now. Her bare breasts and skin on his. The warmth of her mouth. The moistness paired with the loving movement as she moved her head deeper. He wondered if she had much of a gag reflex, and if so, would she force it beyond that or would that be where she had to stop for the moment? @Al the Killer

She wondered what it would feel like. Certainly, the thought was exciting enough to make her look forward to it. She refused to let her concentration break, though. More than anything, she wanted to make sure he felt good. She kept her hands around the base of his cock to stroke, handling him almost reverently as she tried to make sure no part felt neglected. She'd always made it a point to hide that she didn't have much of a gag reflex, since she knew exactly what sorts of jokes guys would make about it if they somehow figured it out. Never mind that it was, in fact, a huge advantage for this sort of thing. The bigger issue with taking him as deep as she wanted was that her jaw was bound to ache after a while. She did as well as she could for as long as she could, before coming back up for air. She was breathing heavily, but not only because she'd had an airway obstructed. "I love you so much." She kissed the tip again, but her mouth needed a bit of a break. "You're so sweet." She kissed his inner thigh, then inched forward. "So handsome." She propped his cock up and brought her chest toward it. "So perfect in every way~" She used her hands to squeeze her breasts in to engulf him, though it took more pressure to actually surround it, given its size. She could manage with some effort though. "Do you want to hold them? Or leave it up to me?" She shifted her body to rub against his member. @Kain the Insane

“W-wait~...! I… Let me do something first~...” Kain gently reached forward. He began to massage her jaw gently. Explaining hoe he knew how to do this would be too long and would probably ruin the mood, but he wanted to help her. Relieve the pain and make it relax. And his fingers were perfect for just that. Long and slender, he could press all the right places. Once he'd helped relax her jaw to make it feel better, he blushed and moved his hands. They were so big. He couldn't fit them entirely in one hand. Hell, he couldn't fit one of them in both hands. They were as warm and squishy as people often said they would be. And they were much better than anything he could imagine. Pressing his hands on either side of them, he began to move his hands to pump his cock with them. Moaning, he closed his eyes. Her compliments had him feeling so in the mood he could barely contain his desire to try and help her feel good too. “I-I… Don't know if I should cum~... I-I have always heard… A real man makes his girlfriend cum once or twice before he does~...” Kain said, looking her in the eyes, a bit of a worried look. He didn't want to be unable to please her or satisfy her desires and needs. @Al the Killer

Milena paused and looked up at him, wondering if she had done something wrong. She waited, then leaned her face into his hand. It was so unexpected for the moment, but nice, a moment of warm, caring touch and gentle pressure to help with the ache. "See? You're so sweet," she said softly, smiling warmly at him. His hands were warm on her breasts, and she wanted to feel them more. But for now, her focus was on his pleasure, so she worked with him. Her hands were free now, so she could tease at his tip with the thumb of one and carefully cup his balls with the other. "You can cum, love," she encouraged him. "I trust you to return the favour~" As long as she got to work toward her own release, she didn't mind if it was before or after. "But I love how considerate you are~" @Kain the Insane

Kain moaned and he pumped her tits faster. Still making sure not to squish them too hard or pull on the skin and hurt her. “I love you too~...! I know we can't have a family now, but I look forward to a day when… You and I can do that. If you want to, I mean…” He said with a bright red face. But his limit was fastly approaching. He had to prepare himself as his cock throbbed one last time. If he came now, he would probably cover her tits, hair, and back in his thick cum. Unless she wanted to try and catch it all in her mouth to contain it there. @Al the Killer

It wasn't a topic she'd expected to come up right now, but it was a nice thought. Especially when paired with thoughts of the wedding night dream he'd told her about. "I look forward to it," she said, and realized she meant it. But for now, she had more immediate interests. "Cum for me first, though," she whispered. Catching the tip in her mouth would have required bending her neck at an odd angle, so she would deal with the mess. She closed her eyes to avoid getting anything in them, as she could feel him about to finish. @Kain the Insane

There was no way to sugarcoat it. Kain Bukkaked her. Maybe she'd have some idea about the kink from fanfiction, or maybe she'd find out about it later. He covered her tits, her face, her shoulders, her hair, and her back and ass with ropes of thick cum. Honestly, Kain hadn't expected so much to come out. There had never been this much that had come out before all of this. No, it was for her that he'd cum so hard and so much. Her love and pleasure she'd given him had caused this. He picked her up carefully and he carried her to the bathroom before getting a warm washcloth and starting to use that to help wash the cum off her. At least so she didn't get it all over her back as he laid her down and began his own chance to use his mouth to please his partner as thoroughly as possible for not just her, but for him as well. After all, seeing her happy made Kain feel happy just as much. @Al the Killer

She had expected it more or less, just... not so much. She opened her eyes once she was sure it was done, wondering how it had managed to get on her back as she wrapped her arms around him to make lifting her easier. She wasn't about to argue against the need to get washed up now. A part of her wondered if she'd have to clean the ceiling, too... probably not, that would have been absurd. Either way, she smiled at him. It was... she didn't have a word for it. But she enjoyed knowing she had this much power over him, that he'd reacted so strongly to her touch. "I guess I don't have to ask if that was good for you," she teased as she let him wipe her back clean. She'd probably want to take a shower after they were done anyway, just in case. Possibly together. Once she was clean again, she took his hand and returned the bedroom, since it was more comfortable. "I loved how your hands felt on my chest," she admitted, laying back on the bed. "Maybe you could touch me there some more, first?" She liked the idea of him giving them the same attention she'd given his cock. @Kain the Insane

Blushing, he rubbed the back of his head and nodded. He'd have to gauge her reactions, and try to find what she enjoyed. First, he took the top position this time, looking down at her and his hands began to sink into her breasts. He moved them around as he squished them gently, watching her reactions to find out where those places she might grope herself when masterbating might be. Or, well, if she did that sort of thing. His mouth salivated at the idea of sucking on her nipples, but he suppressed that desire. Fighting it down, beating it into submission. Right now he needed to find the best spots to use. However, he was going to leave her without some attention downstairs too. His knee moved and he gently rubbed it against her folds, slowly and methodically. Or, well, doing his best to be slow and methodical. He wanted to keep her wet and help her feel just as good as he did. @Al the Killer

She smiled up at him, a silent signal that she was comfortable with this. She was fully present in the moment right now, and for that she was grateful. Then she felt his hands on her and her head tilted back as she let out a soft moan. She'd never really bothered with this sort of thing when taking care of her own, rather rare, needs; she'd preferred to be efficient and skip straight to the point, and touching her own breasts had never really proven that exciting. But his hands were something else. Every part of her body was more sensitive to his touch than to her own. His knee was less precise than fingers would be, but any stimulation was welcome. She moved her hips, grinding against him almost desperately. Already, she was soaking, and the thin panties she wore weren't much of a barrier to that. Then she felt his hand against her nipple, and moaned a bit louder this time, showing how much she loved it. She'd read somewhere before - some sort of pop-science article - that enough breast stimulation could activate someone's mammary glands enough to cause lactation without pregnancy. She wasn't sure how much was 'enough', and couldn't deny being a bit curious. For now, though, she wrapped her arms around him, pulling him close. "You're so good~" @Kain the Insane

Kain sighed gently and he shifted. His knee couldn't do much, so he decided to keep her motor running another way. He began to gently push his tip against her lips, but then let it slide up. He made sure to be careful and not actually push into her, but he wanted to sorta edge her. Get her feeling a ton of pleasure. His mouth moved down and he began to suckle on both her nipples and lightly bite them. At first, not enough to really do anything but make sure they couldn't slip out of his mouth. However, he did start to bite them a little harder to see if he could find any sweet spot she enjoyed when it came to biting them. His tongue circled her nipples and flicked them, making sure to just give her all the enjoyment they could. Meanwhile his hands continued their work, although occasionally he would shift his hold to be more like he was milking her tits like udders. “Mmmph~ You're giving all theshe complimentsh becaushe you know they turn me on~ How about thish then~ You're shuch a good girl~ I love you sho much~ I forgive you, and I want to be with you forever, Milena~ Your titsh are sho huge and shquishy~ But while you're the hottesht girl in the whole univershe, I love how beautiful your heart ish~” He spoke in a muffled voice due to his suckint and not moving his teeth, but he wanted to give her compliments. Let her know how much he loved her and her body at the same time. @Al the Killer

His voice had no less of an effect, despite how muffled it was at the moment. Milena had never considered herself submissive by any definition of the word. Not socially, and definitely not sexually. But the way he called her a good girl, she seriously needed to reconsider that stance. Or maybe it was the other things his mouth was doing, and the shivers running down her spine every time she felt the tip of his member brush against her clit. "I... l-love you... too," she managed to breath out. The way his hands massaged her breasts was making them feel more tender than before, almost unbearably sensitive. Yet she didn't want him to stop. She'd been satisfied during the times she'd masturbated, but she hadn't felt this good. Never as good as when she had Kain here, in her arms, showering her with love. Her legs wrapped loosely around him, still allowing him space to move, but trying to keep him close nonetheless. Her fingers curled, scratching lightly at his back but not enough to cause pain. "Kain~" she moaned, feeling a desperate heat deep inside of her. When was the last time she'd wanted anything this bad? @Kain the Insane

Kain Blushed, but seeing her reaction it was all he needed to drive him forward. To inspire him to make her feel even better. Moving his right hand, he brought his fingers to her pussy. He stopped grinding to push his middle and ring fingers inside of her slowly. His thumb began to play with her clit as he fingered her gently at first before finding more places inside where she was extra sensitive and stimulating them. His mouth and left hand continued their work on her breasts, and he even began to switch which one he was groping eith that hand to give both of them plenty of attention. Right now, he wanted her to feel good. To cum and just enjoy herself. More than anything else, he didn't care about his own relief or his own desires. He wanted to make Milena feel good and show her that her words meant everything to him. She'd complimented him, loved him, and now he could show her his appreciation with his body. “Shuch a good girl~ I want to make you feel good~” @Al the Killer

As he shifted tasks, Milena tried to keep still enough to avoid interfering. That didn't make her less of a moaning, whimpering mess as her longing for him grew nearly unbearable. Then his fingers slipped inside, more than easy enough, and she couldn't help herself. Her hips lifted toward him, pressing the sensitive nub of her clit against his thumb. "Y-yes!" she gasped. Her eyes rolled back in her head as she felt his fingers tease against her slick inner walls. She could feel herself getting close. If she came, would he stop? She certainly didn't want him to stop. "Fuck, you're so perfect," she whispered. Her fingers curled in his hair, clutching his head against her breast with her nipple in his mouth. It felt... oddly tingly, in a way it never had before. "I love you, please don't stop..." She could almost feel something leaking from her breasts, the slightest relief to that strange full feeling. @Kain the Insane

“I won't stop until you want me to~ I love you, Angel Eyesh~” Kain said with a mischievous look in his eyes. His cock was throbbing, but he wasn't going to lose himself. He pushed his pointer finger inside her now as well, now having one additional finger to spread her and attack sensitive places. Right now, all that mattered to him was making her cum. If she was satisfied after that, then he'd have to deal with it. If they moved forward, he certainly wouldn't mind either. But her holding him like she was drove him forward and made him try even harder. His hands working even better in unison, finding the best ways to make her feel amazing. He wanted to be so cool he could feel the classic hentai/porn thing where the girls wrapped her legs around her partner's waist to hold them closer. Although the likelihood of that wasn't very high. She didn't want to get pregnant, after all, and Kain understood completely. They needed to finish college first, or get closer to finishing college before they made that sort of commitment. @Al the Killer

Between his reassurances and the addition of that extra finger, Milena was about ready to lose her mind in the best possible way. The tension coiled up inside of her as she closed her eyes, trying and failing to keep her breathing steady. Then his persistence tilted her over the edge. Her back arched as her climax hit, harder than it ever had in her previous memory. She trembled and clenched around his fingers, moaning in ecstasy. But once the moment of release passed, she found herself far more sensitive than before. Perhaps too sensitive, and she no longer wondered why people tended to pause after just one. "I... ow - that was so good, but hold off... for a second." She would still want to go again, and was reconsidering her comment about not being ready for penetration, but she had to wait for that extra sensitivity to pass. She could pick up some birth control from the pharmacy later, including emergency contraceptive if they got too out of control, but for now, she just wanted to enjoy being intimate with her boyfriend. @Kain the Insane

As much as Kain wanted Milena to feel good, he could see she needed to ride the pleasure high down. So, he carefully removed his fingers. He brought his hand and mouth away from her nipples. Instead he sat down and pulled her onto his lap, and he hugged her. Rubbing her back with one hand and running his fingers through her hair with another. Just wanting her to lean on him and feel his warmth, comfort, and love. Things had moved quickly, but it had just felt right. Going all in on this relationship. He never intended to break up with her, not ever. Kissing the top of her head, he whispered. “My beautiful blonde angel… I love you so much. Your eyes so full of love and wonder that I could never understand. Your heart so big that I could only ever hope to fill it with love. You're everything to me… My Milena…” He whispered softly, just enjoying this moment with her. Aftercare was important, after all, and Kain definitely was one of those guys from the fanfictions she liked to read. Who would massage her feet and shower her in kisses and love until she drifted back to sleep from exhaustion. @Al the Killer

Her mind was still in a daze as he pulled her into his lap. She snuggled up against him, ignoring anything that may or may not be poking at her thigh right now. She'd been so worried that she'd panic, or have flashbacks, or simply that it might hurt, that these moments of comfort and safety couldn't mean any less than the world to her. "I'm so glad I get to be with you," she whispered back. "I love you so much." The sense of arousal hadn't been entirely satiated either, though, so she lifted her head to kiss him again. "If... if you want to keep going..." She blushed. "I think I can be fine, as long as we take it slow at first." Because even if she was a bit more open right now, he was still packing a lot. "And um... pull out before you finish. I know it's not the most reliable method, but it's better than nothing." She traced a finger along the line of his collarbone. "I've never wanted anything more than I want you, Kain." She smiled up at him, love and lust in equal measure filling her eyes. @Kain the Insane

"Oh, wow... That... Coming from the certifiable hottest girl in the world... Damn. That's an achievement beyond an Olympic Gold Medal~..." Kain laughed, teasing her a bit. He shifted back and laid her down. No fancy positions (not that he knew any), no special techniques. He lined his tip up with her and began to slowly push in. He was careful. A couple inches at a time maybe. If she made a noise or asked hi. To slow down, he would. The goal was so slowly work his way inside her. Letting the pain fade as he did. His hands and mouth continued their previous work on her breasts, although more gently to try and help the pleasure mesh with the pain a bit and not be too bad for her. Just like usual, he was exceptionally sweet and kind as he slowly pushed into her and worked his way inside while inflicting the least amount of pain possible. After all, he loved her with all his heart, and he always would. He looked at her with that same look of love and lust mingling together into one solid feeling that was just for her and no other woman ever. She was his one. THE one. Or, at least, he was sure of it for now.

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@Al the Killer

Milena laughed with him as she settled onto her back. Her heart had already begun to race again as she looked up at him. A part of her understood that she was the lucky one, really. She'd been nothing but awful to him at first, yet here he was, as considerate as though she could do no wrong. Her hips shifted, legs parting to accommodate him. She found it worked easier if she brought one up to wrap around his hips. As the tip of his member pressed into her, she gasped. It wasn't exactly painful. A bit sharp, an unexpected pressure, but he had prepared her well, and she adjusted easily. She looked up at him and nodded, only to look away in embarrassment as she saw a bit of what looked suspiciously like milk - perhaps a bit thinner, but pretty close - leaking from the nipple that wasn't covered by his mouth. Probably, it was coming from both. She was soon distracted from that brief embarrassment, as he slid a bit deeper, filling her more. She let out a small, whimpering moan and gripped at his shoulders, the pleasure beginning to set in. "I-I love you so much," she breathed. @Kain the Insane

He continued to gently inch in. Pushing in only at a pace where she wouldn't be in pain. The liquid she was lactating, Kain drank it up without much thought. Slowly but surely he made his way into her, pushing deeper and deeper inside. Her hymen breaking had been when he probably paused for the longest, but he was just trying to help her adjust. But that also marked the point of no return. They'd officially taken each others virginities. He moved his mouth and he nodded. “I love you too… So… So much~...” Kain whispered, kissing her lips gently and beginning to make out with her for a bit to help perhaps focus on something other than just her breasts and the pain she might be feeling. Ultimately, he hoped to be able to have his hips pressed against her’s. Balls deep, as it were. He was going to try and pull out, although it wouldn't really be easy to do. Whatever the case, he'd obviously try it for her. @Al the Killer

Milena ran her fingers through his hair as she kissed him back, passion and longing flowing through the movement of her lips against his. Words couldn't communicate how she felt about him, not really. Once she was comfortable again, she lifted her hips toward him, wanting to take him as deep as her own anatomy would allow. Both legs wrapped around him now, enough to pull him close but keeping close so he could pull away if and when he needed to. "Tell me when you're close," she whispered, just to be extra safe. While the idea of taking his entire size had seemed intimidating, she found that her own body was more accommodating than she'd expected. @Kain the Insane

After 10 or 15 minutes, he managed to touch her hips with his own. He held her tightly, mirroring her own grip on him. Carefully, he drew his hips back and began to slowly thrust. Only going slow and soft, although he made sure that his cock touched places inside her that were sensitive, especially her G-spot. “Tell me when to speed up… I… Can hold back my urge. And I want you to feel really good… I…” Kain's voice was soft and he kissed her. Passionately he began to makeout with her and thrust a bit faster. All he wanted to do was make her feel good. To fill her to the brim with pleasure. No cumming inside, of course, but he didn't care. This was an act of intimacy. The deepest act. It was her first time, and he wasn't going to allow it to be anything except amazing. Even if he wasn't always perfect, and even if one day they went different ways, he wanted Milena to look back and remember their first time together as perfection. @Al the Killer

Milena bit her lower lip and looked up at him as he managed to reach all the way inside. Then he began to thrust, and all thoughts fled her mind, replaced with a haze of pleasure. Her head fell back as she moaned softly, unable to think about anything but him right now. She barely managed to process his words. "You... are," she managed to say. "So good~" She kissed him back, her hips gently rocking in time with his. She could feel herself approaching that precipice again, but wanted to make sure he got as much out of this as she did. She broke the kiss and tried to find her words. "P-please," she groaned. No, too vague. "Faster." That was better. She kissed him again and held him close. Her breasts bounced with each thrust, but now they were squished against his chest. She'd definitely need to get on the pill as soon as possible, because right now the deeply horny part of her mind wanted to throw caution to the wind and feel him cum deep inside. Which the logical part of her mind was not about to let happen this time. @Kain the Insane

Kain's thrusts were sloppy. He wasn't used to this, and her legs wrapped around him didn't make it easier. But he didn't mind, oh no. He would just keep doing his best to make her feel good. Picking up his speed, he would focus on gradually getting faster with her permission. Her breasts squished up against him definitely helped to drive him forward too. Her stiff nipples pressed onto his chest, the warmth of them, their movements and bounces with each thrust. Kain blushed and he began to kiss her neck and chin. “You're so amazing, Milena~... You're… So tight~... I… I want to… Fuck~... I want this to… Be… Amazing for you~...” He managed to say it in her ear and he began to gently nibble on her earlobe as he was going so. Honestly, he really hoped she was enjoying this more than she would some… Buff dude or something. While he was taller than her, he never gave the whole, “Big Dominating Man” vibe. But perhaps that was just it. She loved him for other things, but also, she had the power to take back over or shift them at any time. He didn't want her to feel powerless. He wanted her to feel loved. @Al the Killer

She was no more used to this than he was, and was more than happy to let him take over the bulk of the movement. As long as they were both enjoying it, that was what mattered to her. And she felt so loved. She had before they had started, of course. This was simply another, more pleasurable expression of what had already existed between the two of them. It was difficult to keep her legs up and around him with the way they were starting to shake, but she managed. Then he spoke, and she couldn't help herself. "You want to... fuck? I... I thought that was what we were already doing," she managed to say. She laughed a bit at her own joke before drowning in pleasure again. Those nibbles sent a shiver down her spine, and she was lost. With everything he was doing and saying, she became steadily aware that she never wanted to let him go. "Ah, you're so good~ Th-this speed is perfect, just like that!" She was pretty sure that once he steadied his rhythm, her climax would be inevitable. @Kain the Insane

Kain shifted his position, trying to find his footing. He found by pressing his toes into the bed and moving his hands to her sides, he could brace himself better. Have traction and steady the thrusts. He knew what Speed she really liked now, so he locked in full on. Keeping his thrusts at that speed, keeping his thrusts tighter. He even clenched his ass to add a little more power and drive into the thrusts. He wanted her to cum and grip him for dear life. He wanted to hear those moans of her's and her desperately begging for more. He began to suck on both her nipples again, this time without the help of his hands, but he'd gotten a better idea of how much she liked biting, so he got them firmly in his teeth and sucked on them just right to add the cherry on top. All this effort was coming to fruition and he was going to see her cum and enjoy it more than anything. Beautiful.

11:30 AM

@Al the Killer

She held onto him even tighter, gripping desperately at him as though she could possibly have him any closer than he already was. Was it weird to want to absorb another person into her skin? Not literally, of course, just... Some sort of metaphor, like a sexy merging of souls? She decided to leave the poetry to him, because fuck was it hard to think right now. "IloveyouIloveyouIloveyou," she breathed, the words running together in her desperate need for him. "K-kain~!" Her second orgasm crashed around her, harder than the first as she held him close. She didn't push him away this time. Even overly sensitive and on the verge of overstimulation, she wanted him to reach the height of the pleasure as she had hers. @Kain the Insane

“Your massive titties… Heaving with each breath you take… A sight to behold~ I… Love you too~!!” Kain couldn't help himself. Maybe it was just a reflex, but he spoke a haiku. He doubted the Japanese who had made them would be too happy he was using one to describe his girlfriend's “titties” but he didn't give a fuck. In the moment, it felt hot and sexy, although she might laugh at him later. His speed and precision continued, as he tried to ride this high. To cum himself. But part of him wanted more. Wanted to use her overstimulation to have her cum again once or twice. Make her feel really REALLY good. Be able to think to himself that the hottest girl.in school had cum so hard and so much, she'd passed out after they'd done it. But maybe that wasn't right. Logic did still have a hold on the reins to keep him in check. She wanted him to cum just as much as he did. So perhaps he should just let himself go and fill her up. @Al the Killer

Had she been rational at the moment, she definitely would have laughed - it was a bit silly - but she was decidedly not thinking straight. Instead, she was already approaching the precipice again, but held back, knowing she wouldn't be able to take much more once she came again. She gathered just enough presence of mind to unwrap her legs from around him so he could easily pull out when the time came. "C-cum for me," she managed to say, though it came out more like begging. Then she couldn't think again as her next orgasm hit even harder. Her nails dug into his back, and she was glad she kept them short enough not to hurt him. @Kain the Insane

Her words told him what she wanted. What she NEEDED. So, he let himself be swallowed up by the pleasure. He could feel his climax building to a crescendo. If he pulled out, he'd be panting her body, race, and bed with his cum. But if she wanted that instead of taking it inside, he understood. So, as the sounds of their bodies colliding with one another seemed to begin fading, and he could feel he was about to cum, he went to attempt to pull out. She may have unwrapped her legs, but if she came again and wrapped them on him, he wouldn't be able to pull put in time. But that was the gamble both of them were agreeing to taking. @Al the Killer

Milena was pretty sure she couldn't move her legs again if she tried, so luckily, they stayed on the mattress, allowing him to pull out of her just in time. She wasn't sure it was precaution enough. It definitely wasn't, and she'd need that trip to the pharmacy once she'd recovered enough. But for now she just had to let him go and catch her breath. "H-holy shit," she panted. "That was intense." The entire experience had left her sore, sticky, and extremely satisfied. She still felt a bit dizzy, and had to close her eyes for a moment to collect her thoughts as she smiled. "And so good~" She opened her arms, inviting him to cuddle heedless of the fact that she was kind of covered in semen at the moment. "Let's take a bath together once I can move again. I don't think I can stand long enough for a shower." @Kain the Insane

“No no no. You bought me clothes. You gave me love. You gave me kisses and love… The least I can do is help you out…” Kain slowly stood up. He felt weak, but he didn't care. So, he picked her up slowly and lifted her. Penguin waddling over to the bathroom, he started up a bath. After it was filled up nicely, he helped her inside and then got inside with her. Putting her in his lap, he got some soap and he began to massage her body as he cleaned it. His hands weren't big and meaty, but his long, slender fingers could press on nooks and crannies others couldn't. Not to mention his hands were so loving. Massaging her breasts, her legs, he was making sure to give her a luxury treatment. Would it be as good as a spa masseuse might do it? No. But Kain was doing it with so much love as he held her body close to his. @Al the Killer

She'd been ready to cuddle in bed for a while, but this was more than fine. She wrapped her arms around him as he carried her, then relaxed in the water when it was ready. The warmth ebbed at her skin, draining the remaining tension from her muscles. "Hm... You're so good to me," she murmured, nuzzling against his chest. Cozy. Warm. Safe. Her eyes closed as she smiled. "You're sure?" she asked as he massaged her body gently. Inexperienced, but nimble and loving. He really did have nice hands. "I'm not sure I have the energy to return the favour." She yawned, but remained resolved not to fall asleep in the bath. She knew he wouldn't let her drown, but she didn't want to give him reason to worry about that. @Kain the Insane

Kain blinked and he sighed, kissing her neck. “Yeah, I didn't expect you to… I'm the guy, I should take care of you afterward… It's what I'm suppose to do…” He rubbed her stomach and massaged her abdominal muscles to ease any soreness she might feel there. Then followed up by a gentle massaging of her thighs, and then her ass. Get her muscles loosened up and relaxed. His hands pressed on her gently as he cleaned her and just leaned into her. “I love you so much… You mean everything to me. I'm so happy that we got to do this…” Kissing her neck and chin, he closed his eyes and nuzzled into her a little bit. He kissed her cheek and he nodded gently. “I heard your birthday is tomorrow…? Is that right…? It's usually when you, uh… Left me alone more than you usually did…” @Al the Killer

These touches were different, no longer sexual regardless of where they went, but no less loving. She closed her eyes and snuggled against him some more. "Hm? Oh, right, it is," she admitted. "Normally I'd make plans, but..." But after what had happened at that party, she'd cancelled everything in a panic. "I'll be all yours," she said instead. "Let's do something together." She wasn't exactly sure what yet. A quiet evening at home, maybe? It was nice to be with someone who wouldn't judge her for suggesting it. "I... if you want to talk about the past, we can." She didn't like it, not really. The guilt meant she would never be fully comfortable with that topic. But that was fine. It was something she would live with, even knowing he'd forgiven her, and something she would accept. Because his needs mattered too, and they were supposed to take care of each other. @Kain the Insane

"I already have a special plan... I'll probably need to leave or something though, as we don't want to move in together. And staying over again might start leaning towards that... Honestly though, I don't care. I want to spend time with you..." Kain said, kissing her forehead and he smiled. The surprise he had planned he thought she might like. Actually, it was technically two things, but that was a part of the surprise. He rubbed her stomach and he nodded. "You bullied me in the past. And it hurt... A part still hurt... Until last night. Because you said you loved me... And I could finally realize I wasn't living in some dream. This wasn't a wild dream that would never happen. This was my life... With my new beautiful girlfriend... Whom I now share a bound so deep, I can't help but feel incredibly happy with you by my side." Kain said, wanting to reassure her. She should forgive herself, but learn from those mistakes. That was how you grew, after all, and obsessing could only where hurt her and him. @Al the Killer

A surprise, then. Milena had to admit, she was intrigued, but didn't want to ruin it by asking too many questions. And there were other topics at hand. "I... I knew it would hurt, but I still did it," she admitted. "I'm sorry. I-" She stopped herself. There were so many reasons. She'd learned how people survived, and it was by crushing those who were weaker underfoot and using their own advantages to make sure everyone remained beneath. She'd learned it from her father. Her mother would be ashamed if she'd known half the things she'd said and done, the cruelty she'd extended to others despite knowing firsthand just how painful it was to be on the receiving end. She shook her head. "You don't need to hear my excuses. None of them will make it okay. I'm just... sorry. But I really do love you. So much now." She gave him a quick kiss on the lips before settling down again. "Once we're done here, I should go to the pharmacy and take care of laundry anyway." Especially those sheets... she was happier now than ever that this flat had an in-unit washer and dryer, or else it would have been an embarrassing trip to a laundromat. "But I'm in no hurry." @Kain the Insane

Shaking his head, Kain smiled and squeezed her gently. "You can sleep if you want, and I'll do some cleaning of your sheets and what not. Let you rest up after I totally rocked your world~..." Kain teased. Honestly he hoped she thought it was that good, but he wasn't one to go and get himself a fat head or anything like that. He began to clean her hair gently and he began to gently hum a lullaby to her. Honestly it was just because he wanted her to feel totally relaxed. Like she was a princess or a queen, because that was how he wanted to treat her.

3:10 PM

@Al the Killer

"I don't want to sleep, exactly... I want to cuddle you." Milena chuckled, then added, "after you totally rocked my world." She only hoped she'd done the same for him. She was pretty sure she could sleep right here and now if she was a little more tired, but she had plenty to look forward to. "But thank you." She could still curl up on the sofa for a bit while he took care of the laundry, since she was already so relaxed. Of course she'd still show him where the washing machine was, possibly how to use it since she wasn't sure if he was used to machine or handwashing. Oh shit, was she out of touch with how 'ordinary' people lived? "We still need breakfast... I'll make us something quick, like eggs." @Kain the Insane

"You rocked my world too baby. You did so well... I've never came any harder than I did with you..." Kain said, kissing her jawline. Making sure she was clean, he did some washing of his own to make sure he smelled nice. Then he carefully got out of the tub and sat her down. He dried her off with a nice, warm, fluffy towel. He'd never gotten the feeling of being dried like this by a parent, or at least, he didn't recall it. For her, this may be a reminder of that sort of memory. Once they were dry, he carried her back to her room and he grabbed a pair of shorts and a tank top to help her into. Just something comfortable. Then, he helped her to stand up. Hopefully the warm water and his massages would've helped her legs relax and regain the strength they needed. He pulled on his shorts and stretched with a bit of a yawn. "Okay, I'll find your washing machine and use it... I'm pretty sure it won't be too hard. My place may have a shitty one, but the one I had to use with my parents was okay. So I shouldn't be too out of touch or unable to use it..."

1:43 AM

@Al the Killer

The relaxation only made her legs wobblier at first, but she managed to stand up once she was dressed again. The whole thing left her feeling... Oddly refreshed. Energized, once she had recovered enough to be a person again. "I can at least show you where they are," she promised. She walked over to the bed and worked on stripping off the sheets, using the fitted sheet to prevent any of the mess they'd made from escaping onto the floor. "Can you take care of getting the pillow cases off? We might as well swap out the entire set." She didn't like leaving the bed bare while one set of sheets was in the wash. It just felt wrong, like attending a family dinner naked. @Kain the Insane

Kain nodded and retrieved her pillow cases. Helping to grab up the sheets, he then left her guide him to the washer. Once he knew where it was, he began to take care of the sheets and pillow cases. Once they were washing, he looked at her. “I'll grab some spare sheets and pillow cases and put them on while you make breakfast. Then, we can sit down and cuddle some while you rest a bit more. Just in case you're still feeling a bit sore.” Kain said, kissing her forehead and smiling. He just couldn't help but show her affection. While some people had one love language, he certainly loved physical contact AND words of affirmation at the exact same time. @Al the Killer

She helped him out, of course, then kissed his lips. It sounded like the perfect time for breakfast on the sofa, for more convenient snuggling. "I'll get started on it. Nothing fancy this time, we spent a lot more time in bed than I planned." She nodded toward a door next to the washing machine. "Sheets will be in that linen closet. I'll let you know when breakfast is ready." She gave his ass a light, playful swat with her hand before walking to the kitchen to prepare breakfast. When was the last time she'd been in this much of a genuinely good mood? @Kain the Insane

"Thanks. You cook however much you want to, I'm good with any food... Especially when I get to eat it with you~" Kain smiled and shook hisnhead. Retrieving the sheets and pillow cases, he went and carefully applied them to her bed. He looked at the bed and took a deep breath. He wasn't a virgin anymore. Plusnhed gotten to grope Milena's tits. Man, he felt his heart pumping. Leaning his head back, he sighed and cleared his throat. He'd given her time to finish breakfast, and even if she hadn't, he'd just love to stand near her or try to help however she needed. He stood at the mouth of the kitchen and suddenly had an idea. Ge retrieved a hair tie, and as she was cooking, he carefully moved her hair out of the way and out it into a nice pony tail. @Al the Killer

Milena heard his footsteps, but didn't look back. Her focus was on her cooking. Even if eggs were basic, they still required constant monitoring to make sure everything was cooked just the right amount. Then she felt him touching her hair and went still to avoid interrupting him. It was a good idea, keeping it out of the way, so she let him do it. "Thanks, sweetheart." She smiled, thinking about earlier. It had been a big leap in their relationship, but one she was glad to have taken. Whatever happened after this, he will always have been her first, someone etched forever into her memory like a beautiful woodburning. She'd heard horror stories from some of her friends, first encounters where the guy either didn't know or didn't care what they would enjoy. But she'd shared a bond of love with him, and he'd been considerate the entire time. "I hope you don't mind your eggs scrambled. I added some cheese to them, too." She turned her head to kiss his cheek before focusing again on her cooking. @Kain the Insane

“That’s good with me, Angel Eyes. Thank you for being so sweet and considerate…” Kain said, kissing her cheek, and wrapping his arms around her. After giving her a kiss and a small hug, he let her cook and resisted some of his remaining desires. Come on, how could he resist groping her all the time? Force of will BABY. He loved her with all his heart, and he’d keep loving her. With the money he saved, he went and sat down before looking up ingredients. Compiling a list of what all he would need to make this thing, he went ahead and ordered them to be sent to his place. She’d been so helpful and sweet with her own money, he was sure that she would love this. He didn’t have the money to buy her a custom designer handbag or dress, but he would put in as much effort as he possibly could to make his gift special and unique for her. In fact, he was about 90% sure that she would really like the idea he came up with. @Al the Killer

It didn't take long. Since he seemed to be focused on something else - she didn't question what - she left him to it as she turned the stove off and moved the pan to an unused burner. The toast had already popped up, she she grabbed a pair of plates to evenly distribute the eggs, and two slices of toast each. "Breakfast is ready, sweetheart," she called as she brought the plates and forks over to the table. She walked back to get drinks for them, settling on milk. Then she remembered what had happened earlier, and wasn't sure whether to blush or laugh at the thought. She settled on neither, though she didn't exactly have the capacity to stop her face from turning a bit red. @Kain the Insane

Kain smirked and he came up behind her. Picking her up with the milk in her hair, he carried her to the table. Sitting down with her in his lap, he moved them up to the table as he gave her some neck kisses. “Hmmmmm, I think you’ve spoiled me~… I would prefer your milk over cow milk~” Kain said into her ear, poking her lobs playfully before he laughed. It wasn’t quite easy, but he managed to alternate feeding her and himself. He really wanted to keep her on his lap and be as close to her as possible. After all, they’d taken part in an intimacy deeper than nearly any other. Him washing her hair… And sex. Obviously. But the hair washing was a very intimate thing as well, as far as he’d heard before. @Al the Killer

Milena let out a small yelp as she was picked up, nearly spilling the liquid from the glasses in the process. She quickly recovered, laughing at herself as he carried her. "You..." She shook her head, then kissed his cheek once he set her down in his lap. "I do love to spoil you, though." But for now, it seemed that the tables had turned in that regard. She enjoyed being this close to him, this cozy, even if she had to fight back some anxiety at being in his lap. Was he comfortable? Was she too heavy? He didn't appear to have any complaints, but if he did would be even voice them? She forced those thoughts down as he fed her and managed to relax in his lap. Once they were finished with breakfast, she rested her head against his shoulder. "I wish every day could be like this," she said softly. @Kain the Insane

“It could be, you know? Maybe not now, but… After we move in together. Or whenever I stay over. I love you, and I want you to feel amazing every morning…” Kain put his hands under her breasts and lifted them up a bit. Nothing too sexual, just to relieve the weight of them or anything. Plus enjoy the squish and warmth of them on his hands like they were. With her laying her head on him, he began to kiss her jawline and chin with all the love and kindness he was feeling in the moment. Honestly he loved her so much, it hurt, and he just wanted to make her feel as amazing as possible constantly. @Al the Killer

Milena giggled and leaned back against him, enjoying his warmth. It wasn't meant to be sexual, she understood. At the same time, she understood that she would not be able to control herself around him forever, now that she'd gotten a taste of what intimacy could be. "I love you too." She smiled. "I look forward to it, however long it may take." She would be counting down the days until the end of the semester, now that they'd set a timeline. At least they could have weekends together, aside from the time she'd be spending on her freelance work. She might have to focus on that a bit more, now that she was looking toward the future. She couldn't rely on her father's money forever, she knew. She couldn't tolerate his behaviour forever, either. She'd kept a savings fund from the moment she'd left his home, waiting until she had enough to be free of him. That was why he didn't even know about her side work. "Come on, let's finish up breakfast. I want to get to the pharmacy soon. They always close so early on Saturdays..." She kissed his cheek then whispered to him, "and the sooner I go, the safer it will be for me to make you feel amazing every morning." @Kain the Insane

Nodding, Kain knew they would have to part. Ride the high for as long as he could, but it would fizzle out. The sexual high couldn't be constant… But this feeling of oneness. He wanted it to last forever. “Yeah, it makes sense…” He said as he kissed her neck one.last time before finishing up. He took it on himself to dry the dishes while she could go change her clothes if she really wanted to. He didn't mind her going out in the tank top, although she wasn't wearing a bra. Then again… No. He checked himself. She wasn't entertaining other guys. It was her choice what she wore. But unless problems came of it, he didn't have any right to say anything. It was perhaps the first time he'd even felt perhaps a little jealous. Mostly because they'd taken such a step in their relationship. However, he did have solace. No one else had ever held her breasts before. No one else had heard her say she loved them as they took each others virginities. No one else had ever cuddled with her intimately and protected her like he did. That definitely filled him with perhaps a little pride in place of that dirty feeling he had. @Al the Killer

Since he wanted to take care of the dishes - and Milena couldn't help but be relieved to find that she'd landed a partner not only willing but happy to help with housework - she walked to her room to change. The current clothing was comfortable, but it was still only springtime and she needed something a bit warmer. Not to mention a bra. It wasn't about decency in her case, but needing the support. She'd heard horror stories about the back pain that awaited her later in life, and really did not want to hurry the process along. It didn't take her too long to change and brush out her hair properly. When she stopped to look in the mirror, she didn't look any different from before. Like nothing about her had changed. It had, though. Her heart carried a fullness it hadn't before, her life a hope she hadn't realized she'd been missing. She smiled and walked out to the kitchen. "Do you want help with anything? I can put the dishes away," she said, because she knew the layout of her apartment better than he did. "Oh, and will you want a ride home?" She'd be driving anyway, so she didn't mind a detour to his flat. @Kain the Insane

"Yeah, a ride home would probably be good. And if you'd put the dishes away, that would be great. Wouldn't want to search around here to see where everything goes. Would probably mess something up." Kain shrugged and laughed gently. He appreciated her Outfit and thought she was beautiful as always. However, he didn't want to gush too much, since they were trying to hurry. His heart felt so full for the first time in a long time. Or, well, the first time ever. No one had ever loved him like this. She made him feel so whole and loved beyond anything he ever could've expected. Wiping his eyes gently, he shifted over and began to dry the dishes and pass them to her to put up as needed on her end. Doing his best not to pass them too fast and give her time to put everything where it properly belonged. @Al the Killer

Milena nodded, glad to buy a few more minutes together. Their combined efforts made the last chore quicker than usual, but the brief time passed in agreeable peace. She still couldn't help but wonder what the surprise he had in mind for her birthday tomorrow, but she'd have to wait and find out for that. "Ready to go?" she asked once the last of the dishes had been put away. "Oh... Just one more thing to take care of, first." She closed the distance between them, cupped his face between her hands, and kissed him again. Because she could, and because she adored him. And because after she dropped him off, it would be a full day before they saw each other again. Which wasn't long, but felt like forever for a couple newly in love. @Kain the Insane

The kiss embarrassed him a bit, but he didn't care. He kissed her sweetly and shared that moment of passion with her once again. He held back the urge to grab her butt a little bit, mostly because he knew she was sore, but also because it would ruin the moment. He slowly broke their kiss and took a deep breath before smiling and tilting his head. "Very nice... To have you be the one to take charge. Not that you haven't before, but... It makes me feel wanted... I suppose..." Kain blushed and rubbed the tip of his nose against her's for an Eskimo kiss before he made sure he had everything and stepped outside with her. Not having a care in the world for whatever was to happen, as long as he had her, he would be fine. Even better than that actually. He would be perfect. @Al the Killer

Milena chuckled softly at his comment. "Oh, you like when I take charge, huh?" She pressed a teasing kiss to his neck before stepping back and leading the way back down to her parking spot. "Any big plans for today, or is it all a surprise?" she asked as she unlocked the doors and settled into the driver's seat. It was nice, casually spending time together. She hadn't even realized how much pressure she'd been under until it had been lifted off her shoulders, but with him she could just be... Her. Maybe that feeling could even extend to when she was by herself for the rest of the day. That would be nice. @Kain the Insane

"Why wouldn't I? You're a beautiful woman who is totally amazing. Someone I want to... Spend my life with. As long as you'll spend it with me, of course... I doubt I'd ever be the one who would want to leave or something..." Kain shook his head, squeezing her hand for a moment. Once they got inside the car and she asked him for his plans, he smiled slightly and shrugged. "Well, I have... To practice something. It's not something I've practiced in a while. I'll be writing, but I'm going to likely practice something a lot... I wanna make sure that your birthday is as special as possible. Especially since you've made my LIFE... So much more special..." Kain said with a laugh. He put a hand on her thigh, although he didn't squeeze or do anything perverted. He just gently let her feel his presence and his touch to fill her with warmth or comfort or whatever. Honestly he just wanted to touch her and be as close to her as he could in the moment.

3:33 PM

@Al the Killer

The logical part of Milena's mind reminded her that it's too soon to make promises for the future. Her heart didn't listen, and continued to race as she thought about spending the rest of her life with him. It sounded nice, still too good to be true. Yet here he was, real and genuinely in love with her. She placed one hand over his for a moment, then pulled out of the parking garage. She could just about remember the directions from the last time she'd given him a ride home. "I look forward to seeing what you have planned then," she said, smiling. "It's funny, even when you rescued me at that party, I never would have guessed we would end up like this. It's nice. And you're just... so incredible." She looked ahead focused on the road ahead. "I'm glad I pulled my head out of my arse and started to be nicer to you." The thought crossed her mind of where to park once they reached his building, though. "Is your landlord still snooping around to find out who contacted the lawyer? I can park a block away and have you walk the rest of the way if you need me to. I don't want you to get in trouble." @Kain the Insane

"I think he gave up. Especially since one of the tenants found out about the pet policy and now has a dog that doesn't bite, persay... Just... Humps. It's kinda made my landlord think things over..." Kain laughed a bit. But as they parked outside of his building, he gave her a kiss and he nodded slightly. His hair covered his eyes for a moment and he quietly pressed his lips together. "I should go... But... It just sucks that I won't see you for a bit. I know that's a bit clingy, and we can't always be together, its just... With everything that's happened, I..." He looked at her full on and he gulped slightly before he took her hand, gave it a squeeze, and stepped out of the car. This was something he needed to learn early on, and he had yet to. Because Milena had been so awesome. But he went up to his apartment and cleared his throat as he stepped inside to get to work on his plans for her. As which also, at least, gave him a nice way to distract himself. @Al the Killer

Milena chuckled. That was certainly one way to stick it to one's landlord, she supposed. She pulled up next to his building and parked so he could get out. "I'll miss you too," she said softly, giving him one last kiss on the cheek before unlocking the doors. "Have a good day." She watched lovingly as he left the car, waiting until he was safe inside before she pulled away. All she needed to do was make a quick trip to the pharmacy, then she'd be able to spend the day however she wanted. Probably studying and freelance work; she liked to play off her not talking about her life much in front of 'friends' as simply being mysterious, but in reality she did not live a very exciting life. And that was fine, especially now that she had a life she could be happy with. Or a partner she could be happy with, at least. That meant more than anything else. @Kain the Insane

He spent that day doing some work, and preparing for her birthday. There were no classes to prepare for as it was the weekend, and he'd always been studying super hard. But now he wasn't going to pressure himself to only accept 100% grades. No, he'd keep getting A-s, but he wasn't going to spend every waking moment guaranteeing his position. Sighing softly, Kain gathered up his things, wearing a large rectangular bag over his shoulder and carrying a box in one hand. It was cold, and he hoped some of the liquid contents wouldn't drip or anything. Whatever the case, he carefully walked over to Milena's building at around noon. He'd texted her to let her know he was coming, and he waited at the front desk for her to come and let him up. For now he couldn't just go up without Milena, but he didn't mind too much.

@Al the Killer

Milena had spent most of Saturday at her computer, coding and testing a small program for one of her clients. She'd gone to sleep early that night, and managed to wake up early for a Sunday. After breakfast, she took some time to do a bit of research on her own. She wasn't sure what Kain had in mind or when he'd be coming, but if they had time later in the day, they might be able to do something in town together. Then she got the text, and all but leapt to her feet. He was here! With all the enthusiasm of a rich kid on Christmas morning, she took the elevator down to greet him. "Kain!" She ran over with the intention of squeezing him into an embrace, but thought better of it as she saw that he was carrying quite a bit. "Do you need help with anything?" she asked, curious as to what was in his hands. @Kain the Insane

"Can't have you sniffing the box and spoil the surprise~ The bag perhaps~" Kain laughed and gently moved the bag to hand to her. It wasn't too heavy, but it sounded like something was clicking inside it a bit. Maybe something with multiple pieces? Or a power cord? Whatever the case, it wouldn't be difficult to carry and it would free up one of his hands so that he wasn't quite so full of stuff. Although if she caught a whiff of the box, it was something baked definitely.

2:17 PM

@Al the Killer

That just made her want to sniff whatever was in the box. She controlled herself though, if only because she was a human and not a dog. "Alright, you tease," she joked, taking the bag instead. It was light enough that he would have managed without her help, but she wasn't about to rescind her offer. She led the way back to the elevator and up to her flat. Since he still had to handle the box, she held the door open for him, eager to see what he had prepared for her. Although she hadn't sniffed the box, she could tell it smelled good. Some sort of dessert, possibly? "You can set the box on the dining table," she suggested, since it smelled edible. @Kain the Insane

He nodded and set it down. Helping to move the bag to the living room, he came back to the kitchen and he took her hand. Squeezing it, he opened the box and revealed a Cheesecake. A Cheesecake with cut fresh strawberries on it and some strawberry syrup. "I noticed you really liked sweets... And you seemed to like the strawberries A LOT at the party. So, I... Made this for you. It's probably not the best, but I did my best to make it really good for you..." Kain said, rubbing the back of his head with his other free hand. Next to it in the box was a candle and he nodded. They could put the candle in the cake for her to blow out if she liked the tradition. @Al the Killer

Milena let out an audible gasp as he opened the box. Strawberry cheesecake! She almost wanted to plant her entire face in it, but of course that was absurd. "It looks amazing," she told him, before drawing in a deep breath. It smelled divine, but she couldn't let herself lose track of everything else. "I'll bring down a couple of plates and forks, and a knife... are you planning to show me what's in the bag before or after we eat?" She was fine with either option, but wanted to make sure she wasn't rushing one way or another too quickly. While she waited for his answer, she walked over to the kitchen to get everything they would need for the cake, including a lighter for the candle. @Kain the Insane

"You look..." Kain smiled and he cleared his throat. Man, she looked so happy. He could feel some tears in his eyes, perhaps just because he was so happy to see the excitement she felt. "Happy. And, well, we can save that for after. It's another gift, although maybe not quite as good as you might get from others. I don't have the money to buy you something really big, but... I worked hard writing and practicing so that I could try to do something else special..." Kain nodded, looking a little embarrassed. He wished he could give her exactly what she deserved, but he couldn't quite fit the world in a box. So instead, he'd worked hard on writing for her and reawakening an old hobby his parents had made him learn. It wasn't exactly his favorite thing in the world, but it was much more special than that. It was something he hoped she would be able to enjoy and remember from now on. After all, he couldn't screw up her first birthday with them together like that.

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@Al the Killer

"I am happy," Milena assured him, then flashed him a playful grin. "And it's all your fault." Alright, not entirely. She was usually happy on her birthday, because it was one of the few days of the year that had always been a good day even when she'd spent it with her parents. "Any gift you can give me will be the best, I'm sure." She was used to getting expensive things; all she really needed now was something from the heart, and he had such a big one. Heart, that is. She set the plates on the table, before putting the candle in the centre of the cake. "Do you want to light it, or should I?" She definitely wanted to see what he'd been practicing, but he was right: it could wait. What mattered was that they were both here, in this moment, together. Nothing could ruin that. @Kain the Insane

Taking the lighter, he lit the candle and he sang her happy birthday. He wasn't the best singer, but he did a good job. And afterward he let her blow out the candle. For him, he was happy in this moment, no matter what. She made him happier than she could ever know. And he wished she could understand one one-thousandanth of how much he loved her. Words and actions could only show so much. But he sighed gently and he gave her a kiss on the cheek. "For good luck... I'll share it with you, of course, but this is all yours. And with how much I saw you liked strawberries, I'm sure you're happy with that~..." He gave a playful smile and a laugh as he let her cut herself a slice. After all, he might only have a small piece. He didn't want to eat too much of the cake, as it was her's to eat. @Al the Killer

Milena smiled as she sat down, listening to him singing. She sat still for a moment after he was finished, caught up in just how cute her boyfriend was. Then she remembered the tiny for hazard in front of her. "Oh, right!" She considered what she could wish for, but nothing came to mind. All she wanted was right there beside her. So she simply blew out the candle. "Have as much as you want," she insisted, removing the candle from the cake and setting it on a napkin. "You made it, and sharing most of it is the entire point of a birthday cake." She picked the knife up to cut it into even slices, then placed one on each plate. "So it's ours. Here." She handed one of the plates to him. @Kain the Insane

He smiled and took it gratefully. Kain then waited for her to get herself a slice before trying it. It was a bit overbaked, which was fair. Just meant it was a bit more dry and crumbly, but not enough to ruin the cake. "Hmmm... The Birthday Queen should get fed by someone. Shall I, my lady~?" Kain asked, a playful bow and a smile. It was easy to tell the difference between a happy smile and a fake smile now, as she knew him better and better. Not to mention he smiled at her so genuinely. He had his big goofy grins he could give, then that content smile where his eyes looked so deep they could swallow you up, and then his playful smile where his eyes almost seemed to sparkle in the light. But, Kain was playful for other reasons. He had plans for after this, and he was excited to see what she thought. Hopefully it would be good, and she'd really enjoy it a lot.

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@Al the Killer

Milena laughed, but nodded in agreement anyway. It was nice, seeing the way he came alive in her presence now. So different from how he used to be. And he was so lovely when he was genuinely happy. Seeing that smile was like the first taste of cool water after a mint, and she wanted to spend the rest of her life making him smile in new ways. Or at the very least, the rest of today. She opened her mouth for the first bite. A bit dry, sure, but the juices from the strawberries more than made up for it. The taste was still good, and that was what mattered. "Hm... Delicious," she said, then winked. "Almost as tasty as you~" She licked her lips to get any residual strawberry off before preparing for the next bite. They could take their time here. They had all day, after all. @Kain the Insane

"Oh yeah~ Well, maybe I can try to help make that the case next time~" He tries it, but as it comes out of his mouth, his face shrivels a bit and he shakes his head. "Nope... That wasn't very sexy at all. Oh well, I'm not very good at it I suppose..." He looks a bit sheepish and embarrassed. Although his excitement and happiness seems to deflate a bit with his attempt at flirting. It wasn't her fault, he could've just blushed and not tried to play it cool. Instead he said something cringey, which he definitely wasn't very happy to do. It annoyed him to no end that he couldn't pull it off. Mostly because she could get him all worked up with her words or even simple actions, but he never really flustered her or turned her on outside of when they were together. And even then... He pushed that down. He wouldn't let himself sink too far into his head and just shut down, as this was her birthday. He wasn't going to make this about himself. @Al the Killer

Milena fell silent, as it took her a moment to process what he was even saying. When she caught onto what he meant, she laughed a bit despite herself, then silently chided herself as she realized he was genuinely trying. "Sorry... It's fine, Kain," she assured him. "You're good at being sexy when you don't try. All you have to do is be yourself and I will remain absolutely smitten." She picked up his fork, picking up another bit of his slice of cheesecake. "Now, my turn to feed you?" She smiled, wanting to help lift his spirits a bit. She didn't like seeing him unhappy. It brought back too many bad memories of the things she'd subjected him to, and the way her friends had taken her lead then proceeded to do worse. She wanted to shower him in love and affection and be there for him so he could truly heal from what had happened, even though she knew it would take years, and the damage could never be truly undone. @Kain the Insane

He happily let her feed him, even kicking his feet a little bit with a smile on his face. He was adorable when he was like this. Honestly, it might be hard to believe he didn't have a girl who would just hug him and squish his head into her tits constantly. Love-Bombing was usually a bad thing, but he'd spent nearly 2 decades without any love. He deserved all of it. Kissing her chin gently, he took a deep breath and he looked into her eyes and blushed gently. Taking her hands, he nodded. "Happy Birthday... I love you so much... I... Am so happy I met you. I regret nothing that's happened... Because it all lead me to meet you. And..." Kain began to tear up and he cleared his throat before he took a long breath to try and fully compose himself for once. @Al the Killer

She smiled back at him, his blush reflected in her own. How lucky was she to have someone who genuinely adored her? She'd been showered with affection before, by men who wanted nothing more than access to her body. Then she'd reject them, they'd punch some drywall, call her 'an ugly bitch anyway', then move on to some poor girl more naive and fewer years above legal age. Rejection had been a great way to sift through who was or was not a safe person, even if she'd been a bit harsh with it in the past. But with Kain, it was genuine. He loved and cared for her and she knew that if she told him off, he would leave and she would regret it for the simple fact that someone she'd loved was out of her life. She squeezed his hands gently. "Thank you," she said softly. "I love you too. I'm so glad we met, every day, and this has been the best birthday gift I've ever received." Other gifts had been alright, but this came from the heart in a way that was truly rare to see. While he choked up, she let go of one of his hands so she could brush her hand against his cheek in a futile effort to wipe his tears away. "You're so perfect." She kissed his forehead. @Kain the Insane

"I'm glad you think so... But now, how about I show you my other gift. It's not much, but... I think you'll like it..." Kain slowly picked her up and carried her to her living room. Setting her on the couch, he retrieved the large bag and pulled out a keyboard from it. Blushing, he took a deep breath. "I... Well, my parents forced me to learn to play piano and keyboard. I always hated it... However, I... For once, I get to do something I enjoy. I hope you like it." Pulling out some sheets of paper and plugging it in, he begins to play the keyboard. Honestly it came out smooth, much more nimble than some would give him credit doe. Akthough she had his fingers inside her, she would know about his skill. But then he began to softly sing, this time a little more assuredness to his voice.

11:03 AM

In a great big town, Milena did dwell, A beauty unmatched by any tale to tell, With hair like spun gold and eyes of perfect hue, My heart was captured, my love so true. I first laid eyes on her in the school square, Her radiant smile, beyond compare, I knew in that moment, without any doubt, Milena was the one I couldn't live without. I courted her with flowers and poetry sweet, Promising her the world at her dainty feet, And though she was coy, she soon came to see, That my love for her was as deep as the sea. *We walked hand in hand through meadows of green, In the golden sunlight, a perfect scene, I whispered sweet nothings in her delicate ear, Telling her she was all I held dear. I love you more than anything, my dear sweet, My heart beats only for you, no one can compete, In your arms, I find peace and solace, My love for you, never to be malice. We danced under the moonlight like lovers of old, Our love burning bright, a flame so bold, Milena, my love for you will never fade, In your arms, in your embrace, my worries allayed. Through trials and tribulations, we stood strong, Facing life's challenges, where we belong, I promised to cherish you, forever and more, My darling Milena, whom I adore. I love you more than anything, my dear, In your presence, I have nothing to fear, Together we'll face whatever may come, For our love will endure, as bright as the sun. So here's to my dear Milena, my love so true, I give you my heart, my soul, all for you, I love you more than anything, my sweet dove, Forever grateful for your undying love. @Al the Killer

Milena wasn't sure what she'd expected. This wasn't it, though. She sat on the sofa once he'd set her down and leaned forward as she listened. Her face was pink as she grinned, a look of pure delight and admiration. It was too bad she was already in love with him, or else this would have been the perfect opportunity to fall in love. Perhaps she did, all over again as he sang just for her. She'd known he was a talented poet, of course. She just hadn't realized he could be a good musician, too. Her eyes were bright as he reached the end and she applauded for him, happy tears pricking at the corners of her eyes. "It's beautiful," she said. "You really are the whole package, you know that?" She had to stand up after, so she could close the distance between them and hug him tightly. "Thank you again. For everything." She reached up to pull his face down so she could kiss his chin, his forehead, both cheeks, the tip of his nose, then finally his lips. @Kain the Insane

Kain accepted the kisses gratefully, blushing as she peppered his face with them and then kissed his lips. He gladly returned her kiss, wrapping his arms around her waist as he gently squeezed her. Nuzzling his nose against her’s, he took a deep breath and leaned his forehead on her forehead gently. “Not sure if you’re a fan of We the Kings… But I know how to play one of their songs… That’s about all I can remember though…” Kain admitted with a smile and nuzzled against her. Some guys might have tried the dick in a box present or bought her some makeup or jewelry. Kain had made a cheesecake with what he thought was her favorite fruit, and written her a poem that he played music to and gently sang. Even if he couldn’t give her money, his heart, time, and effort was what he really was giving to her in the grand scheme of things. @Al the Killer

The band's name was vaguely familar. She was pretty sure she'd listened to some of their stuff when she'd been younger, before her interests had shifted to more hardcore stuff. Either way, she liked the idea of hearing more music from him. "I would love to hear it," she told him. "Oh, but first..." She hugged him tightly, holding him close to her chest. She was tempted to tease him by stuffing his entire face against her breasts, but she kept things innocent instead. For now. "After this, do you want to go out anywhere? There's an escape room place downtown that might be a lot of fun. Have you ever done one of those?" She'd enjoyed the few she'd had the chance to try before; it was always a fun puzzle for her analytical mind and, with him being the creative type, she was sure Kain would be able to get pretty into it too. What she wanted above all was to spend time with him, and to make sure they both had a good day. @Kain the Insane

"Oh fuck yes... I..." Blushing, Kain cleared his throat. It wasn't that he thought she was a slut, but he knew that yesterday had gone well. So he thought maybe after this, he'd be getting dragged back to the bedroom. And while that was fun, he had just as much fun holding her hand while they were driving... Well, in a different way. His sexual desires wouldn't be sated by that, of course. "I love that idea. You and I would make a great team. I'm sure we could absolutely crush it~" He teased. Then he switched his keyboard's mode to do guitar, and he gently sat her beside him. Playing her "Check Yes Juliet" by We the Kings. It may have been a little cringe, but he did his best to sing through it and not quit. Then he blushed and looked down. "I... Uh... Thought about maybe playing this for you as your gift. But, it doesn't really line up exactly or anything. Then I thought it would be more meaningful if I wrote it instead of just taking a song and singing it for you." @Al the Killer

Milena giggled a bit at his response. Of course, it had seemed like something he would love. "We'll do great," she agreed. "I'm so confident in that fact, I'll pick the most challenging one they've got for us." She winked, before taking her seat next to him. Even if he wasn't an amazing singer, he wasn't bad, either. She loved to hear his voice, and when it came from the heart... well, that mattered more than anything. In a personal capacity like this, sincerity was more important than talent. Back in secondary school, this was exactly the sort of thing girls her age had been daydreaming about, and now that she was actually in this situation, she could understand why the idea of it set young romantics swooning. She smiled, her heart continuing to melt with love for him with each passing moment. "It was great, but I really do prefer your song. No offense to the other guy, but you're the better songwriter, I think." She kissed his cheek, before taking a moment to rest her head on his shoulder. They didn't have to leave right away, after all. Not when they had all day. @Kain the Insane

"You jest~" Kain teased, leaning on her a bit. Holding her gently, he gave her a kiss on the cheek and closed his eyes. "You mean so much to me. I know that it's cheesy... And I know that... Other people may not be as kind as me. But you're such a beautiful soul. I've never loved someone more than you. Never seen someone more beautiful than you too... There is no way that I couldn't have fallen for you. And... I'm not sorry for loving you. I never will be..." Kain's voice was soft, but he held her hand gently and just wanted her to understand that he had forgiven her and would never be sorry for choosing her. No matter what had happened in the past, he loved her now and that wasn't changing. @Al the Killer

"I wish I had loved you sooner," Milena whispered softly, closing her eyes. That was all she would say on the matter of their past now. The pangs of guilt had lessened. Perhaps she was finally beginning to accept that she had, as many people did, made mistakes. Horrendous mistakes with horrific consequences, but he made her want to be better. To make amends, not just to him, but to everyone she had hurt. She wasn't sure how, but she could focus on that in the future. For now, she wanted most of all to enjoy his company, and his love. "But I do love you now, more than I even thought I was capable of. You are everything I could have dreamed of, and everything I never dared hope for." Tears pricked at the corners of her eyes, but there was no distress to them. Only the pure joy of knowing that she was safe here, that they had each other. @Kain the Insane

Reply to: @Milena Lovell (@Al the Killer) "I wish I had loved you sooner," Milena whispered softly, closing her eyes. That was all she would say on the matter of their pa...

"Have you... I know it's been a day, but have you, like..." Kain blushed. Man, it was a bit hard to ask. Because perhaps it would seem like a bad question to be asking in the moment. But he steeled himself and nodded gently with a sigh. "Have you... Craved or wanted... Sex again? I know we've only done it once, but I'll admit that... I craved it this morning. Intimacy, passion, you and me as one as some might say. Take of that as you will, I just... It's part of love for me. And I wanted you to know that I think about my love and need to be close to you as much as can. Multiple times a day... I... Just enjoy being with you so much..."

10:50 AM

@Al the Killer

The question was unexpected, and Milena's face warmed quickly at it. "I..." She struggled for words as her heart raced at the imagining of what he was talking about. "...I have thought about it... once or twice, while we've been separated," she admitted, looking down. And particularly right now. "Enough to know that I'm definitely attracted to you in that way. But it's a strange experience for me. I know you were probably thinking about it even before, but I'm still getting used to the idea of being attracted to anyone. The whole thing's been a bit of an identity crisis for me." She chuckled nervously, then looked over at him. "...I enjoy being with you too, though." She placed her hand over his and moved as close to him as she could manage. "In every way, body and soul." She lifted her hand to cup his cheek before kissing him, softly at first, then more insistent in her passion. @Kain the Insane

Kain quickly returned her passion. Licking her lips slightly, he was letting her subtly know that he was in the mood. If she wanted to move toward that direction. Kain's hands rubbed her back and massaged it softly. Closing his eyes, leaning his body into Milena. His face was slightly pink, but he had made up his mind. Of course he wasn't going to hold back, he wanted go let her know how passionate he was, since usually he tried to be subdued. @Al the Killer

Her lips parted slightly as she kissed him deeper. She leaned in to meet him, before slowly using her body to push his down onto the sofa. Perhaps it would have been wisest to take things to the bedroom, but they had the entire flat to themselves, and it was high up enough that she was sure they wouldn't have to worry about anyone walking by and seeing them through the window. Her hands found their spot on his shoulders, partially giving him a gentle shoulder rub, partially pinning him down. She'd seen his strength though, so she was sure he could pull away if he wanted to do so. @Kain the Insane

Kain was surprised that she held him so lovingly. Her pinning him down was surprised. Milena's hands massaged his shoulders, and he moaned into the kiss. However, he wasn't going to fail. Hell no. He began to massage her ass, his hands singing in as he passionately intertwined his tongue and her's together nice and passionately. Closing his eyes, his blood was pumping away from his brain and into his cock. Quickly it packed on size and grew larger underneath her, pressing against her pussy gently. Rubbing right between her lips. He began to use his hips to rub her pussy with his shaft as he let her domineer as much as she wanted. @Al the Killer (edited)

She could feel his reaction underneath her, even through their clothes, and her heart raced as she craved more. Their kiss muted her soft moans as she brought her hips closer to his. Their current position caused her skirt to bunch up around her thighs, making it easier for him to press against her. Soon, she broke the kiss so she could speak to him. "I want you," she whispered, before kissing his neck. She shifted slightly to let his growing erection tease against her clit. Their clothes were in the way, but the desire that had hit so suddenly brought an urgency that begged her not to waste their time fumbling with all of their clothes. She focused on the minimum, reaching down to remove his trousers. @Kain the Insane

Kain quickly moved his trousers out of the way and pulled up her skirt to remove her panties. His hands gently raised her shirt up and his lips attached to her nipples. Biting and suckling them gently as his hands moved back down to squeeze her ass. She seemed to want to take charge, so he would happily let her do just that. Although if she needed him to take back over, he could do so nice and gently. Leaning against her gently and enjoying her warmth and moans. His mind was racing, and he could feel his desire for her swelling higher and greater. Of course, that wasn't her fault, and he was making sure to control himself as best he could while he continued to grind against her to try and help stimulate her some more. @Al the Killer (edited)

She winced at the bites at first, but pleasure quickly overcame the moment of discomfort. Her lips left his neck so he could focus on her breasts, a soft moan escaping her throat. It was hard to think about much more than the way he brushed against some of her most sensitive parts, but she vaguely remembered that he liked being complimented. Which was more than easy to do right now. "You're so perfect~" she moaned, savouring the way he sucked at her breasts. Her nipples hardened in his mouth, reacting to every touch. Already, she could feel his cock getting wet with her juices, her own arousal growing with each movement of his hips. Gently, she reached down to steady his member with one hand, guiding him to her entrance. "Ready, love?" she whispered. "You'll feel so good inside of me." @Kain the Insane

Her words made his heartbeat speed up, and he felt his face flush dark red. But he wasn’t going to just let himself be embarrassed and quit pleasuring her. Looking up into her eyes as she spoke about inserting him, he moved his lips back and smiled softly. “I’m ready, Milena… My Angel Eyes. You… Make my life worth living. Before I was in hell, and I never felt good enough… But now I feel… So loved by you. I would do anything for you… Be anything for you. No matter what it takes, I… Always want to be with you.” Kain couldn’t help himself. Hopefully it wouldn’t ruin the moment for her, if so, he would beat himself up pretty badly. He just wanted her to know how much of a different she made in his life. That she had made it better just by being there. By opening up her heart to him and letting him see her true self. Someone so beautiful that she was nearly blindingly radiant. Because she was and would continue to be the center of his world going forward. @Al the Killer

She stared down at him, his words far more... Emotionally intense than she'd expected for the current situation. "I..." Her face flushed as she looked down at him. "...No fair, you're better at this than I am." Realizing how absurd that response sounded, she chuckled at herself and leaned down to kiss his lips gently before speaking again. "I love you too. So much. You've brought me joy that I never know could exist." Rather than kill the mood, it simply filled her with a greater warmth, a reminder of her fondness for him. Not only his body, but every last bit of him. She sat up and lowered herself slowly onto his cock. There was the initial sting, a bit of resistance since they hadn't done a whole lot in terms of foreplay, but once he made it between her folds, she was wet enough to make it easier. She moaned as the pleasure settled in, even though she was still keeping it gentle. "Fuck, I love you so much!" she moaned loudly, grateful that she lived in a soundproof flat. @Kain the Insane

Moaning, Kain held her hips and he blushed and closed his eyes. Perhaps he should make her feel better by making himself seem less perfect. "I'm not always perfect, Milena. I'll admit... Since we last shared ourselves, I've been craving sex. A lot. Every time I've seen you, I've wanted it... And I love you for so much more than just your body. But I'm not perfect either, because looking at you, I just... Want to let you know how much I love you. Be one with you for as long as I can manage. Squeeze you as you moan my name and ask for more..." Kain spoke softly as he looked ashamed. Of course he lusted after her, but the amount was the issue. And he knew she might be upset since she was tired of people just looking at her because her tits made any top tight and dangerously stretched. But she deserved to know that while she might struggle in some areas, he also wasn't flawless. @Al the Killer

Milena blushed as she looked down at him, trying to take in the words he was saying despite being incredibly distracted at the moment. That hardly sounded like a flaw. Perhaps she would normally have been annoyed, but for once, she had no objection. Maybe because she felt for him in a way she hadn't anyone else before. Or maybe because of the promise nested into it. To be wanted by men who didn't know her, didn't see anything more than her body and would readily discard her once they were done was different from being wanted by the one person who knew and loved her, who wanted to please her just as much as himself. "Kain," his name came out as a breathy moan. "It's fine." She had adjusted fully to his length and girth by now, and picked up her pace. "Let's just focus on satisfying both of our desires." She leaned down to kiss him, her lips passionate and hungry against his. @Kain the Insane

Kain kissed her back, just as hungry. He truly had craved her touch, their oneness. She was the one he loved more than anything and anyone else. Milena was everything to Kain, and he wanted to spend the rest of his life by her side. Thrusting up to meet hur bounces, his hands gently held her waist. Her skin was so smooth and soft, and while part of him wanted to grope her boobs, this was more intimate. Something that likely fit her birthday better than wild crazy monkey sex, right? Well, it was for her to decide, but right now, he was perfectly fine sharing a passionate kiss and thrusting as she bounced to drive his cock inside her nice and deeply to drive her crazy.

5:16 AM

@Al the Killer