Soon, she would graduate from her academy. And, having done so, devote her life to the pursuit of history, knowledge, and literature. She would write poetry, books, and plays to her heart's content. Meanwhile, she would work towards becoming a professor at some academy or another — a teacher, as it was a respectable profession for a woman her age, 23, whom was unmarried. If not a teacher, a nun would suffice, thus, as she pretended to be piteous, she could devote her life to her actual goals. She could free herself from the wheel, so to speak.
Lottie was... Lonely. Truth be told, she found more joy in the fiction of pages than the joy of her life. Her friends were few, her romantic prospects were none. Her father was a supportive man, but even he tired of her not marrying, and her Mother... Never changed. It was why, as her graduation date was to be soon, she returned to that village out in the country.
She was welcomed with so much love, so much celebration, and it all fell so nicely into place. She knew it had to be happiness, elation, joy. She smiled, she drank, and she danced. She hugged her father for the first time in a long time, and her mother... Her mother actually looked happy for once. Maybe she hadn't believed in Lottie at first, but Lottie felt as though maybe, just maybe, they understood eachother as two women stuck on the same drowning ship.
And so it was that after a long day, she decided to retire to her room, wishing everyone a good night. Her childhood room. It hadn't changed in the slightest, and she supposed that was the scariest part — the effort it took to maintain that unchanging facade. Books that were well taken care of, tucked away on their shelves. Old stuffed animals and dolls she'd never gotten rid of. A chest of old, miscellaneous items, the wardrobe for her clothes, and her bed. Everything was as it should be. She closed the door and slid down onto the floor for a few moments.
Being here was exhausting. She did it for love.